I Think It’s Wonderful The Way People Put Themselves Out There, Be It Their Word Or Presence, In Mind

“Crawling down,From high hopes to the ground,Trouble sings along,In my heart and soul,A giant in the room,I left him long ago, following you.Wind heavy on the ground,A cloak before the moon,I guess I've never known,Someone like you.”

Agnes Obel - run cried the crawling

The animalistic urge to cut certain people off all socials and emotional connections as a new year’s resolution, y’all have had enough of this wine, party’s over.

Imagine dancing around the body of a sapien in shades of crimson, just as the moon reflected the colors of their blush

Being left alone with your thoughts doesnt necessarily have to mean that youre going to eat yourself alive or push yourself to the brink of insanity, you dont always have to be standing or seeking shelter on two extreme ends of the world. It means you pull apart the strings of that cobweb and thread it so much so it intertwines with your being so its not strangling you anymore,Because its Moments like those when you should stop trying to fight yourself from giving into beliefs, almost like you stopped trying to take shelter and finally stood in the rain. Instead of running away, admire the way it feels because its meant to feel that way, contrary to the popular belief it wont catch you off guard, much like reality does :)

To keep going regardless of being made aware of what’s to come is honestly one of, if not the bravest thing to do

I think it’s very important to emphasise that there can be so many versions of you existing within the same existential reality, side by side. You don’t have to abandon your core to succumb to any socially engineered version of you that only brings about peace in the latter and not within you :( it’s okau to admit that different people placed contextually in different settings will inevitably bring out different sides of you! That doesn’t necessarily imply that you’re forgetting your ground :) to each their own. It’ll always be upto you to show any or every side of you to a person <3

the screen of my laptop literally lights up every time I plug in the charger I could’ve sworn I heard it SING “so this is love mmm alas the light of my life has come home” EVEN THE KEYBOARD HEATS UP AND THE COOLER JUST LOSES ITS COLLECTIVE SHIT and I have to coo in her keys saying “down girl, easy.”

The door to the summer garden (2020)

When my friend said “I want to hold you, I want to know you, and I want to know where you’ve been” and Vashti Bunyan said “I want to walk around your mind someday, I’d like to walk all over the things you say to me, I’d like to run and jump on your solitude, I’d like to rearrange your attitude to me, you say you just want peace and you’d never hurt anyone, you see the end before the beginning has ever begun”

We don’t know and we’re not at an authority to know what tomorrow’s consequences would bear, and it’s completely 110% ok to accept that there’s someone out there willing to sit by our side and help us through the net, to weave a heart and perhaps even a warm sweater out of it, not something that traps us in the disguise of our solitude. It’s alright to admit you’d want to reach out to a hand that helps you see through the holes of a woven mess because claiming that one wants peace and doesn’t want to act violently against another gives away more than you’d intend for it to, especially when it goes further than just wanting to restore a sense of security and support externally, it speaks about the nature you’ve been sown to, and how you can very much grow out of it, creating peace outside can only come after one has created peace within themselves :) to come to a mutual consensus with your mind and heart, collectively working together to patch through and heal each other

They’re not stepping in on your privacy but simply stopping by your doorstep to find a spot for the two of you to sit together, leaving behind a trail of palm leaves so you can feel and see the glimpses of your growth and vulnerability, not as a weakness but as a medium to communicate with yourself <3