A Beaten Old Dog

ᯓ★ PALAYE ROYALE PROMPTS, a collection of prompts / lyrics taken from palaye royale’s songs from their album, the bastards.

( mentions of possibly triggering subjects such as violence, self-harm, death and more. ) 

✦ LITTLE BASTARDS

i can’t take this. i’ve been a little patient.

i’ve got to get away a little faster.

run, you little bastards.

fake friends all around, they watch while i drown. no one is there to help me.

sometimes i’ve been losing my mind, running out of faith.

i’ve been feeling lonely, put me in my place.

so, fuck you — i don’t even like you.

no sleep, got another nosebleed. i can’t feel my face.

✦ ANXIETY

indecisions have been breaking my sanity.

retaliation when i’m full of anxiety.

a band-aid on a bullet hole that’s still bleeding.

numb you up until you can’t feel a goddamn thing.

a generation full of anti-sobriety. a generation that is full of anxiety.

all the voices in your head that keep talking.

all the blood on your skin that keeps crawling.

i was born to be anything i wanted to be, raised to be fucking mean.

i’m a masterpiece.

blasphemy meet again in a world so vicious.

mothers scream, fathers drink and all you bastards scream.

✦ TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT I DIE

lonely, another day. drowning, please save me.

i am struggling in my own daydream.

i know i can’t live much longer, hear the angels sing.

could I be a prisoner to the voices in my brain.

my mind is gone to waste, can’t stand to look at my face.

all these thoughts inside my head will be silenced by the bang.

believe me when i say tonight is the night i die.

as i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i look at you as i take my last breath.

as i die and fall to the floor, my pain and suffering is no more.

✦ LONELY

my life don’t mean that much to me so i’m living for you.

and you can’t stand the sight of me so what’s the point of this fucked up catastrophe?

i pop these pills to waste some time as i’m fading.

too lazy for a suicide, i just watch the days pass hoping to die.

daydreaming of my funeral — like who would show, bet no one would go.

hey dad, would you show up for me now? just to bury your little boy in the ground.

you broke my heart when you left me.

so sick and tired of being alone. so long, farewell — i’m on my own.

i dug this grave i call my home.

✦ NERVOUS BREAKDOWN

twist the knife just a bit further.

don’t look at me — i think about murder.

i think i’m about to explode. i think i’m goin’ to have a nervous breakdown.

start to feel myself panic again and all the blood rushes to my head.

you say you love me but you still left me — i guess that’s why i hate myself.

you say it’s over but you’re still calling — i guess that’s why i live in hell.

my brain has been fucked enough. please, stop wasting all my thoughts.

cut my throat and please let me go.

✦ MASOCHIST

’cause i’ve been craving your sweet haven.

so i keep turning while your body burns to the ground.

don’t try to tell me that i should go softly.

just look me in my eyes and feed me your sweet lies.

i’ll cut through your alibis.

hang a cross upside down. your church is burning down.

just take me for the night.

✦ BLACK SHEEP

do you see what i’ve become? why are you still holding on?

something lingers in my veins, that’s telling me i’m not the same.

i am sinking now. the water’s over my ears and i can’t hear no sounds.

scream out or drown — can you hear the voice say now?

go home and back to sleep, and count the black sheep. 

go on away from me, i am the black sheep.

you said it’s all in my head, you said it’s all in my brain.

there’s nothing left that you can say to me.

i am everything you hate.

i am unwanted, i’m not the answer. you were hoping that i’d change.

you push me down once again because i seem different.

✦ STAY

i see you for what you are

it’s something in your eyes that look past my scars.

where do you go when you leave in the night? ‘cause i see those teary eyes.

i am the only hope for you and you are the only hope for me, too.

i just wanted you.

so stay this time. don’t go away.

the end is near, i really don’t want to know.

it’s haunting me to watch you go.

✦ REDEEMER

can’t you see that everyone is dying?

the animals are crying, religions are dividing as my family keeps on fighting.

now i’m caught in something — my eternal suffering.

looking for the meaning of it all but i got nothing.

don’t know where i’ll go when i die, must be better than this.

ain’t it sad when you got nowhere to go? got no place to call your home. burden to everyone you know.

i try just not to think about my life so i do another line. it keeps me numb just for the night.

and i’m here just waiting for you to come home.

and i’m screaming all on my own with the revolver and a note.

will you please pick up the phone? will you please come back home?

one two doodle

This was vaguely inspired by someone else but I forgot who

im slowly getting sucked into this ship

“I report starving people cause they asked me for money”

kill yourself you disgusting lazy fascist colonizer asshole

You're fucking delusional if you think starving people have BOT accounts. The ones that send me messages and that do not listen to the fact that my blog says in 3 different places NOT to send me those requests, have ALL been spam accounts. That dumb shit cunts like you give real money to instead of doing anything of any actual value to give ANY relief to anyone from Palestine.

The fact that people like you exist, so up yourself that I am pretty sure you just mainline your own shit for breakfast, insisting that ALL these Palestinian blogs with stolen photos and who do NOTHING but post all day, and you go to a twitter account that also used those same pictures and they are something posting multiple times per minute but you wanna give them grace?

Do what the fuck you want with your money, but I think actually swallowing every nickel and penny you find is a better use of your time AND money than sitting here and defending bot accounts that no one is really attached to.

Nothing says "born a fuckwit and I'll DIE a fuckwit" more than that. Peace.

Edit: actually the fact that some of you guys give the girlfriend experience to these bots SO MUCH that I saw a list of "verified" tumblr users being shared that absolutely and unequivocally included impossible bot accounts is wild. Y'all will do anything other than give your money to a charity who can actually help people in Gaza.

What type of games would Bps members enjoy, like out of puzzle games, point and click, adventure, horror, interactive novel, platformers? Maybe some tabletop, like monopoly or dnd? Idk, i got my Mark would be a Sonic fan headcanon stuck so hard that i need to ask.

I could see that, Sonic the Hedgehog 2 was out in 1992, which was like Sonic 1 but better. Since the BPS members were teens around the late 1990s to early 2000s, their favorite series would probably be whatever came out in the late 1990s to early 2000s. I could see Sarah and Evelin as being more fantasy JRPG types, like Final Fantasy and/or Dragon Quest. Adam is giving me hardcore horror game fan, and Silent Hill 2 as well as Resident Evil 4 came out during this era so it was a golden age for early modern horror. Jonah seems like he'd like PvP games of any kind, but particularly Mortal Combat or (every classic gamer boy's favorite) Call of Duty.

subtle acts of love

giving them food without them asking for it

randomly bringing them flowers

holding a door open for them

pulling out their chair for them

guiding them with a gentle hand on the small of their back

making them lunch to take to work with them

fixing their clothes or hair

giving them a massage

talking casually about a shared future

showing them their appreciation for them

waiting at home to say hello when they come in

paying complete attention to them

giving them a casual, but thoughtful compliment

writing them a love letter and hiding it for them to find

showing them something that reminded them of their partner

humming a song to calm them down

giving them a quick kiss whenever they pass each other at home

casual grabbing their hand and swinging it back and forth

remembering something they told them

saving myself from pain next time I draw a background

Trying to draw buildings

what the fuck do you do if you find yourself simping for random hot women on the internet god damn i saw this one tiktok where a girl was asking which Arcane character she should cosplay as and when she transitioned to having some sort of mullet-like short hair i said OUT LOUD "oh god she's hot" and this only happens to women btw like its never men too

They both panicked 😔

This is actually so interesting my god

love you OP

How come semi trucks in Europe look like “toot toot :)” and in North America they look like “HONK HOOOOOOOONK >:|”

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