jing yuan's family
the r:1999 community/fandom is SO artistic, it really makes me wanna get into the game again.
i haven't SERIOUSLY played it since 1.3 ? 1.4 ? it's been a good while. i still love the game ofc bcus of how actually stunning it is, but i'm just not motivated to play it!!!! ヽ(´□`。)ノ
like the game is so pretty. the fanart is so pretty. the devs actually care about the fucking game... n it's one of those games that doesn't require much more than an hour of your time!!! so if i wanna play it so bad, & it won't take me long, why am i so demotivated to play it,,, ╥﹏╥
i've lived always being so... scared? to actually express myself? in conversation or groups, i would almost never share anything about myself or how i felt unless it related to the topic at hand.
i've been trying to break out of that recently. mostly in the form of sharing myself in these spaces dedicated to doing so, even if it gains no traction whatsoever.
cus the point isn't for fame or attention, it's to just express yourself & get it out there. to contribute to the human experience & further prove how immensely unique we all are.
naturally i'm not the best at it yet. i still need to express that sentiment in some spaces. reach out to a few people, at least to show that my door is open. then let them do with that what they will.
i'm trying to be at least a little more peaceful in my life. to actually enjoy my solitude, instead of just enduring it like it's a 3 month long interlude.
xx, m :p
INSANE bnha brainrot but it makes me actually so joyful