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the cure to all sadness is indulging is nostalgic content nobody can prove me otherwise

Calibrating

So far in the school year, things have been alright- balancing the APs I’m in has taken some time, but overall, things seem just fine.

I’m still trying to make a proper schedule for myself to follow, finding a lot of trouble when trying to actually stick to it. Maybe I just need motivation? Feels like I’m trying to get ahold of all this too late. It’s alright, though- at least I didn’t leave this until university.

My blog’s been looking pretty blank recently. In my free time, I’m thinking of adding a little gallery and maybe a music player? 

I’ll see if I can actually put something of this sort into my blog sometime soon- but no promises, especially since I’m still not sure how to manage my time TT

<3Caramel

/silly <3<3

PFFF BAHHAHAA I REALLY NEED TO GET OFF THIS SITE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDIES

This made my day, thank you <3

Got damn!!!

I wonder what will happen if I actually try to put some effort into my appearance.

Feeling so bad about myself on the regular, it shouldn’t be too much of a risk, right?

Mostly I just want to look presentable day to day

Who knows?

Winter Celebration Art #2

It's been getting colder where I live lately-- despite the painful wind chill, I'm excited to jump into banks of snow on the sides of the road.

can i come over and play for 10000 years

Heart

I keep considering getting into writing. Ever since I was little, it’s been a thing that my sister and I have been decent at. She’s gone full send already, working on getting her book published- but I feel like I’d do better in multimedia projects.

You know, things with spacing, aura, timing? Instead of trusting your reader not to speed through and not feel a single thing.

Augh, whatever- it’s always been an option, and I guess it’ll stay that way. More of a skill than a job in this world anyways.

After a boring day studying at home, I got taiyaki from the nice lady outside the supermarket, and drew a little bit.

...does it count as vent art when the picture is happy? I feel like all my stress art looks sweet and unbothered.

But in reality, I'm so stressed, my last exam is tomorrow... (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠) Don't cry yet, please..!

Personal stuff and organization

This is the first blog style post I've made in a while, huh?

I've recently gotten a lot more organized since I've gotten a bed with storage underneath. This one's from Ikea, so it'll be really nice quality compared to what I've had before.

Plans for the summer consist of three summer courses, organizing my things, and planning a project I've been referring to as Project A. Originally, my family was planning to go to Disneyland in the US during the summer- but the economy really sucks right now so we need to cut down on our spending a lot- so we're thankfully going to be spending less.

Sometimes it feels like my sister and I are the ones mose scared of the way my mum handles money- we get that she grew up without much and is now feeling a lot more safe about spending, but it seems impossible to convince her that we don't need to spend money to be happy. God, why are financial problems so complicated? This really sucks :/

I'm glad that we're not going all that far, though, since for one, we're finally cutting down on our spending for trips and excess items and meals, and second of all, we're just not going out too much anymore. Perfect for a homebody like myself with a ton of projects to do over the summer, right?

On the topic of projects, I feel like I've been latching onto Project A so tightly because it seems like the one dream I have that actually feels possible and that I'd be extremely happy with. Not going to talk abou it much on this blog until I'm sure I'm going to be doing it, though.

Another "project" of mine is basically to pretend to be that one Chinese kid that's on top of things and productive- you know, the colour-coded candy-powered note-taking kid with all the highlighters and gel pens.

I've actually gotten some more progress on that dream, too- having sorted together all my paper, binders, and letter writing materials to slip into one of my bed drawers.

Looking pretty good- almost like I've got this little itty-bitty part of my life organized.

My mood's been really rocky as of recent- not like I'm feeling sour all the time but mood swings are definitely what's been up lately. Sucks, really, but I'll get over it. Social issues and miscommunication is what's been bothering me, but I think I'm at the end of that tunnel now as far as I can see.

Thankfully, I've gotten some really great friends that are absolutely wonderful to me and really just sweet.

I'll be okay.

<3Caramel

Though I don't like the sun, I miss when the days were warmer