250116

birth.

just read a modern au jayvik fic where viktor had a tumblr account and it kind of changed my brain chemistry. i have decided to post here from now on, documenting my life and goals. and also in part to practice my writing. i figured that having this to document things is loads better than venting to chatgpt, even if only one person sees my posts. if i end up gaining a following, or if even one person is reading this, i appreciate you and thank you. may we all forge on through the journey called life and define and evolve to be the best version of ourselves together.

moments

oil on canvas. started and finished in one day. a little rushed but it made my father (it was a gift for him) happy so it’s worth it. sorry about the glare: it is not dry enough for the matte finish.

current mood

250108

song of the day: metamodernity- vansire

very chilly day today. my life flashed before my eyes too many times to count. why is my campus on an icy hill.

research: finished citations for my article and submitted it for editing. started the outline for my next article. bugged my team about finding our introduction for our paper (it has been over a month). sent out a few emails to profs.

academics: finished some online lab training courses for my upcoming synthetic biology lab workshops. am very excited!

selfcare: learned a little bit about game design. i know next to nothing about coding but i have to learn it eventually. ordered myself a very nice and comforting hot meal.

tomorrow's goal: i need to start doing reading assignments before i fall behind. i'll try to finish my pre labs before labs start next week.

notes: i didn't post for the past few days as i was quite stressed about my program. i was debating transferring to engineering, even transferring to another school. but i've figured it out so it's all good now.

2025

really shocking that it's 2025 already. 2024 was a journey of both self discovery and self annihilation, one that made me realize many harsh and beautiful truths about myself. i have learned a lot and look forward to using my knowledge this year. i will strive to protect my peace, find solace in silence, and taking things one step at a time, either forwards or backwards, all in the name of progress towards ambition.

i simply adore the softness of winter. (i will be going back to icy uphill roads on campus in a week)

250121

5/100 days of productivity

song of the day: the line-twenty one pilots

finished my physics problem set, started on my calculus set. finished editing my blog article for the second round. sent out some emails to profs confirming interviews.

my breath in clouds

the snow crunching beneath my feet

the sting of cold air on my ears

the moon, full amidst the clouds and fog

brick buildings and warm lighting

colourful stained glass and pure white snow

soft music, I see them sitting atop a snow pile

hushed voices, subtle glances

a moment of tranquility in bustling city life

quietly shared with you

not to be dramatic but! my bedroom windows!