Blendedwhiskey - Existential Longing

low stress doodlin with one of my lesser used tools

everything is a sign if youre crazy enough

hello everyone, hope you enjoy this lab mouse adaptation of Frankenstein; I am completely exhausted

Isengrim

are moths aware they're playing into symbolism when they fly too close to the candles i lit to repel them and burn their wings

Translation: “I love you. Infinitely and inexpressibly. I’ve woken up in the middle of the night and here I am writing this. My love, my happiness.”

Vladimir Nabokov, in a letter to his wife [19 January 1925] from Letters to Véra, tr. by Olga Voronin & Brian Boyd

the hardest part was letting go of the potential

of everything I thought you could be. 

I made you out to be so much more than what you actually were. 

I fell in love with a version of you that only existed in my head. 

I was holding onto this unrealistic version of you. 

it wasn’t hard to let go of someone who mistreated, 

abused,

walked over, 

underappreciated,

devalued, 

and neglected me.

it wasn’t hard to let go of somebody who brought me to my lowest. 

it was hard to let go of the hope that you would change. 

it was hard to let go of the potential I fell in love with. 

it was hard to let go of everything I thought you could be.

only your name echoes in my head again and again

like a crowd in a sports match except it's my mind alone cheering you on and calling out to you as if you'd telepathically hear me one of these days