ok so i have a request but first i just wanna say ur writing is so cute đ like it gets me every time i'm giggling and kicking my feet ily
anyway can u write smth with jinx where her gf is in the hospital cause she got caught up in some kind of riot (kinda like the one isha got swept up in) and she had to get some kind of surgery and she's all loopy on the meds so when jinx is holding her hand she's like ??? I have a gf??? except jinx literally is her gf and she thinks it's funny so she's like 'yeah? what's your gf like?' and r accidentally insults her without meaning to and at the end the anesthesia wears off and she's like 'why're u laughing at me what did i say?'
just smth cute like that
of course!! thank you for the request <3
i appreciate the words a lot youâre so sweet! ilyt, i hope i did your request justice :)
summary; jinxâs girlfriend gets injured during the riot. she wakes up in the hospital, loopy, and forgets she has a girlfriend.
characters included; jinx, sevika (platonic), isha (mentioned, platonic/familial)
tags/warnings; fluff, crack (kinda), very minor hurt/comfort, mentions of war/combat, r gets injured
men dni.
you're not sure exactly what happened, and jinx isn't either.
it started with a rally in the undercity to protest against the brutality of piltover's enforcers. gas, mass arrests, and sheer brutality drove the people of zaun to organize, though what they wanted most was jinx.
jinx, zaun's royalty as they saw her- a young woman who wasn't afraid to stand up against piltover's regime. they saw her as a symbol, but those who knew jinx can attest that she never wanted that status. she's always been a bit selfish, seeking only to protect herself and those she loved. being dubbed a symbol was of no interest to her, and being at a rally was even less interesting.
but it happened, and jinx curses herself for not having been there.
all she's been able to gather is from word of mouth. you got beaten pretty badly apparently, having been slammed up against a metal fence, stabbed in the side, and punched until you damn near lost consciousness. then kicked until you did. it wasn't until around twenty minutes after that a medical team was called, and it took even longer for them to actually get there. distance between cities aside, piltover has never been enthusiastic about providing the undercity their services.
and that's all she's been able to get. nothing about your recovery, your whereabouts, if they were able to get a pulse from you and bring you back to consciousness. nothing.
not only did isha get sent to stillwater, but you were severely injured. even as your girlfriend was ecstatic to retrieve isha from her cell and free other zaunites, it all circled back to you.
she doesn't just want you, and doesn't just want isha. she wants the family that she's built together. she goes through the motions of playing with the little girl, trying to put on a brave face while they set off glitter bombs and isha's infectious laughter rings through the air. but it doesn't compare to you being there, the both of you playing with her and making her laugh.
you should be by jinx's side, holding her from behind and peering over her shoulder at isha's newest adventure. brushing the girl's hair while jinx (tries to) makes food for the three of you, helping paint the toys jinx made, but you're in a hospital bed somewhere in piltover that nobody has been able to crack yet. it drives her near insane.
the door to the hideout opens though, and sevika half peers through. jinx can hear creaking, but only rolls her eyes without turning around.
"not interested," she deadpans.
"i'm sure you're not," sevika huffs, but that doesn't deter her. "she's in a hospital not far from the council building. apparently she's awake. thought you might want to know that, at least."
that catches jinx's attention. her head snaps around, brows furrowing. "you're serious?"
"would i have come here if i wasn't?"
of course she wouldn't have. sevika's a busy woman and time is her currency- so within seconds, jinx is tossing her boots on and bolting toward the exit with a one-track mind.
"stay here with isha, would you?"
with the way the girl is rushing out, it doesn't give sevika much choice. she sighs, looking over to the little girl absorbed in coloring and sits next to her.
"looks like it's you and me for a while, kid."
â§.*
you're lucky jinx loves you, because it took a good twenty minutes just for her to be cleared to visit you.
"no, i don't have any explosives, no, i'm not here to push an agenda, no, i'm not causing any trouble. i just want to visit my girlfriend."
"but-"
"janna above- just let me see her. you'd think this stuff would be easier..."
her heart is beating like a war drum when she approaches the room. there's a clear door and a little curtain obscuring her view of the bed, but she can see an iv bag. numerous tubes connecting to your hidden body, and a heart monitor. she doesn't know much about medicine, but the steady beep, beep, beep of the monitor is a momentary relief to the girl. at least you're stable.
she steps inside, knocking on the inside of the doorframe slowly.
"hey, toots..." she starts, slowly opening the curtain to reveal your form. you're still bruised, but the swelling that must've been there before is mostly gone. your eyes are lost in a far-off stare while she carefully sits down on the edge of the bed. "i'm so glad you're okay. i wanted to visit earlier, i did, just..."
her slender fingers slowly slot between yours, and she finds your gaze meeting hers within seconds. there you are, she thinks. there's those pretty eyes. "hey," you murmur.
just that word is enough to bring tears to jinx's eyes. it takes everything in her power to not just pounce on you, bury her head in your neck while she trembles and cries and clings to you, but that's the last thing you need. especially after just getting out of surgery.
"i should've been there," she breathes out, her voice trembling softly. "i'm your girlfriend, you got hurt and i was just sitting on my ass, and... oh, fuck, i'm so sorry."
a beat of silence, and your brows furrow. then you tilt your head... what is going through your head right now? this isn't the reaction jinx was expecting.
"...i have a girlfriend?"
the words are like a blow to the girl's chest, her eyes widening as her face inches closer to yours. suddenly, the tears are gone.
"uh, yeah? you've had a girlfriend for the past what- eight months?"
you let out a little gasp, your mouth forming an 'o' shape. "really?"
how could you not remember that? you and jinx have been together for close to a year now and near inseparable, and now you just... forgot? but she looks around, she sees the monitors and wires and breathalyzer... right. you just got out of surgery. you're loopy.
"wow..." you murmur, your words slurring together the slightest bit. "i do? what's she like?"
and, well.. jinx would be a damn fool if she didn't have at least some fun with this. she sits back on the edge, flicking one of her braids over her shoulder with a toothy grin.
"well," she starts. "she's amazing. smoking hot, of course, and super smart. like, a genius. she's funny, and talented, she's something of a hero... you know. the whole shebang."
your eyes light up at the description, and it takes everything jinx has to not burst out laughing on the spot.
"she sounds great," you gasp, lips tugging into a little smile. in this barely-there state where you're seeing this beautiful girl you barely recognize in front of you, these words are a shock. you've had a girlfriend this time, and you didn't know? "when can i see her? where is she?"
jinx chuckles softly, letting out an amused sigh and shaking her head.
"you'll see her soon enough. she's closer than ya think, love."
you're about to sit back against the pillows again before a thought occurs to you.
"do you have a girlfriend?"
the girl stares at you incredulously for a minute, blinking. you must be really out of it- but it draws an actual laugh from her.
"i do, yeah," she huffs. "she's great, too. beautiful, talented, funny, sweet... basically perfect."
"aw, damn it..."
â§.*
a few hours, jinx getting food from the hospital's cafeteria, and jinx is back at your door. she would've been there sooner, but those pesky doctors just had to run some tests to make sure you were in stable condition after the operation.
she peers in the slightest bit to see you writing in something, a journal, presumably. she just barely steps in before your gaze lands on her, and you're beaming.
"jinx, you're here!" she hears from inside the room, and there's that smile she loves so much. she's quick to sit back on the edge of the bed, and you're even quicker to wrap your arms around her waist. the best you can while hooked up to tubes, anyways. "i wanted to talk to you, just.. i still haven't gotten my phone back."
and while she's ecstatic that you actually remember her now, she can't help but stifle a laugh. because you don't remember a damn thing about earlier.
"...hey, what's that look for?"
the dam breaks. she's laughing, doubled-over full belly laughing and you're left there, wide-eyed and bewildered.
"babe- hey! what's so funny?"
"i... jeez, i'm sorry, just, earlier you said-"
this only causes further confusion as your brows knit together and you try to turn your girlfriend to face you once again, though to no avail.
"you visited earlier? oh shit- i... what did i say?"
jinx is breathless between laughter and trying oh so hard to keep it together so she can just tell you. you were so damn loopy on those painkillers that you don't remember completely forgetting you have a girlfriend and asking if she was single, and she doesn't know if she has the heart to tell you.
"yeah, uh," she breathes out. "don't worry about it. it was nothing."
maybe she'll tell you after you've been discharged.
Could I perhaps request headcanons for sevika of what it'd be like being friends with her? As difficult as she is I think I'd be awesome to have her watch your back I mean we've all seen how loyal she is
Being besties with Sevika!
I absolutely love this ask, because she'd definitely be SUCH a good friend!!<3
Content: Platonic relationships, some angst?, sfw
Reader has no set pronouns!
((Not proofread))
Sevika is a ride or die through and through. No matter how difficult things get with you or how chaotic things are, you can count on her to be right there for you every time. Trust and loyalty is hard to come by down in Zaun after all, and so her dedication to you is rare and appreciated by you gratefully. If you keep her back clear, then she'll keep yours clear, too.
Her stubbornness was, however, a difficulty that took you a while to learn how to deal with. If she thinks that she's right about something, then she absolutely is. No, if's or buts about it. Not a thing, you could say can change her mind unless it's profound enough to get through the thick wall in her head. This can lead to some strong disagreements between you two, maybe even a couple arguments. But those are resolved as quick as they come, mainly since she doesn't dwell on alot.
Sevika can be hot-headed and frustrating when it comes to your safety. You are the one good thing she still had left in this hell hole, and she'd be damned if something hurt you. She, therefore, can be very overprotective when it comes to your safety and doesn't let many people come close to you unless she trusts them too. Which are very few people as is.
With that said, though, you practically have scary dog privileges with the way she always looms behind you. No one will ever think of hurting or insulting you in her vicinity, that's for sure.
Whenever you're not feeling well, she'll try and help you out as much as she can. She may not be very good at all at comforting people, but she'll probably get (steal) you things that could make you feel better, whether it be medicine or a small gift. She never accepts anything in return, however, as she's content with caring for you only.
This doesn't mean that she doesn't appreciate the care and loyalty you give her every day deep down, though. She's aware of how painfully difficult she can be at times. And most people therefore avoid her, except for you. This means the world to her, even if she'd never admit it put loud to you.
Helloo, I was wondering if you could do a sevika x reader but Reader got back from a mission and was just so tired that they fainted and Sevika takes care of reader. Thankk youuu i love your works so muchhhđđ
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Thank you so much for readingggg mwah <333
You were so exhausted by the end of your mission, legs wobbly and hands tired from carrying the heavy loads and bags.
Your shoulders hurt too and you would kill for a peaceful massage. As you stalked to the door, your body felt like it'd fall apart any moment. You grabbed the doorknob, heaving a sigh and opening it with your key.
The moment you stepped passed the threshold, Sevika scrambled to her feet to greet you. Not really with words, just a silent stare at you as she checks you out and assess whether you have any injuries or not.
"How was it?" Sevika finally grumbled. She didn't miss the way your head swayed a little as you closed the door behind yourself.
"Baby..." You began but then your body gave away and the darkness crept into the frames of your vision. Your body hit the floor with a thud, Sevika rushed forward.
Her eyes were wide but she didn't say anything. "Fuck." She cursed under her breath as she picked you up bridal style with no strain.
Sevika got you to the bedroom and started peeling your clothes off slowly to let your skin out and help you breathe better.
She propped a pillow up under your legs to elevate the blood and massaged your body simply to ground herself.
"You'll be okay." She mumbled more to herself than you. Sevika pressed a kiss on your forehead and stroked your hair as she waited for you to wake up.
You stirred a little, eyes fluttering open slowly as you scrambled a little. Sevika squeezed your shoulder reassuringly. "Baby, are you okay?" Sevika whispered.
"I'm okay..." You tried to get up but Sevika pushed you down, shoving a glass of water in your hands. You smiled weakly and took a few sips of water. "Did I pass out?"
"Yeah. Guess you pushed yourself too hard." Sevika stroked your hair, taking the empty glass away and settling it on the bedside table. "Just let me pamper you, 'kay?"
You smiled up at her and nodded. "I love you."
"I love you too, angel."
It is so unfair I have thick plush thighs but no dyke to lay her head on them :(
â come a little closer
hockey jock!vi x tutor!reader, fluff / humor / angst / kinda slowburn / smut (18+ mdni!), wc: 16k+ [buckle your seatbelts bc i could not shut the fuck up about vi if i wanted to !]
synopsis: youâre many things; an exemplary student, quiet and well-mannered, loved immensely by those who bother to get to know you, but most importantly, the newfound object of superstar athlete viâs every affection. or, in other words, hockey jock!vi is lowkey a loser, atrociously down bad, and will stop at nothing to make you hers.
content warnings: language (duh), brief mentions of familial issues, latent insecurity, miscommunication & lack of communication, kissing, groping, SEX! mdni, seriously, iâll THROW UP!, more specifically fingering (r!receiving), oral (r!receiving), spitting, makeup sex idk, just good old fashioned lesbian BANGING! also! jazz cabbage, lets pretend for the sake of this au that student athleteâs donât get tested bc i NEED hockey jock!vi to hotbox reader PLS.
fic soundtrack: i could imagine âalina baraz /snooze â sza /tonight â summer walker / pressure â james vickery + sg lewis / wish that i could â umi
authorâs note: of course itâd be arcane s2 that resurrects me from my almost yearlong hiatus...pls enjoy this fic even though iâm pretty rusty; sheâs been cooking in the drafts for weeks T-T iâll be answering some (very long overdue) asks and chatting with you guys <3 and finally, this shit is barely proofread bc my brain is fried lol
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VI HAS A HUGE PROBLEM.
One that supersedes every issue sheâd ever given weight to in all of her four (and a half) years of university. Is way larger than twice-a-day practices on and off the ice that go hand-in-hand with studying so hard to make sure that her grades donât slip a fraction. Probably way bigger than the fact that her little sisterâs graduating high school soon and sheâs trying her absolute best to be as great a role model as she can despite wanting to crack under the pressure. And most definitely bigger than her favorite on-again-off-again fling, Cait Kiramann, whoâs rare to come by these days.
Vi has a huge problem, and quite frankly, itâs you.
In hindsight, sheâs been relatively good at overlooking you, not that itâd been intentional to begin with, but Vi knows a lot of people. Too many, she feels sometimes. So it's easy for you to slip through the cracks when everyoneâs vying for even a shred of her attention.
Perhaps itâs what piques her interest when your orbits finally do collide. Because, admittedly, you know all about Vi. Know that sheâs probably one of the most valuable players on the uniâs hockey team (sheâs an absolute beast on the ice). Also know that sheâs a biomedical physics major and actually incredibly smart. But most of all, you know that not only is Violet a flirt, sheâs a player.
Not necessarily that youâve ever really been on the receiving end, but mostly because her reputation precedes her and youâve seen it all from a distance. Can't not when the decorated hockey star is such a charmer whether she intends to be or not. Vi has girls both certain and questioning stumbling for a single glance.
You often think itâs pitiful, but itâs not like itâs really your problem.
Until it is.
It all starts at The Afterparty.
Hours after a big victory in the first game of three that solidifies whether the university hockey team participates in the championships, Violet is the star of tonightâs celebration.
Sheâd sunk the winning shot, and for that sheâs being poured shot after celebratory shot. By eleven sheâs practically hammered and itâs when her teammate, Ellie, and the captain, Abby, finally show up.
The three of them together, drunk, is like a minefield of obnoxious laughter, dirty innuendos, and rowdy behavior.
And for a while itâs funny, has Vi feeling like sheâs on cloud nine, but eventually, the drunken high begins to evaporate and she starts to feel a little overwhelmed.
The spotlight shifts and even though Vi typically preens under the attention, sheâs grateful to finally breathe.
With a plastic cup full of water, sheâs sliding the back door open and stepping out onto the back patio to take in the cool air for a breather.
She makes a move towards the stairs, but nearly jumps out of her skin when she registers the silhouette at the base of the steps.
âJesus, fuck,â Vi hisses to herself. âYou scared the shit outta me.â
You donât even spare her a glance over your shoulder, just take a sip from your drink.
âSorry,â you hum passively.
She catches her breath, doesnât even bother to ask permission as she drops all of her weight next to you.
The step creaks under pure muscle.
Her strong legs stretch out, elbows settling back against the step up as she waits. And waits. And waits.
The amount of silence that lapses is unusual, uncharacteristic for Vi, especially so because people are typically babbling enough to fill the void when it comes to her.
But you just sit there, nursing your beer and staring up at the stars. The moon hangs half in the sky, softly illuminating the planes of your features.
Itâs her first good look at your face and Viâs definitely drunk, but the immediate thought that comes to her mind is pretty, pretty, pretty. Undeniably and painfully pretty. And not Caitlyn pretty, the only girl sheâs ever really used as a benchmark, but intimidatingly so in your own right. Makes her swallow hard, throat bobbing as she watches you unapologetically.
âItâs rude to stare, Violet,â you say simply, eyes finally flitting to meet hers.
Her breath catches in her throat, earthy flecks dancing in your moonlit irises. God, your eyes. Framed by thick lashes and round as you look up at her.
âYou know who I am?â she asks stupidly as if point fives of her face arenât blown up into memes and plastered all over the house.
âWho doesnât?â you ask, breathing a puff of humorless laughter as you crush the can in your ringed fingers.
And perhaps you got her there, but Viâs feeling exceptionally small under your gaze despite usually filling out a room. Something about you makes her shrink.
âIâ fuck,â Vi stumbles, cheeks red because youâre looking at her with an indecipherable gleam in your gaze that has her squirming. âWhatâs your name?â
She cringes at herself, rolls the piercing in her nose once, twice, for comfort.
You laugh again, a little more genuine this time because, from a distance, the athleteâs usually so suave, undeniably gorgeous and composed. Right now, the girl in front of you only ticks one of those boxes.
â________,â you offer.
She weighs the name on her tongue, decides she likes it a lot, and tries to shake off whatever this feeling youâre giving her is.
âAnd you go to school here?â she asks.
You nod once.
âNeuroscience, fourth year.â
âHuh, weâre in similar fields, but Iâve never seen you around,â Vi observes. Because sheâs certain sheâd bookmark a face like yours, absolutely no doubt about it.
âWe had organic chemistry together sophomore year with Dr. Talis,â you say matter-of-factly, like youâre not blowing her mind right now. âAnd Iâm auditing Medardaâs biometry class this semester.â
Viâs floored.
âWait, wait, but...â Sheâs trying to piece the puzzle together, but her brainâs still a little fuzzy, equal parts from the alcohol, but also because sheâs caught a whiff of your perfume and you smell so sweet.
âI pop in every once in a while,â you tell her. âBut I tutor in that time slot every Tuesday and Thursday, only really go when I donât have any appointments.â
âHold on, this is nuts,â Violet says, body easing to face you. You flinch because she doesnât realize sheâs practically yelling. âThereâs no way, I definitely wouldâve remembered you if that was the case.â
You hum, corners of your lips quirking as you shrug your shoulders.
âDoubt it,â you counter. âIâm nothing particularly spectacular.â
âNothing particularly spectacular,â Vi repeats under her breath.
And under normal circumstances, sheâd be flirting up a storm right now, trying to charm her way into getting you to bite, but this is one of the first semblances of normalcy sheâs experienced in a while. No ulterior motives, no exaggerated kindness, no outright asking her to fuck.
Suddenly your phone lights up in your lap and youâre turning your attention to the device.
âDD duties call,â is all you say as you make a move to stand up.
No, this canât be all she gets from you tonight. Not when sheâs been narrowly missing someone like you for the past four years and youâre just now coming to light.
The dormant liquid courage bubbles and Viâs gently grabbing your wrist to pull you to a stop.
âMaybe Iâll see you around?â she asks, steely eyes liquid as she stares up at you.
You eye the scar on her lip, gaze lingering there before flitting to meet hers.
âMaybe.â
Vi decides that she needs to see you again.
Youâd left her with crumbs this past Friday night and sheâd spent the better part of the weekend trying (and failing) to cross paths with you again.
âJesus, youâre down bad,â Ellie chuffs Monday morning on their walk to the campus coffee shop.
âYou donât understand,â Vi defends. âSheâs so...so...â
âSo?â
âDifferent, I dunno,â Vi sighs, fiddling with the strap of her backpack as they walk. âWe didnât even talk about much, but that was the most normal Iâve felt around someone in a while.â
Her teammate snorts.
âProbably the gayest thing Iâve heard you say,â Ellie deadpans. âShe isnât immediately trying to munch and youâre already in love. Pathetic.â
âOh, fuck off,â Vi scoffs as they approach the coffee shop, inside packed full with half-functioning college students so early in the morning. âTrust me, if you met her, youâdââ
The words die in her throat because halle-fucking-lujah, the universe or god, or whatever has answered her every prayer this past weekend as she clocks you a few paces ahead in line.
Ellie follows her friendâs line of vision to find exactly what sheâs staring at and she lets out a low whistle when her gaze finds your frame.
From a completely aesthetic standpoint, she can see why Viâs immediately hooked.
âHah,â she makes a noise in her throat. âOkay, so maybe it makes sense.â
Vi canât help but stare because, if it were possible, you were far prettier under the warm lighting of the cafeâs ambiance. The curls of your hair frame your face beautifully and itâs so fucking cute how focused you are on your phone.
âHate to break it to you, though. That girlâs way out of your league,â Ellie says like itâs common knowledge.
âWow, way to boost my ego,â Vi mutters drily.
âJust being realistic,â Ellie argues. âIf you bag her, sheâs easily the hottest girl youâve been with.â
And Vi canât really contest that, not when the proofâs in the fucking pudding.
Her bodyâs moving of its own accord and before she can register her own actions, sheâs mumbling quiet sâcuse meâs under her breath as she squeezes between patrons to close a bruised hand over your shoulder.
You nearly jump out of your skin, fumbling with your phone as an earbud falls out.
âShit, sorry, sorry. I didnât mean to scare you,â Vi says quickly.
Your gaze snaps to her, brows furrowing almost imperceptibly before your expression settles.
âViolet,â you acknowledge.
And she realizes that she didnât really have a game plan coming up to you so abruptly. Had been so focused on actually just seeing you again, that she hadnât thought through the rest of it.
The way you stare up at her is thoroughly disarming because she doesnât have the shield of night or alcoholic courage to carry her through it.
âCan I help you?â you ask, but not unkindly.
âOh, uh, I...â She chances a glance over her shoulder to find that Ellie is watching her from a few customers away, eyebrow cocked and smirk testing. She word vomits before she can think of a coherent thought. âYou mentioned tutoring...the last time we talked.â
You donât even bat an eye.
âI did.â
âYouâre also auditing Medardaâs biometry class.â
âI am.â
âIâm...Iâm not really doing too hot in Medardaâs right now,â Vi says, brain nearly short-circuiting and freezing up because, lie! Sheâs doing phenomenally in Medardaâs session and, truthfully, sheâs just downright scared to ask you to hang out.
Especially when you look up at her like that.
You shift and sheâs swallowing down around nothing.
âHmm, canât have that, can we?â you hum.
Vi could melt.
âNo,â she breathes out a laugh. âCanât.â
âYou can sign up for a slot through the libraryâs website,â you say after you weigh the thought.
Viâs pausing, staring at you like a deer caught in the headlights.
âSo I can get paid?â you fill in.
âOh, right,â Vi chokes. âRight.â
You give her a soft smile before plugging your earbud back in, leaving Vi to rejoin her obviously amused friend.
âYouâre fucking joking!â
The librarian gives you and your incredulous roommate a look from the circulation desk and you return it with a sheepish smile from where youâre tucked by a wall of looming floor-to-ceiling windows.
âMaddie,â you whisper.
âYouâre telling me that The Violet asked you personally to tutor her?â Maddie asks you, leaned over the tabletop with wide eyes.
âYeah, cornered me at Brew House this morning and asked me to tutor her in Medardaâs class.â
âJust that?â she asks. âNothing else?â
You look around in disbelief.
âUh, yeah?â you scoff. âWhat else would she want?â
âWhat else would sheâ are you serious?â Maddie leans back in her seat, arms crossing over her chest as she gives you a plain look. âYou know all about Vi, youâre actually gonna play stupid?â
âOh, come on.â You roll your eyes. âYouâve seen the girls Violetâs fucked, right? Kiramann? The blonde from the tennis team? Sheâs got a type and you know it.â
Itâs Maddieâs turn to roll her eyes and you see the exasperated groan sheâs staving off.
âNone of that self-deprecating bullshitââ
âItâs not self-deprecating!â you argue. âNot everyone wants to fuck Violet, Maddie. Put me in the number one spot.â
âYeah, okay.â
âDonât start.â
âAll Iâm saying is that anyone with eyes can see that Viâs hot as fuck. That being said, youâre also hot as fuck. Not only that, but rumor has it, she gives the most toe-curlingââ
Youâre rolling your eyes again, gaze fluttering out the window momentarily only to find that, speak of the devil, Violetâs approaching the library with a skip in her step.
Maddie stops her spiel to trace your gaze and nearly falls out of her seat when she finds the object of your conversation is advancing, fast.
âNo fucking way,â you whisper to yourself, pulling up your tutoring log on your tablet to find that, yup, Violet has most-definitely taken your advice and signed up for a tutoring slot.
If the time reads correctly, youâve got three minutes before sheâs due to be taking Maddieâs seat.
Your friend is grinning at you mischievously, stuffing her backpack quickly to vacate the space across from you.
âUn-fucking-believable,â you scoff, slumping back in your seat.
âTell me how it goes,â she giggles, slinging her bag over her shoulder as she stands.
âMaddie,â you warn.
âLove you, see you at home!â
Violetâs strolling into the library just as Maddie leaves through the other doors and try as you might make yourself small in the open air near the research center, her gaze falls on you as soon as she enters.
âHey,â she breathes once breaches your vicinity.
âHi.â
A moment lapses before youâre nodding towards the seat before you.
âWe can get started whenever youâre ready.â
Right. Right! Viâs mentally cringing, pulling the chair out with a squeak and dropping onto the worn cushion.
Her eyes are locked, watching as you pull the biometry textbook from your little messenger bag.
âAny particular areas youâre struggling in?â you ask, flipping to a clean sheet of paper in your notepad and clicking open your pen.
Vi combs her brain, tries to think of anything sheâs not really grasping in Medardaâs class, but sheâs been acing all the exams with flying colors, so she spits out the first thing that comes to mind.
âLogistic regression, probably,â she answers.
âIn relation to...?â You tilt your head and Viâs breath is hitching.
âThe Confusion Matrix,â she answers, even though she knows all about it.
Itâs only when you start breaking it down from the bare bones that she realizes that she could listen to you talk for-probably-ever.
You obviously have a great understanding of the subject if the way you deconstruct the relationship between sensitivity and specificity (or whatever the fuck) is anything to go by, and she doesnât realize that she hasnât even blinked until youâre glancing up at her.
âAm I making any sense?â you ask softly, taking in the almost confused look on Violetâs face.
âHuh?â
Vi snaps out of it, cheeks coloring pink when she notes the way you straighten in your seat.
âAm I going too fast?â
âNo, no!â Vi practically shouts before chancing an embarrassed gaze around the library to find a few wandering eyes. She clears her throat and tries to relax. âNo, youâre doing great. I get it.â
You donât seem convinced, but the faster you get through the material, the faster Violet can leave and you can finally catch your breath.
Because maybe Maddieâs a little right. That while you know, one hundred percent, without-a-doubt, that you and Violet are cut from two different cloths and that you ultimately wonât mesh, thereâs still a sliver of want that settles somewhere confined in the pit of your gut.
You donât know how long you continue before you notice that sun has begun to set in the horizon, but Viâs effort is unwavering. Sheâs probably on her tenth practice problem by now and so far, sheâs only flubbed once.
You decide to fold your cards first.
âO-kay,â you say, sucking in a sharp breath as you roll your shoulders and squeeze your hands shut so tight your knuckles crack. âThis is a good stopping point, donât you think?â
No, Vi could keep going forever if it meant hearing you talk all night, but the little G-shock wristwatch winks the time and she realizes that the two of you have been going at it for going on two hours and youâre probably exhausted.
âYeah, sorry, I didnât mean to keep you so long,â Vi says sheepishly. âThanks a lot for your help, I...â
You look up from where youâre shuffling your papers together, pausing when she hesitates.
âI really appreciate you. I know you probably help dozens of people every week andââ
She stops talking when she sees you crack what seems to be the first genuine smile she could get out of you since Friday.
âItâs my job, Violet,â you tell her. âIâm happy to help.â
And sheâd done well enough during the tutoring session, had a successful run with the practice problems. You were confident it was just a one and done. Perhaps served as a review for the upcoming exam Medarda had posted on the class page.
But then you see her name in the final time slot on Thursday, donât really think much of it until youâre tabbing to next weekâs schedule for shits and giggles. Tuesday and Thursday are booked through again, her name highlighted in yellow.
You minimize the calendar and pull up the aggregate schedule only to find that every 4 oâclock slot every Tuesday and Thursdayâs been booked until the end of the semester.
You refresh for good measure.
âOh, youâre so shitting me.â
You donât know what kind of joke this is, if Violet thinks that this is funny, but youâre not amused.
Especially when youâre stalking all the way to the athletic hall, ignoring the wolfish stares from shameless student athletes to whip into the womenâs hockey teamâs reserved conditioning space.
You find her benching near the center of the room, Abigail Anderson spotting her while the rest of the team engages in various workouts and exercises.
A hush ripples over the weight room as you approach the hockey star, standing at the end of the bench where her knees are bent. One of Abigail Andersonâs eyebrows quirk up as you stand there with your hands on your hips and you hope the chill that runs down your spine as she checks you out doesnât visibly vibrate your body.
When the barbell nearly crushes Viâs chest on her last rep, Abbyâs quick to help her re-rack and takes the biggest step back as Vi sits up.
Her expression falls and her face pales when she locks eyes with you, your features severe and gaze stony.
âOh, hey,â she squeaks.
Truthfully, she hadnât really pinned you as the type to be confrontational. Thought sheâd have enough time to build a strong enough story as to why she booked out all of your tutoring sessions when in actuality she panicked when Ellie started grilling the fuck out of her about being a fucking pussy and begging her to just ask you out.
âYou have some explaining to do, Violet.â
And she should definitely be embarrassed, not at all turned on, but she canât help it as she gulps. Because when you stand before her like this, she can easily admit that sheâd die for a private version of the view.
The silence in the weight room is palpable and you want to back down, but if this is some running joke and Viâs going to make a show of humiliating you in front of her teammates, then youâd give her a show.
âViolet.â
Someone in the back snickers, another whistles, and Viâs cheeks go red.
Sheâs standing, sweaty hands closing around your biceps as she spins you around and quickly guides you out of the conditioning room and out of her teammatesâ line of ogling sight.
âVââ
âIâm sorry,â Violet splutters. âIâm just not really confident in Medardaâs class right now and I donât trust myself to study alone, plus youâre a really good tutor andââ
âYou do realize that those tutoring sessions are added to your tuition, right?â you ask incredulously. âItâs fifteen dollars an hour.â
Viâs smile is crooked.
âThatâs what my scholarshipâs for,â she grins.
âDonât you think thatâs a bit excessive?â you try again. âI feel that before an exam for a little refresh is fair, but this would be like relearning the material after every class, all over again.â
âIf itâs taught by you, Iâll take it,â Vi says quickly, and you pause because what does she mean by that?
You donât really have much rebuttal left even though youâd marched up here with a fire under your ass. Viâs looking down at you with a softened edge in her gaze and sheâs wearing nothing but a pair of black sweatpants and sweat-soaked grey tank that reveals swathes of ink that curls up her arms and disappears under the fabric of her shirt.
She breathes out a small laugh when she notices the way your eyes dance.
âAnymore concerns, cupcake?â
Your gaze snaps to hers and her grin widens when she sees you fidget, little pet name obviously eliciting a semblance of a reaction from you.
âN-No,â you stammer.
âGreat, see you tomorrow?â
You swallow.
âOkay,â you agree. âSee you tomorrow.â
Violet pops into the library at four on the dot.
Her hairâs wet from an obvious shower and you smell her, warm like honey and cedar as she takes the seat across from you.
âAfternoon, cupcake,â she greets, slinging her backpack into the seat next to her.
You give her a warning look, but she just flashes you a toothy smile and nods towards the opened biometry textbook before you.
âWhatâs the lesson today, Teach?â
And this feels an awful lot like mocking, but you canât be sure, not when Viâs been somewhat respectful, sweet even.
âWhat do you know about the the sigmoid function?â you probe.
âJack shit,â she laughs.
And maybe youâd find it endearing if the entirety of the situation wasnât still absolutely mindfucking you at moment.
âCan I ask you something, Violet?â you ask, leaning back in your seat as you cross your arms to level her with as an intimidating look as you can.
âSure, anything.â
âAre you messing with me?â you ask. âIs this some joke you and your friends are playing? Because I canât really think of an outcome that would be funny.â
And youâd like to say that the look of horror on Violetâs face is consolation enough, but you know how being loved and being popular can make people act sometimes.
Vi contemplates telling you the truth, that sheâs too chickenshit to ask you out, that getting close to you in any other way scares the fuck out of her. That maybe getting you to tutor her will segue into some form of friendship thatâll allow her to ease her way in. And maybe sheâs going about it the hard way, but maybe Vi also likes a challenge.
âNo jokes, just bad at statistics,â she says weakly.
Youâre silent for way longer than comfort allows before you turn your attention to the textbook and Viâs letting out a breath she doesnât realize sheâs holding.
âFine,â you give in. âLetâs talk about sigmoid function and practice some applications...â
Viâs happy to listen, goes through your preselected practice problems with ease (and maybe fucks up a value or two here and there to really sell her need for you). But the sunâs going down again, and itâs nearing six when Vi folds her hand this time around.
It comes in the form of her stomach grumbling in the emptying library and she looks up at you in embarrassment as you crack the first smile of the evening.
âHungry?â you ask.
âStarving,â she replies dramatically, leaning so far back in her seat, her knees bump yours under the table.
Your toes curl at the contact, heart skipping when she doesnât make a move to reposition herself.
âHave you eaten yet?â she asks, eyes looking everywhere but yours.
âNot since breakfast,â you admit.
âYou like pizza?â
âOnly the good kind,â you challenge.
âBeautiful,â Vi hums, shuffling her papers into her textbook and chucking it back into her bookbag. âI know the best place.â
Valentinoâs is a hole-in-the-wall right outside of campus, a short walk from the library that Violet leverages as a way to get to know you outside of being lectured about statistical curves and correlation.
âDid you grow up around here?â Vi asks once the waiter sets two glasses of water down between the two of you.
You shake your head.
âNo, grew up on the east coast and decided I needed a break from my life there,â you admit easily.
Itâs almost as if the facade of professionalism fades away, melting to reveal you.
Viâs desperate for more.
âAs in?â
You look at her for a moment, wonder if you should divulge because youâre not really sure if Vi would get it, but she watches you like sheâs hanging onto every single word you say, so youâre spilling.
âMy dad died when I was little, left me and three other siblings with my Mom,â you offer. âAnd I love my siblings. Love my mom. Sheâs been a great parent, better than great actually, but most of our family disowned me when I came out and it was easier to run away than to deal with it.â
Violetâs expression falls, a furrow settling deep between her brows.
âWow, Iâm, uh, Iâm really sorry to hear that,â she says, and she sounds sincere. A long moment lapses before sheâs adding, âfor what itâs worth, I think thatâs very brave of you.â
And you seem a little surprised at the sentiment.
âThanks.â You smile. âThatâs sweet of you to say.â
Vi could turn to goo in this dimly lit booth, stained-glass wall sconce casting a warm glow over your pretty face.
âYouââ She sniffs, changes the subject because she doesnât know if she can do this on an empty stomach. âYou like pineapple on your pizza?â
âOh yeah,â you confirm proudly. âItâs a hill Iâll die on, Iâm not sorry.â
âGod, marry me now.â
She doesnât realize she says it out loud until youâre bursting into a fit of laughter on your side of the booth.
âSo this is something we can agree on?â you ask, head tilting in the way that makes Vi want to grab your face and taste you.
âOh yeah,â she parrots instead. âOne hundred percent.â
Valentinoâs becomes routine just as much as Vi seeing you at four every Tuesday and Thursday becomes routine. Itâs always after the Thursday session (because they have a three dollar slice from 6 to close) that you and Vi cram yourselves in the same booth near the kitchen and giggle over half a Hawaiian pizza.
â...And my little sister blew up her science project in the fourth gradeââ
You choke on your bite, eyes wide as Violet recalls Powderâs little mishap that sent the entire gymnasium evacuating despite the tiniest fire.
âNow sheâs about graduate and start school for chemical engineering,â she says, obviously proud.
âShe seems like a smart girl,â you observe, if the countless stories Violet shares with you is anything to go by.
You figure being related to someone as great as the new friend youâve made also speaks for itself.
âThe smartest,â she agrees. âIâm proud of her.â
âIâm sure sheâs proud of you too,â you assure her. âYouâre a good big sister.â
And itâs in these moments that Vi realizes that sheâs in far, far deeper than she initially gave stock. Because these past few weeks, she realizes that thereâs a lot more to your big brain and your pretty face. Youâre an attentive listener, way funnier than she could have anticipated, and just a lot more laid back than you let on.
That much she finds out after the two of you graduate from emailing with silly sign-offs to exchanging phone numbers and texting. It starts off rather irregular, a coffee order here and there, maybe a TikTok that Vi swears is funny, you just have to watch it all the way through! But then she starts texting you when sheâs bored, when sheâs in class, before practice, after. Even pops the question thatâs been niggling at her since she met you: on a scale from 1 - 10 how down are you to smoke?
Like cigarettes?
no, weed, dummy.
Oh. Hmm. 7. 10 if Iâm drunk.
She could not wipe the smile from her face even if she tried.
And then she gets the invite.
Ellie swears itâs her in.
âJesus Christ if you even consider me a friend, youâll bang,â Ellie calls from the couch.
âItâs just tutoring,â Vi argues.
âYeah, at her place,â she scoffs. âAt least test the waters, maybe cop a feel.â
âYouâre a pig,â Vi snorts, making sure her laptop and all of the worksheets Medardaâs assigned over the course of the week is in her backpack.
âYouâve been wet dreaming over this girl for months.â
âFuck all the way off.â Viâs face warms because her best friend isnât necessarily wrong.
Youâre too hot for your own good, but you donât even know it and Vi thinks she could die sometimes. Especially when you wear your favorite pair of jeans, the ones that hug the swell of your ass just right. Or swipe on that shimmery lipgloss she swears makes your mouth look edible.
If you were willing, Vi would be all over you, but thinking about taking advantage of the fact that you trust her enough to invite her into your space feels a little grimy.
âWhatever, bang, donât bang,â Ellie says nonchalantly. âBlueball yourself for all I care.â
Vi rolls her eyes, slings her bag over her shoulder before sliding on her shoes and leaving her friend on the couch with a resounding click.
You live off-campus, maybe a ten minute drive, in a cozy little complex near the suburbs. Your roommate, Maddie, a chipper blonde with a bob, is all too eager to leave when Vi arrives.
âHi, sorry we couldnât meet anywhere else,â you apologize as you let her into your space. âEven if the library wasnât closed, the vet said I have to monitor Pip for the next 48 hours.â
Vi raises a brow.
âMy cat,â you clarify.
âOh.â Vi doesnât know why she suddenly feels like sheâs intruding as she hesitantly toes off her shoes and follows you down the hall.
But she does take the opportunity to take you in in all your glory; all cozy and cuddly in an oversized sweatshirt, plaid pajama shorts and mismatched egg socks.
Cute. So fucking cute.
You spare her a glance over your shoulder and sheâs clearing her throat.
âWe donât have to have a session tonight," she says, stopping at the threshold of the living room. âI wouldâve understood if you had to cancel.â
You shake your head, give her a soft smile that has her knees feel like jelly.
âSâokay,â you assure her. âA promise is a promise.â
And you do start off studying, shoulder to shoulder in front of your coffee table, but then Pip crawls from his little hiding spot under the TV console to curiously nose along Viâs feet and sheâs a goner.
âHeâs so sweet,â she practically wails as he paws at her thigh and nudges against her arm so that he can climb into her lap.
You warm at the sight, canât help but snap a picture, much to Violetâs dismay.
âStop,â she laughs. âThat picture canât see the light of day.â
âWhy?â you whine, making a show of climbing onto your wooden coffee table to get a funny top down photo of the hockey star with your cat. âYou and Pip look so cute together.â
She feigns a scowl even though her shoulders shake with laughter.
âI have a bad boy image to uphold, sweetheart.â
You snort, reach into her lap to scratch behind Pipâs ear, and her heart melts, body warm from her ears to her toes.
âIs he sick?â she asks cautiously, petting him softly.
âJust a little,â you say. âSomething some rest and medicine wonât fix.â
Itâs how the two of you end up on the couch, study materials long forgotten as Animal Planet plays in the background. Pipâs moved to lounge atop the covers draped over your lap and youâre blowing your nose into a tissue as an especially sad segment about baby animals being rejected by their mothers finishes.
Vi knows she shouldnât laugh, but youâre too fucking cute and she canât help but coo at you.
âYou canât tell anyone about this,â you hiccup.
âWhat, that youâre a big soft baby?â she teases.
âVi,â you whimper.
And something in her brain tickles because she canât recall a time youâd ever called her by her nickname, only ever referred to her as Violet and nothing else.
She resists a smile.
âOkay, okay,â she gives in. âLets change the subject.â
You make a noise of agreement as you cuddle your sleepy Pip.
âI actually wanted to ask you something,â she says, arm slung over the back of the couch, fingers a hairsbreadth from your figure.
Test the waters, cop a feel.
Viâs not particularly into the idea, but the opportunityâs right there in the way wisps of your hair falls from its hold. Her fingers move of their own device, tucking the strands behind your ear.
She feels you still for the slightest, most imperceptible of moments, but then youâre relaxing, letting her fingers brush from your ear down to your shoulder, then back to where it rests on the back of the couch.
âYou doing anything on Saturday?â she asks, really hopes youâll say no.
âNot that I know of,â you say without second thought.
Not that you really need to. Your tight circle of friends are all alike, tethered to their hobbies and their homes.
âI have a game on Saturday,â Vi starts, fiddling with a little hole in the cushion. âIf you wanted to come.â
You donât agree or disagree immediately, and Viâs scrambling to soothe over any potential discomfort.
âYou donât have to if you donât wanna, of course,â she says quickly. âI justâ I thought you might be interested in going and Iâd really like to see you there andââ
A small little laugh puffs from your lips.
âOf course Iâll go,â you agree easily.
Vi deflates in relief.
âGreat,â she sighs. âAwesome.â
Vi doesnât know why she invites you. More so, she doesnât know why she tells her teammates that sheâs invited you because now theyâre whooping and hollering in the locker room, towel-whipping her and sing-songing that their star playerâs gonna get laid.
Doesnât know why she invites you because as soon as she glides on the ice, sheâs searching the stands high and low for your familiar figure. When she clocks you nestled in the middle with your roommate and another friend she vaguely recognizes, her heartâs soaring and her stomachâs twisting in knots.
Viâs never nervous, but somehow you bring out the worst of it.
It only takes a few moments, though. The blare of the horn snaps her back into her zone and she leaves all the noise off-rink. In this moment, all she knows is cutting ice, dodging the other teamâs most aggressive players and sinking shot after shot.
Itâs nearing the end of the second period when she finally glances at the score.
5â4.
The opposing teamâs giving them a run for their money and this is probably one of the tightest matches theyâve played all season. She takes a moment to find you in the stands again, and youâre right where she left you, eyes already glued to her as you hover over the edge of your seat.
She hadnât realized it before, but youâve got her number painted on her face and another surge of warmth layers over the exertion.
You give her a thumbs up and she feels like lightning.
They reset and sheâs off, like a streak of light in the night sky, sheâs shuffling the puck towards the goal.
Then you see the navy uniform barreling towards her, voice caught in your throat as Vi gives the puck one last shot before that damned Jersey Number Six shoves her so hard, sheâs flinging into the rinkâs wall.
The horn chugs, signaling the end of the second period and the stands erupt in a ceremonious cheer as the playback reveals that Vi had sunk the puck before time.
âFuck yeah!â you cry out, shooting to your feet to clap your hands.
Vi ignores the instigating chants to fight, only really pays attention to your little dance of excitement as she shakes off the other player and rejoins her team for intermission.
âFuck, Vi, you got it bad, huh?â Abigail Andersonâs spearheading the teasing once they all return to the locker room at the end of the game.
Viâs body heats at the thought, isnât really in the business of denying it anymore, because, you know what? Yeah. Viâs got it so fucking bad for you, she doesnât even know what to do with herself. Youâre her first thought, her final prayer, and everything in between.
So all she does he shrug, canât help the grin that splits her lips as she rubs her towel through her sweat-damp hair.
Sheâs the first one out of the locker room, dressed in some sweats and a pullover, towel slung around her neck as she steps into the tunnel. Your contactâs pulled up, and sheâs ready to fire off a text asking where you want her to meet you, but she stops short to see you already leaned outside of the change roomâs doors.
âHey, cupcake,â she murmurs, smiling hard when she finds the smudged number 5 still chalked on your face.
âHi, Violet,â you return shyly, hands clasped behind your back.
She hears the telltale whoosh of the locker room doors, the chattering of her teammates as they poke their heads out into the hall to be nosy, but sheâs guiding you along, throwing a wink over her shoulder as the two of you fall into step.
âThank you for coming,â Vi says after a moment. âYou being here really meant a lot to me.â
You donât know if Viâs always been this sentimental, but just never given the opportunity to showcase it, or if sheâs just buttering you up, but you canât help but beam at her with pearly teeth and dimpled cheeks.
âGod, Violet, you were so good!â you say excitedly, a little skip in your step. âYou were in the rink, skating circles around them, like this, and like this.â
She bursts into laughter as you start speeding down the tunnel, dodging garbage bins and jumping up into the air to click your heels.
Something falls out of your little fannypack when you land, and Viâs crouching down to pick up the tulle baggie to find a little beaded bracelet with a gold clasp that reads puck off.
âWhatâs this?â Vi asks, and you stop your shenanigans to turn your attention to her.
When your expression falters and youâre running back to her at full speed, sheâs holding the baggie up just a little too out of reach for you, grin smug.
âIs this for me, sweetheart?â she asks presumptuously, even though her heartâs thrumming hard in her ribcage.
Youâre on your tiptoes, chest pressed against hers, and god, please! is all Vi can think when your head tilts up, a little defeated knit between your eyebrows.
She milks the fuck out of whatever this is, arm banding around your waist as she returns the baggie to you.
âMaybe,â you whisper finally.
âMaybe what?â Vi teases.
âMaybe itâs for you,â you respond, free hand coming to rest on her chest.
âAnd what do I have to do to get it?â she asks, voice low.
It makes your body jolt hard as a shiver slinks down your spine because there she is, the insufferable flirt who knows exactly what to say to have your brain turn to mush.
You seem like youâre contemplating for a moment and Viâs breath is hitching in her throat, wondering if youâre willing to play this cat and mouse game with her.
You smile, something glinting in your warm eyes.
âPuck off.â
Your giggle is maniacal as you slip away, leaving her temporarily stunned before she chases you down the tunnel. And she should expect your speed, especially because youâve got legs, but it takes her a moment to catch up with you when her practice bagâs thumping on her back like that. Her calloused fingers are closing around the flesh of your hips in no time and sheâs pulling you back into her arms.
âCough it up, sweetheart,â she huffs.
You whine.
âIt was supposed to be a surprise,â you counter.
âGimme, gimme, gimme.â
And you give in because Violetâs made you weak. Sheâs holding out her wrist as you free the multi-colored bracelet.
You barely clasp the closure in the ring before Violetâs stumbling into you, a big burly girl from the other team shoulder checking the fuck out of her.
âNice job standing in the middle of the walk way,â she bites.
Violet only snorts a laugh.
âWhatever, good game,â she calls.
Whoever she is, stops, levels Vi with a deadly look before her gaze flits to the bracelet youâve just fixed around her wrist to you who stands frozen into place as the tension crackles between them.
âCute,â she observes and your skin prickles. âLet me take her for a spin?â
âViolet,â you warn when her shoulders square and she takes a step forward.
She looks torn between walking away and beating the shit out of whoever this instigator is, but one of her teammates is shoving her along.
âLeave it.â
Whatever that was shatters the moment between the two of you and Viâs taking in a deep breath as Abby trails behind the two of you.
The girl whistles for good measure and you throw a dirty look over your shoulder.
She winks.
Youâve still yet to find out who hosts these parties, but this time around gives you a weird sense of deja vu as you climb the steps with Maddie in tow.
You and Vi had parted ways at the rink, not before extending you an invite to the celebration later in the evening.
You should come, I can pick you up.
But per usual, DD duties call, and youâd smiled up at her despite the lingering pressure from the prior confrontation and promised her that yes, youâd absolutely be there.
Maddie squeals from the step below as you climb the front porch, breaths coming out in puffs of steam.
âYou look so hot,â she says excitedly.
You giggle nervously, sure hope you do because youâre freezing your ass off!
âYeah?â
Maddie gives you an incredulous look, eyelids powdered with glitter and gaze lined charcoal. Sheâs looking extra cute tonight too and you know that the two of you could fall into an endless cycle of teasing because a certain someoneâs probably inside tonight.
âIf she doesnât fuck you before the night ends, I will,â Maddie teases, and youâre warming unceremoniously at the thought.
Because maybe youâve been thinking about it a lot more recently despite only going into this trying to get through these tutoring sessions and dipping. Especially as of late now that Viâs made it a habit to FaceTime you after practice, on your walk to the library, dripping sweat and chest heaving.
Youâd always seen the appeal, but now you feel it.
You smooth down your asymmetrical skirt and Maddie steps up to adjust your tits in your lowcut lace blouse just as the door swings open to reveal none other than Violet.
âOhââ Her voice catches as she takes you in.
Maddie gives your ass a little swat and Viâs gaze is following the movement as your roommate pushes past her to slip inside.
âI wasâ I was just about to step out. To, uh, to call you,â she stammers.
You breath out a little laugh.
âHere I am.â
âYeah,â she agrees. âHere you are.â
Jesus, fuck Vi could burst into flames right now. Your boots hug your thighs and Violetâs not gonna lie, she really wishes it were her head squeezed betweenâ
âYou look...â Hot, so fucking edible, downright fuckâ â...really nice.â
You smile, but you canât help the way your teeth chatters.
âFuck, shit, youâre probably cold,â she curses, warm hands closing around your shoulders to pull you inside. âWhy didnât you wear a jacket? Youâre gonna get sick.â
I wanted you to want me.
âGuess I just forgot,â you say quietly.
She looks like she wants to scold you, but instead, sheâs pulling down her coat, a big black work jacket, hanging from the banister of the stairs around your shoulders and youâre relishing the residual warmth that lingers there and her familiar scent.
âCan I get you a cider?â she asks. âItâs still warm.â
It hits you as her fingers curl through yours, that Viâs truly nothing like what you initially thought. Sheâs sweet, and sheâs respectful, and sheâs everything you could ever hope for.
You freeze at the thought, and Viâs glancing at you when sheâs tugged to a stop.
âYou okay?â she hums.
Your eyes search her face, gliding over the scar on her lip and the one slit through her eyebrow. The gold hoop pierced through her nose glints under the lowlight and her thick lashes flutter as she looks down at you.
You give her a smile that doesnât quite reach your eyes because wow, youâre in deep.
âIâm okay,â you assure her, give her fingers a squeeze for good measure.
When she finally secures you a mug of steaming cider, sheâs guiding you to her group of friends that occupy the living room.
You only recognize Ellie, her best friend and her roommate, and Abby, the captain. Everyone else is a jumbled mix of names and faces and you stick close to Vi as she settles into the left corner of the couch.
You make a move to sit on the armrest, legs crossed and hands folded around your mug, but Viâs spreading her legs and pulling you into her lap before you can effectively protest.
Her warmth immediately engulfs you and it takes every ounce of self control not to curl up into a ball in front of all her friends and classmates.
As they recap the game and catch up with each other, you remain hushed, eyes flitting from person to person as they speak. Toes curling whenever Violetâs voice vibrates in her chest as she talks big about sports and the hot teams this season.
Youâre caught off caught when Ellieâs directing a question towards you and you barely register.
âWhat do you like to do?â she asks you.
All eyes audibly shift to where youâre cozied up in Viâs lap, cider empty and abandoned on the side table.
âUh.â
Your words are lodged in your throat because youâre so used to talking Viâs ear off about your interests (namely, Animal Planet and your son Pip), showing her your little craft projects you like to do in front of the television on a weekend evening (youâd taken a break from the scarf / hat combo you were knitting to finish the bracelet you designed for Vi), and yapping about some obscure film youâd watched while finishing said projects.
But here, now, you donât know what to say. Not when this isnât your typical crowd and you donât know what to expect from her friends.
Vi must feel your hesitation because her digits are slipping into her jacket, fingertips ghosting the small of your back as she presses a palm against your spine to smooth the tension there.
Itâs okay, is a silent insinuation.
You give her a look from the corner of your eye before you turn your attention back to Ellie.
âI donât do much,â you offer honestly. âJust starting my old cat lady duties early, I suppose.â
Ellie laughs benevolently.
âYou have a cat?â
âYes, his nameâs Pip, and heâs basically my kid.â
âCute,â Ellie coos. âYou got any pictures?â
And you seem to light up, spare Vi one more glance as you dig in her coat pocket to produce your cellphone, charms jangling as you power it back on to show Ellie the lockscreen.
âI contemplated naming him Toothless fromââ
ââHow To Train Your Dragon!â Abby fills in from across the couch. âThatâs such a good ass movie.â
It warms Vi to the bone, seeing you and her friends nerd out. Seeing them put in the effort because they know she likes you and seeing you reciprocate because, well, youâre you, and you just need a little warming up.
She doesnât know how long you and her friends chat for until youâre shifting a little and turning your attention back to her.
âCan you show me the bathroom, please?â
Her gaze flits to her circle, and theyâre smirking, obviously under the impression that this must be some sort of code the two of you concocted.
She ignores them, and most importantly she ignores the way her pulse jumps when you stand from your seat and perch between her legs, offering both of your neatly manicured hands to her.
This is getting fucking ridiculous.
The bathroom is tucked under the stairs near the front of the house and she stands post outside the door as you finish up.
Itâs only when youâre poking your head outside the door sheepishly that she stands up straight.
âCan you help me with my zipper?â you ask timidly.
She puffs a laugh, slips in through the space you crack for her to find you holding the two sides of your skirt together.
And she knows she shouldnât look, but the space allows her to see the pink lace of your panties. Sheâs shoving her tongue in her cheek, focusing on lining up the seams and pulling up your zipper as you hold the fabric taut.
âThanks,â you whisper, looking up to see that Viâs impossibly close to you in this cramped little powder room.
âAnytime, sweetheart,â she croaks, leaning against the counter as you wash your hands.
She thumbs the hem of your skirt absently.
âI like this,â she admits, gaze trailing up to meet yours. âYou look pretty.â
Your ears burn, unable to meet the smolder of her steely eyes. Youâd probably find that her pupils are blown wide if you did. Instead, youâre watching her mouth, lips stained cherry and tongue coming out to wet the dry patch.
You hold your breath as you reach across her for the hand towel, but her hands find your hips, teetering into dangerous territory as she moves almost close enough to slip her hands under your skirt.
âYouâre not gonna say thank you?â she asks, watching you through hooded eyes.
A nervous giggle bubbles.
âThanks, Violet,â you murmur.
ââCourse,â she agrees easily. âYou gonna wear it again?â
You bite.
âIf you ask nicely.â
She licks her lips again, body flexed as you allow her to press you closer. One of your hands splays on the counter behind her, the other brushing over the blooming bruise on her jaw.
âCan I?â she husks.
You donât need to ask for clarification, not when her nose is nudging yours and your breaths are mingling.
âYeah,â you sigh. âPlââ
The door rattles with the ferocity of whoeverâs knocking on the other side.
âHurry up in there, I gotta piss!â
To your dismay, the two of you donât talk about Saturday night. And thingsâs arenât particularly bad, but somethingâs definitely shifted and itâs driving you nuts.
Viâs on the ice practicing the following morning and after classes on Monday, so you wait for your session with bated breath on Tuesday. You try extra hard despite every voice of reason telling you that youâre reading into it too much.
Vi smiles at you easily as she drops into the seat across from you, pulling out her biometry textbook without so much as a peep about the fact that the two of you almost kissed in whoever the fuckâs bathroom that was over the weekend.
Youâre staring, hard.
Because that familiar feelingâs coming back. The seedling of doubt that had rooted in the beginning about Viâs intentions with you. Sheâd done a good job of weeding it out over the weeks, of dismantling whatever image youâd built of her in your head, but it plants itself again.
Sheâs squeezing your hand across the table and your gaze flits down to her rough fingers. Thatâs when you notice it, the bracelet, still fastened where you clasped it on game night.
You relax a fraction.
âEverything okay?â
You smile, something small.
âYeah, good,â you assure her.
The rest of your tutoring session is uneventful, goes off without a hitch. And youâre shameless in admitting that you hate to see her go as she walks you to your car in the student lot near the library.
Youâre grasping at straws, clearing your throat before she closes your door for you.
âUh,â you squeak. âDo you want to come over?â
Viâs pausing, hand still on the edge of your door as her lips twitch.
âLike right now?â
You nod because youâve already pulled the trigger.
âLike right now,â you confirm.
She checks her wristwatch, sighs heavily because fuck yes, sheâd love to come over right now, but Anderson and Williams are expecting her for a strategy meeting with the coach andâ
âSorry,â you say quickly. âYou donât have to, I know we only reallyââ
She pinches your cheek before tucking some of your hair behind your ear.
âI canât tonight, sweetheart, Iâm sorry,â she says. âBut tell you what, if youâre willing to free up your Friday night, Iâd really like to plan something.â
Your heartbeat skips.
âAll yours,â you say without missing a beat.
Viâs grinning wide.
âPerfect, drive safe,â she bids. âSee you tomorrow.â
And you donât know why youâre so fucking high strung, not when Vi hasnât done anything to make you doubt that this isnât all in your head, but it only gets worse as the days go by.
It doesnât come to a head until Thursday, when your tutoring slots are miraculously empty until Viâs and you receive an email from Medarda to meet in her office after her string of lectures.
âAfternoon,â the older woman greets, smiling warmly at you as she lets you into her office. âJust wanted to check in with your audit and request any feedback you have.â
You think for a moment before shaking your head.
âNothing in particular that I can think of,â you say easily, then add with a laugh, âfeel like Iâll be a professional by the end of the semester.â
âWhy do you say that?â Medarda chuckles as she logs into her computer.
âI have a student sitting every Tuesday and Thursday for tutoring in your class,â you reveal.
She gives you look crossed between surprise and amusement.
âReally?â
âYeah.â You giggle at the distant memory of Viâs expression in the weight room. âShe seems to be picking it up well enough, though.â
âHuh, every Tuesday and Thursday?â she asks, fingers flying over her keyboard. âI must be doing something wrong.â
âIâd hardly say that,â you say. âWhen Violet booked all my sessions, I thought it was a joke, but I think sheâs just really dedicated to doing well.â
âViolet?â Medarda repeats, hands stilling over her mouse.
âYeah, Violet, on the womenâs hockey team?â
Your professorâs eyebrows twitch.
âWhy would youâ huh. Weird,â she comments.
âI admit it was a little strange, butââ
âVioletâs a consistent top scorer on the exams,â Medarda shares. âSheâs been top of the class since the beginning of the semester.â
And itâs like the world stills as she reveals that information, fragile pieces shattering as the gears start turning in your brain and you try to put the puzzle together.
You glance at the clock, find that youâre due to meet Violet in half an hour.
âUh, if youâll excuse me,â you say politely, try to ignore the concerned expression etched on your professorâs face at your sudden departure. âIt was nice chatting with you. If I think of anything feedback-wise, Iâll be sure to email you.â
And youâre running.
Viâs in the locker room after practice, toweling off after an extra long shower because sheâs been looking a little extra forward to seeing you today, but perhaps thatâs everyday as of late.
Sheâs hooking the bracelet you gave her back on when her phone vibrates and sheâs practically diving into her locker when your text tone bleats.
sweetheart: I have to cancel your session this afternoon. Iâm sorry.
Her expression screws up.
everything ok? can i do anything for you?
sweetheart: Personal things to take care of. Iâll see you next week.
Iâll see you next week.
But what about tomorrow? Sheâd been working so fucking hard on tomorrow, on finally pulling her head far enough out of her ass to ask you to give the two of you a shot.
She sets her phone down, slumps down on the bench as she turns her wrist and takes in the smooth glass beads of the bracelet.
She sighs. Hard.
You hole up all weekend long, put your phone on do not disturb, and try your best to get whatever this is out of your system. But youâre a slave to your emotions and you canât help but check your messages every time you know Viâs free.
Itâs a single text on a Saturday night, one that surprises you because you know she has practice now that the big gameâs fast approaching.
violet <3: hey sweetheart, just checking in. i know you said you had a few personal things going on, but iâm here if you feel like you need someone <3
Youâre texting back before your better judgement can stop you.
Just been a little stressed. You wanna come over?
.
.
.
Then you add, We can smoke.
Viâs sending you three running emojis and you crack a smile at your screen before realizing that you need to shower.
You lay out some clothes beforehand, ultimately settling on last Saturdayâs skirt.
Viâs giggling as you fumble with the wrapper, rolling it with clumsy fingers because, truthfully, you donât do this often, but she shuts right up when you donât break eye contact as the tip of your tongue slides across the seam to seal the joint.
Sheâd picked you up with a Sprite and a slice to split from Valentinoâs, throat drying as you bounded down the stairs in the same fucking skirt that had her touching herself after sheâd gotten home from the party, guilty and wound tight. Now the two of you are tucked away behind some abandoned strip.
âReady?â Her voice rasps as you pop the end between your lips and she brings the lighter to ignite the end for you.
It burns as you inhale and Viâs thighs squeeze together involuntarily. Sheâd smoked with you twice before, both times on the roof of your apartment building and at a reasonable distance. But now, she knows what your body feels like, almost knows what your lips taste like.
You take a few more puffs before offering it to her and the smoke begins to plume to fill the space of her little coupe. Itâs moments like these, tucked away from prying eyes, that itâs just you and Vi.
Not Vi, the supposed womanizing hockey star, or you, the nerdy homebody tutor. Just the two of you, two souls trying to get through university and carve your paths.
âI aced Medardaâs exam this week,â Vi says softly, jay pinched between her fingers as she watches you with lowering eyes.
âOh, yeah? I wonder why,â you quip in return, face impossibly close to hers despite the console between you.
âI have a smartypants tutor that does an especially good job when sheâs motivated,â she answers.
Your cheeks flame, but you donât back down. Viâs been extra good at pushing your buttons and flirting hard as of late, and maybe youâre a little more than willing to receive and reciprocate, but the two of you have been toeing the line, yet neither of you have taken the leap.
This moment, however, feels like it could be it. Like youâre going to find out what the fuck all of this even is.
âI have to meet this tutor of yours,â you play along. âShe sounds like a miracle worker.â
âAmong other things,â Vi teases, sucking in the smoke and blowing it through her nostrils.
âLike?â
âSheâs also funny as fuck,â she hums. âA big baby when we watch Animal Planet.â
You narrow your eyes at her and Vi lets out a little laugh that makes your toes curl.
âUh-huh?â
âSheâs really fucking pretty too,â she says quietly.
âYeah?â
âYeah,â she affirms. âKind of pretty that makes you wanna do bad, bad things.â
You smile falters as a shiver rips down your spine and before you know it, Viâs putting out the joint before climbing in the cramped backseat of her car to spread her legs.
Doesnât even give you a moment to process before sheâs pulling you on top of her and allowing you to settle comfortably in her lap. Her hands run up your thighs and disappear under your skirt to grab the fat of your ass.
You breathe out a little giggle as your slender fingers come up to cup her jaw.
âThink my tutorâll be mad at me?â Vi murmurs, nose brushing yours. ââCuz I really, really wanna kiss this pretty girl in my lap right now.â
You let out a broken little sigh when her hips buck.
âMaybe sheâll forgive you,â you whisper. âI know I would.â
And thatâs all the affirmation Vi needs from you before sheâs taking the plunge and slotting her lips with yours; kissing you with so much fervor, youâd think she needs you to breathe. She tastes like mint and weed and you canât get enough.
Viâs all-consuming, her kiss a delicious mix of teeth and tongue. And, god, her hands. Rough and calloused, but gentle in the way she explores your body. It isnât until sheâs snapping the band of your thong and her fingertips ghost the seam of your sticky heat that youâre hyper-focusing.
âMmmph, Violet, Viââ Your voice cracks as she breaks from your lips to map a series of kisses from your jaw, to the juncture behind your ear, down the column of your neck. âWait.â
She stops, hands pulling from under your skirt like youâve burned her. And perhaps you have, branded nearly every part of her because she canât really think of a sound moment if youâre not there.
âSorry, sorry,â she shudders as the arousal ebbs through her tightened body. âIââ
Iâm caught up. Iâm losing it, and itâs all your fault, andâ
âViolet,â you swallow, fingers toying with the collar of her varsity sweatshirt. âI have something to say.â
Her throat bobs and her grey eyes gleam like ash in the lowlight of the backseat of her car. The windows are smoked out and itâs exceptionally warm, equal parts sexual tension and another thing Vi canât quite pinpoint.
âYeah, anything,â she assures you, hands resting on your waist instead. âYou can tell me anything.â
One of your palms settles over her chest, right where her heart is and you suck in a sharp breath.
âIâ uh, I really like you, Violet,â you admit quietly. âA lot more than I think Iâve ever liked someone in a long, long time.â
Oh.
Oh. Here it comes, the big fat rejection. The coming to your senses.
âBut?â
The look on your face is devastating and Viâs scared.
âI have to know that if I give you a chance, you wonât abuse it,â you hiccup, and wow, thatâs definitely not what she expects you to say, but fuck does it leave a sour taste in her mouth.
âAbuse it?â she repeats, face crumpling.
âViolet,â you sigh.
âAbuse what?â she husks.
âI know youââ
âDo you?â she scoffs, a wave of irritation washing over her as she looks you with disappointment. âWhat gave you the idea that I would ever even dream of taking advantage of you giving me a chance?â
âYou donât necessarily have a spotless record, Violet,â you say, voice edged. âAnd I know that Iâm not your usualââ
âNot my usual what?â The venom in Viâs tone is uncharacteristic, but this is not at all how she expected tonight to go and sheâs frustrated. âNot my usual type? You internalized all this shit that people say about me even though Iâve been trying to get you to see me for months.â
Emotion clogs your throat because a small part of you knows that Viâs right. Sheâs never given you an outright reason to doubt her interest in you, but it all just seems too good to be true.
âSue me for wanting to protect myself,â you choke, climbing out of her lap and back into the front seat. âEspecially because I know that you donât actually need help in Medardaâs class.â
And that catches Vi off guard. You see as much in the rearview mirror when she pales.
She clambers back into the driverâs seat.
âWho told you that?â she asks, not even bothering to deny the fact.
âI mentioned that I was tutoring you in passing when Medarda asked for feedback on her class,â you respond, crossing your arms over your chest. âShe asked why Iâd be doing that when youâre top of all her sections.â
Violetâs voice is stuck in her chest.
âAnd then your past hook ups parade around campus like a reminder thatâ,â you cut yourself off, obviously hurt after bottling this all up. âAnd it isnât any of my business, nor are we anything enough for me to plausibly upsetââ
âYes, I lied,â Vi admits quietly. âBut only about one thing.â
Your breath catches.
âYouâre right, I donât need help in Medardaâs class. I lied about being clueless and I signed up for tutoring even though I didnât need it,â she says.
âWhy?â
âYou know why,â Vi huffs. âFrom the moment I met you, I knew.â
Itâs a glaring insinuation that makes you crack.
âNo one ever says it out loud, but I know what everyone thinks,â you choke. âVioletâs fucking that loser?â
âYou really believe that?â
âGod, Violet, I donât know what to fucking believe,â you cry out. âMy lifeâs fucking fine and dandy and then you show up and make me fucking question everything Iââ
Vi lets out a humorless laugh, canât even look at you and it could make you sick.
âYouâre so fucking loved by everyone, even those who wonât admit it,â you croak. âAnd youâre incredible at everything you do, turn everything you touch to gold, and Iâm just...â
Viâs brows furrow.
âYouâre what?â
âIâm me,â you whisper meekly. âIâm just me and youâre you, and I just donât see what makes me so different.â
And Vi realizes that sheâd read it all wrong.
âLook at me,â she says softly, fingers tracing your jaw.
You knuckle your tears away, make a petulant noise in your throat.
âYou wanna know why I booked all your stupid tutoring sessions?â she huffs. âBecause I really fucking like you, ________. And itâs beyond wanting to fuck you even though god knows Iâd fucking die if you let me. Itâs so much more than having you physically. Because Iâll take being just friends with you if it means having you around. I donât give a shit about anything else but you.â
Itâs the most sound declaration you hear from the girl in the semester youâve known her and it makes you cry.
âYou make me feel so fucking normal and you remind me that I donât need to be anything else but me,â she breathes. âAnd I get where youâre coming from, I hear you. I just really hope you hear me too.â
âI do,â you whisper. âIâm justââ
Vi squeezes your thigh, takes your hand in hers and brings your knuckles to her lips.
âLetâs get you home, okay?â she offers gently.
Vi only has one more game before the championships and she wonât lie and say that this limbo with you has her feeling like sheâs going to be ill.
Youâd cancelled her tutoring sessions this week, told her that maybe the two of you needed to spend some time apart and that she was clearly doing a number on you. So she agrees, tries to give you space to work through whatâs weighing on you.
sweetheart: Good luck at your game tonight, Violet. Iâm rooting for you.
She really wishes youâd be there, but she knows you need the time alone.
thanks, sweetheart. i appreciate you.
âAlright Vi, we have fifteen til puck drop,â Ellie says carefully, has been front row to everything transpiring between you and her best friend.
Vi tucks her phone away in her backpack, unhooks your bracelet from around her wrist and fastens it to the handle of her bag, and grabs her stick from the rack before she lets her teammates jostle her into the tunnel.
And she wishes she could lock in, clear her head and get into the game, but all she can think about is you.
Itâs a narrow victory once the game ends, but she canât find it in herself to celebrate, especially not at the kickback afterwards because fucking Sev and her assholes are there.
âWhereâs your little dime piece?â she taunts.
âFuck off,â Vi warns, obviously not in the mood.
âShame,â she whistles. âShe looks like a fucking weirdo, but she sure does have a fat assââ
Ellieâs fist cracks so hard across her jaw.
âShe told you to fuck off,â she hisses.
Sev spits the blood in her mouth on the toe of Ellieâs shoe, fists bunching the collar of her sweater.
âKeep that fucking energy on the ice because Iâm gonna wipe the floor with your fucking pissbaby team.â
You wake up on Monday morning to a text from Vi and a handful of notifications from Instagram.
violet <3: can i see you this week?
You open Instagram.
sev.94 has requested to follow you! sev.94 has sent you a message request!
Your brows furrow, opening the message request hesitantly. Thereâs a few DMs and a video from this Sev person.
sev.94 hey pretty, sorry to text you like this. sev.94 just thought you should know the kind of person your little girlfriend is sev.94 sent a video. sev.94 i donât really do relationships, but iâd take your mind off of it if you let me.
Youâre playing the video, quality grainy and audio blasted. You donât know what youâre looking at at first, itâs dark, and thereâs so many voices. But you see skin, see the outline of a girlâs naked back, delicate and arched in pleasure.
You think this Sev personâs just fucking with you, playing some stupid joke with a shitty punchline as someoneâs hands snake around to palm the flesh of the unnamed girlâs ass, but then you see it.
The bracelet.
Vi going to lose her shit for two reasons.
(1) Because you havenât responded to her message despite your read receipts being on, and (2) she canât fucking find the bracelet youâd gifted to her.
Sheâs barging into Ellieâs room, shirtless and hair dripping.
âJesus, fuck, do you knock?â Ellie hisses, buds she was in the midst of grinding scattering across the floor.
âI canât find the bracelet she gave me,â Vi says quickly.
Ellieâs face scrunches.
âHuh?â
âThe bracelet ________ gave to me,â Vi says. âI hooked it on my backpack before practice on Saturday but itâs not there anymore.â
Ellieâs expression morphs, eyes narrowing in thought.
âMaybe you misplaced it,â Ellie offers. âRegardless, we practice tonight, Iâll help you look for it.â
Viâs chest is tight, doesnât want to admit that the stupid little bracelet means way more to her than she lets on. She only ever takes it off when sheâs on the ice, wonât risk losing it when sheâs got a target on her back and everyone plays rough.
It turns out to be futile when they enter the rink and she retraces her steps only to come up empty-handed.
This, she realizes, is the start of a very long week.
You shouldâve seen it coming, really. Donât know why you tried to psyche yourself into thinking that Vi could ever really want something with you when the worldâs her fucking oyster and she can have anything she wants.
And you want to feel bad when she texts you intermittently through the days, checking in, offering to meet you, anything. But part of you is angry, unforgiving, tired.
You couldâve gone the rest of the school year unscathed if sheâd just left you the fuck alone, but she pried and she tugged and she settled, and she made a home inside of you and you hate that you let her.
xxxx: i really miss you.
You block her number, block her social media, and even though finals are imminent, you now know that Viâs been playing you for a fool this whole time and you cancel every last one of the sessions sheâs booked.
You hope sheâd get the message, figure that youâd caught onto her little game and arenât willing to play anymore, but she doesnât, that much is clear when youâre finishing up your two thirty session and find her stalking into the library just as the student leaves your table.
âAre we going to talk like adults or are you going to keep acting likeââ
You donât entertain a response, just pack your bag and sling the strap over your shoulder because the tears are bubbling and you donât trust yourself not to break.
âSeriously?â Vi bites, hot on your heels as you throw all of your weight against the library doors and suck in the icy air.
âLeave me alone, Violet,â you warn.
âNo, fuck that,â Vi spits, hand closing around your bicep. âYou donâtâ You donât get to make me fall for you and then try to leave with no explanation.â
âFuck you,â you whisper.
âWhat?â
âFuck you, Violet,â you hiccup, yanking your arm from her grasp and putting as much distance as you can between the two of you. âI hope you and your friends got a good laugh out of it.â
Her face is screwing up and if she wasnât confused before, sheâs definitely confused now.
âListen, I canât fix something if I donât know whatâs wrong,â Vi argues. âIâm so fucking lost right now.â
You hate how believable she is. How the thought of hurting you seems so inconceivable to her. But that grainy video was clear enough.
âI hate you,â you murmur. âI hate you, I hate you, I hate you.â
Your name comes out broken, like youâve wounded her. But youâve officially folded your hand, wonât dare look her in her eyes because the both of you know itâs not true.
The championships roll in fast like a tide and neither your or Violet are ready for it.
You hear theyâre live streaming the game, itâs the most anticipated one in the season. Piltover Stallions against the Zaun City Tigers. A part of you wishes you could support them, but then youâre starkly reminded that youâre a laughingstock amongst them.
The library on a Friday night is as quiet as can be, the hum of the fluorescents background to the voices in your head that are loud. Youâre so engrossed in the study material that you donât realize someoneâs making a beeline for you until theyâre knocking on the tabletop.
Ellie Williams stands before you in all her lean glory, hands sunk in her pockets as she stares down at you.
âArenât you supposed to be playing?â Your tone is clipped, disinterested because you believed that you and Ellie could be friends once upon a time.
âCoach sat me out because I socked one of those dickhead Zaun City Tigers in the mouth last weekend.â
You humph.
âListen, we donât have much time left, so Iâm going to make this short and sweet,â she says. âWhatever happened between you and Vi is obviously personal and that typically would have nothing to do with me, but she canât get her shit together because all she can think of is you.â
âAnd thatâs my problem because...?â
âI know that Vi comes off a certain way, but sheâs my best friend, like my best friend in this entire shithole of a world, and sheâsââ
âNo offense, Ellie,â you cut her off. âBut if Vi sent you here to plead her case, I think thatâs pathetic andââ
âOkay, well maybe if you shut up for three seconds and let me get to my pointââ
You close your textbook and shove it in your backpack before standing to signal the end of the conversation.
âWhatever, I donât have time for this.â
Ellie watches you walk away, takes in a deep breath because wow, youâre a bitch when youâre mad, but she absolutely gets why Vi is whipped.
âVioletâs in love with you.â
And that statement makes you freeze. Tears cloud your vision as your fists tighten around the strap of your bag.
âIf you fuck someone else while youâre in love, I want nothing to do with it,â you bite.
Ellieâs brows shoot up.
âWhoa, what?â
âViolet fucked someone else as soon as things got tough, and if thatâs the kind of person she is in love, Iâd rather be alone,â you say stiffly.
âRespectfully, thereâs no way Viâs interested in getting pussy from anywhere else with how down bad that bitch is for you, but even if she was, I spend over seventy percent of my day with her and know that all sheâs been doing the past two weeks is moping over the fact that you handed her ass to her on a silver platter.â
âThereâs a video.â
Ellieâs brows must be mingling with her hairline right about now.
She reaches a palm out.
Show me.
You open the DM from sev.94, watching as Ellieâs expression morphs from morbid curiosity to disbelief, to a quiet rage.
Sheâs handing your phone back to you and grabbing you by your forearm.
âSheâs fucking dead.â
When you enter the rink, the ice is tense.
Itâs the middle of the second period and the game is tied 3â3.
Your eyes comb the playing area, canât find Viâs jersey number in the mix, but finally settle on her on the bench, shoulders terse and obviously on edge.
She doesnât clock you yet, had given up on the idea of patching things up with you after your last conversation.
âViâs been missing her bracelet since practice on Saturday,â Ellieâd told you on the way there, then pulled out her phone to show you the photo sheâd taken of Vi passed out in nothing but her boxers on the couch the night of the last game, fucked up and sad. âWe went out for like an hour after the game, but that was it. Vi was too fucking in her head.â
The girl from the tunnel, the one whoâd been taunting the two of you, you piece together, has been the one behind it all, stirring the pot.
Throughout the end of the second period and all through intermission, Vi doesnât notice you, too busy trying to get off the fucking bench to survey the crowd.
Itâs only during final puck drop in the third period that their coach finally gives in, smacks the back of her helmet and tells her to make him proud that she lifts her head up.
And there, front and center of the student section is you.
Her eyes are wide, body frozen in place as she tries to figure if youâre just a figment of her imagination, but then the hornâs blaring and sheâs having to zone back in.
At this point in time, she doesnât give a fuck if they win or lose, she just needs to get to you.
âYour little bitch looks cute tonight,â Sevika comments wolfishly. âBet she tastes as good as she looks.â
Vi easily intercepts her pass, cuts between two players as she shuffles it along with practiced precision. She sends the rubber flying and the goalie narrowly misses block.
âMaybe if you played as good as you ran your mouth, youâd wipe the floor with my pissbaby team you big bitch,â Vi calls, resetting in their corner.
And perhaps youâre her good luck charm, the only thing she needed to see to get back into it, because Vi reignites. The adrenaline pumping through her veins fuels every shot, and soon the timerâs buzzing.
7â5.
The roar is deafening, but youâre all she sees in the ocean of cowbells and pompoms.
She barely inches forward before something arcs through the sky and lands before her feet.
Her bracelet.
You watch from the sidelines, the final confirmation as Vi picks up the loop and launches herself at Sevika.
The crowd cheers.
Fight, fight fight!
You donât know how many swings Vi gets in, just know that sheâs flashing you a bloody smile before she skates off the ice.
Ellie emerges from the locker room and youâre perking up.
Most, if not all, of Viâs teammates had come and gone and youâd been waiting patiently, anxiously, for her to emerge since the end of the game nearly an hour ago.
âSheâs the last one in there,â is all Ellie says before strolling off.
âWhat if...what if she doesnât want to see me?â you ask hesitantly.
Ellie chuffs a little laugh, doesnât bother turning as she calls from halfway down the hall, âFind out for yourself, sweetheart.â
Viâs pulling a tank top over her head as soon as you enter and your cheeks bloom when you catch a split-second of her tits.
She glances up at you, nose bruising and lip busted.
âHey,â she spares you, stuffing her uniform and skates into her gym bag.
âHi,â you squeak.
A pregnant pause as you take her in, hesitant to close the distance between the two of you.
âDidnât think youâd make it,â she observes.
And you donât really have a bullshit response, know that you had every intention of staying as far away as humanly possible, so you settle on humming your agreement.
âEllie told me,â she starts. âWhy you lashed out on me.â
You swallow.
âAnd part of me gets it, I really do,â she continues, âbut I also thought you had more faith in me than that.â
âIâm sorry,â you whisper. âFuck, Violet, Iâm so sorry.â
âI told you to free up Friday night a few weeks ago,â she says, shuts her locker door and slumps down on the bench behind her. âI was going to tell you everything, officially ask you out, but then all that shit happened and it caught up to me.â
You take a step forward, and then another, and another until youâre standing in front of her.
âYou have to know that I would never do something like to anyone, but especially not to you,â she says softly, taking your hands in hers.
âI know.â
She brushes her lips against your knuckles, pulls you in closer so that youâre standing between her legs.
âYouâre right,â she continues, voice hoarse. âI donât have a spotless track record, but I meant it when I said that I donât give a shit about anyone else but you. I would give you anything I can if you let me.â
Your hands rest on her shoulders, her chin resting against the plush of your belly as you look down at her, speechless.
âThat night, in the car, you said that you didnât see what made you so different.â
âI donât,â you admit.
Vi stands, caging you between strong arms as she drops her face into the hollow of your neck. You shiver when you feel her lips press to the skin there.
âWe could start off with the obvious.â
One of her hands rests on the small of your back, pulls you flush so that the only things that separate you are the flimsy fabrics of your clothes. The other grabs a handful of your ass.
âI meant it when I said that youâre the kind of pretty that makes me wanna do bad things.â
You gulp, thighs squeezing as her lips part and she bites.
âVi.â
âYou got a giant brain,â she laughs breathily, fingers coming around the fiddle with your belt.
She kisses you, mouth hot and breath warm. Itâs better the second time around, no doubt obscuring you from truly indulging.
âPlâease.â
âYouâre kind and youâre selfless, and youâre my sweet, sweet little crybaby.â
âViolet,â you sigh breathlessly. âListen to me.â
âYeah, sweetheart?â
âFuck me,â you pant. âPlease.â
Violet nearly runs two red lights and whips into your neighborhood on two wheels.
The two of you are stumbling up the stairs and sheâs spanking your ass on the last step as you fiddle with your keys and try to find the right one under the dim light of the complex hall.
Violetâs already unbuckling her belt as you turn the key, nearly taking you down as she shoves you inside and up against the front door.
âMaddie home?â she breathes.
âOut of town,â you answer quickly, kicking off your sneakers and pulling your sweater over your head. âVisiting her family upstate.â
âPerfect,â Vi hums. âIâve been fantasizing about fucking you on your couch.â
âOhââ
One of her rough hands comes to cup your tit over your bra, her tongue laving over the other while her free hand makes work of the clasp.
You walk her back to the couch, stand between her knees as she flops back into the seat. Her arms spread over the back as she settles in, legs widening to give you ample room to strip.
Her eyes never leave yours as you easily unclasp your bra and shimmy out of your jeans, leaving you in nothing but a tight pair of little lace panties and pink socks that has Vi wet.
âCâmere,â she rasps, pulling you to straddle her lap.
Her lips immediately latch onto one of your pebbled nipples, tongue hot as her hands wander.
âFuck.â
âTell me what you want,â she husks, biting down on the swell of your breast.
And having Violet this close, her touch excruciatingly featherlight and tempting, you wind tight.
âWant you inside of me,â you whimper, fingers fixing around her throat. âPlease.â
âYeah?â she eggs you on, lips brushing yours as her palms settle on your ass. âYou want me to fuck you?â
You nod eagerly, hips rolling in her lap as her breath pitches.
âVi.â
Her nickname puffing from your lips makes her crack. Youâre wound in her arms, face in her neck as she peels your thong taut, away from your waiting cunt, and runs her fingertips from your slit down to your clit.
âF...Fâuck,â you sigh.
âHoly shit,â she marvels, licking her lips when she easily glides through your folds. âYouâre really fucking wet.â
You grind down against her, clothed clit catching against her belt buckle. The cool metal sends a jolt through your pussy and youâre moaning loud in her ear.
And Violet really wants to take her time with you, wants to milk the first time she ever gets to fuck you for as long as she humanly can, but sheâs still fully dressed and youâre practically naked, perfect tits pressed to her chest and fat ass in the palm of her hand.
She shifts you further into her, so that she can peek over the arch of your back as she sinks her middle and ring finger three knuckles deep into your needy heat.
âAh, fuck, Violet.â Your voice breaks as she starts pumping into you, your arousal coating her fingers and the sound of her easily slipping through your pussy reverberating through the living room. âFuckfuckfuck.â
She kisses your jaw, litters them until sheâs catching your lips and licking crudely into your mouth.
You cry out when her fingers slip out.
Sheâs leaning the both of you forward, easing you from her lap and onto the couch as she takes a moment to shuck her shirt off and pull her belt through the loops in one tug.
You watch her through it all, the way the trim muscles of her biceps and shoulders flex as she leans over you, takes you by the ankles and yanks you until your ass is half-hanging from the edge of the couch.
She kneels before you, strips you out of your thong.
You donât miss the way she shoves the soiled fabric in her jeans pocket.
âJesus,â she breathes, gaze fluttering between your eyes and your pussy. âYouâre so fucking pretty, sweetheart.â
Your toes curl at the praise, fingers closing around where Viâs holding your legs apart.
âYou know how bad Iâve been wanting to taste your pussy?â she rasps, gathering the lewdest amount of spit to dribble onto your clit. When you donât answer, sheâs freeing a hand to slap your slit.
âNnngh, fuck!â
âThink Iâve always wanted to have you,â she admits. âBut it was that stupid party fucking party and that stupid fucking skirt. God, I wouldâve fucked you in that skirt if you let me.â
âYeah?â you whine breathlessly. âTell me.â
Sheâs stuffing you again without warning, curling her fingers in a way that has your back arching off the couch.
âWouldâve bent you over that sink and made you watch yourself while I ate you out,â she says easily.
And itâs so fucking delicious, the nasty shit Viâs saying to you while she pounds your aching heat; the way she finally gives in and tastes you, sucking on your clit like sheâs starved and youâre the only thing that can sate her hunger.
Your fingers curl through her hair as you teeter dangerously over the edge, nails grazing her scalp and tugging when she hits the spot deep inside of you that has you keening for more.
âIâm gonna fuckinâ cum,â you choke. âHoly fuck.â
You feel Vi grin against your pussy, watch her with a slack jaw and half-lidded eyes because the sight of her between your legs in your moonlit living room has your insides twisting hard.
âCâmon, sweetheart,â she encourages you. âCum all over my fingers. Wanna see you gush.â
âHah, hââ Your thighs tighten around her head, fingers curled so hard in her hair, she moans in a mix of pleasure and pain. âDonât stop, Vi, please.â
She moans into your cunt, savoring the heady taste of you as you practically ride her face.
The sound that fills the room is downright filthy, the sight that Vi beholds when she peeks from where sheâs devouring you equally so. Itâs picturesque, the way she has you writhing. A sheen of perspiration glistens over your flesh as she eats you out and itâs a perfect mix of her tongue and her fingers that send you soaring over the edge.
Itâs a pitched whine that echos, the staccato of your shaky breathing that sings like music in her ears as you cum. And hard.
Her lashes flutter against the skin of your inner thighs as she peppers kisses there, her lips slick with spit and arousal.
âFuck, babe,â she whispers. âThat was...â
She canât really choose a specific word, is just mind blown at the fact that sheâd just made you cum so hard and so fast. It makes her tense and tingle, a smug wave of pride washing over her as she starts mouthing a trail from your belly, between the valley of your tits, up your throat, to finally press a chaste one on your lips.
You taste yourself first and foremost, but then you taste everything sheâs ever wanted to say to you, all the unspoken words and the things sheâd been too scared to share. Feel it in the way her hands are roaming, squeezing, caressing.
You breathe a disbelieving laugh, peck her lips again when she pulls away to brush your hair from your face.
âViââ Your breath hitches and your eyes glaze.
âI know, I know.â
You wrap your arms around her shoulders, legs hooking around the narrow of her waist as she bears your weight and picks up your boneless figure.
âIâm not done with you yet, sweetheart.â
The sun is warm against your skin when you wake up the following morning, your bedroom bathed in an orange glow.
You feel bone tired, body sore and muscles tight as your arm sweeps the other side of the bed in search of balmy skin, but instead youâre met with cool sheets and swelling dread.
You sit up quickly, find that youâre still naked, and take a moment to asses your bedroom. The bathroom doorâs cracked, light off, and everything else is exactly where you left it.
Everything except Vi.
Oh, you think to yourself.
Almost donât want to leave your room because your empty apartment will be confirmation enough that Vi really did get the last laugh in the end.
But you force yourself out of bed, shrug on an oversized t-shirt before finding the living room just as still as it had been before the two of you had barreled in the night before and sheâd left her mark on you.
The only sign that the entire thing wasnât just a figment of your imagination was Viâs belt strewn haphazardly on the coffee table.
You feel hollow, almost numb, and even if a persistent part of your brain was consistently telling you that you shouldâve known better, the tears well in your eyes because youâd really hoped Violet was different.
You knuckle the tears away angrily, mind racing far too fast to register the door quietly unlocking and the soft footfalls coming down the hall.
âBabe?â
Your gaze snaps up.
Like a vision, Viâs standing in the doorway, a handful of plastic bags in tow. Sheâs wearing her clothes from last night and the puffs under her eyes make her a little worse for wear.
She sets the bags down on the eat-in, rounds the couch to take you by the shoulders.
âWhatâs wrong?â she worries. âWhatâs going on?â
You hiccup, crumpling in her arms because you were so fucking scared.
âThought you left,â you croak.
Vi breathes a sigh of relief, blowing out a hollow laugh because her girlâs such a baby.
âYou have jack shit in your fridge,â she teases lightly. âHow am I supposed to make you a five star breakfast with greek yogurt and carrot sticks?â
You whine.
âDonât care about breakfast,â your muffled voice sounds from where your face is pressed in her chest. âJust wanted to wake up to you.â
Violet groans.
âYouâre so cute,â she laughs, kissing the top of your head.
âI wanna go back to bed,â you mutter petulantly, emotional whiplash making your eyes droop.
âYouâre not gonna let me make you breakfast?â Vi picks, smoothing the hair from your face.
Your eyes catch the bracelet refastened around her wrist and you grin softly, taking her fingers to press a kiss to her palm.
She could combust, gaze gooey as she watches you watch her.
Yeah, Vi has a huge problem.
One thatâs particular, and overarching; one she doesnât think she can go without.
And frankly, she wouldnât have it any other way.
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ghost. part ii â sevika x reader WC: 4.4K
â: wrote n proofread while crossed. chop shit fr. will reread when sober n correct errors if needed. â ď¸: kissing, alcohol consumption, mild misogyny, blood, psychological horror/thriller elements
As you enter the elevator, the world outside seems to blur; your polished fingernail quivers while pressing the button for floor thirteen. The brass numbers shine brightly beneath the harsh fluorescent lights, and in the mirrored doors, you glimpse your reflectionâpale, weary, haunted.
Your mind is a mess, running a million miles a minute as it replays the previous night. The pounding in your skull is relentless, a hangover blooming behind your eyes. You rub your temple, trying to will away the ache, the scent of stale perfume and coffee clinging to your skin.
Just as the doors begin to close, an arm darts through the narrowing gap. You flinch, causing one of the coffees in your tray to slosh over, scalding your wrist. You wince, looking upâstraight into Sevikaâs steely gaze. Your breath catches, the air between you charged.
She doesnât say a word, just steps in beside you. The elevator hums upward, the tinny jingle and mechanical whirring filling the silence. You risk a glance at herâsheâs staring straight ahead, jaw set, eyes shadowed. You look away, heart hammering.
The elevator shudders to a stop. Sevika slips out, brushing past you and Matt. Her stride is purposeful, and her presence leaves a chill in her wake.
A cackle leaves his lips, snapping you back to the present moment. âDamn, Sevika, you ainât got no sleep last night, eh?â His tone is crude, the words hanging in the air like smoke.
He turns his attention to you, lips curling in a smirk. âJesus, little miss. You okay? You look like youâve seen a ghost.â
âW-whatâŚ?â you stammer, eyes fixed on the door Sevika just disappeared through.
He scoffs, rolling his eyes as he snatches a cup from your tray.âDamn woman, canât handle yer liquor.â He steps into the elevator, leaving you in the hallway, the scent of burnt coffee and cologne lingering.
You move on autopilot, feet carrying you to the office. The familiar clatter of typewriters and the low drone of voices fill your ears, the normalcy of it all jarring against the chaos inside your head.
Your gaze finds Sevika instantly. She looks⌠different. Her hair, usually pulled back with military precision, hangs loose around her face. Dark circles bruise the skin beneath her eyes, her posture tense, almost harrowing. Sheâs the picture of exhaustion, of something unraveling.
Though your head snaps in the opposite direction, the second her eyes meet yours, your heart rate increases. You can almost feel her gaze piercing through you like a blade.
âGet Outâ
Sevikas previous words linger in the air, sending a biting chill down your spine.Â
She was usually so meticulously eloquent. Every word uttered seemed to be carefully thought out, practised, and planned. To see that crumbling down within the blink of an eye was beyond disconcerting.Â
You force your mind to redirect, focusing on the mundane. Allowing the soft hiss from the coffee machine, measured typing of keys, and hum of fluorescent lights to steady your racing heart. Anything to drown out the memory gnawing at the edges of your mind.Â
Last night had to have been a trick, too much alcohol, not enough sleep. People dont changeâŚnot like that. Not Sevika.
You catch yourself glancing at her once again, searching for any sign of the monster you thought you saw last night. But she just looks tired. Human. Vulnerable, even.
Maybe you imagined it, maybe you saw something that wasn't there. It had to be a hallucination, a nightmare. It had to be.
Then you remember the way her voice cut through the air, sharp and cutting. The glint in her eyes-wild, ravenous. No. Thatâs impossible. Thereâs no such thing asâŚ
You shake your head, pressing a clammy palm to your forehead, trying to force the memory away.Â
Get it together. You think as you throw yourself into work, determined to free your brain from the tormenting recollection of the night prior.
The flashing green numbers from the Quotron terminal begin to jumble on the screen, only worsening your headache. You decide to take a break, heading to the break room.
You almost stop in your tracks when you see Sevikaâs figure looming over the counter, her head hung low. A soft gulp breaks the silence, her head snapping up to you, eyes softening ever so slightly.
"Sev..." you start, voice hesitant, unsure how to put your thoughts into words.
She sighs, turning to lean against the counter, crossing her arms. "Doll, I-"
Stomping footsteps echo from behind you. Sevikaâs gaze diverts to Chris, who looks pale and frantic.
"Sevikaâfuckâeveryoneâs selling..." His tone is panicked, voice cracking.
Sevika curses under her breath. "Fuckinâ marketâs crashing," she mutters, her focus darting between you and Chris.
Your eyes widen, apprehension setting in. "..What do we do?" you ask, voice small.
Chris is already wringing his hands, glancing at the clock. "Clients are calling-some are demanding we sell everything; others are freaking out about margin calls-"
Sevikaâs response is eerily calm, her tone shifting into something practiced and commanding, like sheâs done this a hundred times. "Chris, you know the drill. No panic selling. Remind clients of their long-term plans. If they have cash, look for bargainsâselectively. The worst thing we can do is dump everything at the bottom."
He nods, bolting back to his desk. The office buzz has shiftedâphones ring off the hook, voices are raised, and the air is thick with anxiety. Coworkers cluster in tense knots, faces drawn, eyes glued to tumbling numbers on their screens.
Sevikaâs eyes meet yours again, her composure returning even as exhaustion shadows her face.Â
"Remember what we discussed about market crashes, doll. Stay calm, donât let anyone deviate from their financial plan. The market always reboundsâmaybe not tomorrow, but it will. Trust me."
You nod, letting her words anchor you as you settle in at your desk. The calls are relentless, clients desperate for reassurance, some on the verge of panic. You repeat Sevikaâs advice: stay on course, donât make decisions out of fear, focus on the long-term. The chaos inside your head mirrors the chaos outside, but you cling to the routine, to Sevikaâs steadiness.
Even so, you notice Sevika snapping at a junior analyst, her hands moving so fast they blur, her nerves frayed beneath the surface calm.
The atmosphere grows increasingly distressing as the day wears on. Shouts fill the bustling office, and the clacking of keyboards becomes frenzied. The flashy green numbers change so quickly that you can barely read them.
You struggle to push away your own panic as percentage drops reach double digits, your hand moving on autopilot as it reaches to dial a client.
This call is like the othersâ the client stammers out various concerns about his portfolio, his voice rising in frustration as you exhaust his options.
The man seethes, hurling insults into the mouthpiece before a rough click echoes through the phone. You wince, the pain behind your eyes seeming to spread through every corner of your body. A deep sigh escapes your lips as you set your phone down and run a hand through your hair.
The chaos in the office is relentless. Phones ringing, numbers tumbling, voices raised in panic. You glance up, eyes searching for Sevika. Sheâs in the center of the storm, sleeves rolled up, barking orders with a clipped authority.
You approach her, hesitating at the edge of her desk, clutching a stack of client reports. âSevikaââ
She doesnât spare you a glance. âNot now, doll. Handle your calls. Weâll talk later.â Her tone is brisk, almost cold.
Swallowing your disappointment, you retreat, dialing another anxious client. As usual, the manâs voice blares in your ear, frantic and accusatory., âYou see whatâs happening out there? Iâm losing my shit! Why arenât you selling?â You do your best to reassure him, parroting Sevikaâs advice about riding out the storm, but your words feel thin, artificial. When he hangs upâhardâyou realize your hands are shaking.
Sevikaâs voice slices through the din, booming across the room. âKeep calm! Donât let clients dump everything. Remind them of their long-term plans!â Her gaze sweeps the floor, sharp and commanding, but when it lands on you, it softens for a heartbeat, and she gives you a small, almost imperceptible nod of approval before her attention snaps to a junior analyst hovering at her side.
He stammers something about investment calls, clutching a fistful of slips, and Sevikaâs patience cracks. âFigure it out and get the hell out of my face,â she snarls, voice like a whip. Almost instantly, she reaches up to brush sweat from her brow, her shoulders slumping, exhaustion plain in the way she leans against her desk. The analyst scurries away, eager to escape the heat of her glare.
Chris paces behind you, letting out a huff at the sight in front of him. âNever seen Sevika this rattled. Sheâs usually ice.â
You survey her expression, heartstrings clenching at the dreary look on her face. Sheâs visibly lost in thought, eyes distant as she stares at the wall.
Last night must have affected her, you think, lips down, turning into a small frown.
Her eyes meet yours, expression hardening immediately as she notices the stares from you and Chris. Causing you to avert your eyes down to your trembling hands.
Waiting for your nerves to steady, the next caller lights up your phone. Youâre about to answer when you feel a cool hand brush against your blouse.
Sevikaâs voice, lower now, cuts through the chaos. âDoll, take a breath. Youâre no good to anyone if you crack up.â Itâs barely more than a murmur, meant for you alone, and for a moment, the noise fades.
You nod, swallowing hard as you force yourself to focus. Another client, another round of panic. She gives your waist a comforting squeeze before pulling away, her touch lingering longer than necessary.
Hours pass and the final bell rings through the cavernous trading floor, cutting sharply through the lingering noise. Phones went silent and the frantic buzz of voices faded into a low murmur. The glowing green on the Quotron terminals slowed their frantic dance, setting into a steady, muted glow.
You let out a long breath, feeling the tight knot in your shoulders loosen just a bit. Around you, traders rubbed their tired eyes and stretched still limbs, exchanging exhausted glances. The air, heavy with the scent of stale coffee and sweat, felt less oppressive, more resigned.
Sevika stood near the window, her silhouette framed by the fading dusk. Her tie was loosened, sleeves rolled up, but her posture remained rigid, her gaze sharp as she surveyed the city below.
You approached cautiously, unsure if she wanted company. âWe made it through,â you said quietly.
She didnât turn immediately, then finally glanced your way with a brief, almost dismissive nod. âBarely,â she replied, voice clipped. Then, softer, almost reluctant: âNot pretty, but itâs over.â
You swallowed, sensing the wall sheâd put up. âIt felt endless today.â
She shrugged, eyes flickering away. âMarkets donât care about how we feel. They just keep moving.â Then, catching your gaze, she added, âYou held up better than I expected.â
A flicker of warmth, quickly masked by her usual guarded expression.
âI triedâŚâ You reply, trying to gauge her expression.
Sevika exhales, the tension in the air almost palpable.
âYou did good today, doll. Iâm⌠sorry I was so short with you,â she says quietly, her gaze dropping to the floor.
You nod, voice hesitant. âItâs alright, Sev⌠I justâŚâ Your words falter as you glance around at the other traders gathering their things, the day winding down. ââŚCan we talk about last night?â The question barely escapes your lips, little more than a whisper.
Her jaw tightens, shoulders stiffening. âDoll-â Her tone is sharper than you expect, as if sheâs chastising you for even mentioning it.
You cut in, desperate. âPleaseâŚâ
She sighs again, resignation flickering in her eyes. âGo grab your stuff. Iâll drive you home.â
Relief and apprehension twist together in your chest as you pack up, hands trembling. Sheâs willing to talk, but the uncertainty gnaws at you.
The walk to her car is thick with silence, awkward and strained-so unlike the easy camaraderie youâre used to. The drive is worse; Sevika keeps her eyes on the road, her posture rigid, tension radiating off her in waves. You stare out the window, heart pounding, wishing you could read her mind.
When she finally parks, you both head upstairs in silence. She trails behind you, hands shoved deep in her pockets, every step heavy with unspoken words.
You unlock your apartment, flicking on the lights. Itâs fine. Everythingâs fine. Sheâs just here to talk, you tell yourself, but the attempted mantra does little to slow your racing pulse.
Sevika steps inside, glancing around as if sheâs never been here before. Her presence feels strange, unfamiliar. You hate it.
âWant a drinkâŚ?â you offer, fidgeting with your hands.
She looks at you, unreadable, eyes searching your face for something you canât name.
âSure.â
âPlease, sit down.â You gesture stiffly toward the couch, wincing at how formal the words sound as they fall from your lips.
She sits, sinking into the cushions, her posture guarded.
You turn toward the kitchen, but freeze. Down the hall, your reflection stares back at you from the mirrorâalone. Sevika should be visible in the glass, shouldnât she? You glance back at her, still seated, close enough to be seen. Your stomach knots.
No, youâre imagining things. Thatâs impossible. Sevika isnât a⌠No. You wonât let your mind go there.
You move to the kitchen, feeling detached, as if youâre watching yourself from a distance. Your eyes flick to Sevika, half-expecting her to vanish, half-afraid sheâll move.
Your hand shakes as you pour her a glass of scotchâher favorite. Nearly spilling the malt liquid as you cross the room; nerves fraying.
You sit beside her, careful to leave a considerable amount of space. Her gaze lingers, intense, as if she can sense every tremor of your anxiety.
âRelax, doll.â Her voice is gentler now, a command softened by concern. She takes a sip, sets the glass down. You mimic her, letting the whiskey burn some of the fear away.
She leans back, eyelidâs hooded, the air between you thick with anticipation. Sheâs waitingâfor you to bring it up, to ask.
You fold your hands in your lap, voice barely steady. âWhat happened last night, Sev?â
Sevikaâs eyes flicker away, her jaw working as she searches for words. For a moment, you think she might shut down again, but then she sighs, running a hand through her hair.
âItâs⌠complicated,â she says, voice low, almost gravelly. âWhat you saw-â She stops, glancing at you, as if gauging how much you already know, or how much you can handle.
You grip your glass tighter, knuckles whitening. âI need to know, Sev. I need to hear it from you. I canât keep pretending nothing happened.â
She leans forward, elbows on her knees, head bowed. The Sevika you knowâthe unshakable, commanding presence seems smaller now, weighed down by something you canât name.
âI never wanted you to get dragged into this,â she murmurs, barely audible. âYou werenât supposed to see. Any of it.â
You swallow, heart thudding in your chest. âBut I did. And I canât unsee it.â
Her gaze snaps to yours, sharp and searching, as if sheâs looking for any sign of fear or revulsion. âYouâre scared of me.â Itâs not a question.
You hesitate, then nod, honesty trembling in your voice. âA little. But Iâm more scared of not knowing the truth.â
She lets out a shaky breath, her posture softening. âYou always were stubborn,â she says, a ghost of a smile flickering across her lips before fading.
You manage a weak laugh, the tension in the room thick as fog.
Sevikaâs eyes darken, her voice dropping to a whisper. âWhat I am⌠itâs not something I chose. Itâs not something Iâm proud of. But Iâve kept it hidden for a reason. For your safety. For mine.â
You lean in, searching her face for any trace of the monster you glimpsedâor thought you glimpsed-the night before. All you see is exhaustion, regret, and something achingly human.
âAre you going to hurt me?â you ask, voice barely above a whisper.
She shakes her head, fierce and immediate. âNever. Iâd sooner hurt myself.â
A heavy silence settles between you, broken only by the distant city sounds filtering through the window.
You look down at your hands, then back at her. âSo⌠what now?â
Sevika leans back, her expression unreadable. âThatâs up to you, doll. You want answers, Iâll give them. But once you know, thereâs no going back.â
You nod, resolve settling in your chest. âTell me. I want to understand.â
For the first time all night, Sevika looks almost relieved. She picks up her glass, takes a long sip.
The silence between you stretches, taut and uneasy. Sevikaâs gaze drifts to the window, the city lights glinting in her eyes. She doesnât speak right away; when she does, her voice is barely above a whisper.
âThere are things about me I canât explainânot really,â she begins, words measured, careful. âThings Iâve carried for a long time. Itâs not something youâd read about in a paper, or see in a movie. Itâs⌠older than that. Heavier.â
You wait, pulse thrumming in your ears. âSevika, I sawââ She cuts you off, a flash of something like fear in her eyes. âYou saw more than you were meant to. Iâm sorry for that.â She rubs her hands together, restless. âI try to keep it contained. Most days, I manage.â
You swallow, the air thick with questions. âContained? What do you mean?â
She smiles, but it's a brittle mask that doesnât quite fit. âLetâs just say I have⌠needs. Hungers. Not the kind you can fix with ordinary food or drink.â Her gaze flicks to you, searching, almost pleading for you to understand without asking more.
Your mind races, piecing together memoriesâthe missing reflection, the way she moved in the dark, the chill in the air. âYouâre a-â She shakes her head, almost violently. âDonât say it. Names have weight. Iâm still me, doll. Iâm still the person you know. Just⌠with shadows you havenât seen before.â
You notice her hands clenching, the tension in her jaw. Sheâs holding something back, something sharp and dangerous.
âAre you safe?â you ask, voice trembling.
Her answer is slow, deliberate. âIâm careful. I have to be. I donât want to hurt anyoneânot you, especially.â She looks away, voice thinning. âThatâs why I keep my distance. Why I donât let people get close.â
A silence settles, heavy with all the things she isnât saying. You realize sheâs given you just enough to keep you close, but not enough to set you free from wondering.
She finally meets your eyes, haunted and resolute. âI canât give you more than that. Not tonight.â
You frown, desperate for answers, but before you can form another question, she cuts you off.
âThatâs enough, doll.â Her voice is gentle, but thereâs a finality to it that makes your chest tighten.
âSev, pleaseâŚâ You reach for her hand, fingers curling around hers, clinging to the connection. âDonât shut me out. I know what I saw-â
âI know you know,â she murmurs, her tone softening for a heartbeat. She slips her hand from yours and stands up, the distance between you suddenly vast.
Panic claws at your insides. Sheâs going to leave. You can feel itâa cold certainty. Something inside you begs you not to let her go.
âHow do you feed?â The words tumble out, raw and intrusive, slicing through the heavy air. Sevika freezes, already halfway to the door. She turns, her expression unreadable, eyes shadowed.
She doesnât speak at first, doesnât move. The silence throbs.
ââŚHowâ?â
âSheepâs blood,â she says at last, voice strained. âI⌠I use ferrous sulfate to mimic the taste ofâŚâ She trails off, but you know what she means. The truth hangs between you, sharp and metallic.
You nod, heart pounding. âIs it⌠hard to get?â
A bitter glint flickers across her lips. âYeah. It is. But I can go months without it if I have to. Last night, I just⌠I hadnât fed in a while.â Her words are brittle, shame threaded through every syllable.
You sit with this, the silence prickling your skin. Then, before you can stop yourself, you blurt out the thought thatâs been lurking in the back of your mind.
âWhy donât you just⌠feed on me? If itâs easier.â
The room seems to contract, the air thickening until itâs hard to breathe. Sevika stands utterly still, her eyes darkening, something dangerous flickering in their depths.
âNo.â Her voice is low, almost a growl.
âButââ
âNo.â She takes a step closer, her presence suddenly overwhelming. âYou have no idea what youâre offering. You canât possibly understand what that would mean.â Her words vibrate with something wild, barely leashed.
You swallow, pulse racing, the reality of what youâve suggested settling over you like a cloak. Sevikaâs gaze is fierce, protective, and for the first time, you glimpse the full weight of what sheâs been holding backânot just hunger, but fear. Fear for you.
You barely have time to draw a breath before Sevika is on you, her strength startling, pinning you against the arm of the couch. The world narrows to the press of her body and the wild, ravenous look in her eyesâa hunger that both terrifies and mesmerizes you.
Instinct screams at you to shrink away, but instead, you tilt your head, fingers trembling as you sweep your hair aside, baring your throat. You squeeze your eyes shut, heart pounding so hard you think it might burst.
You feel her breath hitch, a low, guttural sound escaping her. She leans in, her lips ghosting over your skin, and you shudder as her tongue flicks out, tracing a slow, deliberate line from your collarbone up the column of your neck. The contact is electric, sending a jolt through your nerves.
She sighsâa sound thatâs almost a growl, inhuman, primal. Her mouth finds your neck, pressing open-mouthed kisses along your pulse, her grip tightening at your waist. Her other hand is gentle, brushing your hair further aside, her touch almost reverent.
âI apologize for any⌠discomfort,â she murmurs, voice rough, vibrating against your skin. She presses one last kiss to your throat, and then you feel the sharp, decisive puncture as her fangs sink in.
A strangled gasp tears from your lips. Painâsharp and blindingâblooms through you. But then the sensation shifts, ache melting into something strange and exquisite; a rush of euphoria that leaves you dizzy, weightless. Every nerve alight, every sense sharpened, the world dissolving into the heat of her mouth and the pounding of your heart.
You clutch at her shoulders, breath coming out in short, desperate bursts as she feeds. The room spins, your awareness narrowing to the rhythm of her drinking and the press of her body. The impossible intimacy of the moment terrifying, exhilarating, and utterly consuming.
When Sevika finally pulls away, youâre left gasping, your head spinning with a dizzying cocktail of exhaustion and something dangerously close to bliss. The world feels muffled, as if youâre underwater. Sevikaâs face hovers above yours. Her lips stained, eyes wild and haunted.
Her chest rising and falling in ragged waves. For a moment, neither of you moves. Her hand lingers at your waist, steadying you, but her gaze is distant, as if sheâs already retreating somewhere unreachable.
You reach up, fingertips brushing her cheek, searching for reassurance, for some sign that you havenât just crossed an invisible, irreversible line. But Sevika flinches away, guilt and shame flickering across her features. She wipes her mouth with the back of her hand, eyes squeezed shut.
âI shouldnât haveâŚâ she whispers, voice raw. âI lost control. Iâm sorry, doll. Iâm so damn sorry.â
You try to speak, but your tongue feels thick, your body heavy and boneless. Thereâs a strange warmth blooming in your chest, a sense of connection thatâs both comforting and terrifying. You can still feel the echo of her hunger inside you, the memory of her mouth at your throat.
âItâs okay,â you manage, though youâre not sure if you believe it. âI offered. I wanted to help.â
She shakes her head, jaw clenched. âYou donât understand. Itâs not supposed to be like this. Iâm not supposed to wantââ She cuts herself off, standing abruptly. The loss of her touch is jarring, cold.
You watch her pace the room, running a trembling hand through her hair. The apartment feels cavernous, the silence between you thick and suffocating.
âAre you⌠are you alright?â you ask, voice small.
She stops, back to you. âIâll be fine. You need to rest. Drink some water. If you feel dizzy, lie down.â Her tone is clipped, reverting to the Sevika you know from the office. Distant, controlled, untouchable.
You nod, but a lump forms in your throat. You want to reach for her, to bridge the gulf thatâs opened between you, but your limbs are leaden, your mind foggy. You wonder if youâll ever be able to look at her the same way againâif sheâll let you.
Sevika lingers in the doorway, silhouetted by the hall light. For a moment, you think she might say something more, offer comfort or explanation. But she just stands there, shadowed and uncertain.
âIâll check on you tomorrow,â she says at last, voice barely audible. Then she slips out, the door clicking shut behind her.
Youâre left alone in the quiet, the taste of copper still lingering on your tongue, your pulse fluttering like a trapped bird. The night presses in, thick with questions and fear and something you dare not name.
You close your eyes, replaying every moment, every touch, every word. The world feels irrevocably changed, the boundaries between fear and desire, trust and danger, blurred beyond recognition.
You wonder if youâve saved Sevika from her hunger, or if youâve only fed something far more complicated and dangerous.
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âÂˇË ŕź *Horror story's comfortâÂˇË ŕź *
You need to learn to rely on them... they have a solution for that OR arcane women scaring you with horror stories so they could see you clinging to them [absolutely fluff].
Ambessa
It's late. A storm rages outside the heavily fortified windows of medarda's estate, rattling the thick glass.You're laying beside her on a chaise lounge, your body stiff, pressing yourself not to her body but to the backrest, watching her twirling the wine in her glass. The relationship is still new enough that seeking comfort feels... abnormal, But ambessa, senses your slight unease with the storm, decides this is an opportunity. for comfort, and perhaps, for⌠demonstration.
"Storms like this," she begins, her voice calm, "remind me of the siege of Fae'lor. The sky wept for three days, and the wind carried the screams of dying right through the stone walls." She pauses, gauging your reaction. You edge slightly closer to her warmth. Good.
"The defenders," she continues, her voice dropping slightly, becoming more intense, "believed they were protected by ancient forest spirits. Superstitious fools." She takes a sip of her wine. "They performed nightly rituals, leaving offerings of blood and bone." Her eyes flick towards the shadows in the corner of the room. "Some say the spirits did answer. Not with protection, but with hunger."
You swallow hard, trying to appear unaffected, but the combination of the storm, the flickering firelight, and her chillingly matter-of-fact tone is getting to you. You subtly shift closer, your arm now brushing against hers.
"On the third night," Ambessa goes on,putting down her glass on the low table beside the lounge, her voice barely above a whisper now, compelling your attention, "our scouts reported⌠movement within the trees. Shapes that were not quite animal, not quite man, drawn by the scent of fear and desperation. They say those unlucky enough to be caught outside the inner walls..." She lets the sentence hang.
A particularly loud clap of thunder makes you jump, letting out a small gasp. You instinctively press close against her side,hiding your face in her chest, seeking solace from the storm outside and the one sheâs conjuring inside. Success. Ambessa's arm comes around you immediately, pulling you firmly against her solid frame. Her earlier narrative coolness vanishes, replaced by warmth.
"Easy now," she murmurs, her tone shifting. "Just ancient history. Long dead ghosts." Her hand strokes your back reassuringly, though thereâs a faint smile playing on her lips, hidden from your view. "And even if they weren't," she adds, her voice regaining its confident edge, "they wouldn't dare trespass on Medarda soil. Not with me here." She holds you tightly, enjoying the feel of you clinging to her, seeking her strength.
Sevika
You're huddled together in your small living space, than... power flickered out momentarily, plunging you into near darkness, the only light now coming from the burning tip of her cigarette. The relationship is still finding its footing, so even though you're scared, you can't exactly voice it. Sevika, sensing your nervousness in the dark, sees an opening.
"Dark like this," she begins, her voice low and gravelly, cutting through the silence, "reminds me of the stories they tell about the sump." You instinctively shift closer to her on the worn sofa. "Said sometimes... they'd pull things up from it that weren't fish, weren't junk." She takes a slow drag from her cigarette, the tip glowing brightly before fading. "Things that had too many limbs, or eyes that glowed green in the dark, hungry."
Her voice is flat, matter-of-fact, which somehow makes the story more chilling.she puts her cigarette out, in the ashtray on the table beside the couch, before continuing "One crew vanished entirely. Found their dredger adrift weeks later, empty. Just... slime trails on the deck and this godawful clicking sound echoing from the empty cabins." She deliberately makes a soft clicking sound with her tongue.
You jump, letting out a small squeak, and grab onto her arm, hiding your face in her neck. Bingo. A faint smirk ghosts across Sevikaâs lips in the darkness.
"Just stories," she says dismissively, like she didn't just try to scare you. her arm, the flesh-and-blood one, comes around your shoulders, pulling you firmly against her side.like sheâs securing you. "Probably just chem-mutated eels or sump-crocs." Her hand gently caressing your skin, gentel and kind despite her nonchalant tune. "Still," she adds, her voice dropping again, "wouldn't want to meet one alone in the dark." She tease further but quickly comfort you with the next sentence, "Good thing you ain't alone, huh?" She enjoys the feeling of you pressed against her, seeking refuge, confirming her strength and your reliance on it. The scary story was just the bait; the real prize was feeling you instinctively turn to her for protection.
Grayson
Itâs a dark, stormy night, perfect for staying in. Youâre sitting together on Graysonâs comfortable sofa. Seeing you jump slightly at a loud clap of thunder, a playful, slightly mischievous glint appears in her eyes.
"You know," she begin casually, "this weather reminds me of an old case file I found in the cold archives. Never officially solved. They called it 'The Watcher on Widow's Walk'." She lowers her voice slightly, adopting a conspiratorial tone. "Supposedly, on stormy nights like this, people reported seeing a figure standing in the dark, watching the houses near the sump."
You try to look nonchalant, but you lean a little closer. Grayson notices, hiding a small smile. "The reports were always vague," she continues, "Shadowy figure, glowing eyes according to one witness... probably just reflections, of course. But then things started happening. Objects moved in locked rooms of the same houses that reported the figure. Whispers heard when no one was there." She pauses dramatically. "One family fled their house overnight, claimed the watcher had started appearing inside, tapping on their bedroom window..."
Another crash of thunder punctuates her story, and you can't help it ...you flinch hard, pressing close against her side, grabbing her arm. Mission complete. Grayson's arm immediately wraps securely around you, pulling you into a protective hug. "Hey, hey," she murmurs soothingly, her playful tone gone, replaced by warmth. "Just an old ghost story, sweetheart. Probably kids playing pranks, or subsidence causing strange noises." She holds you tightly, rubbing your back. "Besides," she adds, her voice dropping to a low, reassuring whisper near your ear, "even if there was a watcher, he wouldn't get near you. Not while I'm here." She enjoys the feeling of you clinging to her, finding comfort in her.
Fuck it
what are some of YOUR favorite HCs for our ladies? Any subjects, just things you haven't been able to bring up or talk about through requests
I wanna hear your thoughts :3c
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Oh my gosh, finally someone wants to hear me outttt, you're the sweetest, anon đ, thank youuu
Headcanons (Ft. Sevika, Ambessa Medarda, Violet, Jinx)
Sevika
Multilingual through and through but sometimes a little bit of this language slips in through a little bit of that language because there's just so much in her vocabulary that she can't get across by using one singular language (Am I projecting? Yes.)
Sensitive to South Asian stereotypes and butch lesbian stereotypes
Likely to beat someone up over it
Grew up in a mysoginistic society which made her feel that she was somehow below men in the past but she doesn't let that affect her now
Considers dyeing her hair because she's insecure of the gray
In her past relationships, her ex girlfriends always made her feel like she needed to wear the pants in the relationship, so she never really was the one being spoiled, spooned or even simply headpatted
Loves being able to show even the slightest bit of feminity when she can with you, but it's rare because she's so insecure of it
If you bring it up, she'll say "Ridiculous," with a scoff and a head shake
Immensely insecure ever since she lost her arm and struggles with body image issues. Please reassure her
Has anger issues and breaks things when she's angry
She's just a kitten when she's angry so hold her close and hug her. Tell her it's okay and coo praises to her
No matter what I've seen other authors say, I think Sevika does get sort of abusive when she's angry, but she doesn't hit you of course. Instead, she slams and breaks things in the house
Ambessa Medarda
Brings you expensive gifts just because she can
When you sleep next to her, Ambessa hums a song and you can't help wonder of her melodious voice, and that she should sing more
Makes honey tea for you with her own hands and goodness does it taste like heaven, she tastes better though
Kneels down and does your straps for you even if her ego is so high, she loves kneeling before you in front of people to flash the dynamic of your relationship with her
Likely to propose only if you share the same loyalty for family as her
Eye contact means everything to this woman whether it's a normal setting, intimate setting or simply sexâ look into her golden eyes and whisper "I love you"s
Would figuratively die out of concern if you ever got hurt in any way possible, wouldn't let you out of the Medarda Estate in fear you'll get hurt again. It may take a while for her trust in the world to build again, but she's not all that controlling
Shockingly lets you wear whatever you want to wear when outside but don't expect her to coddle you and take her time stripping you form those clothes. She is feral, she'll tear them off
Her love language is providing all sorts of protection that you need from whoever even if it may be the most dangerous person on the planet, you're safe with Ambessa
Vows to keep you safe whenever you fall asleep, mumbling them to herself as a constant reminder that whatever happens, her loyalty was to you and her family
Her kisses are surprisingly warm, gentle and calculated. She doesn't want to rush, and takes her sweet time. Sometimes it's barely tongue, and she just enjoys the feeling of your sweet lips against hers
Violet
Although she claims she doesn't care for your commands, if you told her to sit she'll sit
Favorite part of your body is your boobs no matter if they're big/small. She'll bury her face in them and even use them as stress balls. Nothing lewd really, she just likes sniffing them. What a pervert but come on, it's Vi
Loves interlacing her fingers with yours, rubbing the top of your hand with the pad of her thumb
Always carries sanitary pads/tampons for you to be your saviour at times of crisis
Can't stand your pout or your tears. Crocodile tears or not, Vi is buying you whatever you want or beating someone up over something that you want. She can't stand seeing her princess all pouty
"You're not scared of me, are you?" Vi's sometimes afraid what impression she gives off to you
Worried because you may be exposed to Shimmer. She doesn't care what the living conditions are, but she doesn't want you to get addicted to any sort of substance that can cause your life to go downhill
Stares at you so much you're sometimes worried whether she's even listening to what you have to say, or when you're just casually conversing she's staring at you as if you've grown two heads.
In reality, Vi takes one long look at you, one that could battle a stare contest, and decides you're too good for her. But she'll never say that out loud in fear you're gonna leave her
Scared she's gonna lose her shit and hit you when she's angry because poor baby has anger issues
Very much capable of confidently arguing with a child and losing
Jinx
Has anxious attachment issues with you, she knows it and you know it. But you both silently acknowledge that
Perfect dates mean bombing and terrorising Pilties with her... Or, you both could decide on a sugar marathon. Whichever you prefer
Her love language is putting effort into remembering the things that you like, often stealing the best of it from Piltover. Jinx makes you your favourite weapons in your favourite colour, with little scribbles that say you belong to her
Blushes when you hug her and she awkwardly returns it back but when she gets comfortable she can't stop hugging you
If you ever left her, she'd actually lose her shit, she's way too attached with you
Overthinks the whole love confession thing before you both dated and she lit your yard on fire with the words "I LOVE YOU"
Cried in your arms after Caitlyn shot her middle finger off. She was so upset, you almost gutted the woman for doing that to your baby
Sometimes she loses her shit, hallucinates and you wake up tied to her chair, her knife poking at your heart. "Love me. Love me. Love me." She repeats, her voice hoarse from screaming and crying. Jinx calms down eventually, unties you and asks you if she scared you. You always tell her no and give her headpats
Jinx is way too scared of relying on anyone emotionally and you can tell. You don't force her to trust you immediately but it is a slow process, she slowly starts to open up more
Swings her legs back and forth from the edge of the bed while you do her hair. Your arm workout is doing her hair
You motivate her to actually take care of herself, eat properly and shower. But you have to do it all with her
Surprisingly can pick you up
hey, sorry if you're tired of seeing me, but what do you think about reader rejecting Vi multiple times cause Vi is like a fuckgirl and reader doesn't know if Vi is only playing or mocking her, and don't wanna get hurt, but Vi it's totally serious and wants to get reader so bad?
btw, hope you're okay, have a great day, love ya! đŤśđź
⥠vi x f!reader
wc: 4k
notes: i love seeing your asks đđ donât worry !! (sorry for taking so long to make this lol i havenât been writing this much lately) i love this idea and i LOVED how this turned out, i want a girlfriend so bad now đ
If you asked any gay girl (or bi, or questioningâbasically anyone even remotely attracted to women) about Vi Vanderson, youâd get one of three very specific responses:
1. âSheâs the love of my life, but I canât get her to look my way.â
2. âI hate her and I hope she dies a slow, dramatic, painful death.â
3. âShe said sheâd call me back and Iâve been waiting for a week. Can you tell her to text me?â
Which, honestly, tells you everything you need to know about her.
Violet Vanderson had that reputationâthe kind where sheâd either broken your heart, your roommateâs heart, or was currently in the process of doing both. She had an effortless charm, a smirk that could melt steel, and a walk that made heads turn in slow motion. Basically, she was a walking red flag... and yet, somehow, irresistible.
So when sheâd throw a wink my way, flash that annoyingly perfect grin, and drop the cheesiest pick-up lines known to mankindââYour eyes are the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen, princessââI didnât exactly swoon. I simply rolled my eyes.
Because we were friends. And if Vi flirted with strangers for fun, she flirted with me for sport.
âYou know, princess,â she said on a typical morning, stealing one of my fries with no shame, âyouâre the most gorgeous girl in here. When are you finally going to let me take you on a date?â
I didnât even look up. âPiss off, Violet. Go flirt with Sarah or somethingâsheâs been staring since you walked in.â
Vi glanced over her shoulder, spotted Sarah practically drooling, then turned back to me with a smug little smirk. âShe doesnât have your charm.â
I snorted. âIâm not on the menu.â
âMaybe,â she said, plucking another fry. âBut Iâm patient.â
And that was the problem with Viâshe knew exactly how to walk the razor-thin line between teasing and tempting, and she was dangerously good at pretending it didnât mean anything.
The real question was: when did I start wishing she meant it?
I mean, I wasnât that stupid... right?
No. There was absolutely no way I was falling for my walking-red-flag-of-a-friend. The same friend who flirted with any girl who so much as breathed in her direction. The one who collected hearts like seashells on a beach and didnât even pretend to keep track of whose they were.
Of course I wouldnât be that girl.
I wouldnât be stupid enough to feel a little flutter in my chest every time she called me princess. Or get all flustered when she teased me just to see me blush. Or madâirrationally madâwhen she smirked like she knew exactly what she was doing.
And she did know.
âYouâre gonna wait forever, then,â I said flatly, standing up and grabbing my tray, done with being caught in Sarahâs piercing glare. âIâm not interested. At all.â
I didnât wait for her response, didnât risk looking back at her face, because if I did, I knew Iâd see that stupid half-smile of hersâthe one that said, I know youâre lying.
But as I walked away, I heard her voice ring out across the cafeteria, louder than necessary and way too dramatic.
âDonât do this to my heart! You know you love me!âââââââââââââââââââââââ
The next time Vi tried to convince me we should go out, I was sitting under my favorite tree on campus during lunch, headphones in, enjoying the rare peace, when her shadow suddenly blocked out the sun like a bad omen.
I didnât even have to look up. âIf youâre here to confess your undying love again, Iâm gonna need it in writing. Preferably notarized.â
Vi laughed and dropped down beside me like she belonged there. âCan I at least offer a bribe before the proposal?â
I sighed and took one earbud out. âDepends. Is it food?â
She grinned like sheâd just scored a goal. âBetter. Itâs me. I come with jokes, tattoos and limited emotional availability. Total package.â
I blinked at her. âWow. I canât imagine why youâre still single.â
âMe neither,â she said, leaning back on her hands, stretching like she was trying to give the sun a show. âMaybe itâs because the girl I actually like keeps rejecting me in increasingly creative ways.â
I scoffed at that, like she actually liked me. I ignored the way my heart did an actual somersault in my chest.
âMaybe,â I muttered, biting into my sandwich like it could distract me from her eyes on me.
She leaned in just a bit, lowering her voice like we were sharing secrets. âCome on. Just one date. If you donât have the best time of your life, I swear Iâll never flirt with you again.â
I turned to her slowly, looking her dead in the eyes. âYou say that like itâs supposed to scare me.â
Her smirk only deepened. âBecause youâd miss me.â
âOh, yes, Iâd really miss being aggressively hit on while I try to eat a sandwich with too much mustard. Huge loss.â
âYou pretend to hate it,â she said, nudging her knee against mine. âBut you havenât told me to stop.â
I narrowed my eyes, cheeks warming despite my best efforts. âMaybe I like watching you embarrass yourself.â
Vi raised a brow, eyes glinting with something that made my stomach twist. âThen you must love me by now.â
I scoffed. âLove you? Please. I tolerate you the same way I tolerate cramps and coffee withdrawals.â
She clutched her chest like Iâd stabbed her. âBrutal.â
âGood,â I said, wrapping my sandwich back up. âMaybe then youâll finally take the hint and let me rot in peace.â
âNot a chance, princess,â she said, all confidence and charm, her infuriatingly pretty eyes locked on mine. âIâm in this for the long game.â
And to be honest? I was almostâalmostâready to give in. To say yes, just to see what she thought sheâd get out of this.
Maybe she liked the challenge. Maybe it thrilled her to know I was the only girl who hadnât fallen headfirst into her lap. Maybe the chase was more exciting than the prize.
And thatâs what scared me the most.
Because if I said yesâif I let her take me out, let her treat me like I was the only girl in the world for a nightâwhat then?
What if she kissed me, touched me like I was something soft and fragile instead of her sarcastic best friend, and took me back to her room? The same room where sheâs taken all the others before me. The same room Iâve heard stories about, or walked past, knowing some random girl was probably still tangled in her sheets.
Would I just be another name on that list?
Would she lose interest the second I stopped being a challenge?
Because once I crossed that line, there was no going back. Our friendship wouldnât survive itânot intact. And neither would I.
Somewhere along the line, Vi stopped being just my flirty, reckless friend with too many one-night stands and a wink that could burn straight through steel. She became someone I couldnât afford to lose.
And that made everything so much more complicated.
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After that day by the tree, it felt like something shifted. Like Vi sensed that I was slipping. That maybeâjust maybeâI was close to giving in. And if she did notice? Oh, she absolutely took it as a challenge.
Maybe she was doing the same thing she always had, or maybe this time it was different. Maybe I was just differentâtoo tired to keep pretending her attention didnât affect me.
âGood morning, princess. Looking beautiful as always,â she said with that casual confidence, her grin tugging slightly at the little scar on her upper lip.
And of course, my traitor eyes immediately darted to her mouth. Like clockwork.
It was too early for this. Too early to fight the urge to smile back or roll my eyes or reach out and touch herâGod, why did she always look so good first thing in the morning?
I tried to muster a response, something snarky, something that would remind her (and myself) that I wasnât buying it.
âDo you ever wake up and decide not to flirt with someone?â I muttered, brushing past her with my coffee in hand. âOr is this just a full-time job for you?â
âOnly when youâre around,â she shot back, grinning like sheâd already won something.
I didnât respond. Couldnât, really. Because if I did, my voice might crack under the weight of how badly I wanted to believe she meant it this time.
And she didnât stop. Not that day, not the next, and definitely not the one after that. If anything, she doubled down.
Every morning came with a new compliment, a pet name, a reason for her to stand too close or brush her hand against mine like it was an accident.
âNice shirt,â she said one afternoon, leaning over the back of the couch where I was writing one of my essays. âBrings out your eyes. Not that I need a shirt to notice those.â
I didnât even look up. âYou say that like you havenât recycled that line a hundred times.â
âMaybe I have,â she murmured, her breath warm against the shell of my ear. âBut it still makes you blush.â
Damn her.
I slammed my laptop shut and stood, brushing past her. âYou are unbelievable, you know that?â
She followed, undeterred. âWhat can I say? I have a soft spot for beautiful girls who act like they hate me.â
âI donât hate you,â I snapped, stopping short. âI just donât believe you.â
That made her pause. For the first time in a while, Vi didnât have a quip ready. She just stood there, lips slightly parted, like she hadnât expected honesty to sting so much.
âIâm not trying to mess with you, Y/N,â she said after a beat, softer this time. âI know Iâve been⌠stupid with other people. But youâre not them.â
And that was the most dangerous thing she couldâve said.
Because some part of me wanted to believe her. So badly. But that little voice in the back of my headâthe one that remembered every time I saw her kiss someone else at a party, every wink she threw at another girlâit wouldnât let me forget.
So I laughed. Cold. Dismissive. Defensive.
âTry that line on someone who hasnât heard your greatest hits, Violet.â
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I tried avoiding Vi for a while. Maybe if I didnât see her, Iâd build up some kind of immunity to her constant flirting. Maybe the distance would help me put my walls back up, stronger than before. Maybe Iâd stop slipping.
Desperate times, right? I even went to a party. But of course, the moment I stepped into the frat house, there she was, like fate had planned it just to mess with me.
Drink in hand, hair styled exactly the way I liked itâmessy but deliberateâand that stupid black jacket hanging off her shoulders like she owned the night. She was leaning in close to some girl I didnât recognize, and it took everything in me not to turn around and leave.
She had that look again. The âIâm going to ruin your life, and youâre going to thank me for itâ look. Eyes half-lidded, head tilted just enough to seem effortless. I watched as she tucked a strand of hair behind that girlâs ear, smiled like she meant it, and brushed her fingers along her shoulder. Textbook Violet.
And it made my blood boil.
I tried to play it cool. Pretend it didnât bother me. Pretend I wasnât two seconds away from marching over there and dragging her out by her smug smirk.
But then she looked at me.
Just one glanceâone secondâand suddenly it was like her flirty dial cranked up to a thousand. She leaned in even closer to the girl, whispered something, and thenâof courseâshe made her way over to me.
Drink still in hand. Grin still plastered across her face.
I didnât even wait for her to speak.
âOh, donât stop now,â I snapped, arms crossed tight. âShe looked like she was really enjoying herself.â
Vi blinked, taken aback. âWhat?â
I laughed, bitter and sharp. âDonât play dumb, Vi. She was practically on top of you.â
The smirk twitched back onto her lips, but this time it looked more like a shield than confidence. âIs someone jealous?â
And that did it.
âSee?â I snapped, louder than I meant to. âThatâs exactly what I mean. You say you want me, that Iâm the only girl youâre actually serious aboutâbut the second Iâm not around, youâre back to being the stupid version of you. Flirting with anything that breathes. How am I supposed to take you seriously when you act like that?â
Her smile dropped. Just like that. Her jaw clenched, and she stepped closer, something softer flickering behind those impossible blue eyes. âYou really think I donât mean it?â
âI think you donât know what you mean,â I said, my voice trembling now, though I tried to hold it steady. âAnd Iâm not going to be just another girl you use to pass the time.â
Silence settled between us. The music around us kept playing, but it sounded so far away. For the first time, she didnât throw back a comeback. She just stood there, those goddamn puppy-dog eyes searching mine, her throat working like she was trying to find the right words.
âIâm not trying to pass the time,â she said quietly, voice low and rough. âIâm trying to get you to believe that Iâm in this for you. And yeah, I flirt. Thatâs how I cope. Thatâs how I hide. But nothing Iâve ever said to them meant even half as much as what I say to you.â
I wanted to believe her. I really wanted to.
âI want to believe you,â I whispered, looking away. âBut your words donât match your actions, Vi. And I⌠I donât want to be just another girl on your bed.â
She took a breath, and for a second, I thought she might say something reckless and heartbreaking. But instead, she just said, âThen tell me what to do to prove it.â
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Then tell me what to do to prove it.
Her voice echoed in my head long after the conversation ended.
And true to her word, Vi didnât just let it go.
The next day, there was coffee waiting for me at my desk. We had the same 8 a.m. lecture, and as I stepped into the room and made my way to my usual table, I saw itâmy exact order, the one I never told anyone because it was way too specific, was waiting for me, my name written in her messy scrawl on the side.
âIâm not flirting,â she said as I eyed the cup suspiciously. âIâm just⌠paying attention.â
Day two: A sticky note on my computer that said âYou looked beautiful yesterday. Just thought someone should tell youâ
Day three: the Jane Austen book Iâd been dying to readâthe one I kept complaining was always checked out from the libraryâsitting on my living room table. Another sticky note on the cover: âSomeone finally returned it! :)â
Every day after that, there was something new. Something soft. Something small. A gesture that felt intentional. Deliberate. Real.
And she wasnât flirting the way she used to. No more over-the-top pickup lines. No more exaggerated winks. No more âprincessâ with a grin that dared me to fight her off. Now, when she looked at me, it felt⌠different. Like she wasnât trying to seduce meâjust see me.
And it was terrifying.
Because on one hand she was being true to her word, she was showing me that she actuallyâactually!!âwanted me, not just because I was a challenge, but because it was me.
But on the other hand, I couldnât shake the fear. What if she slipped? What if the next party rolled around and I turned to see her back to whispering in someone elseâs ear, smirk in full force, drink in hand?
What if this version of herâsoft, steady, realâwas only temporary?
Still, with every action, every quiet gesture, it was like she was telling me, âYes, Iâm serious about you.â And no matter how hard I tried, I couldnât ignore the growing feeling that giving her a chance was the right thing to do.
Maybe I was going to be the stupid girl who fell for her walking-red-flag-of-a-friend.
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I donât know what finally broke through my defenses.
Maybe it was the book.
Maybe it was the way she stopped trying to win me over with smirks and pickup lines and started showing up with nothing but sincerity.
Or maybe it was how quiet sheâd gone about it allâhow she never pointed out the things she did, never asked for credit, never even looked to see if I noticed.
But I did.
God, I noticed.
Every sticky note. Every small gesture. Every look that lingered longer than it should have.
So the next time she handed me a coffee, I didnât roll my eyes. I didnât raise a brow or accuse her of flirting.
I just took it.
âThanks,â I said, soft and a little unsure, brushing my fingers against hers for maybe a second too long. âYou remembered the oat milk this time.â
âYouâre welcome,â she said slowly, carefully, like she didnât want to scare me off by saying too much.
I held her gaze a moment longer than I usually would. Then I glanced down at the cup, smiling faintly when I saw our names written side by side in her handwriting, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
I swallowed, heart in my throat. âI was thinkingâŚâ I said, trying to keep my tone light even though my palms were sweating, âif youâre not busy Friday night, maybe we could⌠grab dinner or something?â
Vi blinked. Once. Twice.
Then her whole face lit up like Iâd just handed her the moon.
âYouâre asking me out?â she said, grinning so wide it was nearly blinding. âIs this a trap? Are cameras gonna pop out?â
I laughed, embarrassed, but I didnât take it back. I couldnât. âDonât push it, Violet.â
She leaned in, her voice softer than Iâd ever heard it. âI wonât. I swear. Just tell me where to be⌠and Iâll be there.â
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Friday night came faster than I expected, and the moment I saw her standing outside the restaurant, every ounce of my carefully built composure cracked.
She wasnât in her usual leather jacket and cocky smile. Instead, she wore a crisp white shirt, tucked into her loose black jeans. Her hair was still slightly messy, and she kept spinning the rings on her fingers like she was nervous. Vi. Nervous. That alone nearly made me trip over my own feet.
âYou showed,â she said, looking me up and down slowly.
I walked up to her, trying not to look like Iâd been holding my breath the entire ride there.
A soft smile tugged at her lips. âYou look⌠incredible.â
âAnd youâre still a flirt,â I replied, brushing past her with a smirk, my cheeks flushing. âBut thanks.â
She chuckled and held the door open for me, just a little shy this timeâlike she was still half-expecting me to change my mind.
Dinner started awkwardly. We both fumbled over the menu, over small talk, over who was going to order the wine. It felt like trying on new clothesâfamiliar pieces in an unfamiliar context.
But somewhere between the second glass of wine and a story she told about her and Jinx sneaking onto a rooftop to watch fireworks, things started to ease. I was laughingâreally laughing. And Vi⌠she just looked at me like Iâd hung the stars.
âYou know,â I said, taking another sip of wine, âI thought I had you all figured out.â
âYeah?â She raised an eyebrow. âWhat did you think?â
âThat you were just in it for the challenge. Trying to get into my pants because I didnât immediately fall at your feet. And that once you got what you wanted, you wouldnât even look my way again.â
She huffed a short laugh. âAnd now?â
âNow⌠I feel like youâre being genuine. I donât know. You keep surprising me.â I paused. âAnd I like it.â
She reached across the table, slow and careful, her fingers brushing mine.
âAnd I hope I keep surprising you,â she whispered. âAs long as you let me.â
I let my hand turn, let our fingers tangleâjust a little.
Maybe I was still scared. Maybe I still didnât have all the answers.
But in that momentâwith her looking at me like I was something rareâI wasnât turning away.
We ended up walking after dinner, neither of us ready to call it a night. The city buzzed softly around usâthe way it always did after 10 p.m.âstill alive, but quieter. Calmer. Like it was winding down, holding its breath along with us. We wandered toward the park, the air cool and just a little crisp, carrying that quiet kind of magic only late nights could.
âOkay,â Vi said, nudging me gently with her elbow. âBe honest. Dinner wasnât a complete disaster, right?â
I smirked. âI mean, you didnât make me mad, and you didnât flirt with the waitressâhuge progress.â
She laughed, the sound echoing lightly in the open air. âSo I get points for not being a menace?â
âYou get points for trying,â I replied, casting a glance at her from the corner of my eye. âAnd maybe for making me laugh.â
Her smile softened at that. We walked in silence for a bit, but it wasnât awkwardâjust⌠easy. Comfortable. Somewhere along the path, we passed a little ice cream stand still open, and Vi tugged me gently to a stop.
âIce cream?â she asked, her eyes practically sparkling. âMy treat.â
I raised an eyebrow. âIf this is your secret strategy to win me over, itâs dangerously effective.â
âNot a strategy,â she said with a grin, already pulling out her wallet. âJust craving something sweet.â
The old woman behind the counter gave Vi a knowing smile after handing us our cones. As Vi turned back toward me, I caught the faint pink on her cheeks.
We found a bench near the edge of the lake and sat, ice cream in handâmine was mint chocolate chip, hers something absurdly fruity. The streetlights cast everything in a soft golden glow, and a breeze rustled the trees overhead. In the distance, someone strummed a guitar lazily. It felt like a scene from a movie I hadnât realized I was starring in.
âYouâve got a littleâŚâ Vi gestured vaguely toward my face.
I blinked. âWhat?â
âHere,â she said, and before I could react, she leaned in. Her fingers brushed my cheek, her thumb warm as it wiped a smudge of green ice cream from the corner of my mouth.
It was such a small touch. But it stopped everything.
She didnât pull away right away. Her eyes flicked to my lipsâslowly, carefullyâand then met mine. The air between us shifted, suddenly charged. My breath caught in my throat. Everything about herâher nearness, the way her hand lingered just a second too long, the way she looked at me like I was the only thing that matteredâmade the world go still.
I couldâve pulled back.
But I didnât.
Instead, I leaned in, just slightly, testing the waters. Vi mirrored the movement instantlyâlike weâd both been waiting for this and didnât want to move too fast and break it.
Her lips brushed against mineâsoft, unsure, hesitant. When I didnât move away, she kissed me deeper. Gentler. Like she wanted to memorize it, savor every second.
And I kissed her back.
It wasnât desperate. It wasnât rushed. It was slow and careful, like she was trying to say everything she hadnât been able to in words.
When we finally pulled apart, both of us breathless, her forehead rested lightly against mine. Her hand still hovered near my cheek.
âStill not flirting,â she whispered, her eyes fluttering shut.
I laughed quietly. âLiar.â
But I didnât let go.
And neither did she.
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Silk Ribbons and Captured Hearts
Caitlyn x girly girl!reader
cw: 2K words | no warnings, just Caitlyn and her lovely femme <3
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Caitlyn is infatuated with you.
Your relationship with Caitlyn is somewhere on the line between acquaintances and friends, running in the same high circles. Your family, much like the Kirammans, is respected and known within Piltover. You've met Caitlyn on many occasions: galas, banquets, other fancy events your parents had dragged you to.Â
Most of your time spent together had come from conversing casually at events, or during council meetings whenever you both had been waiting for your parents to finish their work. Youâre a few years younger than Caitlyn, so she had offered to help you with any work you had been doing at Piltover Academy. You were a good student as well, matching her intellect. Caitlyn, despite trying to focus on your homework, would find her gaze drawn to you. Watching your eyes light up whenever you talked about something you were interested in, a small, unconscious smile gracing your lips, had easily captivated her.
That was when you were both younger, though. Now, she can't help but take notice of the beautiful woman you had become. All short skirts and fitted tops, sundresses and carefully chosen accessories, youâre like a warm sunbeam that Caitlyn canât draw her eyes away from.Â
It all starts with Caitlyn going shopping in the main streets of Piltover, and she steps into a local boutique filled with cute clothes and handmade jewelry. It's not really her style, but her eyes catch on a stand filled with silk ribbon, and it reminds her of the ribbons you occasionally wear in your hair. And oh, you'd just look so pretty in that shade of purple and-
She leaves with three of them.
A few days later, youâre at a statue unveiling of some old general in Piltoverâs army, and Caitlyn sees you again. And fuck you just look so pretty in your white maxi skirt and cropped tank that shows off just a hint of midriff, and Caitlyn canât stop staring. She finally gets herself together, glancing down at the lavender silk ribbon in her hand. Should she give it to you now? Should she wait? What if you didnât like it? Worse, what if you donât like her even after figuring out sheâs smitten with you?
Caitlyn immediately clams up, deciding itâs better to give it to you anonymously. She darts off to the area where everyoneâs bags and coats are under the guise of finding something she had forgotten in her bag. Once there, she grabs a notepad from her own bag and writes a note:
I thought this would look lovely on you.Â
Yours,
AnonymousÂ
After attaching it to the ribbon and quietly slipping back into the crowd, Caitlyn canât really focus on the ceremony. She tries, she really does, but the sound of your casual laughter in conversation unwillingly draws her attention. She also tries not to eye you when you politely make conversation with Caitlynâs own parents, but, well, sheâs long since given up on that one. Maybe sheâll have better self-control in the future.
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Any thoughts of self-control die the moment you step into the coffee shop where Caitlyn is sitting with Jayce. Because youâre just so beautiful, wearing some lavender sundress and sandals and holy shit is that-?
Caitlynâs mouth goes dry at the sight of the silky lavender ribbon in your hair â the one she had bought for you â tied around two pigtails hold your hair half-up. She canât tear her eyes away, even as you step up to order and smile brightly at the barista. So much so that Jayce turns around to see what sheâs looking at before turning back to her with a puzzled expression. âUh, Cait? You good?â
She snaps her jaw shut, nodding tightly. âYeah,â she lets her eyes linger on you for a second longer. âEverythingâs perfectly fine.â
Jayce glances in your direction once again before a knowing smile dawns on his face. âOh,â he turns back to Caitlyn, eyes smug and teasing. âYou like-"
âShut up,â Caitlyn hisses, glaring deeply at him, half because she doesnât want you to overhear this and half because she doesnât want Jayce to have another thing to hold over her.Â
Jayce just raises his eyebrows, taking a sip of tea as if waiting for her to explain.
Caitlyn just sighs, glancing down at her own pristine teacup. âI- how can I not?â She mumbles, glancing at you. âSheâs, wellâŚperfect.â
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And because you just had to go and look so ridiculously, effortlessly, beyond gorgeous in the lavender ribbon, of course Caitlyn has to go and buy five other colors. Because who is Caitlyn if not willing to spend her seemingly endless amounts of money on the little things her love crush likes. A tiny part of her also preens at seeing you so happy to wear something she gave you, as if sheâs subtly showing everyone that youâre hers. But sheâd never admit to that, of course.
And every time she manages to slip you a ribbon, she leaves another tiny note.
These suit you so much, I thought it would be a shame not to have more.
I think this color will look so nice with your hair.
Please take these ribbons as my way of telling you how beautiful you are.
Your ribbon collection continues to build: baby pink, forest green, crimson red, the lightest grey that reminds you of clouds on a cozy winter morning. You smile every time you find a new one in your bag, keeping the notes safely tucked away in a small box in your closet. You read them from time to time, gently tracing a finger over the words as if you can feel the affection they convey.Â
Experimentally, with all this ribbon, you donât confine it to just your hair. You tie it around your ankle, thinking it looks cute (Caitlyn agrees, smiles way too long when she sees it on you in passing). Then, around your wrists: a pair of bows. And when you show up at her house to drop off something from your family to the Kirammans, Caitlynâs eyes go wide when she catches sight of the ribbon carefully tied around your upper thigh â just peeking out from the short skirt youâre wearing.Â
Holy fucking shit is all Caitlyn manages to register in her mind. She doesnât pay attention to whatever youâre talking about with her mother. She just pays attention to the gift she gave you, a symbol of her, tied around your thigh. Sheâs highly tempted to step forward and grab the end of it, untying it just to replace it with her hand and squeeze-
Pull yourself together.
And she does, barely. Manages to mumble out a few weak words as you depart, missing the smug smile that graces your features as you turn to leave. Misses the way you turn a little faster than necessary so your skirt spins and she gets another view of the ribbon wrapped around your thigh. You leave, Cassandra goes on with her business, and all is normal again.
Youâre a strong presence in Caitlynâs dreams that night.
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And then one day, thereâs a knock on Caitlynâs office door, and she calls an official-sounding âcome inâ only for you to enter. Caitlyn stands up a little too quickly, clearing her throat and straightening her uniform. She moves out from behind her desk to face you. âThis is- uh- a surprise,â Caitlyn murmurs, eyes flitting to the navy blue ribbon laced through your high ponytail, your hair half up. Sheâs sure she hasnât bought you a navy ribbon yet.
âMy father sent me to ask if the gala for your motherâs birthday next week will still be in your ballroom?â You ask, shifting nervously. Itâs a simple question, one that you donât really need an answer to.
Luckily, Caitlyn is too distracted to notice. She just blinks, forcing her mouth to move. âUm, right. Yes, itâs going to be held there.â
You nod, your eyes locked with her piercing blue ones. âOkay. Yeah. Sorry for the interruption, I just happened to be nearby and he, uh, wanted to know.â
Even still, Caitlyn only half registers your weak excuse. Her eyes narrow at the ribbon. Itâs different than the silky ones sheâs bought you: thinner and less shiny. So, instead of formulating one of her usual, sensible responses to you, she canât help but let her curiosity spill out. âYour ribbon.â
âMy-" you touch your hair lightly. âMy ribbon?â
âWhere is it from?â She asks, flatly. For the past weeks, the only ribbon you've been wearing has been the ones she's been giving you. Was this an old one of yours? Did you buy it recently? Or is it from someone else? Something in her chest tightens at the last idea.
Sheâs not prepared for the smile you flash her. âWellâ you sigh, tilting your head a little as if the answer is obvious. âI thought that since my anonymous gifter keeps buying me ribbon, I should have one in her color.â
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Wait.
It takes a second of blank staring before Caitlynâs jaw drops. âYou-" she stumbles in her wording â an extremely rare occasion sheâs been taught to avoid. But all her composure is lost with you.
âMe,â your smile holds a hint of satisfaction that Caitlyn kind of just wants to scream at. Or kiss off your face. Either one.
âYou knew?!â Her tone is incredulous, like sheâs been so secretive that she canât conceive how you found out she was the one gifting you these ribbons. âHow?!â
âFirst of all, I know your handwriting. Remember how you gave me corrections on my schoolwork when we were younger and our parents had council meetings?â
âI-" Caitlyn stutters, a hue of pink dusting her cheeks.Â
âAnd second,â you continue, not quite done. âYou havenât been very subtle about it. You seem to forget something in your bag at every event weâre at together, and then the ribbon happens to appear in mine after you come back.â
Caitlynâs quiet for a few moments. âOh.â
You smile. "Yeah, oh."
Caitlyn's blue eyes meet your own, devoid of her usual composure to show her slight nerves. "So...?" her voice is almost anxious.
"So," you repeat, gently reaching up to touch the navy ribbon in your hair again. The one that perfectly matches her navy Enforcer's uniform she's wearing right now. "I wore this...for you."
Caitlyn takes a shaky breath, heart pounding. "Does that mean-?"
She's cut off by your soft lips against her own. Your kiss is gentle and chaste, just a peck, and she barely has enough time to process what's happening before you pull away. "I like you," you say, your smile turning shy.
Caitlyn blinks at you, dazed. She's normally always so in command, so in control of her every action â whether that's in her Enforcer duties or her sharpshooting competitions or just her life in general â but with you, all hope of control always seems to fade.Â
She steps even closer to you, gently reaching out a hand to trail along your cheek. "I like you too," she murmurs, and this time, you fear you're the one that's losing your composure because her gaze looks so loving and tender that it makes your cheeks burn.Â
And when Caitlyn kisses you again, deeper this time, you allow yourself to sigh against her lips. She kisses you as if you're something fragile, something to be treasured and cared for. And you know, in that moment, that she'll do anything for you. That, if you asked for the moon, she'd personally find away to fly amongst the stars to take it for you.Â
"Are you mine?" Caitlyn asks the second she pulls away with a gentle nip to your bottom lip that makes you shiver.Â
"I always have been," you mumble, letting yourself bury your face in her shoulder to hide your flushed cheeks.Â
And Caitlyn just smiles, her arms snaking around your waist to pull you against her chest. "That's all I could ever ask for, darling."
Vengeance (ft. Ambessa Medarda)
Important note: I don't write for Ambessa Medarda yet, but I WILL open the request slots and start writing fics for her soon.
~ @zthebean27 reblogged my initial post of Vengeance saying they need one like that with Ambessa, and reblogs help writers. Since you helped me, I'll help you <3
The air was thick with the scent of iron.
Your blood soaked into the silk sheets, a deep crimson stain spreading across the once-pristine fabric.
Your breaths were shallow, each one dragging fire through your lungs. You had managed to kill the assassinâhis body lay crumpled on the floor, neck twisted at an unnatural angle. But not before his blade had found you.
Pain throbbed in your side, sharp and relentless, the warmth of your own life pooling beneath you.
The world swayed, the edges of your vision blurring, dark spots creeping in like shadows waiting to claim you.
The heavy stomp of boots echoed down the marble hall. Controlled. Powerful. Unhurried.
You knew that sound. "Ambessa..." You whispered the name, but your voice died before it could issue from your lips.
The doors to the private quarters were flung open with a force that made the walls tremble.
Ambessa Medarda stood in the doorway, framed by the flickering torchlight, her golden eyes burning with something dangerous. She took in the sceneâthe ruined bed, the dead assassin, the blood. Your blood.
Ambessa's blood ran cold.
For the first time, you saw something flicker across her face. It was gone in an instant, buried beneath years of discipline and war-forged control, but you had seen it. A crack in the unshakable foundation.
She crossed the room in three strides. The scent of steel and spice clung to her, familiar and grounding.
A gloved hand seized your chin, tilting your face up. Her thumb brushed over your cheekâsoft, just for a secondâbefore she dropped to her knees beside the bed.
"Who?" Her voice was low, dangerous.
You forced a smirk, though it felt weak. "Didn't stop to ask." You managed to gesture at the tangles of what you left of the assassin.
She huffed a breath through her nose, unimpressed. But there was something in the way her fingers flexed against your skin, like she was restraining herself from gripping too hard.
Her gaze dropped to the wound in your side. Without a word, she tore off her gloves, hands moving with practiced efficiency as she pressed down on the injury.
White-hot agony lanced through you, and you gasped, fingers curling into the sheets.
"Stay awake." A command. No room for argument.
Her grip was firm, steady, keeping pressure on the wound as she reached for the dagger at her belt.
With a swift motion, she sliced a strip of cloth from your ruined nightwear, winding it tightly around your waist. It was rough, brutal, but effective.
"Get me more later." You whispered with a small breathy giggle. "It was my favourite set." You pouted a little despite the searing pain.
"You should have been more careful."
A reprimand, but there was an edge to itâone that wasnât entirely anger.
Your lips curled into a faint, pained smirk. "You almost sound worried."
Her jaw clenched. "You're my wife." The words were clipped, precise. Like stating an undeniable fact. "No one touches what is mine."
Ambessa lifted you effortlessly into her arms, holding you against her broad chest as if you were something fragileâsomething worth protecting.
Her heart beat steady beneath your ear, strong and unwavering. And for the first time since the attack, you felt safe.
Ambessa carried you like you weighed nothing, her grip unyielding but careful, as if the very idea of dropping you was inconceivable.
Her body radiated warmth, a grounding presence amid the pain and blood loss clouding your mind. You could hear the sharp commands she barked to the guards as she strode through the Medarda estate.
âLock down the premises. Find any other threats. If they breathe wrong, kill them.â
Her voice was steel, but the way she clutched you was something else entirely.
By the time she reached the estateâs private medical wing, exhaustion threatened to pull you under. The moment she laid you down, her big hands hesitatedâjust for a fraction of a secondâbefore pulling away. The loss of her warmth sent a shiver through you.
The medics swarmed in, but Ambessa didnât leave your side.
She hovered, arms crossed, jaw tight, watching every movement with the lethal focus of a warrior on the battlefield.
When the lead doctor hesitated, she snapped, "If you let her die, I will personally ensure you regret it."
The pressure of bandages, the sharp sting of antisepticâit all blurred together. But through it all, Ambessa was there, her presence an unshakable force.
By the time the medics finished, the pain had dulled into a bearable throb. The room had emptied, leaving only you and her.
You forced your eyes open, searching for her in the dim light. She was sitting at your bedside, elbows resting on her knees, her head bowed slightly.
The usual ironclad mask she wore had cracked, just enough for you to see what lay beneath.
Concern.
Relief.
Love.
When she realized you were watching her, she exhaled slowly and leaned forward, her fingers brushing against your cheek.
It was the softest touch you had ever felt from herâwarm, steady, reverent.
"You scared me," she admitted, voice barely above a whisper.
You blinked, caught off guard. Ambessa Medarda didnât admit weakness.
Your lips twitched into a weak grin. "You? Scared? The great warlord of Noxus?"
Her hand shifted, trailing down to cup the side of your neck, thumb brushing gently over your pulse. "I would burn the world to the ground for you."
The weight of those words settled between you, heavier than any blade, sharper than any wound.
"Youâre not losing me that easily," you murmured, tilting your head into her touch.
She huffed, something like amusement flickering in her golden eyes.
"Good. Because if you had died, I wouldâve had to drag you back just to scold you for being reckless."
You chuckled, wincing slightly, and she immediately pressed a kiss to your foreheadâa rare, intimate gesture that sent warmth spreading through your chest.
"Rest, love" she murmured, fingers threading through your hair.
"Iâll be here when you wake."