Update: found the term, you were correct!
Here's the link to what I found (link)
Itโs so great to see anothe polymorph/shapeshifter who also has MaDD (I think the term for those is Xenreve if Iโm not mistaken?)
May I ask about your kin experience while also having MaDD?
I don't know, maybe? To be fair I didn't know there was a term for that-
I'll look into it though, so if anyone has links-
It's a bit special, because I'm pretty sure I was a dog therian before anything else, but now it's shifted to being my main form as a shapeshifter.
I've daydreamed for as long as I can remember, and I don't mean the normal amount obviously: it's always been, and still is, a coping mechanism for me, dare I say the one I default too (art is a close second though, and I often mi the two).
As a note, my daydreaming hasn't been maladaptive for the last few years, but I still say I have madd. It's chronic the way I see it: if I'm not careful, it could become pathological again. Now i don't have to be careful all the time, but when I feel particularly bad I have to consciously use other ways to cope along with daydreaming, otherwise it still has a tendency to take over.
I like saying that until a few years back, I was fully living in my head. I had pretty much no life outside of my daydreams. And living fully in your daydreams for that long has had some interesting effects on my psyche and identity.
I've come to realise that I lived through my paraself because of multiple reasons, the main one being masking and being terrified to stop.
I mask way less now, and that's led to me feeling like my paraself, except reverse isekai'd: I barely have any memories outside of my daydreams until the years I "got out of my head", so it feels like being dropped from my world, the one I lived in 95% of the time, into this one.
Since my world is very much full of magic, there's a lot that didn't quite transfer to this body.
In source, I'm a shapeshifter. My constels and main forms are linked to this too: they're the forms I liked to take the most and the things I was and/or related to.
Now I also used to have magic. I could heal with it and create illusions. (I could also bend the elements a bit, but healing and illusions were my main ones).
I discovered earlier in childhood here witchcraft and forms of healing, and I've edged around it for a while (the healing methods, I've been practising witchcraft in this verse ever since I discovered it), but this year I've started learning to heal! It's not quite how it worked for me, but it's similar enough that it makes me really happy to be able to do so again.
For the illusion part, I've found performance arts the closest thing to it. I used to incorporate my magic into my art a lot, and I feel very connected to Everything when I'm performing, it's really euphoric.
That's all I can think about for now ahah, but I might reblog this with additions if I think of any ^^
In any case, thank you so much for the ask anon!! I love yapping and this was such an interesting and lovely question to answer <3
hello! im too scared to come off anon but i think your blog is so awesome :3
Hi! No worries no worries ^^
Thank you so much, it means a lot ๐ฅบ๐
OMGGGS thank youuu I love long uquizzes!!!!!!!!
Good gods that was such a beautiful experience!! Literally gave me chills. Thank you whoever created this quizz, thank you op for startng this chain, and thank you @lifenconcepts for tagging me <3 /g
UT!Kai as a pony!
Open tag ^^
Missing out on the clothing but yeah thatโs me ๐ฅ๐ฅ
@caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @milanesa-con-matecocido
๐: Would you rather carve pumpkins or paint them? Both!! I never got the chance to do either and I'd love to try!
๐ป: Have you ever had a paranormal experience? (Ghost, poltergeist, demon, etc) A few! I might go more in dept into that in another post if I get the spoons
๐: What is your absolute favorite Halloween costume you've ever worn? Probably the closet cosplay of Beetlejuice I improvised in 2019 or the skeleton I did- I just wore a gothic outfit and painted bones on my skin basically, but I really liked my skull make-up!
๐: What is your favorite part about the Halloween season? The spiritual aspect, the horror movies (not all of them though), the spooky aesthetic in general ^^
๐: Do you like pumpkin pie? If not, what's your favorite pie? I don't like the taste of pumpkin in general- I like most fruity pies tbh, but I think my favourite would be a simple berry pie.
๐ป: What's your favorite Halloween treat? (Caramel apples, candy corn, a certain chocolate bar, etc!) I'd love to taste caramel apples, but I've never had the chance! I usually get the weird Halloween candy like the eyeballs and all though!
๐: What is your favorite movie to watch during spooky season (or your favorite scary movie)? I love binging Over the Garden Wall!! Perfect mix of cosy autumn and eerie Halloween vibes! I also like trying to watch new horror movies while staying in my limits- though I have to figure out where it is for gore still This Halloween season I'm planning to watch Scream and make my lover discover the second It movie (I made her discover the first one last year and we didn't get the chance to watch the second one together yet)
๐ฏ๏ธ: Do you prefer haunted houses or haunted mazes? Both! I'm pretty easily scared but I love being a scare actor and I do love scaring myself so i love doing this kind of stuff!
๐งช: Do you like Halloween movies like HalloweenTown and Twitches? If so, what's your favorite movie in that genre? I've not seen either actually! From what I'm seeing it's a bit like the Christmas movies I used to watch as a kid but for Halloween?? I had no idea that this genre existed and I'm definitely going to give it a try!
โ๏ธ: An iconic Halloween / spooky season memory of yours? I usually go to tale walks, where you go for a little walk and along the way meet actors that tell a story along with scare actors; or I go to spooky or esoteric markets if I can find some!
๐ฎ: Have you ever been to a costume party? Do you like them (or think you would)? I don't think I have! I'd love to though! I love dressing up and frankly, dancing and playing around with characters seems like a good time!
โข๏ธ: What's your favorite "campfire" scary story? Not sure I rememeber any!
๐: What's your favorite 'autumn flavor'? (Pumpkin spice, caramel apples etc FLAVORED things) I don't think I've ever tried pumpkin spice, but I'd like to! Otherwise, I don't think I usually have this kind of stuff.
๐ฆโโฌ Collecting stuff (dice, lps, plushies, notebooks, stickers)
๐ถ Shake my feet to wag my tail
๐ถ Blep
๐ถ Lovingly biting (lightly)
๐ฝ Pretend I'm normal and human (doing so less & less tho! /pos)
๐ฝ Using what I know in psychology and about the person I'm talking to to navigate social situations
๐ถ๐ฆ Shake shake shake
๐ฆ๐ฆโโฌ๐ฝ Mimicking sounds and phrases
๐ถ๐ฆ๐ฆโโฌ Communicate with little sounds
Jumping in ^^
Decided to make my paraself from my Universe Traveler paracosm ^^
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty
@milanesa-con-matecocido
๐ฆโโฌ Collecting stuff (dice, lps, plushies, notebooks, stickers)
๐ถ Shake my feet to wag my tail
๐ถ Blep
๐ถ Lovingly biting (lightly)
๐ฝ Pretend I'm normal and human (doing so less & less tho! /pos)
๐ฝ Using what I know in psychology and about the person I'm talking to to navigate social situations
๐ถ๐ฆ Shake shake shake
๐ฆ๐ฆโโฌ๐ฝ Mimicking sounds and phrases
๐ถ๐ฆ๐ฆโโฌ Communicate with little sounds
Sagittarius (sun), pan & demi rose, I drink more coffee bc it makes my thoughts clearer but I love both equally
if ur lgbt im curious: pls rb with ur sign, orientation and if ur a coffee or tea person
This is today's mood for starting aromatherapy lessons ๐
@sun-uwu-kong @sillycyan (no pressure as always tho)
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@lifenconcepts do it :)
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