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a/n: She's a little long but aaahhh she's done :,) thank you all for reading. ILY
Thereβs also some errors in here but I finished at 3am. Ignore them
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gimmie dom daddy.
gimmie the kooky frat boy.
gimmie the unhinged baby boy.
i want all of him.
they are obx. carried the whole show. And this damned season. my cameron siblings :(
JJ Maybank x Reader x Rafe Cameron
Warnings:Β NON-CON,Β DUB-CON,Β abusive relationship,Β domestic violence,Β mentions of violenceΒ (+Β gun violence),Β gun kink, dacryphilia, attempted murder,Β blood,Β semi public sex,Β jealousy,Β manipulation,Β infidelity,Β underage drinking,Β drug use,Β canon ages,Β kook!reader
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summary:Β Youβre charmingly spoiled. Youβre too kind for your own good. Youβre the princess of Figure 8 β¦and youβre way out of JJ Maybankβs league, but when he realizes that Rafe Cameronβs pride and joy is actually a bruised and battered damsel, heβs determined to save you.
Your rescue just comes with a price.
You hadnβt seen nor talked to JJ in three weeks.
That hadnβt been your goal, having every intention of seeing him again after that day at The Wreckβeven if only to officially break it off between you. Things hadnβt worked out that way though and before you knew it, a week went by and then another and another. It was a combination of things reallyβRafe being around a lot more above all elseβbut you also didnβt think you had it in you to look JJ in the eyes and reject him again.
The day at The Wreck had been hard enough, and youβd only succeeded then because you were so overwhelmed by Kieβs words, desperate to get away and think. She hadnβt said anything untrue, anything wrong, and thatβs what made her words sting the most. Sure, JJ talked a big game about figuring out a way to safely get you away from Rafeβ¦but in practiceβ¦? Youβd been with Rafe for over two years and still hadnβt been able to come up with a scenario that wouldnβt come back to bite you.
JJ wanted to save you, and you wanted to let him, but it was unrealistic. The only chance you had would be to move halfway across the world and even thenβ¦ Rafe could be scarily determined to see something through, and it wasnβt like he lacked the means and resources to simply follow you. He hated to lose.
Sometimes you wondered if JJ really understood just how dangerous Rafe was.
β¦or if he simply enjoyed sneaking around with his girlfriend more.
Such a thought seemed so unfair to youβespecially since there was no doubt in your mind that JJ cared about youβbut youβd told him the same thing before all of this even started. Youβd had no problem telling him that you dating Rafe Cameron had a hand in his aggressive pursuit of you. You still believed that actually, and it wasnβt like you minded all that much because you were getting something out of this too and JJ was making you feel things you hadnβt felt in a long time.
β¦but Kie was right.
She was so right. You either had to leave Rafe or put an end to your βrelationshipβ with JJ. Anything outside of that wasnβt up for consideration, and between you and JJ, only one of you had what it took to do the rightβand smartβthing. So, you hadnβt seen JJ in weeksβ¦and it hurt.
You didnβt know why, but you hadnβt expected it to hurt this much.
This person who had become this cliche bright light in an otherwise dark life was no longer there. You didnβt look forward to the following day anymore nor anticipate hearing from someone who never failed to put a smile on your face. The nights that Rafe spent with his father or at home were no longer filled with a familiar presence to keep you company. When Rafe left the other side of your bed emptyβ¦it stayed that way.
β¦and against your will, you found yourself crying a lot more these days.
βSweetheart, you really need to get more sleep,β your mother cooed as she gently touched your face. βEverything okayβ¦?β
You nodded at her as you stirred your creamer into your coffee.
βYeah,β you assured her. βJust having trouble sleeping lately.β
She hummed at that, pressing a kiss to your temple.
βIβm going to give you something for that,β she told you, rubbing your shoulder. β...and something for those bags under your eyes too. Itβs making you look ill.β
You didnβt have a response for that other than a soft βthanksβ. She hummed at you before your father pulled her attention away, both of them getting caught up in a conversation about the broken garbage disposal. Their voices faded to the background as you continued to stir your coffee, even when it had long blended into an even toffee color. You only stopped when your name was called.
Your parents were looking at you expectantly when you glanced up.
βSorry?β
Your mother chuckled, albeit throwing you an odd look while doing so.
βI said youβve gotten a dress for Rafeβs party, right? Itβs the big twenty-one, and you canβt go wearing something you already have,β she said, sounding like it was the most ridiculous thing in the world.
You swallowed at the mention of his birthday, unable to forget about its approach even if you wanted to.
βRafe bought a dress for me months ago.β
Your motherβs smile made your stomach turn.
βOf course, he did,β she commented, gently squeezing your arm. βHeβs always so sweet to you.β
You werenβt able to keep looking at her as a fondness settled on her features as she thought about your relationship.
βIβd ask to see it, but I want to be surprised, and plus he never disappoints,β she chuckled. βHe always knows just what to pick, and you look so radiant every time.β
Her parting words made you sigh, and for the umpteenth time, you imagined how theyβd react if they ever knew the true nature of your relationship with Rafe. They doted on him because he seemingly doted on you. Like any decent parents, they were skeptical of him until he proved himself, and now years laterβafter heβd long started putting his hands on youβthey still thought you two were the best thing to ever happen to each other.
If they knew the truth, you had no doubt it would break their hearts for more reasons than one.
βI donβt know why Iβm surprised to see youβ¦β
Sarahβs voice pulled you from your thoughts, and you were forced to pull your gaze away from the picture they had on the wall. You didnβt doubt that it was some piece Rose had brought into the house.
βItβs Rafeβs birthday, so, of course youβre going to be here, but I feel like I havenβt seen you in weeksβ¦β
She hadnβt seen you in weeks, and just like with JJ, it hadnβt been intentional, but you still felt bad. In an effort to distance yourself from the younger blond, youβd pulled away from anything that had to do with him. You didnβt know if you just didnβt want to chance seeing him or hearing about him, but that had included making yourself scarce around Sarah too. Considering that you were dating her brother, it was almost an impressive feat.
βAre you okay? Because as Iβm saying this I realize it has been weeks since Iβve seen you, and when Pope asked about you the other day, I realized I couldnβt tell him how you were because I donβt know myself.β
You didnβt know how to respond, unable to tell Sarah that you felt like you were constantly outside of your own body, experiencing everything indirectly since youβd unofficially broken things off with one of her best friends. You missed himβmore than you thought you wouldβand you were back to the reality of what your life was likeβand would forever be likeβwithout JJ in it.
So, you simply said:
βIβm fine.β
Sarah didnβt look like she believed you, and you watched as she pulled her lip between her teeth.
βNone of us did anything, right?β you were already shaking your head. β...because everything seemed fine and then-.β
βNo, of course not,β you said with a light chuckle, trying to reassure her. βItβs just stuff at home that Iβve been handling. Nothing serious, but itβs kept me really busy lately.β
The younger girl slowly nodded at that, still looking unsure.
βIf you say so,β she commented. βWeβre still down whenever you can pull yourself away.β
It was a very basic gesture, but it both warmed your heart and made your stomach sink. You knew that youβd either have to man up and face the possibility of running into JJ despite the fact that you were now over, or tell Sarah you didnβt want to be friends anymore, and the latter you couldnβt ever bring yourself to do. You enjoyed being around her and her friends, and one could argue that you should be taking advantage of your new free time now that you were no longer seeing JJ.
β¦but the thought of facing him so soon after essentially ghosting him made your chest hurt. You were self aware enough to admit that you didn't think you were strong enough to face him and walk away again. With JJ out of the picture, you were quickly reminded of just how awful your life was before he decided to kiss you that night, and it was so easy to just let yourself go back to what made you happy.
You were afraid that your resolve would crumble with just one look.
How easy it would be to tell yourself that you deserved this and that your relationship with Rafe was hardly a relationship, at all. It wasnβt a hard argument to make either. Rafe had beat you and threatened to kill you and even put you into the hospital. Anyone in their right mind wouldnβt blame you for what youβd done, but it wasnβt just a matter of right and wrong and who considers what's classified as either of those things.
Rafe would kill you.
That was something you knew for a fact. Heβd threatened to do so on several occasions, but you knew that if Rafe ever found out about you and JJβeven in a sense of past tenseβthere would be nothing to talk about. He would kill you and more than likely JJ too. Sneaking around with JJ just for the hell of itβwith no actual foolproof plan to safely get away from Rafe for goodβwas a death wish.
It was beyond foolish, unfair to JJ, and dangerous for you both.
It was why you greeted Rafe with a gentle smile when he finally found you some time later, reaching for you and threading his fingers through yours. Keeping him happy would keep you safe. You knew that, and somewhere along the way, youβd gotten comfortable and allowed JJ to make you forget that. Your only viable options were Rafeβ¦or death, and anything in between was just a longer and complicated way to achieve the latter.
βI figured Iβd find you gossiping with Sarah,β he drawled, tone light-hearted.
You attributed his good mood to this dayβand partyβbeing entirely focused on him. You smoothed down the eggshell dress he bought for you, relieved that it was still blemish free. You grimaced as you recalled the last dress youβd spilled some wine on while attending yet another party his parents had thrown.
Rafe took note of the action, and he paused to admire you.
You watched as his blue eyes roamed over your frame, drinking in everything from your perfectly styled hair to the baby pink polish on your toes. The house held that moderate hum that came with a full guest list, but Rafe was entirely focused on you. It felt like one of those rare moments when he was genuinely happy with you, and the look on his face was reminiscent of when you both were eighteen and in love and he was sweeping you off of your feet.
Rafe moved closer and fingered an errant piece of hair before putting it back in place.ββ That seemed to satisfy him, and you watched as the corner of his lips curved upwards just the slightest. His fingers fell to your chin where he gently grazed your skin, and Rafe straightened, looking you over again.
βYou look perfect.β
The way in which he said it broke the spell, and suddenly the look in his eyes was so clear. You felt shiny all of a suddenβmetallic and heavy and like you belonged on a shelf. Your heart sank, and you didnβt know why because you knew that. Youβd long accepted that to Rafe, you were some prize, molded perfectly into his ideal girlfriend who would never dare leave him or speak out against him, and whoβd be his support no matter what.
For a split second, youβd really forgotten that, and you gave him a small smile.
βIβm wearing a perfect dress.β
Rafe only smiled at that before pressing a kiss to the corner of your lips, pulling you along.
Everyone was moving outside to cut the cake and lavish Rafe with even more attention. You held his hand tight as they did, playing your role and thinking about the many years to come in which youβd have to do this. Youβd long resigned yourself to it, but for some reason it was getting to you today more than usual. Perhaps it was because you could see it.
All over their faces.
They all looked at you and Rafe with such fondness and hope and happiness. They saw Ward Cameronβs only son with your fatherβs only daughter and pictured the future generations of Figure 8 and who would start it. They looked at you two and saw two sons and two daughters and a white picket fence and maybe even a dog. It caused a shiver to travel down your spine, and just when you considered excusing yourself, your boyfriend spoke.
Everyone quieted down as he gently tapped a glass, and you were forced to remain exactly where you were.
Rafe stared into the glass for a moment before leisurely setting it aside. You knew that this was his typical speech in which he thanked everyone for coming and showed endless gratitude to Ward and even briefly mentioned you, but there was a look that passed over his face that you couldnβt name. He looked happyβas expectedβbut there was a hint of haughtiness in that smile.
βIβm thankful that all of you came to support my family and I to not only celebrate my birthday, but to usher in this new era as I officially join my fatherβs business as wellβ¦β
Hums of appreciation and congratulations reached your ears, and you threw Rafe a smile when he glanced at you.
βI pretty much have everything I want, soβ¦β he waved his hand around. β...gifts and all that typically donβt mean anything to me at this age.β
You kept your eyes on him, wondering what direction this speech was going in.
βHoweverβ¦β Rafeβs smile grew. βThere is one gift Iβm hoping my wonderful girlfriend will give to meβ¦β
The gasps and commotion around you sounded more horrifying to your ears than exciting as Rafe turned to you and lowered himself to the ground. He was on one knee and reaching into his pocket, and despite the fact that you knew what that meant, you were in complete denialβfrozen where you stoodβup until he said the words.
β...by telling me βyesβ when I ask her to marry me.β
You heard your mother cry out behind you, and if there was any thought that she knew about this, it was quickly gone. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Rose covering her mouth in excitement, and you wanted to look around to see if anyone felt as horrified as you felt, but you knew the answer.
If you dared to look around, everyone would be smiling and looking on in awe and anticipation as they watched Rafe Cameron propose to you. You were sure that if you were met with the sight, it would terrify you, making you feel like you were knee deep in an episode of The Twilight Zone. You glanced up anyway, and only confirmed your suspicions, and you had the sudden urge to cry.
Why was everyone so happy? Why wasnβt anyone else petrified?
It took you an embarrassingly long time to realize it was because no one else knew. No one else knew that Rafe choked you when he felt you were getting too smart with him. No one else knew that the man on one knee before you was also the very same to break your nose and put you in the hospital. No one knew that the man proposing to you had once put the barrel of a gun in your mouth and threatened to kill you.
None of them knew that, and the one person who did didnβt look nearly as horrified as you felt.
You felt like youβd been in your head forever, but in reality, it was probably only a few seconds. Rafe was still knelt before you with that haughty smile and satisfied gleam in his eye, and you knew it was because he knew heβd won. You wouldnβt dare tell him no in front of your families and their friends and put a crack in the perfect picture you two had created.
The ring was a marquise solitaire with a yellow gold band, and if you were guessing correctly, you knew it was at least 3 carats. Tears spilled over as you looked at it, recalling a time where youβd told Rafe that was your dream engagement ring, but that was back then when Rafe was your dream man, and you were in your dream relationship. Both him and the relationship were a nightmare, now, and being presented with that ring of all rings made you sob.
When those blue eyes of his dimmed just a tad, in an effort to protect yourself, your mouth spoke before your brain could catch up, desperately telling him what you knew he wanted to hear.
βYes.β
The word came out of your mouth and was said in your voice, but you didnβt approve of it, and you broke down again as cheers erupted from around you. Your vision was blurry as Rafe slid the ring onto your fingerβa perfect fitβand he was quick to stand and pull you against him. Someone was loudly crying, and it sounded a lot like your mother, but the both of you were crying for entirely different reasons.
Rafe wrapped his arms around you, burying his face into your hair as he rocked you both from side to side. You could feel yourselves being closed in on, everyone wanting to come and personally congratulate you, and you shrunk in on yourself, wanting to be as far away from here as possible.
Rafeβs lips grazed your ear.
βYou just made me the happiest man on earth.β
You turned away from your bruised reflection, thinking that the evolution of your relationship seemed to bring out a side of Rafe that even scared him a little. You thought that he couldnβt keep his hands off of you before, but it was nothing in comparison to now that he could call you his fiancee. It rolled off of his tongue whenever he was inside of you, and it made it impossible to disassociate and try not to live in the moment of what your life had become.
You didnβt know if he was excited because he was so close to tying you to him forever, or if the ring on your finger increased the sense of ownership that he felt he had over you, but too many times had Rafe left you a little more battered and bruised every time he got you into bed as of late. Thinking about the harsh feel of his teeth on your back only days ago brought tears to your eyes, and you reminded yourself that you knew the trajectory of this journey the day you lied to the police.
After the successful proposal, the party had gone on for another two hours, every individual guest wanting their own solo moment to congratulate the happy couple. Rose and your mother endlessly fawned over the ring, and when you finally got a moment alone with your father, you discovered that heβd known for weeks.
After all, it was weeks ago that Rafe had formally asked for his permission.
βI donβt think any man will ever be good enough for you,β heβd said. β...but he treats you right and respected me enough to come to me.β
The tears in your normally stoic fatherβs eyes only served to remind you that everyone else was living in an entirely different reality with an alternate version of your relationship. You were feeling more trapped and cornered than ever, and everyone else around you wasβ¦elated.
All except one.
βOh my God,β Sarah had said the moment she'd been able to get a moment with you.
She took your hand and just stared at the ring, and you hadnβt needed to be a genius to know that she wasnβt as over the moon as everyone else. It was all over her face, but despite that, she attempted to be happy for you, and you appreciated the gesture.
βYouβre getting married,β she breathed. βTo my brother.β
Youβd pulled your hand away, swallowing, and beyond all of the overwhelming emotions you were feeling, you still remembered someone whose face you hadnβt seen in weeks.
βCan youβ¦can you not tell anyone else, please?β
Sheβd looked at you like you were crazy, an incredulous scoff escaping her.
βAll of Figure 8 will know by tomorrow morning, you canβt be serious,β she shook her head at you with wide and confused eyes.
βYes, but we both knew there isnβt really anyone from this side of the island you could possibly tellβ¦β
Sarah seemed to understand that you didnβt want her friends knowing, and although you could see she wanted to know why, she eventually nodded.
β...okay. Sure,β she whispered, tilting her head at you. βAre you happy?β
You had opened and closed your mouth, prepared to lie when she continued.
βYou justβ¦donβt seem all that happy.β
βOf course, I am,β youβd said with a deep breath. βRafe and I are getting married. Why wouldnβt I be?β
It was a loaded question, one you hoped you would never have to answer honestly.
With the heaviness of the ring on your finger and Rafeβs suffocating presence and your motherβs choking enthusiasm about the eventual wedding, you took full advantage the next time Rafe and Ward went out of town, telling Sarah youβd love to come over and hang out with her and Cleo and Kie. You desperately needed a break from the constant reminder that the rest of your life was about to begin.
You had left the ring in your bedroom because you just wanted one night without thinking about it, but you appreciated your decision all the more when the boys had unexpectedly shown up. Nevermind the fact that you werenβt quite ready to face JJ, but you really weren't ready to face him with a huge rock on your finger, and the words on your tongue explaining to him what it meant.
βIβm sorry, Iβm sorry,β Cleo had half heartedly apologized when she answered the door, pressing a kiss to Popeβs cheek. β...but the house is empty, yeah?β
It was true.
Wheezie was staying with a friend and Rose was on an overnight girlsβ trip. You couldnβt even find it in you to be nervous about being around the guys with Rafe none the wiser. You were at his house, and it would take nothing to just drive home, but most importantly, oddly enough, you were more concerned with being face to face with JJ again, at the moment.
Like a coward, you were unable to look him in the eye when you heard his voice for the first time in a month, and you were thankful that too much was going on for your uncharacteristic silence to be noticeable. You felt his gaze on you though, goosebumps erupting over your skin and feeling much hotter, but your eyes remained on your lap.
You only looked up just in time to see him brush past Kie to find a seat, and your brows furrowed as you looked between them. You had never known JJ to be cold, it just wasnβt like him, but there was no doubt about it that he was giving Kie the cold shoulder. The dark-haired girl saw your frown, and she merely shook her head.
βI feel like we havenβt seen you in years,β Pope said to you, reaching out for a high-five.
βSure feels that way, donβt it.β
JJβs comment made you grimace, and when you dared to look over at him, his gaze was already on you.
Coming face to face with him after what felt like forever made your heart skip a beat, and you struggled to look away.
βSorry,β you eventually apologized to Pope, ignoring JJβs comment. βRafe and family stuff just took up so much time.β
He waved off your apology, assuring you that he was joking, but you knew that JJ wasnβt, and when the blond got up to get a drink, you impulsively followed. The rest of themβsans Kieβwere none the wiser, and you briefly glanced over your shoulder before going into the kitchen. JJ was standing in the fridge, and it was only hitting you in that moment that you hadnβt seen nor talked to him in weeks.
You already knew that you missed him, but it was hitting you much harder as you stood so close to him while being unable to touch him. He looked like he was doing okay, and his hair was just as blond, and when he straightened, you were reminded of what it felt like to have those arms wrapped around you. You missed the feeling, and you missed running your hands through his hair and falling asleep to the sound of his heartbeat whenever you had the chance.
In this moment, it was very hard to remember why you had left him. However, you reminded yourself that you hadnβt followed him to talk about you two. There was no βyou twoβ anymore.
There was just you, and there was just JJ.
βWhy are you treating Kie like that?β
JJ didnβt respond at first, merely turning to you and staring you down for a few moments before a mocking smirk graced his pink lips.
βThatβs all you have to say to meβ¦?β
You didnβt respond to that, and when it became clear that you simply wouldnβt, JJ scoffed. He shook his head, opening a beer that was meant for Ward, no doubt, before leaning his back against the counter.
βYou know why,β was what he said with a straight face.
Now, it was your turn to scoff.
βItβs not her fault,β you defended, continuing when he started to shake his head. βShe didnβt say anything that wasnβt true, anything that we didnβt already know. We were just choosing to ignore it.β
βYou told me you werenβt going to let what she said get to you. You nodded, you assured me of that, and then I donβt hear from you for a month.β
Heβd dropped the cavalier facade, and you could see the anger and hurt passing over his features.Β
βYou donβt answer my calls, you donβt answer my texts, and if it wasnβt for Sarah, I wouldnβt have even known you were alive.β
βJJ-.β
βWe were happy-.β
βWe were delusional,β you quietly hissed. βKie was right. Donβt hate her for something that was inevitable.β
That word seemed to bother JJ, and you watched as his features hardened. Your former lover stared at you for what felt like a long time before glancing away. You watched him press his tongue to the inside of his cheek, and you didnβt like the look he fixed you with.
βDid you forget the deal we madeβ¦?β
When you frowned at him, he continued.
βThat I would keep quiet about Rafe so long as you let me be there for you?β
You shifted your feet, feeling uncomfortable at the mention of that. You didnβt say anything, not wanting to acknowledge that, but JJ merely nodded with a hum. He took another swig of beer, and you really hated the look he fixed you with then.
βIf youβre not going to hold up your end of the deal then why should I hold up mine?β
Your heart sank to your gut at that, and you blinked at JJ in disbelief, unable to believe that even he believed he was capable of what he was insinuating. Not only that, but it was such a cruel thing to even bluff about, and you let out a dry chuckle.
βJJβ¦thatβsβ¦ No,β you mumbled, shaking your head. βWhat is wrong with you?β
He didnβt answer your question, choosing to gesture to the living room.
βWhatβs to stop me from pulling Sarah aside and telling her exactly why you hardly have a life outside of your relationship with her brother?β
Your lips parted, and you just stared at himβ¦unable to believe what you were hearing.
βYou wonβt let me be there for you,β he spat out with a shrug. β...and someone has to be.β
You finally found your voice, and you blinked back tears.
βThatβs not your decision to make,β you quietly bit out.
β...and I disagree,β he argued, crossing his arms over his chest and tilting his head. βWeβre not talking about the typical asshole boyfriend here. Your life is in danger every time youβre around him.β
You furiously blinked, looking towards the ceiling.
βAs long as heβs happyβ¦Iβm safe,β you breathed, lips trembling as you looked at JJ again. βI just have to-.β
β...and when Ward pisses him off again? When youβre not as cold as you should be to some strange man? When he decides Topper was a bit too nice to you? Then what?β
JJ moved closer with every question, a sneer on his lips as he stared you down.
βThereβs no way to keep a guy like that happy.β
You flinched, leaning away from JJ as he leaned in. He looked between your tearful eyes, and while yes he was angry and hurt over how you decided to end things, you could see clear as day that JJ was also scared. He was scared for you and whatever future was available to you now that youβd decided to completely submit to Rafe and what he wanted for you both.
His face softened the longer he stared at you, and just as he lifted his hand, footsteps reached your ears.
You were in front of the open fridge just as John B. came in, handing him a drink when he asked for one. You stared at the food in front of you while you attempted to fix your face and get your emotions in check. Your heart was racing in your chest, and you wondered if you were just about to fall back into old habits had it not been for the brunette. You slipped out of the kitchen while John B. brought up something from the other day with JJ, and your smile was half hearted as Cleo pulled you to sit beside her.
You tried to engage with them, but it was hard. You couldnβt get JJβs words out of your mind and how right they were despite your denial of them. Keeping Rafe happy and discouraging him from hurting you would only work for so long at a time. Eventually a day would come where Ward pissed him off and heβd take it out on your body in some form or another. It was inevitable that Topper or Kelce or some other guy would slip and dare to treat you like a human being, something that Rafe would no doubt interpret as a line being crossed.
It made your heart sink to think about.
So caught up in your thoughts, you paid no mind to JJ and John B. returning from the kitchen until you felt liquid spilling all over you and the part of the couch you were sitting on. It smelled too strong to be anything other than beer, and you heard everyone scold JJ just as you jumped to your feet.
βWhy were you trying to carry so many?β Sarah loudly tore into him, alternating between looking over you and looking over the stained couch. βNow Y/N has to change, and you have to fix this couch.β
They briefly went back and forth while you tried to keep your shirt from sticking to you, assuring Sarah it was fine before making your way upstairs to do just as she said you would. You hurried into Rafeβs room, peeling off your shirt and your shorts the moment you were through the threshold. Your skin was already feeling sticky, and if heβd gotten beer on more than just your back and shoulders and arm, then you wouldβve admitted defeat and hopped in the shower.
You were half dressed and wiping off the last of it when you heard Sarahβs voice in the hall.
βYou have clothes here, right?β
βYeah,β you called, grabbing one of the many shirts you kept in Rafeβs drawers.
βOkay, because JJ felt bad and wanted to be sure you had something to change into, and then that made me unsure-.β
You were facing her and fully dressed the moment she cut herself off, swallowing the rest of her words. She was just inside of Rafeβs room, hand still on the door handle as she stared at you. Something passed over her face that youβd never seen before, and her brows knitted together as she gave you a strange look.
βWhat was that?β
Now, it was your turn to frown.
βWhat was what?β
Her mouth opened and closedβlike she was doubting herselfβbefore she tucked some hair behind her ear.
βOn your back.β
You felt your skin grow cold at her words, heart sinking as you quickly realized what she was referring to. Now, your mouth opened and closed as you struggled to respond. Your genuine confusion had quickly morphed into something that you normally only felt around Rafeβfear.Β
Giving her a soft hum, you pulled on your shirt and twisted around.
βNothing. The shirtβs clean,β you told her.
Sarah gave a soft chuckle, but sounded offβuncomfortable.
βNo, under your shirtβ¦β
You stepped away when she reached for you, and the blonde took notice, that frown returning. It deepened the longer she stared at you, and you attempted to lighten the mood.
βIt was probably just the lighting, my backβs fine,β you assured her.
She rolled her eyes at you.
βThat didnβt look like a shadow. I know what a shadow looks like-.β
βSarah, come on, my back is fine,β you waved her off, moving out of her reach. βLetβs just go back downstairs.β
Your attempt to get past her was successful, but your efforts to leave the room were halted when Sarah pulled up on the end of your shirt.
The gasp that she let out was loudβhorrifiedβand when you hurried to turn your back away from her, she had both of her hands over her mouth. Her wide eyes were frozen exactly where your back just was, and it took her a few moments to lift her gaze. All the while, your heart was threatening to jump out of your chest. You stared at her and she stared at you, both of you silentβher with horror and you with fear.
βWhat the hell is that?β she whispered when she finally uncovered her mouth.
βSarah, itβs nothing-.β
βThat doesnβt look like nothing,β she breathed. βThere are bruisesβthat was a bite mark!β
You worriedly looked over your shoulder, scared her voice would carry.
βWhere did that come from? Did Rafe do that?β
βItβs not what you think-!β
βThen what is it? Tell me what it is since itβs not what I think,β she spat.
You struggled to come up with an answer, resigned to admit that the truthβwhile badβwas the best thing you had up your sleeve.
βThings get a little rough sometimes in bed-.β
Sarah cut you off with a scoff, shaking her head at you.
βI donβt believe that,β she cried. βEven if I did, that looks disgusting and painful!β
She hurried to get past you, and you struggled to stop her.
βWhat are you doing?β you asked her, voice panicked.
βWhat do you think Iβm doing? Iβm calling our father-.β
βSarah, stop!β
She twisted out of your grip, and you chased her down the hall. Your mingled voices were loud as you argued, bouncing off of the walls as you chased her down the stairs. You didnβt pay any mind to her friends and what they were witnessing, only concerned with stopping Sarah from picking up her phone. You could feel their eyes on you as you grabbed her again, Sarah fighting to get you off of her.
βWoah, woah, hey!β John B. yelled, jumping in to separate you two.
βSarah, leave it-!β
βAre you crazy? You expect me to just-.β
She was cut off as John B. successfully pulled her away from you, a hand on your own arm pulling you away. The problem arose again when John B. let her go, and you pushed your hand against the person behind you to get to her phone before she did. You both fought over it, you on top of her on the couch as you tried to yank it out of her hands.Β
You could feel several pairs of hands between you, attempting to separate you again and keep it that way. JJβs voice was in your ear as he pulled you off of her, your legs kicking out as you pointed at her phone.
βJJ, stop her,β you tearfully spat. βSheβs trying to call Ward.β
When he made you face him, his own was twisted into confusion, and he kept his arms wrapped around you.
βWhat are you talking about? Why is she trying to call Ward?β
βOkay, both of you calm down,β Cleo spoke up, and when you looked over you saw that she was holding Sarahβs phone up and out of reach. βWhatβs going on?β
βSheβs hurt! Itβs all over her back,β Sarah choked out, chest heaving and face distressed.Β
At those words, JJ tensed against you, and you gave him a pleading look when his eyes finally met yours again.
βShe tried to give me some bullshit story, but I donβt believe it,β the words tumbled out of Sarahβs mouth, and JJ let you go. βJJ, she-.β
βI know,β he said as he neared her, Sarah speaking to him the moment she noticed his approach.
βNo, you donβt know. There are bruises all over her backβ¦β you felt several pairs of eyes on you at that. β...andβ¦andβ¦β
βSarah, I know-.β
βNo, you donβt understand-!β
βSarah, I know,β JJ finally screamed, taking her shoulders and gently shaking her.
The entire house was quiet as his words lingered in the air, and you swore that you could hear a needle drop. Your entire body was trembling for so many reasons, and you wrapped your arms around yourself as Sarahβs eyes widened, her gaze never breaking from JJβs. So many emotions passed over her featuresβconfusion, understanding, shock, betrayalβbefore finally settling on two.
Sarah was horrifiedβ¦and angry.
βYou know?β she whispered. βWhatβ¦? What does that even mean?β
She looked between you two, and you werenβt able to hold her gaze, your eyes landing on the floor. You were the center of attention at the moment, and you certainly felt it.
βH-how long have youβ¦?β
JJ didnβt answer her unfinished question right away, sighing.
βI found out months agoβ¦β
He trailed off at the audible reaction he got, and when you looked up, Sarahβs lips were parted. John B. was behind her, and he was looking between you and JJ with an expression that rivaled his girlfriendβs.
βMonths?β
Sarah turned her gaze to you again.
βMonths?β she choked out. βMonthsβ¦β
She repeated it like she couldnβt believe it, and JJ took advantage of her shock to get his point across.
βSarah, you cannot call Ward,β JJ slowly told her.
βWhy the hell not?β John B. wondered, and you were sure youβd never heard him sound so angry.
β...because heβs with Rafe.β
Kie whispered it, coming to the same conclusion and realization that you and JJ were trying to lead Sarah to. The blonde girl in question looked at Kie in shock as if she herself just realized that, and she furiously blinked, shaking her head.
βKieβs right, okay? Heβs with Rafe, and you cannot call him about this. Not now, not everβ¦β
Only you and JJ knew that Ward was well aware of his sonβs nature, and neither of you seemed eager to break that news to Sarah who was so sure her father would be the person to call because heβd do what was right.
βI donβt believe this,β she shakily whispered, twisting a hand into the hair at the top of her head. βHeβs hurting you, and Iβm just expected to-.β
βYes,β JJ snapped at her. βYou donβt understand-.β
βYouβre right, I donβt understand!β they were in each otherβs faces. βI donβt understand how Rafe has been hurting her for months apparently and Iβve been in the complete dark about it. I donβt understand how you knew and didnβt say anything!β
JJ sharply inhaled.
βI donβt understand how youβre standing here and telling me not to pick up the phone, and sheβs agreeing. I donβt understand any of this,β Sarah tearfully said, shoving JJ.Β
You stumbled back before turning away and searching for your purse. The sight of them arguingβbecause of youβand the feeling of everyone staring at you and knowing the truth was making you lightheaded and nauseous all at once, and you desperately wanted to be anywhere but here.
Kie called your name first, and then Pope, but you were already at the door when JJ finally chased after you. You could hear Sarah and Kie going back and forth as you stepped outside, and your vision was blurry when JJ finally caught up with you.
βTheyβre going to talk to her, okay?β
You sniffed, hurrying towards your car.
βSheβs confused and scared and mad, right now, so she doesnβt get it, but she will,β JJ assured you. βWeβre gonna talk to her.β
JJβs hand was on your arm as you reached your car, and you stared at your reflections in the window for a few moments before a sob escaped you. JJ pulled you into his arms, gently shushing you as you cried into his shoulder. He didnβt offer any words of encouragement because this was an unprecedented situation, and neither of you knew what was going to happen from here. Nobody else was ever supposed to know.
β¦but especially Sarah.
JJ held you for the longest time, and resolute in your decision to end things with him, you allowed yourself to bask in the feeling. You deeply inhaled and relaxed at the familiar scent that was JJ Maybank. You allowed yourself to find comfort in the warmth of his arms, and you could feel JJ doing the same.
When he started to pull away, he kept his arms around you, and when you glanced up, your eyes met his. He looked sad for you and scared for you but above all, he looked like he missed you, and when JJ started to lean in, you swallowed.
βRafe asked me to marry himβ¦β
The blond froze.
β...and I said yes.β
Your lips brushed his as you spoke, and he remained there for a moment or two before finally leaning back to look you in the eyes. If you thought JJ looked horrified before, it was nothing in comparison to how he looked after hearing that you and Rafe were getting married.
β...and if I asked you not to?β
You gave a humorless chuckle.
βIβd say that a girl can dream.β
JJ softly said your name, and you shrugged.
βI wanted you to hear it from me,β you whispered. βHe asked me in front of our families and all of their friends, so itβs not like I could say no.β
You watched as JJβs expression hardened.
βThis was never fair to you,β you said to him.βPlease, stop hating Kie for pointing that out.β
βI can make my own damn decisions,β JJ threw out, and you swallowed down a sigh. β...and right now, Iβm telling you that Iβm not letting you marry him.β
It was a good thing that you didnβt know how to respond to that, because JJ continued.
βIβm not letting that happen,β he sneered. βThe thought of you marrying that asshole makes me sick.β
You moved away from him, pushing his hands away when he reached for you.
βJJ, itβs over. Iβm actually saying out loud this time,β you sadly told him. βStop calling me, stop texting me, andβ¦ I wonβt stop you from staying in the pool house, but I told you that my father-.β
βIβm not abandoning you. You canβt make me,β he cut you off, and you swallowed as he looked between your eyes. βThis isnβt what you want, and Iβm not gonna let you do this.β
βJJ, itβs done,β you firmly said to him. βRafe and I are engaged. He asked my fatherβs permission, my mother is beside herself planning the whole weddingβ¦and you and I are over.β
You looked between his eyes.
βThatβs how things are supposed to be.β
The silence that stretched between you was thick and tense, and you swallowed at the way JJ ran his gaze over you. When he reached behind you to open your door, you sharply inhaled, moving closer to him to allow him to widen it. The blond leaned in then and pressed his lips to your forehead, lingering there for a few seconds. You closed your eyes, and he breathed you in.
βIβll talk to Sarah.β
He assured you of that when you slid into the driverβs seat, but he didnβt acknowledge anything you said, and that made you nervous. He shut your door for you, and as you started your car, you were having a hard time believing your own words when you told him that you were over.
Rafe Cameron x Reader
Summary: Who knew that asking your boyfriend's best friend for help with your sex life would make your boyfriend very angry...
warnings: DUB-CON, slightly toxic relationship, Rafe is mean but what else is new, dumb!reader, bimbo!reader, kook!reader
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Rafeβs groans were loud above youβas they always wereβand while his satisfaction made you feel good about yourself and your efforts, the tight grip he had on your hair reminded you of your shame. Truthfully, you didnβt think you had done anything shamefulβyou were only trying to do something nice for your boyfriendβbut as Rafe had stared you down with that deep frown on his face and the slight curl of his upper lipβ¦
You realized very quickly that you had done something very wrong.
Rafe slightly lifted his hips off of his bed, forcing the length of his cock further past your lips. All of the saliva on his length made the intrusion smooth and easy, but it also made you feel a tad gross, but you recalled what Topper had said.
βBlowjobs areβ¦dirty work,β heβd said while rubbing the back of his head. βThe messier it is, the better.β
Heβd shrugged at you, and despite the way those words made you frown, you believed him. Not only was he a guy, but he was Rafeβs best friend, and so he had to know what he liked. That was what drove you to seek out Topper for help to begin with. That and the fact that Sarah had given you a firm no when youβd initially gone to her. Something about feeling weird giving you sex advice all the while knowing it was going to be used on her brother.
βIt never hurts toβ¦spit on it,β the younger blond had advised.
Sex was already wet and sweaty and involved swapping bodily fluids, but something about spit just neverβ¦settled with you. With that being said, you took his advice and did just that, pulling your lips off of Rafeβs cock for only a moment to spit on the tip. When Rafe cursed from above you, you knew that you did something right, but it seemed that it clicked for him on how you knew to do that, and he was shoving himself back into your mouth again.
βDid Topper teach you that? Huh?β he sneered from above you, lifting his hips over and over again to drive himself between your swollen lips.
It brought tears to your eyes, not because it hurt, but because it became clear early on that this was just as much a gift for Rafe as it was a punishment for you. The sound of your mouth swallowing him repeatedly was loud in the otherwise quiet room, only accompanied by the blondβs uneven breathing. Your nose almost touched Rafeβs stomach, and you made a noise deep in your throat.
Your boyfriend heard it.
βI should make you gag on it, you know that?β he breathed. βI should break that pretty little jaw.β
His hand guided your head over him, rhythmically bobbing your head over his lap, and when you stole a peek, your tearful gaze met Rafeβs even one. As your eyes met, you feltβ¦torn. Rafe looked so pretty with his cock in your mouth. Those blue eyes the most expressive youβve ever seen them, his pink lips parted, and his dirty blonde hair with a mind of its own. You really, really liked him seeing like this, butβ¦
Those blue eyes werenβt just dripping with desire for his sweet girlfriend. Rafe was also angryβpissedβand although you struggled to grasp why at first, you were slowly beginning to understand. Rafe had a habit of losing his cool if some guy even so much as looked at you the wrong way, but even still, Topper was his best friend and you were his girlfriend. You were two people he trusted the most, and that was why youβd had no hesitation in being honest with him.
β...and what were you doing at Topperβs?β was what heβd asked you less than thirty minutes ago.
When heβd asked you about your day, it had sort of slipped out without you even realizing it, and your lips had parted at the realization youβd ruined the surprise. A frown had formed between your brows, and youβd struggled to come up with a lie, pulling your lip between your teeth.
βHe was helping me with something.β
It wasnβt a lie, but it was too vague of an answer for Rafeβs liking, and your boyfriend had stepped closer, his face pinched as he looked between your eyes.
βWhat was Topper helping you with that I couldnβt help you with?β
Your lips had opened and closed, struggling with what to say to him.
βItβs a surprise,β youβd said to him in a small voice.
Youβd given him a small smile, but Rafe hadnβt returned it, and that was the first inkling you felt that something was wrong. Rafeβs house was emptyβhis entire family outβand heβd moved closer to you, tilting his head.
β...and have you ever known me to like surprises?β
Youβd thought about it for a few moments before eventually shaking your head, shoulders sagging a bit.
βNoβ¦but you will like this one,β youβd answered, perking up with a smile and gently tugging on his shirt.
Again, Rafe hadnβt returned it, and youβd started to think that he wouldnβt like your surprise, after all, but he was a guy, and Sarah said that all guys loved getting their dicks sucked. Besides, it was among the many things youβd come across on Rafeβs laptop one day, links and videos full of peopleβwomenβdoing things that youβd never done with him, things heβd never even brought up with you.
While it wasnβt like you thought heβd leave you over whatever you didnβt do for him, it still left a bad taste in your mouth. Sure, Rafe told you all the time that he loved what he loved about you and that heβd kill for youβsomething that made you a tad uncomfortable actuallyβbut there was something about knowing Rafe desired much more than you were actively giving to him.
Did he not think youβd want to? Or that maybe you werenβt capable?
βWell, where is this surprise that you had to go to my best friend for?β he wondered, crossing his arms over his chest.
βHere?β youβd wondered, to which he nodded. βNow?β
Again, Rafe nodded, face stony, and you gave him a soft okay.
It was clear that he hadnβt been expecting you to kiss him, gently pressing your lips to his before parting them. As you coaxed his tongue out of his mouth, you reached for his folded arms, slowly pulling them apart before letting your hands drift to the waistband of his pants. At that, Rafe stopped you, and you pulled back slightly with a frown.
You were in the kitchen, but it wouldnβt be the first time you and Rafe did stuff in some place other than a bedroom, so you didnβt think that was why he stopped you. You found out that you were right.
When your eyes met Rafeβs, he was frowning at you with a different kind of frown now, and he slowly looked between your eyes as he studied your face. Excitement buzzed through your body as he just looked at you, but when his hands tightened on your wrists, your brow twitched, and you blinked.
βI donβt care about the surprise anymoreβfuck the surprise, actually. What exactly did you and Topper do this afternoon?β
His tone and his voice had you shrinking in on yourself, and this was the moment that you realized Rafe was mad. Your lips parted as he stared down his nose at you, and when his hold grew tighter, you winced.
βIβ¦ I wanted to learn how to give you a good blowjob.β
It was the first time you were sure youβd ever seen Rafe justβ¦freeze. The kitchen grew completely silent, and the air between you felt oddly off. Your boyfriend just stared at you for what felt like a long time, and for a moment, you started to wonder if heβd even heard you. Like you, he started to open and close his mouth a few times before eventually deciding on just snapping it shut. You watched Rafeβs jaw clench, and when he swiped his tongue between his lips, his chest was brushing yours.
βTopperβ¦taught youβ¦how to give a good blowjob.β
He said the words slowly, and you nodded in confirmation of the statement.
βI know thatβs what you like, and-.β
βSo, you gave Topper a blowjob?β
βNo!β
The word came out so loud that it startled you, but Rafeβs question had startled you even more. Your eyes were wide as you looked at him, and as his own words hung in the air, you realized the cause for his sour mood. The thought actually made you chuckle, because Topper had been terrified of the same thing when you first went to him.
βWe didnβt do anything that you and I would do,β you sweetly told him. βHe just told me and showed me what to do.β
It was practically the same words youβd said to Topper when he also misunderstood you, but oddly enough, it hadnβt seemed to calm him down. Heβd still been jittery and nervous, forcing you to basically beg him for his help. Even weirder, the clarification didnβt seem to calm Rafe down either, and you watched him press his tongue to the inside of his cheek.
His gaze briefly landed on the ceiling as he nodded.
βHe justβ¦told you and showed you what to do,β Rafe repeated, and youβd been dating him long enough to notice certain patterns with his tone.
You felt yourself shrinking a bitβdeflatingβand tears had kissed your eyes.
βI feel like youβre mad.β
Rafe had let out a laugh, but you struggled to find the humor in the situation. When your boyfriend looked at you again, he was stepping towards you, forcing you back. He was shaking his head at youβin that way that didnβt make you feel goodβand you were suddenly reminded of the times when he wasnβt so nice to you and even made you cry.
βI knowβ¦I know that it takes you a little bit longer than everyone else to catch up sometimes,β he whispered, letting your hand go to gently take your chin between his fingers. βI know that.β
You struggled to piece together what he meant by that, and when you finally did, he was already insulting you again.
β...but you went to another man to help you learn how to go down, and youβre wondering if Iβm mad?β
Rafe just stared at you, brows raised, and you slowly realized that he was expecting you to say something. With the knowledge that he initially thought you cheated on him, you were starting to see how Rafe might not see this from your eyes. Both Sarah and Rafe had repeatedly told you that everyone didnβt think like you did, but you hadnβt cheated on Rafe, so you were really struggling to understand his anger, right now.
Youβd done it for him.
βI just wanted to make you happy,β youβd whispered.
At those words, you watched as Rafeβs eyes glazed over, and he stared you down with a look you couldnβt place. You watched the corner of his lips curve upwards ever so slightly, and when he let you go, the blood rushed through your arm again. Your boyfriend took a step back before raising his arm in a gesture towards the stairs.
βWell, letβs goβ¦β
Youβd straightened at the shift in his demeanor.
βShow me what he taught you, and make me happy.β
That was how you found yourself on your knees with Rafeβs cock in your mouth, and his hand on your head. He was rough, but youβd expected it because Rafe often was. However, you also accepted that there was an added layer to that because he was pissed off. Youβd genuinely gone to Topper for help and to do something for your boyfriend in return for all heβd done for you.
Yes, Rafe could be mean sometimes, but he always told you he was sorry and made up for it by putting a gift in your hand. He wasnβt perfect, no, but neither were you. You knew how imperfect you were, how frustrating you could beβsomething your parents had never failed to be honest with you aboutβand so you didnβt expect from him what even you yourself didnβt live up to.
Besides, Rafe was always looking out for youβat parties, at the mall, and even in your own home when you had another near miss. He was always buying you any dress you wanted, and he was more sweet than he was mean. At least, you thought so. He often ran you baths and detangled your hair and helped you pick out what blush or lipgloss to put on. He enjoyed dressing you up, and you enjoyed letting him.
Your life just seemed to flow so much easier and smoother since you started dating Rafe.
β¦and youβd always known you werenβt the brightest person in the room, so whenever Rafe expressed his frustration with that, you tried not to let it get to you. This time was different though. This time youβd gone out of your way to try and do something nice for him, to try and be a better girlfriend to make him happyβ¦and he wasnβt happy.
βWhat do you think youβre doing?β Rafe snapped when you pulled away, letting him fall out of your mouth.
He sat up and looked down at you as you knelt on the floor, arms crossed over your chest. With one look into your eyes, your boyfriend huffed, and you bit your lip in an attempt to keep it from trembling.
βYouβre being mean,β you tearfully told him.
βNo shit,β he bit out, reaching for you, but you reared back.
βI just wanted to do something nice for you!β
βBy going to my best friend and asking him to teach you how to suck my dick, are you crazy?β
βHow else was I supposed to surprise you, Rafe? Was I supposed to take notes from all of those videos on your computer?β
A silence descended over you, and you avoided his gaze. You could feel him staring at you, and you continued to look at the wall behind him.
βIs that what this is about?β he eventually sighed.
βYou like it, otherwise you wouldnβt watch it. Any of itβ¦β
A blowjob seemed the easiest barrier to cross, but you had worried yourself a bit on how youβd ever hype yourself up into doing any of that other stuff. Youβd told yourself one step at a time, but who knew that what you thought would be the easiest would cause all of this. You angrily wiped away a stray tear.
βCome hereβ¦come here,β Rafe repeated himself when you didnβt budge, reaching for you and pulling you between his knees again.
He took your face into his hands and forced you to look at him. Rafe didnβt look as angry, now, eyes softer, and he brushed his thumb along your mouth.
βIf I wanted to do everything I watched then weβd be in trouble.β
He chuckled to himself, but you didnβt laugh.
βThen why watch it?β you whispered, and your boyfriend rolled his eyes.
βItβs like putting on a football game.β
βRafe, I saw some woman getting fucked by three men at once. No way youβre comparing that to footballβ¦β
βIβm just sayingβ¦β he started, leaning in and kissing you. βItβs not a big deal and especially not enough to where you need to go running to Topper for help on our sex life.β
His hand found itβs way to your throat.
βYou want to know how to make me happy then you come to me,β he lowly said against your lips. βThatβll make me happier than any surprise, you understand?β
You nodded at that, and his hand moved to your hair again as he leaned back.
βNow spit on it, baby, just like you did before.β
You did, and soon after, Rafe was in your mouth again.
His hips wouldnβt stay still as you sucked in your cheeks around him, a sound leaving your boyfriend that you were sure youβd never even heard before. The groans that left him were animalistic, and you were shocked by how much it turned you on. You didnβt think that focusing on pleasuring Rafe would be so exciting, but it filled you with something that made you feel proud.
βUse your hand,β you heard him breathe.
You recalled Topper mentioning that, and you brought your hand up to wrap around what your lips couldnβt. Rafe lifted his hips again, one hand on your hair and the other on your wrist. When he softly told you to bring up your other hand, you didnβt quite understand why until he took it and placed it under his shaft. You played with him there, and Rafeβs satisfied moan reached your ears.
You bobbed your head over him for a while, taking in the taste of him and every sound he made. He sucked air through his teeth when you flattened your tongue against his cock, dragging it along him as you continued to suck him. All the while, you progressively grew wetter and wetter, enough to almost make you feel embarrassed. When Rafe started to sit upβalbeit with difficultyβconfusion filled you. It only grew when he pulled you off of him, completely standing now.
He looked down at you and you looked up at him as he rested his hands on the sides of your head.
βOpen your mouth for me,β he purred. βKeep it open just like that.β
On instinct, you reached out to grip the back of his thighs as he began to thrust himself into your mouth. Something about it turned you on even more, and you didnβt know why. Maybe it was the look in his eyes? You could certainly see them better from this angle, and the blue of them looked so much darker to you as Rafe watched his cock disappear into your mouth.
Maybe it was the way you could see his chest heaving, quickly rising and falling as he struggled to breathe from how you were making him feel. His button down was open, and your eyes took in the slight glisten on his chest from the sweat. Your eyes traced his skin in the low light and then eventually his hair and how it hung along his forehead, kissing the skin there.
Or maybeβ¦just maybeβ¦you liked the feeling of Rafe using you.
You were completely still as he fucked your mouth, keeping your lips parted and your tongue flat for him. You liked being on your knees and letting Rafe use you as a means to an end, letting him use you to chase his high that would no doubt end in him spilling himself down your throat. You could tell that Rafe liked it too, your boyfriend not taking his eyes off of you once.
The choked gasps and groans from his mouth got louder and louder, and even if he wasnβt holding your head in place, you were sure you wouldβve still remained there to let him come in your mouth, ropes of warmth hitting the back of your throat and tongue as he continued to fuck your mouth through his orgasm.
Rafe stroked your cheeks as he came, his breathing slowly becoming even again, and when he moved your head, you slid your lips along his cock one last time, tongue sliding against his length and swallowing anything left behind.
βGood girl,β you heard him murmur from above you.
When Rafe bent down to kiss you, you lifted yourself a bit to help him, smiling against his lips. His hand twisted into the hair at the nape of your neck, and you moaned into the kiss.
βYou were just trying to be a good girlfriend, huh,β he whispered into your mouth.
You frantically nodded at that, happy that he wasnβt mad at you anymore.
βI guess I canβt fault you for that,β he hummed. β...but Iβm still going to have to kick Topperβs ass.β
hiii, could you write a Tim Bradford X Grey!reader? She is sergeant greyβs daughter but adopted, so everyone can imagine themselves as they want π!
and they have to sneak around because she is βoff limitsβ, also maybe younger than him??
and one day, while they are at her house and they are doing it (idk if you write smut, if you donβt you donβt have to go into details ofc). Wade goes at her house because she was not answering her phone and finds them while she is literally on top of him ??
Not just any man
Warnings/Tags: 18+ mdni!, smut, p in v (wrap it before you tap it!), language, fluff, secret relationship, reader is Grey's adoptive daughter
Word count: 1.722
Authors note: Hey love, thanks for the request! Yes, I do write smut. I hope this fits your expectations! I really appreciate the idea with the reader being adopted, so everyone can imagine the reader as they like!
Enjoy!
There was a lot you had Wade Grey to thank for.
Catching you with your boyfriend wasn't one of those things, though. Especially when your boyfriend was one of his officers and he was older than you.
You were in so much trouble.
It had all began when you met Tim at a charity event hosted at the police station (not the best place for an event like this, as your father later would always like to mention).
It had instantly clicked.
The thrill of doing this behind everyone's back was what excited you the most the first few months - that was, until Tim confessed his feelings to you.
You were deeply in love with each other, and no one would be able to separate you - not even your father, even when he decided to fire Tim, if he ever found out.
When you were a baby, barely a few months old, Wade had adopted you.
Your parents died a few days prior, losing everything, including their lives, when a drug deal went horribly wrong.
You didn't know much about them, but you didn't care. The Grey's were your family, not them.
Family didn't end in blood.
You were a little older than their biological daughter, but you were still your fathers little girl.
Which meant you were off limits - to everyone, including Tim. Not that it would have stopped you, though.
You had to sneak around of course, but someday your parents eventually had to find out - especially if you wanted to spend the rest of your life with Tim.
It just wasn't supposed to be that day, especially not like this.
You and Tim had been busy that day, you both had a day off and had been cooking together, went shopping (yes, you did that together, when your parents weren't near), and watched movies.
All that time you didn't look at your phone, though - missing several calls from your father.
Now, you were very busy with Tim, as he placed kisses down your neck, making you shiver in delight.
Your naked body's pressed together, his fingers brushing over the curves of your breasts, wandering further down.
Your fingers touched him wherever they reached - his muscular chest, his back and his arms, brushing through his short hair as his fingers pleasured you.
His lips found yours, muffling a moan, as his fingers went in and out of your tight pussy, his palm brushing your clit in the process, sending shivers up your body.
You loved every second of it.
You loved the way he always took care of you, the way he took his sweet time.
The knot in your stomach tightened, as he quickened the pace of his fingers. Gasping his name your fingers dug into his shoulders, his lips ghosting over your neck, as his thumb drew figure eights on your clit.
With a few last strokes you came, moaning his name, pure bliss pulsing through you, blinding you momentarily. You rode out your high on his fingers, before he removed them, smirking down at you as you gasped for air.
He was breathtakingly beautiful. His eyes that shined like the stars at night, full of love. His face, his lips and his hair - he was perfect the way he was.
And he was all yours.
His lips found yours again and he stroked himself, before he aligned his dick with your entrance.
Slowly, he inched forward, stretching you out in just the right way, the initial pain quickly fading into a feeling that was so much better.
When he was fully settled, he started to move, not giving you much time to adjust.
A throaty moan passed your lips, as his hands gripped your hips to steady himself. You fell into a steady rhythm, the familiar knot in your belly already forming again.
"Fuck." he breathed, one of his hands finding your breast, pinching your nipple. Moaning loudly your legs wrapped around his middle, taking him even deeper.
He thrust into you vigorously, your moans mixing together. But you wanted a change in position.
Pushing him back you sat up, his brows furrowing in confusion. You pushed him onto his back, causing him to chuckle knowingly, as he realized what you were doing.
Smirking, you straddled him, not wasting any time to sink down on him again. He groaned, his hands gripping your hips, steadying you.
βOh fuckβ¦β His moan was like music to your ears, raw and unfiltered, as you started to move, up and down and up and down.
Skin slapped on skin, as he gripped your ass, helping you in your movement, when he suddenly stiffened, pulling you into his arms to cover you up.
"Tim wha-" you wanted to ask what happened, when you heard it.
"You better be kidding me!"
Flinching, your head snapped in the direction of your father's voice, body pressed against Tim, as your eyes widened.
"What the hell?" you yelled, your father's back turned towards you, one hand on his pistol.
"What the fuck?" Tim cut in. "What the hell is he doing here?"
"What the hell am I doing here?" your father bellowed, as you climbed off Tim, frantically searching for your clothes. "What the hell am I doing in my daughter's house? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?"
He shouted - never a good sign.
Tim searched for the right words, not sure how to explain, as you threw his shirt at him.
When you were both fully clothed your father had already left the bedroom, pacing in your living room.
Walking towards him you tried to come up with an explanation. It would have been useless to lie, so you decided to confront him with the truth.
"We're together." you spoke, swallowing. Fast and painless - just rip the bandaid off in one move.
Your gaze fixed on your father who so suddenly stopped, you thought time had paused for a second.
"You are what?" he yelled, anger clear as day on his face, a vein on his neck popping out. Tim stood somewhere behind you, not daring to say anything.
After all he was still his boss.
"We. Are. Together." you repeated word after word. "We are in a relationship. We love each other."
Your father's eyes nearly bulged from their sockets, as he stared at you, mouth agape.
How we're you to explain, if he suddenly had a heart attack?
"You of all people!" he spoke angrily, pointing at Tim and you stood in front of him, blocking his way as your father took a step closer. Giving him a pointed look, he fell silent.
"Dad, I'm not thirteen anymore!" you tried to reason, shaking your head at him. "Im twenty-six! You don't have to protect me from men - and you definitely don't have the right to tell me who I date and who I don't!"
Blinking rapidly he tried to process your words.
"But-" he started, irritation clear on his face. "Y/N, you're my daughter! I told them you're off limits!"
Furrowing your brows you looked at him in disbelieve. "You did what?" you almost shouted. "God, you're so embarrassing!" His eyes were wide. "I am embarrassing? Seeing my daughter naked with a man - that is embarrassing!"
Your cheeks flushed, not wanting to be reminded of that, as you looked away.
Sighing he tried to find the right words, only making unintelligible sounds, though. "I can decide on my own who I want to be with, dad." you explained, brushing away a lose strand of hair.
"But-" he tried again, brows furrowed in sadness, and your heart grew heavy. "You're my daughter, my little girl! I can't just hand you off to any random guy!"
"What?" Tim interrupted, stepping forward. Rolling his eyes your father shook his head, fully knowing he could trust Tim Bradford.
If anyone, it was him.
It grew quiet, as you bit your lip, nervousness washing over you in waves. Would he fire Tim? Destroy his entire career just because he loved his daughter?
He sighed heavily, wiping over his face with his hand.
"Look, you didn't answer your phone all day so I got worried - and then I find you with him!" he explained, briefly pointing at Tim, who grabbed your hand, not letting go even as your father's jaw clenched at the sight.
"I'm not ready to hand you off just yet."
Closing your eyes for a moment you took a deep breath. "Serge, I love your daughter and I want to be with her." Tim started, giving your hand a reassuring squeeze.
It would all be good.
"I'm not willing to give her up, just because you can't let go."
Your father's brows rose at the bluntness of his words, but he kept quiet, chewing on his cheek as he thought.
"What if you break her heart?" he wanted to know after a while, tilting his head. "Won't happen." Tim returned without a moment's hesitation.
You couldn't help but smile at his words. You loved him with all your heart and you knew he did the same.
Your father swallowed, nodding after a while, eyes glistening. "If you just so much as look at her in the wrong way, I will make the rest of your life a living hell." he swore Tim, huffing at his emotions taking over.
Letting go of Tim's hand you walked to your father, hugging him in relief. He returned the hug, his arms the same shelter as when you were just a small child.
"Thank you." you whispered, happy tears filling your eyes. "When he hurts you, just tell me and I'll get rid of him." he offered, letting go of you.
Judging by Tim's huff he heard his words, but you were sure he did it intentionally.
"I love you, dad." He smiled down at you, the emotions still clear on his distraught face. "I love you too, kiddo."
Rolling your eyes you hugged him again, before letting go and walking towards Tim.
Smiling up at him you took his hand back in yours. It would all be good. He returned the smile, still a little hesitant because of your father's presence.
Standing on your tip toes you kissed him, causing your father to immediately protest.
"No!"
MDNI | 18+ content
jj's definitely the type of bf to inspect your pussy after a good orgasm. sticking his face down there to part your puffy folds with his forefingers, maybe kiss your clit once or twice to feel your body jerk and thrash against him in overstimulation.
"think i got 'er good this time babe, don't know if she'll be able to make a full recovery."
and you have to laugh and slap at his biceps to get his face away from your pussy bcuz the look in his eyes suggests a round two β and as his earlier statement hinted β you were in no way ready for that.
bones points if you let him cum inside you and part of his little 'inspection' routine includes him scooping the cum up from your sopping hole and spreading it all the way around your pussy until you're crying from the overstimulation and clawing at him to stop with glossy eyes.
Heyyy saw ur request were open what about dark!rafe catches you talking shit about him to your friends over text???
How a Girlfriend is Supposed to Act
Warnings: noncon, forced sex, domestic violence, choking, slapping, oral (m!recieving), toxic relationship, gaslighting
Despite being with Rafe for almost a year, you had learned all of the quirks that he had when it came to his possessiveness very early on.
The first time you caught him reading your texts, you were surprised by just how nonchalant he was about the entire situation.
He was sitting on your bed after you returned from grabbing the two of you a snack, scrolling through your phone, not even bothering to look up at you until you asked him what he was doing.
βYouβre my girlfriend, Y/N.β He said it slowly, like he was reminding you of something you yourself couldnβt possibly forgot. The accusing fire in his gaze made you squirm. βOf course I have the right to look through your phone.β
At first you were too surprised to react. You had never really had a reason to look through Rafeβs phone, but you imagined he wouldnβt be too happy if you did.
βWhy the fuck do you look so nervous, huh?β He was starting to sound annoyed, and his eyes were flicking between meeting yours and scanning your phone. βGot something youβre trying to hide from me?β
βWhat? No, Rafe! I just didnβt expect to find you going through my phone, thatβs all.β You explained breathlessly. You didnβt know why he was accusing you of trying to keep secrets from him.
Unfortunately, the last thing that you should have done in that moment was try to snatch your phone away from Rafe.
His hand shot out, tightly gripping your wrist as he dug his fingers into the bone beneath your skin. You cried out in pain and watched as your phone fell onto the bed, before bouncing to the floor.
Your boyfriend was furious now, easily pulling you onto the bed by your wrist and onto your back at a painful angle before straddling you. You struggled beneath him, trying hopelessly to stop him from putting his hands on you
When Rafe slapped you across the face the first time, your ears rang and you swore that your vision went white for a moment.
Every sound became muffled but you could hear Rafe angrily chastising you from above, βdumb bitch. I mean, I pay for your fucking phone, so yeah, youβre not gonna talk back to me when I go through it.β
That was months ago, and you later learned that that wasnβt even the first time that Rafe had gone through your phone.
You werenβt cheating on Rafe, that much was 100% true. The problem was that Rafeβs definition of cheating included behaviors that you knew were not cheating.
Texting your classmate a question about homework turned into a two hour long fight that culminated in Rafe giving you a black eye.
After Rafe saw you had and Topper had sent each other a couple funny posts in instagram dmβs, he choked you so hard you passed out, leaving you to cover up the extensive bruising on your neck around your friends and family to avoid explaining what had happened.
Ever since then you had learned to be careful about who you texted, and if you ever texted anyone Rafe wouldnβt approve or said something that he wouldnβt like, you made sure to delete the conversations.
You were always so diligent in covering your tracks.
Except for the one time you really needed to.
After another argument with Rafe had become physical, once you finally got some space away from him you had texted a friend, vaguely venting your frustrations with him, without revealing too many details to make her suspicious that Rafe was hurting you.
As you shakily typed out the texts you couldnβt help but think back on the fight you had had. After catching a guy staring at you in the club, the moment you returned home, Rafe had been quick to grab you by the throat, pushing you up against the wall before hurling insults at you.
βI mean you dress like such a fucking slut, no wonder I have to chase these guys off. I bet you wanted his attention, didnβt you?β His eyes narrowed as he looked down at you with disgust.
You were so shocked by his outburst you had barely registered the fingers crushed your throat, and you finally gasped for air against his strong hand. βN-no, Rafe!β
His grip tightened as he regarded your fearful eyes, βnah, you always think you can fool me sweetheart but you never can.β His chuckled, but there was no hint of humor in his eyes, βI saw you looking at him when we first walked in.β
You shook your head against him, tears gathering in your eyes as you begged with him, βI wasnβt baby-β
βShut the fuck up, Y/N.β He spat at you, squeezing so hard you were sure you would have deep purple bruises on your neck tomorrow.
βI never should have let you outta the house wearing that dress. You were looking for trouble walking around like that.β Rafe growled, his eyes were ice cold. You knew that he was itching for a fight, and you didnβt want to give him what he wanted.
βIβm sorry,β you struggled to force the words out with such little breath and Rafe finally gave you a respite when he loosened his grip on your throat. βYou okayed it before we went out, I thought it wouldnβt be a problem.β
βI knew every guy at that bar would be trying to fuck you with their eyes, but I didnβt think youβd be doing the same to them!β The more he spoke, the more pissed off he seemed to be making himself. You knew that he was just convincing himself that his actions were justified.
When he tossed you to the floor, you yelped in pain when your should hit the hard wood. You barely had time to reach for your tender neck before Rafe grabbed a fistful of your hair and forced you to look up at him.
βI mean, do you even love me anymore, Y/N?β His voice sounded hurt, and even though this wasnβt the first time he had used this card on you in the middle of putting his hands on you, you couldnβt deny the tug on your heartstrings you had when you looked into your boyfriendβs eyes.
βOf course I do, Rafe!β You insisted, knowing that your enthusiasm was expected and there would be consequences if you didnβt play along.
You were terrified of your boyfriend, and after being with him for so long, you were aware of the ways to deescalate a tense situation. In moments like these you would have said anything to protect yourself.
βNah, you donβt mean that. You havenβt been yourself lately baby. Always too busy with work to spend time with me and now youβre talking back to me?β He shook his head, tsk-ing as he glared at you disgustedly. βNot to mention, you havenβt been fulfilling all of your duties as my girlfriend.β
You stared at him, puzzled and not understanding his meaning, βwhat are you talking about?β
βWhat are you talking about?β He repeated back to you in a mocking tone, like he couldnβt believe how dumb you were to not get it. βI mean, itβs been, what, five days since you last let me have sex with you? I have needs, Y/N. And when you canβt just lay on your back and spread your legs for me, youβre being a bad girlfriend.β
His words stung, and you couldnβt tell if the tears in your eyes were because of the large hand tangled into your hair, or because your boyfriend was acting like you owed him sex, like you were in the wrong right now.
βNow youβre gonna make it up to me, because you are really pissing me off right now, and I donβt want to hear any fucking complaints, do you understand?β
Your body was screaming in resistance, but you numbly realized that you were nodding your head. Rafeβs hand left your hair, finding your chin and gripping your jaw hard.
βUse your words, sweetheart,β the sick grin that was spread across his lips told you exactly how much Rafe was getting off on your humiliation right now and you wanted to be sick.
βI understand.β You forced the words past your gritted teeth, swallowing down the bile that threatened to come up.
Rafe unbuttoned his pants before sliding the zipper down and pushing them down his legs before pulling off his boxers as well.
His dick was hard, a bead of precum already pearled at the tip of his intimidating length.
You swallowed nervously, already afraid of how rough your boyfriend was going to be. You felt like you werenβt ready at all, but the sharp pain the bloomed on your cheek after Rafe slapped you told you that you must have hesitated for too long.
βQuit your damn procrastinating, Y/N,β he hissed, tangling his fingers into your hair again and pulling you to his dick, forcing the tip past your plump lips.
You didnβt have any time to be surprised, gagging and choking on him as he pushed himself deeper towards your throat. He groaned at the feeling of your throat squeezing his cock, urging himself further into the back of your mouth.
Rafe was in heaven, basking in the sight of your teary eyes and the ruined mascara that now trailed down your cheeks. You had looked so pretty at the club tonight, but now you were a crying mess. The noises of your gagging and the steady sound of Rafeβs cock hitting the back of your throat filled the space. Nothing had ever made Rafe hornier than seeing your beautiful, tear filled eyes begging and pleading with his.
He reached out to your cheek, wiping up a bit of saliva that had been forced past your lips. Your glassy eyes were unfocused now that you had given up any thoughts of resistance, too cock drunk to try protesting against the stronger man.
You were doing all you could not to gag on him and choke, knowing full well that that would only spur him on. Every time you pushed at his thigh to get him to ease up, he would slap your hand away with an annoyed grunt.
His pace was relentless now, one hand was gripping your hair and the other was at your throat, holding you still so he could push himself deeper.
βThatβs right baby, fuck,β he bit back his groans, ignoring your gagging and desperate eyes when he forced himself too far down your throat, literally choking you with his cock. βOh fuck- god Y/N, youβre better than any sex doll, you know why?β
He knew you couldnβt answer him, especially since he had started thrusting faster past your messy lips, but he still paused to drink in the sight before him.
βBecause they canβt fight back,β Rafe sneered, picking up his pace again, reaching a punishing fervor.
The blondβs dick was slamming into the back of your throat while the large hand at your throat squeezed in warning anytime you so much tried to pull back.
He sped up on final time, chasing his high by forcing you to take all of his cock. Rafe held you in place and watched you choke on him for a couple seconds before letting out a low groan and spilling his salty seed down your throat, giving you no choice but to swallow every drop of it.
When he pulled his dick out of your mouth, you took a gasping breath, but werenβt allowed much air before Rafe slapped you across the face hard.
βFrom now on, I expect this and more from you every night weβre together. Because thatβs how my girlfriend is supposed to act. And if you think about giving me any lip about that, then Iβm gonna make you wish you had just kept your pretty mouth shut, got it?β
That rest of the night was no better than the beginning, after Rafe had helped you clean up, he basically immediately led you to your bed.
He chuckled in satisfaction when you didnβt fight back against his wandering hands, and as held tight to your wrists, plunging his cock into your slick cunt, he didnβt say anything about the tears rolling down your cheeks.
The next morning you had woken up sore, your entire body ached, and you werenβt surprised when you looked in the mirror and saw the red and purple blooming around your throat.
Rafe was still asleep, his deep snores letting you know that he wouldnβt be waking up soon.
You quietly snuck into the bathroom, grabbing your phone off of the bedside table on the way. Once you had shut and locked the door behind you, you exhaled deeply, unlocking your phone to check for messages.
Your friend had texted you asking how your night had gone, and feeling perhaps a little too honest, you told her that the two of you had had an βargument.β
βhe thought i was checking out a guy at the bar and said some really rude things to me last night.β You laughed to yourself as you stared at your own words through blurry eyes. It was both funny and sad to you how used to covering for Rafe you now were.
The bathroom felt more cramped when you remembered that Rafe was just on the other side of the door, despite being asleep.
A new notification popped up soundlessly and you read your friendβs text. She was joking about gathering all of your mutual friends to gang up on Rafe.
If only she knew the extent of what Rafe had done to you. You were sure she wouldnβt be joking then. In spite of that, you were angry with Rafe and wanted to blow off a little steam with your friend.
Which is why you felt emboldened to continue texting her.
βheβs such an asshole sometimes. iβve been thinking about breaking it off with him soon.β
You huffed, putting your phone down before finishing up in the bathroom and opening the door.
To your surprise, Rafe was standing on the other side, waiting for you to get out before he brushed past you without a word.
You noticed he was taking longer than he usually did to just pee, and when he finally stepped out of the bathroom, you realized with a horrible chill why he had been in there for so long.
Clutched in his hand was your cellphone, and you could see that it was open to the messages you had just sent.
ββHeβs such an asshole, Iβve been thinking about breaking it off??ββ His voice was cold and you cringed hearing him speak your words. There was no denying he had read your texts.
You shivered, frozen in place as he stared you down, his blue eyes boring so deep into you that you swore you could feel them burning straight through you.
Your mouth was so dry, you had never felt so afraid of your boyfriend before. Even after everything he had put you through, you had never said anything about breaking up with him to his face. βRafe, I-β
If your instincts hadnβt kicked in, you would have taken the blow right to your nose, however you had been lucky enough to dodge the phone fast enough that it only nicked your forehead before smashing into pieces against the wall behind you.
Unfortunately, while you had been focused on dodging your phone, the taller man had closed the gap between you, easily pushing you up against the wall by your throat and choking you with both hands. Rafeβs fingers pressed down against the bruises that they had left there the previous night.
You wanted to scream, but Rafe had knocked the wind out of you and no matter how hard you shoved him, he wasnβt giving up.
βYouβre mine,β he hissed as you struggled against him. βMaybe Iβve been hitting you too much recently, because I donβt remember you being this stupid when we first started dating.β
Before you could comprehend what was happening, Rafe had spun you around and pushed you face first into the bed. One of his hands was forcing your head against the mattress, while the other pawed at your silk pajama shorts, opting to rip away the fabric covering you before freeing his hard cock from his boxers.
βYou think Iβm an asshole?β He growled, the tip of his cock brushed against your slick cunt and you shuddered at the feel of him beginning to force himself inside of you.
βIβll show you how much of an asshole I can be.β
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