Forever is the sweetest con. she/her Gaylor | DnP | The 1975| gravity falls
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Dorm- 01/06/24
I moved into my dorm today and it is 10pm and i'm sitting on my couch in my childhood home playing mario kart with my family cause I couldn't stop crying cause I had so much anxiety (I also had a tummy ache, also from anxiety). luckily I live 35 minutes from my dorm and my first class is on monday. I will, unfortunately, have to go tomorrow so I have a bit of a tummy ache about that but I don't have to leave my dorm cause my class is online. I think that this last day at home as helped a lot and I'm less anxious, there's also the fact that I will be home in 3-4 days (wednesday or thursday) since all but 2 of my classes are online- the wonder life of a baking & pastry arts student, all but my lab days are online. there was also the fact that I got my room changed last minute cause I wasn't with my original rommies that was sent via email like 2 weeks ago! they gave us the others emails so we can start connecting and they changed it! I don't do well with change (and moving houses was already SUCH a big change) that it completely threw me off. its a good thing that their just down the hall from me.
I was (and still slightly am) so embarrassed about coming home after move in day cause no one was going home and I am 19, I should be able to stay on my own. I think I have separation anxiety from my parents, Even as a child I was terrified to stay on my own. I was like 10 and I had a sleepover at my grandma's house and I had to go home at like midnight because I was just crying and homesick so much. and when I did Girl Guides I also had to be picked up cause I just wouldn't stop crying. Maybe I should see a therapist, this can't be healthy.
anywho, I hate being an adult. this shit is scary
this picture is insane i need him so bad
blow all my friendships to sit in hell with you, but we’re the greatest, they’ll hang us in the louvre down the back, but who cares? still the louvre.
- the louvre, lorde
you want me to get high? the thing that killed icarus?
The 1975’s Matty Healy Attitude Magazine Cover Shoot | Behind The Scenes
every time i got through my notes phase i thank george for the fantastic vibes he's created on one single album
another day of wanting him to **** *** ******** **** *** ** ** **** * *** ** **** * *** *******
Um ok this is unreal?? I just wanted to say to anyone who listened to my music this year, anywhere in the world, thank you. Getting named Spotify’s Global Top Artist in 2023 is truly the best birthday/holiday gift you could’ve given me. We’ve seriously had THE MOST fun this year out there on tour and now this. Are you serious. So I was trying to think of a way to thank you, and a lot of you have been asking me to put “You’re Losing Me (From The Vault)” on streaming… so here you go! You can finally listen EVERYWHERE now 💋
https://taylor.lnk.to/YLMfromthevault
“taylor swift is gay” hmmm not sure about that “blake lively’s hands have been on taylor’s thighs before” this we cannot possibly refute
this needs to be on the louvre
<3
matty boyfriend thoughts ฺ｡*:･
an: matty has been heavy on the brain, and someone under ross' bf thoughts asked for one about him so ofc i had to do it.
cw: fluff and smut sections
quality time
he constantly wants to be around you. he's pretty much like a puppy following you around everywhere. if he's in the studio, he'll always invite you over, even if you're going to sit there and read. if you're getting ready to go out, you best believe he's setting himself in the bathroom and watching you get ready. he'll ask you about the makeup you're using or the dress you picked out. he's just so in love and invested in you.
physical touch
i think this one kind of goes with quality time in the way that he just wants to be around you. he always has your hand in his, rubbing his thumb over your knuckles. or has you pulled onto his lap, nuzzling himself into the crook of your neck. he loves how warm you are and how safe you make him feel.
sentimental
he 100% has a little box of stuff tucked away somewhere, including things that you gave him or things you guys did together, such as movie tickets, reseats, cards-- everything. i can see him putting them all together in some sort of scrapbook or collage and giving it to you when you guys reach a big relationship milestone.
the biggest softie ever
he's totally crying on your one-year anniversary. he'll just be so overwhelmed with joy and love that he can't help it. he's honestly just putty in your hands when you're together. i can also see him getting emotional if you remember something small like he likes, like his favorite brand of wine, or his coffee order. not emotional in the crying sense, but just the full-hearted feeling you get when you're in love with someone.
songs about you
he's so consumed with the thought of you that, of course, there's going to be an embarrassing number of songs dedicated to you. if he sings one of them during a show, he's singing it directly to you. 100% his muse in every way.
writing letters to each other over tour
though you guys are in constant contact with each other, whether he's calling you or texting you, or flying you out to a show, he loves the intimacy of letters. sitting down and really thinking about what he wants to write, even if it's stuff he told you earlier; he loves the romantic feeling of it all.
care packages
this one goes with the letters a little bit. but i can see him making a little package of things he's collected on tour or just when he's out and about. I know for a fact he loves it when you do it for him on tour, making one of the guys sneak it into their luggage and then give it to him as a surprise.
you fell first; he fell harder
matty was definitely hesitant when he first started to catch feelings for you. he knew what his reputation was, what his lifestyle was like. he knew it wasn't easy dating someone like him, but once he finally opened up to you, he couldn't get enough.
smut below the pictures
breeding
i think at first it was an accident. probably a quickie in a bathroom at a party or before a show, and he was just so enthralled in you that he forgot to pull out. of course, you both panic, but as soon as he pulls out and sees the cum dripping out of you, something animalist switches in his brain. "fucking hell, your cunt looks so pretty dripping with my cum." figures push through your folds, collecting his cum before pushing it back into you. and now you can get over the full feeling that he gives you.
spanking
i think this mixes a bit with marking, but he just loves to see how much he can physically affect you. watching how quickly your skin turns red. how your legs twitch in anticipation of the next hit. especially if you're bruised the day after, he'll be so sweet, kissing over them and applying cream so that your skin isn't as tender.
munch
i just can't think of him any other way. he's so consumed with you in his everyday life that, of course, he's going to crave eating you out. especially before or after tour. he just wants to be in between your legs for hours, tasting you as much as he can.
switch
he has a heavy dom lean, but sometimes he just wants you to take the reins. he doesn't care what you do to him, as long as you feel good and he hopefully gets to cum at the end. he especially slips into subspace when you ride him. getting all whiny and fucked out underneath you.
edging
he just loves knowing how much control he has over you. watching your legs shake, and hips buck into his touch as you beg for an organism. he finds it amusing how, within an instance, he can give you so much pleasure and pain all at one time. i know he's a sucker for it too. loves when you tie him up and pump his cock with a toy or your hand until he's sobbing to cum.
pictures
when you brought up the idea of taking pictures when you guys fucked, matty was definitely hesitant. he knew what could happen if they got out into the public. so, you suggested just having them be of you at first, which eased the idea in his mind a bit. as soon as he took the first polaroid of you covered in his cum he couldn't stop. now he has a stack of them tucked away in his room and one in his wallet.
blow job lover
he loves seeing you on your knees. how you look up at him through your lashes like this is the most innocent thing in the world. not only does he love how it feels, but how you're so willing to give him pleasure in such an intimate way. he can't deny how much he likes seeing how sloppy you look when you fuck his throat.
as a retail worker, I agree
retail workers should get double pay on black friday, and also they should be allowed to yell at one customer an hour
These are some of my favourite matty tweets ever
calling all gaylors!
are you a new gaylor or do you just not know enough about swiftgron and find yourself confused when swiftgron is brought up? or do you want to convert your swiftie friends to gaylorism but you don't know where to start? you are in the right place! i turned the swiftgron masterpost into an easy to read slide-show! the link is: https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1jxEqeWQBEe_M351g1ST6CsfgSRI7IpOwAN1xsbQPQD0/edit?usp=sharing
and it covers the full swiftgron timeline. i am working on a kaylor timeline right now so, stay tuned for that! please reblog or send to your fellow gaylors because this took a lot of time to make! have fun!
please accept this hidden gem for the "Matty is queer" discussion
(history will say the Gemini line is a coincidence but history also called Patroclus Achilles's best friend so I'd take it with a grain of salt if I were you)
I LOVE ROADKILL SM THIS IS MY EVERYTHING!!
dare i say that this is the best version of roadkill…
please accept this hidden gem for the "Matty is queer" discussion
(history will say the Gemini line is a coincidence but history also called Patroclus Achilles's best friend so I'd take it with a grain of salt if I were you)
"when you hold me, it holds me together"
okay, SO. this is something i noticed upon first watching the eras tour movie...but the other day i went back to the theater and watched it AGAIN, and this stuck out to me even more the second time.
we all know *the* taylor and karlie hug pose...you know...this one:
and it's old news by now that taylor recreated this pose with her love interest in the lover music video...
well...in the eras tour movie, the longest consecutive shot of any of the dancers during the "lover" performance is on the m/m couple....doing the kaylor hug pose...(pls ignore the photo quality lol. when it's on streaming we can circle back with more hq visuals.)
the camera lingers on this shot for a good long while, and i just think it's beautiful - and LOUD - that taylor gives the gay couple locked in the Kaylor Embrace (TM) such a long on-screen moment during this song.
shes so gay omg
I THINK I FOUND SOMETHING.
Yes, this is a Kaylor-specific blog, but I am a Gaylor first and foremost. This is a screenshot from a playlist under Dianna’s verified Spotify account.
“I don’t have to pretend I like acid rock” - Now That We Don’t Talk
💀💀💀💀
Oh.
Oh. My. God.
(x)
Well loved books.
I am in firm belief that books should be well loved. they should be written in, the spine should be cracked, the pages should be folded, things you find during the adventures you take squished between the pages. The more damage done to a book, the more memories and love are in it and there's something so beautiful about a well loved book. it tells a story. it's like a scrapbook of that time in your life whilst you've read it and when you pick it up again after a while of finishing it you can look back at the life you lived while the book traveled with you.
I've started packing my things to put into storage while i'm away at college and I picked up my very well loved copy of Red, White And Royal blue that I read last summer and was flipping through it. it had water damage from me accidently dropping it in my pool and writing in it and different keepsakes from things I did that summer. it has things that I wrote that i never spoke to another living soul, thoughts of love, insecurity that the ink on the pages written by the author reminded me of.
"I don't think I ever thought I would have proper true friends until gr. 12 and now with september almost here and half of my friends going to college it's definitely gone. I hope to feel this truly happy again soon" is messly written on page 201 in pink glitter pen. I wrote that at 18 about the loss of my huge friend group leaving while I stayed and went back to school for another year, needing a missing credit to get into college. I was already feeling like I failed having to go back for another year and losing my friends and reading about Henry, Alex, Nora, and June partying and Alex having that moment of realization of found family made me realise that I most likely won't have that comfort again. Looking back at it now being on the cusp of 20, that friend group was the farthest from friendship, I had just romaticided it. We had moments where it was friendship, in its purest form but overall it turned into something toxic and by the end most of us hated each other and we split into two groups, but the girl who left the scribbled note in the pool water damaged book didn't know that yet. She didn't know what came from that friend group. The friendships that truly blossomed from it, the trips and adventures she'd have with the few friends that made it out of that friend group. She got so, so much closer to her favorite people. She has never been happier then she has now starting the new chapter of her life in a big city, and having the best friends she could ever ask for.
The seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, the well loved book i've brought on my most recent adventures. Lies sand in the crevices of a few pages where I had been reading it on the beach with my friends this summer, the ones that made it out of my Red, White and royal blue adventures.
damaged books are well loved books,
well loved books keep memories,
and well loved books are scrapbooks.
i love her so much omg
omg taylor is literally Evelyn Hugo she’s so smart
it’s funny how SOME (not all) hetlors/haylors think this is 100% fine and normal behavior yet if i say wonderland is gay af and about probs about dianna suddenly i’m speculating about her sexuality/need to touch grass/being invasive/etc. which completely disregards:
1. queercoding and it’s history and why some people cannot overtly come out—yes, even a rich and influential white women!
2. taylor has said many many times she never explicitly says who her songs are about and thus doesn’t mind people speculating who. imo, the 1989 tv prologue is more about the fishbowl lense her dating life falls in and the disrespectful articles about her and dianna and her and harry/other bfs (or girl space friends/boy space friends).
do some gaylors take it too far? absolutely!! i disagree with a lot of them on this platform and others but it is not a gaylor specific issue and i’m sick of the double standard! the rampant homophobia in this fandom is so real and most of yall don’t even realize the subtle homophobia you possess?? not everybody has to think she’s gay/bi/queer or whatever but being nasty to anyone who is open to the idea is just plain wrong.
analyzing work through a queer lense is not bad. saying “hmm x lyric seems like it correlates to x person” isn’t always as crazy as some think it is!! ultimately, taylor swift is a brand and she knows how certain things will be perceived and if she really didn’t want to have people thinking she’s some form of queer, she would do a lot more than a half baked sentence in the prologue of an album.
people saying that the scarf in atw was a metaphor for her VIRGINITY. people leaving flowers on cornelia street after tay and joe broke up. the absolute chaos that was jake gyllenhaal’s insta after red tv. the accounts that are making AI edits of what travis and tay’s BABY would look like. i could go on and on about the instances that the “mainstream” fandom has done that is clearly disrespectful to taylor and her art.
i love taylor and ultimately dgaf on what her sexuality is. i just wish the general fandom wasn’t so quick to pull out the pitchforks on every gaylor or someone who is gaylor-adjacent without understanding what our community really is.
only true allies kiss their best friend at a concert, drops so many hairpins about her, and then write multiple albums about her over the span of like 10 yrs, obviously.
Taylor Swift planting the seeds of allyship in 2014
me when the 1975 is in toronto but I couldn't go cause i don't have anyone to go with <3
Physically I’m HERE
but mentally I’m here
