I Just Attempted To Shift And Wanted To Get My Thoughts Out.

The menstrual cycle and letting go

my thoughts and confessions about how periods relates to shifting; nothing is fact

The gel began to warm up against my skin, the blanket covering my chest shielded me from the man giving me the ultrasound. The stick poked at my side, under my breast and then the place where my spleen should have been; I wasn’t born with one. This happens a lot when you come out with a heart defect. The nurse wasn’t looking for a baby but for the beats of my own heart. He sounded embarrassed whenever he told me to move positions or when he left the room, so I could change into a gown. His nature reminded me of when I was in middle school and a boy would agonizingly ask me out because of a dare. After it was done, I peeled the stickers off my body, wiped the gel away, got dressed, and made my way to the room where I was supposed to wait for my doctor. Like usual, the wait was longer than the interaction. She told me everything looked fine, I was healthy, and asked if I was getting regular exercise. After a monotonous conversation about figure skating, my mother's voice chimed in, asking about an IUD.

 Several months ago, I was debating getting one to prevent my period. I get very emotional during my period; it’s all very painful. I scripted them to be very light in my realities, so I wouldn’t have to deal with the tough parts. I was wondering why I still wanted to keep it; I notice many don’t. But I noticed that all my life my view on bleeding was that of a burden. I laughed alongside other women who cursed Eve's name, I groaned with my mother whenever she was on hers, and I never considered the reasons for tracking it. I never looked at it in any positive way.

A month or two ago, the feelings it brought were so heavy the moment I stood, I felt every emotion that I had been burying in me the days prior release from my thighs; I was so sore, like I would crumble. I lay down and cried. Then I started to notice that when I bleed I could feel all the things I’ve held onto leave my body, physically and emotionally. It’s when I noticed this I stopped being shameful of my period and started welcoming it.  Tiny rant: I realized I had a negative view of my period because of the many men who deemed it as sinful and disgusting; something that women should be ashamed of. I didn’t even realize this, and this is coming from someone who regularly deconstructs societal norms; that's how ingrained it was in my mind..sigh 

Before I started regularly shifting, I often held grudges. I never let go of anything anybody ever did to me; good or bad. Now I am not saying that you won’t shift if you do this; I am talking about myself personally. I had heard of the term letting go here and there. In the title of posts I liked to bookmark for later but never actually read, and in Reddit posts about how it changed the way they view shifting. But I never really understood what they were talking about. I had read about this girl who used her dreams to discover her blockages and such, but I didn’t have any intention of working on that. Because frankly, I didn’t think I had any. Ironically, that night I had two dreams about two people wronging me. 

One dream was with my biological father, he was very abusive. After his yelling and hitting, I ran away, climbed a highway wall and ended up walking along a dried-out river taking photos along the way. At the end of the dream, I was talking with my mom in the car. 

The other dream was with my stepfather. My mother was ignoring me and dismissing the fight. In this dream, I acted like a child alongside him. I was screaming like a toddler, throwing a fit because I wasn’t getting what I wanted. I don’t even remember what we were fighting about. But I had woken up from that dream realizing that they only mattered if I had put my energy into them. The problem was fixed when I didn’t pay mind to it, but it remained when I engaged with it. That's when I got it. Letting go isn’t about forcing yourself to forget–it’s about not engaging. I used to have an opinion on these things, but now they’re just people I once knew. When a thought about them pops up, I don’t fight it or feed into it. I just let it come and go. For me, letting go is refusing to dwell on shit that doesn’t matter. You’re choosing to step into a new reality, so why waste energy on one that doesn't serve you? 

It seems to relate, if you think about it in a poetic way. The moment I started understanding what was happening to me during my period, I also understood how my emotions were holding me back. It’s that stage of letting the emotions flow out and then be done with it. Be with them and let them go on their way. I see my period differently than before. I sat on the couch with my mom, it was early, we were the only ones awake. It was when she was talking about how her period came early I interrupted saying I changed my mind; I don’t want an IUD.  It’s natural, my body lives by the phases it produces so why would I want to stop it? Now, I felt that stopping it would do more harm than good, like I wouldn’t have the chance to let go of anything. That all of my burdens would be stuck in my thighs feasting on my legs refusing to let me walk. My grudges that stayed in place long before those two dreams prevented me from the best outcome in this reality. When I started putting my energy into better things instead of past events I received an apology and finally parted ways with another. 

Whenever I have a negative or positive thought about past grievances I don’t fight or feed into it, I let it come and move on. Don't dwell.

Hi! I’ve been trying to shift for awhile and havent and I’ve been thinking it’s cause I always think about the next day in my cr when I’m trying to shift do you have any tips for like fixing that?!

Think about the next day in your dr instead, try and meditate on your dr and moments that happen there. Seems like you answered your own question lol

i love your account. that’s all! sending love x

this is so sweet! Thank you!!

i've got a question! many shifting advice i see say it's okay to let ur mind relax and wander so you don't build up resistance during an attempt. however, ppl also say that the reason ur not shifting is bc ur simply saying ur affirmations and going to sleep.

i'm conflicted here bc aren't those contradictory?? how am i supposed to drift into sleep (and wake up in my dr) without it just being me 'saying affirmations and rolling over'.

i hope this didn't sound too confusing lol! it's a bit of a puzzling thought to write out as well

The people that say "you're not shifting because of ___" are slow and don't know how shifting works. Please do not listen to them. The only thing you need for shifting is an awareness. If you have an awareness you can be aware of anything you want. I find that letting my mind wander helps me relax. Whenever I meditate I focus on one thing, breathing, a noise, how my body feels, etc. I choose one thing to calm my mind and start there and I let my mind wander.

You can shift however you want, If you want to use the method of saying affirmations and rolling over go ahead! The only reason people say that won't work is because they believe that it won't.

I'd also add that I think shifting is more popular with younger people becuase a number of reasons:

Older people often have a strict outlook on the world, the idea of being aware of a different consciousness would not align with how they have been taught to live. Most young people have seen how poorly that outlook can have, then become more open minded. And because of what the world is turning into today a lot of young people would want an escape from that.. Hopefully this makes sense 

I know it's kinda stupid question, but does our age in this CR matter while shifting, I am above 30 years of age and only see shifters who are at most 22-23 years of age and it kinda makes me feel left and makes me think that shifting is not for me or lets say not as easy as for me as it is for them ☹️.

No question is a stupid one don’t worry.. Your age doesn’t matter at all!!! You can shift whenever wherever ! Mentally I would say I’m around 27 and I shift how I’ve always have. You can shift no matter what as long as you have an awareness. I promise it won’t change anything. :)

I mean think about there are infinite realities and in those there are people who are shifting when they are thousands of years old.. Nothing will stop you.

hi !! i hope you’re having a good day ^^

I hope this doesn’t take much up your time or upset you in any way. If anything I say sounded stupid or a waste of time, I am terribly sorry!!

So this question has been stuck in my head for quite some time now. How come when we shift our subconscious into another reality, it takes time. However, when we are in our desired reality, a “safe word/action” or even intention is enough for us to shift back into our current reality. So if we are in our desired reality, is it possible that it may take longer to shift back to our current? even maybe get stuck in it?

Thank you in advance for taking your time to read this !!

Hii ! Thank you so much :)

I think it's the mindset that we have in this reality. We have lived our whole lives here from birth so we are used to it. The same thing happens if you shift to a dr and spend your whole life there. I shift to certain places where I grew up/lived a long life in quicker than others. All it could take for me to shift to one of these lives is just re-playing a memory or simply thinking about it because I am so attached there.

I don't think you could ever get stuck in any reality.

space stalker dr

I wanted to info dump about some of the lore about my space dr; specifically some of the planets.

If you want to know the basics about this dr click here.

Adu - a water planet on the out skirts of the aven system

Endless oceans stretch as far as the eye can see, scattered with islands, sky-high towers, and diverse culture. Reaching towards the heavens, Adu's towers are feats of engineering that serve as hubs for goverment and avation. Most of the towers house airship docks, control centers, and residential quarters for workers. Hundreds of docking platforms accommodate airships of all types. These docks are equipped with maintenance facilities, fueling stations, and cargo handling systems. Below, adu holds a network of submerged structers. These underwater buildings are desinged for research, mining, and sea exploration. These facilites are near the few islands adu has. The islands hold most of the citizens and travlers-allthough some travlers could be coming for work and staying in one of the many avation buildings.

major exports; water, ore, starships,

Major imports; Foodstuff, tech, workers

Background: Adu was one of the first planets to help form the Aven allince. It also helped build the space stalker guild. Many companies invest in groups of bounty hunters, imploying them by giving them a home and monthly pay. Of course the pay does vary from hunter to hunter, it all depends on how much criminals you bring in. Adu supplies many ships for intersteller travel as well.

Feel free to ask any questions! All art by John Harris.

Haii I've always thought that shifting was about shifting your consciousness to another reality yk, bc of the multiverse. But I've seen people that either believe the consciousness theory, multiverse or 4d separately. What do you believe from your experience? And do you have a dr that you've "made yourself"? Like it isn't a show or movie form here. ^_^

Hii! I'm gonna be honest, I don't know what any of the theories in this community are. I just do my own thing haha.. I personally believe that you are shifting your awareness to another consciousness.

I have a lot of drs that I've scripted myself! I only shift to a couple of tv shows/movies here. But I mostly go to my "own" places. Recently, I've been scripting for a bunch of different better crs. I plan to permashift soon and live those out as well as re-live some other lives.

hey girlie! hope you're doing well<3 also, love the new blog theme♡

i read this post (https://www.tumblr.com/hrrtshape/782835465002926080/read-this-if-youre-confused-about-persistence-if?source=share) by hrrtshape recently...

do you think that our reality not changing 'instantly' depends upon whether we're fully committed to our consiousness/accept it as a fact or not? putting aside all the desperation, etc, after you're certain that you've shifted in your mind?

I just wanted to get your views on this because tbh I may or may not have understood her poetic prose ;(

thank youuuu!!!🫶🏼🎀 lots of love!!!!!

Hii, I hope this makes sense, it might sound like something everybody has said already but then again thats just the shifting community so who cares, also thanks !

Also this might not make any sense at all.. actually fuck the human language for not allowing me to communicate my abstract thoughts about reality and how time works….I wish I were telepathic.

Quantum mechanics tells us that particles can be in several places at once. If the particles can be in several places at once and we are made up of these particles we should be able to be in several places at once as well. This is were Hugh Everett proposed his many worlds theory, stating that wave functions never collapse. ( stay with me ) Collapse implies that the other states in super position disappear, so that only one position remains. This would be the idea that there is only one true reality, this one that you are experiencing, but with many more theories coming out about how reality works that notion becomes more distant.

The many worlds theory suggests that there is a third level of parallel realities you can experience by making certain choices. Now you can say his many-worlds theory was widely ignored for his time, and you would be correct, but recently it has caught attention of the physics community. I'm not saying that Everett was right about everything and that is theory is the "manifesto" of how we perceive reality but it can certainly be a jumping point of understanding.

Small changes in our thinking can lead to different outcomes. I've had certain realities relay what my mind has picked up, I've noticed that even though you think you are in a stagnant period relating to shifting your mind is still projecting what you are thinking onto the world. For example, many of my dreams are just jumbled non sense of what I do and think throughout my day. Same goes for realities I shift to, even though I haven't experienced certain situations it still shows up.

We don't know a lot about the mind, and (to an extant) we don't know why the mind tends to delay things; learning, developing mental blocks, etc.

Take a piece of paper, look at it fully and imagine that its your consciousness in its entirety. At the top of the paper, measure a centimeter then take your pencil and draw a line horizontally all the way across. See? Thats a sliver of the paper ( your consciousness ) Thats about all you are using. Only that tiny bit is what we are aware of at this moment.

Ever single human has a different way of being aware. Thats why so many people shift in different ways. Its the levels in which you think that make up what you are ware of.

For example, one persons way of shifting could be pacing around in their room daydreaming about their dr and thats how their mind understands shifting, thats how their mind knows when to shift. Another person could use the method between being awake and being asleep to shift and thats how their mind discerns this reality from another.

Our brain is stubborn, fulling accepting something as fact is one thing, being fully aware is another. Desperation or any of the such will not stop you from shifting.

Ok so, to dumb it down, there is no past, there is no future, the only true thing is what you experiencing now - and with the concept of shifting you can choose to experience anything you'd like. The essence of being where you are is deciding what you are aware of. Whenever I shift It feels like smooth, like your in the zone of flowing thoughts, it comes in this abstract state of awareness.

im done looking at this obsidian doc I have three months of homework i need to finish by june so this is all you are getting from me so sorry, ( i have no idea how emma does all that I have so much respect for her )

hey quick question if thats alrighty? lately ive been kinda worried my dr isnt "real". My worries lately are "I can shift but for some reason I cant shift to my dr" beacuase its fictional. could I have a little help w this it would be appreciated!!

Hi,

So, I had this problem too a while back and there is a few solutions I can give you !

My personal opinion is that everybody's drive for anything is their emotions. Connecting your feelings to your dr is a very solid way to shift. What helped me the most was adding emotion to my dr, I would day dream about it and try my best to feel what it would be like to be in that situation or moment. You aren't just a place holder in your reality, you are apart of it - the one perceiving it.

Thinking about how others view you as well. When ever I shift to certian drs I like to think in my s/o's point of view. (you can do this with any one.) And I mean, I really try and think like them, inner monolog and all.

Another option would be taking a step back and take a break from thinking about that dr. Once you come back your brain will be refreashed and you can look at it with new eyes.

I know sometimes our brains like to give us bumps in our thinking, but I can assure you that your dr is real. And you can definitely still shift even if you have that mindset, but I hope you can overcome it!