On Purpose

Is this all AI?

haha. no. i write all of it. just the mad ramblings of a lost girl i suppose.

but the pictures are not mine. they are AI and made with NightCafe, and i edit them in Canva. i make no claims to their originality. Though i do draw. just not fast enough to draw something for each poem or song.

The poem ^^ I’m Free features one of my original drawings.

-kalika

Unspoken Emotion

I'm the pain that's settled into the crevices of your dimples when you smile, lurking like cobwebs in the rafters of a home you haven't cleaned in a while.

I am the anger sitting quite earnestly on the edge of your patient lips, anxiously fighting to not give in to haters when you could call in warships.

I am both the disappointment and acceptance you've decidedly faced, pondering longingly as you wonder if all your efforts have been misplaced.

I am the determination held in the firm hand of the most driven fighter, watching as you heed your grandfather's words: "there ain't no hill for a climber."

I am the hope flickering behind your eyes; growing the higher you climb,holding you together like a warm embrace when you want to resign.

I am the satisfaction rising with each breath in your tired chest,realizing you've helped so many to the top, passing life's true test.

-kalika

Dirty Bath Water

Laying in the bathtub trying to forget what I can't change. The sins of yesterday still taint what's supposed to be cleansing me.

Soaking, I wonder if tomorrow will be better, if tomorrow will be different.

Maybe tomorrow I'll be cleaner.

The bubbles are made of your choices, & your desires are the soap that slides along my scarred & tired body.

Tonight. I lay in the swirling bath of the life you've poured for us.

I try to wash away your sins, scrubbing harder so that somehow I may leave room for the potential I know you have.

Maybe tomorrow I'll be cleaner.

I dream of days where the bubbles may pop & fill the air with wonder, & the soap may be sensual instead of some kind of cleansing ritual.

Scrubbing scrubbing, scrub a little harder, scrub a little longer:

Maybe if you can't change, I'll become someone new.

Tonight, I wash you off of me, watching as our lives swirl down the drain. The stain of your lies rings the rim of my tub like maybe they're stuck here instead of to me this time. If I make this water deeper, will I still feel so blue?

Maybe tomorrow I'll be cleaner; maybe I'll be someone new.

-kalika

SoundCloud

Dirty Bath Water (spoken word)

Laying in the bathtub trying to forget what I can’t change. The sins of yesterday still taint what’s supposed to be cleansing me. Soaking,

star-crossed lovers series, pt.1

-kalika

ALWAYS RUNNING

-kalika

SoundCloud

Always Running (spoken word)

I do a lot of running for someone who doesn’t run, And by that I mean I’m always running from something. Not an easy catch, From men, I

Cataclysm

-kalika

A. Scarlet Heart

my heart’s now made of darkness,

I’ll play your game.

on my chest; draw a scarlet A;

I’ll take all the blame.

if you’re gonna brand me a villain,

I’ll light up this flame.

I’ll spark a match just to watch the

world burn in your name.

speak of the mighty devil, and she shall appear.

she’ll take everything from ya since you volunteered.

they say money’s the root of all evil,

but they’ve never met me.

I play with the devil’s advocate;

don’t dare bet against me.

get ready and heed my warning;

you ought to expect me.

a necessary evil, I had to become;

you will never forget me.

I will take you down with me to face hellish frontiers.

we’ll go to hell in a hand-basket to find what you fear.

I’ll summon my rebellious hellions,

and zip up my Reaper jacket.

I’ll melt and mix up magic to place

poison in your brass cup.

with threads of molten hot malevolence,

I’ll weave a flower basket.

rafflesias, wolfsbane, and monkey orchids,

I’ll lay them in your casket.

speak of the mighty devil, and I shall appear.

I’ll take everything from ya; for you volunteered.

you’ll go to hell in a hand-basket; I’ll learn what you fear.

you’re coming down with me to face hellish frontiers.

-kalika

SoundCloud

A. Scarlet Heart (spoken word)

my heart’s now made of darkness, I’ll play your game. on my chest; draw a scarlet A; I’ll take all the blame. if you’re gonna brand me a

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-kalika