honestly i dont need therapy i need a machine to go into my body and manually stretch all my muscles and crack all my joints and then i need the machine to go into my brain and deep clean it with soapy hot water
FUCK THIS PLACE, FUCK EVERYTHING, FUCK EVERYONE, I HATE EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE OMG
My heart aches.
Nothing hurts more than constantly being misunderstood
I thought I felt this way because I miss you but I probably just have a disorder. Maybe it’s both.
I’m so angry I don’t know what to do. I need help. I’m so angry it’s hurting my chest. It’s like clawing at me from the inside.
bpd culture is having a violent/euphoric/“happy” episode only to immediately crash and have a really bad breakdown
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(Me trying to convince myself to not throw up when I have to do things I volunteered to do)
might be a bit sensitive but it annoys the shit out of me when people throw the word anxiety around and don’t really mean it. Like when something annoys them and they say “it gives me anxiety”. No. Because you are not having anxiety okay having anxiety is when after you make any and every decision your chest gets tight and you feel sick to your stomach and immediately regret that decision and your head starts going ekekwkfbwijdfhjwdnfnidksjdfjsknddj. it’s like a clamp around your head. It’s not synonymous with disliking something.
To avoid the sick feeling I get from talking to people about my feelings I am vomiting them out here, enjoy.
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