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intro.

welcome to my little blog. here I document my daily life and anything interesting. reason? because i am lonely and need motivation.

about me:

vin (he/him). born in 2007.

first year, BSc in anatomy & cell biology. minor in biomedical engineering.

pre med, studying to become a cardiac surgeon.

academic interests: nanotechnology, medical technology, synthetic biology, biomedical engineering, tissue engineering, biomaterials

hobbies: writing, badminton, oil painting, gaming (wanted hobbies: motorcycling, cello, archery, fencing)

languages: english, mandarin chinese, A2/B1 french. want to learn italian and spanish.

goals: become someone i will never regret, give my parents a comfortable life, make a personal impact in someone's life.

250108

song of the day: metamodernity- vansire

very chilly day today. my life flashed before my eyes too many times to count. why is my campus on an icy hill.

research: finished citations for my article and submitted it for editing. started the outline for my next article. bugged my team about finding our introduction for our paper (it has been over a month). sent out a few emails to profs.

academics: finished some online lab training courses for my upcoming synthetic biology lab workshops. am very excited!

selfcare: learned a little bit about game design. i know next to nothing about coding but i have to learn it eventually. ordered myself a very nice and comforting hot meal.

tomorrow's goal: i need to start doing reading assignments before i fall behind. i'll try to finish my pre labs before labs start next week.

notes: i didn't post for the past few days as i was quite stressed about my program. i was debating transferring to engineering, even transferring to another school. but i've figured it out so it's all good now.

250101

song of the day: the price of ambition-arcane

spent some quality time with my sister today and got some things off my chest. went out to eat and it was glorious. i love mashed potatoes.

research: finished and uploaded my blog article on fungal molds for editing but i want to be extra and make a drawing. almost done with the intro for our research paper and started on the methodology section. hopefully we can finish the outline before the wet lab data comes back.

tomorrow: tomorrow will be a calculus day: i plan to review all of calc 1 and have a tutor review calc 2 so i get a headstart.

2025

really shocking that it's 2025 already. 2024 was a journey of both self discovery and self annihilation, one that made me realize many harsh and beautiful truths about myself. i have learned a lot and look forward to using my knowledge this year. i will strive to protect my peace, find solace in silence, and taking things one step at a time, either forwards or backwards, all in the name of progress towards ambition.

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12/100 days of productivity

song of the day: muse au musée- isolde lasoen

got some free stuff from the club fair and went out to dinner to celebrate chinese new year. did some statistics and physics homework.

introduction.

now that i have begun a blog here, i shall introduce myself. admittedly i am not all that good at tech stuff... i've always stayed away from the more computational side of science, so please excuse me if i make any mistakes.

general:

i fall under the trans umbrella. i was born a woman, but i have yet to figure out who i truly wish to be. i hope i do one day, however right now i prefer he/they pronouns: she/her pronouns make me uncomfortable, yet i understand differing beliefs and have no problem if i am referred to as she/her.

i am studying to become a cardiac surgeon: i want to be skilled in surgery, specifically cardiac surgery, and travel the world to provide medical/surgical care to areas lacking access to such care, such as warzones, less developed countries, and rural areas.

i have never been officially diagnosed with anxiety nor depression, at least not on paper. many doctors and therapists have told me i have strong symptoms and i have gotten pills prescribed. you may expect posts about my mental health, as i have no one in my life to talk about them to.

my favourite animals are cats, snakes, and otters. maybe penguins. i like dark green and dark red. my favourite band is the arctic monkeys- i went to their concert last year and enjoyed it immensely.

school:

i am a pre med student pursuing a bachelor's of science in honours anatomy and cell biology. as of now, i am a first year. i am debating between a minors in medical anthropology, biomedical engineering, or if i will even do a minors at all. we shall see.

research:

my interests lay in biomedical engineering. i enjoy learning about the applications, design, and challenges of nanotechnology, specifically tissue engineering. i also enjoy learning about the designs and ideas behind medical technology, however i don't believe myself to be enough of an engineer to pursue it myself. my current project is collaborative: i co-lead a dry lab team on writing a research paper using results from our wet labs, where they are developing a biomimetic bioadhesive. truly fascinating stuff.

hobbies:

sports: badminton, swimming, figure skating, trying to get into fencing and archery

instruments: voice (soprano, alto, tenor), piano, flute, want to learn cello

art: i enjoy oil paints the most, however i am also proficient in basically all other mediums like watercolour, acrylic, charcoal, pastels... i have been challenging myself to do sculptures lately too. i prefer landscape paintings however i also sketch still life and portraits.

other: i enjoy reading and writing. i mostly read nonfiction nowadays (ex. books about fish evolution. seems boring but it is quite fascinating) however i have always held a fondness for "classics". my creative writing style is very descriptive. in every sentence i write, i wish to covey yearning and beauty. it is a shame that i do not get to practice my writing much anymore. i also enjoy baking and cooking. in the future, i want to learn how to ride a motorcycle and buy myself a batcycle (aka. a kawasaki or yamaha fully black bike. they look sick.).

language:

i speak english and mandarin chinese fluently. i am proficient in french. i wish to learn italian and spanish.

i'm not too sure how many facts to include here before i sound like a narcissist. i shall end it here. (i really want a white ball python they are so adorable).

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30-39/100 days of productivity

song of the week: b2b-charli xcx

it's been over a week since i last posted. i have been so stressed for my calculus midterm. i did over 250 integrals in five days, staying up until 4 am every day or not sleeping at all. my physics midterm got pushed to after the break so now i have three midterms back to back.

just had my calculus midterm last night and it honestly did not go well. this past week leading up to and after my exam definitely took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally which undoubtedly affected my exam. but i'm going to try and stay motivated for my other classes and get a better mark on the calculus final.

i have so many lab reports and proposals to write now but at least reading week is next week and i'll be going home to see the sun.

pictures:

walking home after my midterm

6 am after studying all night

integrals on the classroom blackboard at 3 am (the janitor forgot to lock the door)

practice questions an hour before my midterm with friends

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4/100 days of productivity

song of the day: L no theme- hideki taniuchi

stayed in bed until 3 pm recovering from last night. eventually got up to send out some emails and work on my physics problem set. finished my physics pre lecture readings. debating switching professors for my summer research but i'll have to speak with both. i guess today wasn't that productive but i had to distract myself and at least i got something done. i'll save the rest for tomorrow.