Im Curious On What I Am So

curious little dromaeosaur discovering a critter 

Canada goose!! Honk!

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Idk man it’s so easy to get bogged down in all the bullshit online but when my then-6 year old cousin found out I was trans he said “ok” then corrected my grandma when she misgendered me. I was once the third between a gay man and a lesbian. Two lesbians once invited me back to their place when I presented as a man. I met an AMAB nb butch who looked strikingly to outsiders like a cis man and it was one of the more sapphic experiences I’ve had. I nervously wore a boydyke shirt to pride and got 3 different cis-looking femme folks tell me they loved my shirt. I once told a trans group at a protest that any pronouns were fine for me and one person said “wow, I’m impressed and intimidated by people like that. I don’t know that I could be that chill with pronouns.” I once told a GNC friend I wished I could wear a type of “opposite” gender clothing after I had already transitioned and so it would be associated with my AGAB and he said “You could just do it.” I’ve had cishet men fight cops for me before. The first time I had a doctor ask me if my name was different than what was on my forms I had to try not to cry. Last week, a phone call with a doctor’s office where I am generally cis passing asked unprompted if my name listed is what I want to be called. It touched me then too. I told a lesbian friend once I felt like my attraction to men AND women both felt gay. She said “makes sense.” And we moved on. I go by different pronouns in different circles. I’ve had gay women love my facial hair. I’ve had gay men like my tits. It’s all out there, I promise. It can be hard to find it but I promise there is community like you and community who likes you. And it’s more messy and beautiful than tumblr discourse makes it out to be.

when you know exactly how you want a scene to go but as soon as you sit down to write it you are suddenly staring at some of the worst sentences mankind has ever strung together.

Masterlist of Vetted Fundraisers from the Palestinians who directly contacted me (12-17 December)

17 December

Fayrouz/ Fairuz (@fairouz-33, fairouz33): Fayrouz and her husband Jawad have 2 children: Muhammad (4) and Ahmed (1). Their house has been destroyed and they are now displaced and living in a tent. Muhammad has contacted hepatitis. (https://gofund.me/61a191c6) (#316 on @/gazavetters vetted list)

Mohammed Qeshta, Shorooq (@shorooq-mahmoud): Shorooq is a nursing graduate and is married to Mohammed. She gave birth to her first child Jamal on 6 Oct 2023. Their house has been destroyed. They managed to evacuate to Egypt after 124 days of genocide, but they’ve used up all their money doing so. They do not have a source of income in Egypt. They are fundraising to support themselves and also to get both Mohammed and Shorooq’s family out of Gaza.  (https://gofund.me/7c7c09d1) (Shared by bilal-salah0) (€255 raised of €25K target)

Ahmed Dawoud (@kmhan89): Ahmed and his wife Nour have 3 children: Kamel, Mohammed and Hamza. The oldest is 5 and Hamza was born 2 months before this genocide. Their house has been bombed and Ahmed’s business was completely destroyed. (https://gofund.me/41763bda) (#351 on @/gazavetters vetted list) (€5,067 raised of €20K goal, last donation was 6 months ago, they’ve been fundraising since February)

Nasreen Shawa (@nasreenshawa): Nasreen is 37 years old and used to work in a women’s protection organization. She has 4 children: Leila (13), Amal (8), Mohamed (4) and baby Samaa (1). They are living with Nasreen’s mother and brother Islam. Nasreen’s husband has been killed. They are fundraising to buy basic necessities like milk and medicine! (https://gofund.me/89e68f78) (#334 on @/gazavetters vetted list) ($965 USD raised of $20K target)

16 December

Doaa Ayyad (@malakandmasa025): Doaa is 21 years old and a university student who was about to graduate. She has 2 daughters: Malak and Masa.  Malak has Down Syndrome and is also suffering from heart problems. Masa is only 1 year old. They have been displaced from Northern Gaza and is now living in a tent in Rafah. (https://gofund.me/38d59a5e) (shared by 90-ghost)

Alaa Salama (@alaafamely55, @alaafamely0): Alaa (30) and his wife Nabila (28) have 2 children: Muhammad (7) and Sham (6). Their house has been destroyed and the children are suffering from malnutrition. (https://gofund.me/d60c16c1) (#339 on @/gazavetters vetted list)

Rahaf Al-Ghandour (@kisirahaf, @rahafmah): Rahaf has 5 children and she has lost her husband. Her 3 eldest children are missing out on their university studies and the younger children have also been deprived of their education. (https://gofund.me/707255fd) (shared by bilal-salah0) (£409 raised of £100K target)

Rahaf (@rahf2012): Rahaf is only 13 years old. She and her family have been displaced for more than 10 times and are now living in a tent. Her little brother is sick. (https://gofund.me/986196ba) (shared by 90-ghost) ($180 USD raised of $50K goal)

15 December

Rewaa Amir (@rewaa-gfm, @rewaa-amir-family2, @rewaaamir, @rewaaamir-family): Rewaa and her husband Mutez Akrem have 5 children: Kinan (13) who dreams of being a doctor, Taim (10) a catlover who wishes to become a vet, Akram (7), Amir (5) and Salma (3). (https://gofund.me/1550d98c) (#155 on @/gazavetters vetted list) ($666 CAD raised of $55K target)

Asmaa Abed (@freegazas-world, free-palestines-world): Asmaa’s new house was completely burnt and destroyed, and she and her family evacuated to Khan Yunis. They are raising funds to buy basic necessities. (https://gofund.me/1d58b4f4) (Vetted by association. Asmaa is a sister of Mohiy (@/mohiy-gaza2) (shared by 90-ghost))

Anwer Hells, Kifah (@kifah-hilles): Kifah and her husband Anwer are from Northern Gaza but they are now displaced in Deir el-Balah. They used to work in trade and imports. They are now fundraising to buy basic necessities. (https://gofund.me/ac6a5bd0) (shared by 90-ghost) (€200 raised of €30K target)

Marwan Alhabil (@merwangaza): Marwan and his wife are 70 years old. Marwan’s wife suffers from severe herniated disc and she also has severe osteoporosis and diabetes. Marwan’s wife has also broken her foot.  (https://gofund.me/25c4628e) (shared by 90-ghost) (€1,243 raised of €30K target, fundraising since July)

14 December

Hatem Hellis, Massa (@massagaza): Hatem and his children are from Shujaiya neighborhood in the northern Gaza Strip, but their house has been destroyed. They are now displaced in a tent in Deir al-Balah. (https://gofund.me/76daf41a) (shared by 90-ghost) (€878 raised of €45K target)

Momen Afana, Walaa (@walafamily1992): Momen is a dentist while his wife Wala is a mathematics teacher. They have 3 children: Youmna (5), Roua (8), and Tala (10). An airstrike killed 13 of their family members and destroyed their home. Momen’s spine was fractured and dislocated in two places due to the bombing. Even while injured, Momen has been offering dental care to displaced people in Gaza.  (https://gofund.me/e01d33c8) (Line 203, Case No JT03H on Project Watermelon Vetted fundraiser list, Project Watermelon has also posted with Walaa on the dental tent Momen set up to provide dental services for children in Gaza, see here)

13 December 

Ahmad Abu Al-Amrain (@ahmadfrompalestine2002, @ahmadfromgaza @ahmad382002): Ahmad is a pharmacy student and was supposed to graduate uni this year. He is still trying to finish his studies online. His father has pneumonia. Ahmad and his family is displaced and are now living in a tent. (https://gofund.me/4509ce4b) (#119 on @/gazavetters vetted list)

Serin Sameer (@seringaza92, @helpserin): Serin’s family consists of his parents and parents and four brothers, three of whom are married with kids. They have lost their sister-in-law and their nine-month-old niece. (https://gofund.me/56f689ca) (Vetted by association! Serin is a friend of @/abedallhferwanagaza (#60 on @/gazavetters vetted list, #964 on the Butterfly Effect Project vetted fundraiser list)) ($655 CAD raised of $100K goal, fundraising since July)

Ghada Muhaisen (@ghada-knan20): Ghada is 20 years old. She gave birth to a baby in a contaminated tent in the middle of this genocide. Her husband broke his foot while trying to provide for the family. (https://gofund.me/4d504edf) (#289 on @/gazavetters vetted list)

Marah (@marahkatoa2000): Marah is a 23-year-old university student. She has a brother and they used to own a supermarket that is now destroyed. Her mother suffers from an enlarged thyroid gland and diabetes. Her father had a stroke after learning of the deat of their relatives. (https://gofund.me/96e4f26a) (shared by 90-ghost, shared by bilal-salah0) (£820 raised of £20K goal)

Enas Shukry Issa Balousha (@enasfamily33, @enasfamily): Enas is a widowed mother and she has 2 children: Mohammed (7) and Hala (5). Her house has been destroyed and her husband Anas was killed in a bombing while on his way to work. (https://gofund.me/93a61d0b) (shared by 90-ghost) ($595 USD raised of $75K goal)

Jaber Mohammad Al-Dahdouh (@jaberdahdoh2000): Jaber is 13 years old and he has 4 siblings: Shabaan, Hanan, Ahmed, and Ameera. They are from Northern Gaza but they are now displaced in Nuseriat. (https://gofund.me/b7d4c9f4) (shared by 90-ghost) (€860 raised of €20K goal)

12 December

Hussam Al-Qazzaz (@hananqazaz, @hossamqazaz12): Hussam has 4 children: Bashar, Hani, Dianah, and baby Habiba who was born in the middle of this genocide. His mother mother suffers from high blood pressure, and his father suffers from intensive burns. (https://gofund.me/44c3cf74) (#287 on @/gazavetters vetted list) (€1,178 raised of €55K goal, fundraising since April)

Anas Ahmed Al Ammarin (@anasahmed05): Anas used to have 5 siblings. Israel took his oldest brother Muhammad (29) hostage and they have received no news of him. Israel killed Anas’s second-eldest brother Abdulrahman (24), who has just graduated at the top of his class. Anas is only 19 years old and is now the oldest of his remaining siblings. He almost bled to death in the bombing before his parents found him 3 days later. His left arm was amputated with no anaesthetic. (https://gogetfunding.com/help-a-disabled-survivor-get-a-prosthetic-arm/) (Vetted by @/RadioWatermelon on Twitter (this is not a vetter I'm familiar with, would appreciate if anyone has more info), this is his new Twitter account: @/3naskom. For more info see post here and here) (€492 raised of €30,000 goal)

Click here for my Google Doc with my complete masterlist of all the Palestinian gfm asks I've received

Info on how gfm campaigns vetted:  See here, here, here and here.

See post here for other verified ways to send aid to Gaza.

Daily Clicks on Arab.org. Every click made is registered in their system and generates donation from sponsors/advertisers.

See links below for my Masterlists of Vetted Fundraisers from the Palestinians who sent me asks for if you want to help more people! As well as resources for palestinian students if you are a palestinian student!

Masterlists of Vetted Fundraisers

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 13 - 25 July.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 26 -29 July.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 30 July - 1 August.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 2 - 5 August.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 6 - 10 August.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 11 - 14 August.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 15 - 18 August

Click here for my Masterlist for fundrasiers from 19 - 21 August

Click here for my Masterlist for fundrasiers from 22 - 24 August

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 25 - 28 August

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 29 August - 1 September

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 2 - 5 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 6-10 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 11-14 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 15-18 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 19-22 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 23-26 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 27-30 September.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 1-4 October.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 5-9 October.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 10-14 October.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 15-21 October.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 22-26 October.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 27 October - 2 November.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 3-12 November.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 13-22 November.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 23-28 November.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 29 November - 5 December.

Click here for my Masterlist for fundraisers from 6-11 December.

Resources for Palestinian Students!

Initiatives and resources to support Palestinian students, academics and universities:

This is a list of initiatives and resources for Gazan students seeking to complete their studies, including initiatives, resources, training and scholarships. See list here.

Scholarships for Displaced Palestinian students:

Putting this here for the palestininans who follow me: If you are a displaced Palestinian student looking to fund your education, this document lists the scholarships available around the world for displaced Palestinian students.

Invertober Day 29 — Zebra Isopod (Armadillidium maculatum) 🦓✨

Update (70)

The Israeli occupation's decision to close the Gaza Strip crossings quickly affected the lives of 2.4 million Palestinians, who have not yet recovered from a devastating war that has ravaged them for 15 months.

This crime, which represents a disregard for the international community and international humanitarian law, and a blatant violation of the international charter of human rights, which stipulates that water, food, medicine and shelter are basic rights that cannot be violated, in addition to its use as a means of cheap blackmail to achieve political goals at the expense of the suffering of hundreds of thousands of people.

This crisis poses a risk to the elderly and children in my family who suffer from malnutrition, as we cannot afford to buy basic food after the skyrocketing prices in the markets.

The goal is to reach €4000 to be able to buy only the basic food needs that enable us to survive.

✅Vetted No. 219.

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Goshawk! One of the crow tier prints for this month. Hop in by the end of November to get it - or I’ll have it in my shop in December. :-)

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