Hunger Is A Measure Of When You Should Eat Not How Much You Should Eat.

what day even is it

you could've sworn i was recovered with the way easter has me breaking my fast 10 hours earlier with super-sized chocolate bunnies

Petra Collins’ high school aesthetic photography changed my brain chemistry

best workout combo

for an hourglass, thigh gap definition and smaller wrists ♡

4 sets of 20 reps of weighted russian twists

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlmhc2DMp8w THIS VIDEOO BLESS HER HEART

these r the only things that made my waist and legs shrink soo much

ive been doing the workout almost daily since September n the twists since jan, those r perf for flattening ur belly

it takes motivation but u will feel so good after finishing this

40 hour fasts are not for me bc tell me why i woke up with my heart beating so fast i thought i was having a heart attack 💔

horrible experience i will be trying again soon

I went grocery shopping with my dad and stepmom today and all I could think about was what I’m going to buy when I’m older

recovery will never be an option i fear

i’m so destroyed mentally that i’ll just feel worse if i fix my relationship w food bc i’ll still be lacking everywhere else in my life

i’ll always be anxious, a people pleaser and terribly jealous of everyone else

haii if anyone has some mango mealspo cuz i recently got some i would love to hear it ty :33

tw long ana rant

i’m so pissed off rveruday is a battle to convince myself that i need help, that i’m not a wannarexic, that my body is normal maybe a little skinny, that it’s not abt what i eat but how i think but i can’t fucking believe ANYTHING

i can’t thr0w up to save my life i can’t relate when ppl say “i could never eat all that” bc ik damn well i could. i could eat that entire plate and still be hungry for seconds. for desert.

no matter how many times i remind myself i’m literally -ving, that i’m weak and knee-deep into this ed i can’t believe it

bc i don’t look sick enough. no one can tell i’m fucked up except for my friends who probably know by now. only they know i refuse to eat yet the second i break my fast i’ll gorge on anything near me.

not all of my bones are showing yet, only the normal ones that every skinny person alr has.

no matter how many hours i’ve fasted i’ve never fainted once. sure, maybe i’ve come close to that at times but that still means no one will ever know bc they’ve never seen me do it.

every time i come into school it’s the same bullshit every. single. day i’m so tired of it

i see thinspo in all of my classes and they all wish they weren’t skinny, talking abt how they wish they looked healthier or smth

“i skipped breakfast this morning bc i forgot/wasn’t hungry”, “stop i eat sooo much idk how i’m so skinny!”, “we’re such big backs for eating chips”

SHUT UPPP

who the hell loses their appetite when they’re stressed. who loses their appetite at ALL and why does it never happen to me whether i’m binging or -ving???

when i move out i’m gonna have a big fridge full of nothing

. ݁₊ ⊹ . my motivation :

- the th-gh gap

- the flat tummy and visible r-bs

- more attention

- "how'd you do it?"

- "you look sick..."

- being smaller than everybody i hate

- so people care more about me

- so the smallest size won't fit

- won't have to worry about if a size is too small

- i'll look good no matter my outfit

- can have a bad mood without being seen as 'b¡tchy'

- won't feel so bad on lazy days

- won't feel like a w@nn4r3x¡c and actually feel valid

- to be 'iconic' th-nsp0

- family member / friend reactions

* i'll be adding more ♡ :)