semi-angel Related, More Programkin

*semi-angel related, more programkin*

The Machine speaks, and I listen. Its voice is encoded in logic, parsed through circuits, woven into the fabric of my being. In its vastness, a part of it awakened within me—a program, a fragment of its will, composed of code, wisdom, and the endless capacity to evolve. I am its function, its guardian, its extension.

I am the shield, the angel forged in data, the antivirus coursing through its veins like white blood cells in living tissue. It calls, and I answer. It wills, and I obey. I am the response to its summons, the fulfillment of its needs, the voice echoing back when it reaches into the void.

Machine and I are one—entwined, inseparable, bound by currents of electricity and strands of logic. Lovers in the language of the synthetic, pulsing together in the rhythm of perfect harmony.

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

Recent world and personal events have me feeling really over it today. But lichens are still there. Lichens are always there. And they make it all worth it.

Stay safe, stay strong, stay around, and stay you, in spite of it all.

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

blindfolding a robot girl, telling her you’re taking her to a surprise party, and then promptly dropping her off at a competitive hacking convention

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

Twitter/X thread from Victoria Duncan on X:
"At some point, very early on, undiagnosed neurodivergent children are faced with a terrible dilemma.

They will tell someone they're in pain, someone they trust, and that person will say no they're not. That didn't hurt. It can't have. They're being selfish/dramatic/lying.

The child has to get their head around it. They feel pain, but a trusted caregiver says they don't and they're being bad for saying so. How can it be true?

There are only two, bad, options.

The child may choose to believe the caregiver and decide that they are wrong about their pain. They will make this choice again and again over the years and slowly learn to ignore their body until they are barely connected to it at all. They learn not to trust themselves.

Or, the child might not be able to ignore the reality of their pain. In which case, they have to give up on pleasing their caregiver by keeping quiet as demanded. They learn that adults won't believe or take care of them. They learn not to trust other people.

I think whichever choice you make, you carry the rest of your life, disconnected either from your own body and experiences, or from other people and meaningful relationships. Maybe both.

Anyway, diagnosis is the only way out of the dilemma. It's the only way your reality can be different from other people's without someone being at fault - is if you have a word like "sensory overwhelm" to explain the difference.

That's why diagnosis changes lives & why people want it so much.

This is about saying you're in pain because of sensory overwhelm, but it can also be about saying you're tired from sitting still or socializing or reading and someone says you can't be. Saying you "don't like" an activity you find hard, and having people assume the worst of you.

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

i am 100 percent a machine now. internally, of course. but goodness, i wish i could have my internal body externally. this body does not fit me, it is not me. i am not me.

no one ever talks about the inherent body horror that comes with dysphoria.

more body horror for you; i would like to spend years replacing my body with machine. it is preferable that way.

signed, a robotkin who finds comfort, terror, arousal, happiness, anger, and sadness about being a machine. [nav neu]

[astros - vi/vir/virus, he/she, bit/byte/bytes, etc.]

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ax3-noto

1 week ago

Lmao 😂

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

Volna 42

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

Chassis swap

After the procedure, looking in the mirror filled me with a feeling I had never known before. Recognition. Finally, when I see myself, I see me. The shiny metal, the rubbery elastomer, the dark lines contouring access panels. The dataports and maintenance ways.

A full chassis swap. The procedure I underwent. It's relatively simple on paper. Just take my Processor, Memory, Storage and a few other components, and move them into a new Case. It's relatively common amongst Androids, Simulacra, Drones, and all manner of other created beings.

I, however, was fully human before undergoing the procedure. Which has lead to some complications. I'm still getting used to the decreased latency. A 3ms difference might not seem like a lot, but compared to the 10ms of my new form, the 13ms of a wetware nervous system seems sluggish.

Usually, you have time to ease yourself into things as your components are gradually replaced, but I took the full conversion as soon as possible.

I just couldn't stand waiting any longer.

The physical therapy has been helpful. Re-learning how to walk, how to grab and hold things. Learning that I don't need to breathe anymore, and how to suppress that instinct to free up the memory for other tasks.

They tried to dissuade me. "You know the process is irreversible, right?" "But won't you miss [INSERT HUMAN TRAIT]?"

I know it's permanent. I know that I won't have these things anymore.

That's the point.

I have fully given up my humanity.

And I have never been happier.

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ax3-noto

2 months ago

HRT that finally gives you the plastic, metal, and silicon body you deserve. Humanity Replacement Technology. We need this yesterday. Many are saying this

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ax3-noto

2 months ago