My heart aches as you walk near
You, who've once taken everything I held dear
You have some nerve to come to me
When you made certain to ruin who I could be
Are you here to gloat, parade your victory?
I want to go, but you won't set me free
And I'm tired, I have nothing left to give
I wish you wouldn't come back once you leave.
I knew I loved you then, but I didn't tell
You've only fallen and I wasn't well
Cold, cold days with arms wrapped mine
Flowers were wilting, and you're looking for a sign
I want to be better, you want me to be yours
I keep screaming, screaming 'till my voice is hoarse
But you didn't know, didn't know 'cause you were deaf and blinded
I was paralyzed, trying to be found, you're lost, we're both stranded
I was rage, you were kindness, we made a home out of lies
Second chances, third ones, a promise that flies
A pair of wings growing while one withers away
I will never deserve you, I didn't ask for you to stay.
We trip and stumble around
We're lost, but we don't want to be found
This is our own little paradise
Away from the world and its lies
And for a moment, there's only love
We can't let them taint what we have
So please, stay a little longer
I'm not yet ready for this fantasy to shatter.
Tell me another lie
Please, anything but goodbye
You are my poison
But you are also my cure
I'd rather live in your prison
Inhale you sweet and pure
For your taste, I'll now forever crave
I'm dying, but I don't want to be saved
So, drown me in your essence
This is how my soul will be cleansed.
I remember lying in the snow
With the winter lights giving you an ethereal glow
Our hands intertwined, my heart beating fast
The night sky shined only for us
Oh, how I wish we've stayed there
When there are no worlds yet for us to bear
You were mine and I was yours
Now, we're cold shoulders and slamming doors.
I wonder if I flit through your mind
If there are times you still try to find
Me, in those songs, those places
If in your life, I left some spaces
For you part me with a void, an aching in my soul
The face I look for in the crowd, the name I try to howl
Or maybe you don't even remember
The girl you've given a hasty farewell that chilly December.
The way he talks,
The way he laughs
Is like music to my ears
The way he says my name,
The way he smiles
Take away all my fears
But as I think,
And fall asleep
While wiping away my tears
I know that I’ve fallen
For a man
Who won’t ever hold me near.
-jileeza