I Hope You Realise That You Never Have To Regret The Act Of Falling In Love, You Felt What Was To Be

The other day I was staring at the moon and it really got me thinking , do I have a charming personality -?? For her to get flustered and hide behind those clouds , the pink hue around her gave me an answer , October clearly had its fair share of goofiness with me

~ ghosts of tulips past :: 💌

To those sharing every little aspect of their days?? Y’all are painstakingly adorable, it crushes me, it BREAKS me to see that smile on your face, or how your eyes light up every time you bring that one rock you saw on your way home and nurture and care for it as if you plunked it on the table from your own womb or how that one lady flashed you a smile and those beautiful wrinkles caressing her plum cheeks could tell tales that go on for days, I’m. Here. To. Hear. You. Out. Please spoil me with the abundance of your cute brain let me hear that voice again I BEG OF YOU.

 nourishes it

keeps it warm

fills it with love

fills it with rice

refills sanity bar

grants it a blessing

A problem I have when reading romance novels is I cannot empathize with disliking someone but finding them attractive regardless. If I dislike someone I'm like "You are like a wadded up ball of sweaty socks and I want you to burn in a pyre, undying and screaming for days"

Some of you will romanticize doing face masks together or you’ll romanticize coffee in the morning after a night of love making but no one talks about how quickly that stops being important. No one romanticizes true care and compassion.

Does your partner give you the space to discuss your feelings without making you feel like your emotions are irrational?

Do they interrupt you in front of others? Do they talk over you?

Do they give you the space to work through things on your own if need be? Do they offer you solitude without guilting you for ‘abandoning’ them?

Does your partner share responsibilities with you? Do they notice the tasks that are too much and offer to take over?

Do they ask you what you need when you’re overwhelmed? Did they take the time to learn what overwhelms you?

Do they know where you keep your medicine? Did they check to see if you’re keeping up with your hygiene? Does your health matter to them?

Raise the bar.

You’re all so much more deserving.

I am giving I am continuing I am acknowledging I am breathing I am feeling I am admiring I am constantly processing my own thoughts and emotions, settling them in bit by bit and taking my time full and through even if it means I can’t meet somebody’s ends, even if it means they have to wait, even if it means they’re not ready to stay rooted through my steps. Because that’s ok. I am not leaving, I chose to stay, I chose to stay since day one and it is my place to stay firm on that decision, because that’s ok :) choose to stay for yourself, because that light of you has had plenty leave as it is, the last thing you’d wanna do is be one of them

Time does not heal all wounds, time permits you with a medium to heal, and more than that you just have to allow yourself to belief the fact that this medium hasn’t been set out to pester you with constant reminders of what once was, what came your way, came your way, you saw what you saw, what detached itself from you, has detached itself from you, it’s completely understandable if it was pulled out from its roots like a patch of clothing from your chest , and it’s completely understandable if there’s a few strings left behind, their fabric implanted themselves on you, there was a bond yes that did exist, be it to whatever degree it was there, and after a while they seemed best to thread that border elsewhere, there is still a heart left behind!! All they took was a layer, maybe it’ll take a while to build it back up, SO BE IT!! Your heart is still there! Go look after it

sometimes you’re walking home and you see the brightest lily on your way, sure you weren’t expecting it but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t SUPPOSED to be there?? It came for what it did, and you let it rest, over time it grew and maybe the season had a few plans in mind and maybe the flower had to call it a day, but that wasn’t time was it? Time never robbed it off it’s will to live?? To love?? Time LET IT, it let it love and grow endlessly till it’s desirable content and it permitted the growth of innumerable other blossoms on your way right after, it is you who decides to heal and look after your sentiments because you cannot be the first person to give up on yourself, let that sink in

gentle growth is still growth, slow growth is still growth, fast growth is still growth, steady growth is still growth, messy growth is still growth. It’s as simple as that :), growth isn’t linear <3

Taking accountability for your mistake is different from holding yourself responsible for somebody else’s wrong doing, you can sympathise and see what you’d do in their situation to help them out, but you can’t dig yourself a grave for something that doesn’t involve you at all. One shouldn't play the blame game, but know who needs to rightfully own up to face the repercussions, to realise and be honest :)

Being left alone with your thoughts doesnt necessarily have to mean that youre going to eat yourself alive or push yourself to the brink of insanity, you dont always have to be standing or seeking shelter on two extreme ends of the world. It means you pull apart the strings of that cobweb and thread it so much so it intertwines with your being so its not strangling you anymore,Because its Moments like those when you should stop trying to fight yourself from giving into beliefs, almost like you stopped trying to take shelter and finally stood in the rain. Instead of running away, admire the way it feels because its meant to feel that way, contrary to the popular belief it wont catch you off guard, much like reality does :)