FUCKING HATE BEING TRANSGENDER

old poem of mine

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I found another dead bird.

As I leaned down to touch its lifeless tail

 (don’t worry, I washed my hands)

A man biked by, beer bottle in hand.

Riding past, he extended both arms

His wingspan swaying with the rhythm of pumping pedals.

My right arm has been itching 

This might be a metaphor for self destruction.

meat && viscera

: - )

The Magnus Archives is a show because if someone says “the episode with the guy who was having bug sex” you need to say “which one?”

also is my username attracting bots. there are a lot of bots and idk if the potential phallic-ness of cockamamie is contributing. cockamamie man just means that im a silly foolish guy. no peanitz. I can’t sleep :|

@entities-of-posts

corruption a little bit :-)

I keep mealworms so I have a reliable backup food source for the other animals but they’re surprisingly rewarding pets on their own terms. really fun to drop a piece of food into their enclosure and watch a writing mass of worms instantly envelop it and drag it under the substrate.

society if people understood that defending transition care on the basis of "improving mental health" is still not a commitment to full unfettered bodily autonomy, and in fact makes philosophical assumptions that explicitly restrict autonomy by making it contingent on normative biomedical judgments of health and best interest

"i'm not triggered or upset by or even ideologically opposed to it, i just associate it with something so bad that i can't enjoy it anymore" is such a frustrating relationship to have with a piece of media

I AM ONE MONTH AWAY FROM TOP SURGERY! 🎉 Originally I wasn’t expected to have a date set until October, but due to a cancellation, my surgery is now set for June 29th!

I am beyond excited and don’t have enough words to express just how much this means to me. However, after recently needing a month off work for my hysterectomy and having less than 3 months back before my top surgery, which will require me to take another TWO months off to recover; I am going to need quite a bit of help to afford my living expenses. I will ALSO be having to move less than 4 weeks after my surgery to a new apartment, so you can just imagine the amount of stress I am currently experiencing while I try to prepare. 😵‍💫 For a more in-depth dive of what I hope to accomplish with top surgery and a breakdown of my expenses, you can click on the link to my fundraiser below!

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i miss cutting so much but I hate the effort of hiding it. im still hiding my old scars though so maybe it doesn’t make a difference?

wish I could cut on my arm . my friend had some babycuts on her wrist today, i know she cuts but it was weird to see them out. i wish I could talk to her about it and we could be cutting buddies.

i might cut tomorrow morning, my family won’t be home.