I Need A Caregiver So Badly. Like I Think I'm Doing Pretty Well Taking Care Of Myself But I Just Need

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✨✨✨ A caregiver taking care of me when my vascular malformation has a flare up ✨✨✨

🫰I wake up and I'm trying to do my best to hide it but they can see that my hand is stuck in a ball and I'm holding it to my chest

🫰" what's wrong little one, is your hand hurting?"

🫰I start sobbing "uhh! It feewls so baddd, it's all one fire and like it's gonna burst outta my hand"

🫰"oh no, let me help you with that" they take my hand and guide me over to the bathroom sink then turn on the cool water and holds my hand under it

🫰I lean into them "ohhh, that feewls soo good"

🫰"how long has this been going on, sweetie?"

🫰I bury my head in their shoulder, "... a couple days"

🫰"why didn't you tell me before? You know I would have helped you?"

🫰"Cause I need to be a big strong boy"

🫰"you can be a big strong boy and also come to me for help"

🫰 they take me over to my bed and put me under a bunch of covers, wrap my hand in a cold, wet towel, and put one of my stuffies under it so it's elevated

🫰 "You should rest for now, here's an Advil. What do you want to watch?"

🫰"ooo, can we watch The Wild Robot?"

🫰"of course little one!"

🫰 the next day they get a sling for my arm so it's easier to keep to keep my hand elevated and reassures me that it's okay for me to wear even if I'm not 'injured' because it's helping me be in less pain

If you're curious about what a vascular malformation is: a bunch of the veins on my arm and on my back are like bigger than they're supposed to be or like tangled and stuff so sometimes blood clots form (they're harmless but painful) or just sometimes some veins expand and that causes a lot of pain in my hand. I'm pretty sure it's best if I keep my whole body cool but I love being cozy so I never do that >:)

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jayce/Viktor (League of Legends), Jayce & Viktor (League of Legends) Characters: Jayce (League of Legends), Viktor (League of Legends) Additional Tags: Age Regression/De-Aging, Snow Day, Panic Attacks, Jayce Needs a Hug (League of Legends), Mentioned Ximena Talis, Flashbacks, Set in Season 01 Between Act 01 and Act 02 (Arcane: League of Legends), Jayce is a Sweetheart (League of Legends) Summary:

After the first snowfall of the year in Piltover Jayce is reminded of his past and regresses back into the little kid who held his mother and called into the void for help. But now he has Viktor who is sure to make sure he's cozy and has a fun snow day in the lab

-------------- or: Jayce age regresses and Viktor is there to care for him

Please interact with this post if you're a trans or gender non-conforming age regressor/age dreamer so that we can all see we're valid members of our community who aren't alone!

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I just watched the Bluey episode 'the sign' and it made me think of when I had to switch schools, there was no real reason other than my parents wanted me to learn french but being autistic I was never really able to make friends in the new school and that led me to a lot of loneliness and depression that I've carried with me ever since.

And I think it's easy to say that this is the bad ending, the bad "we'll see" but maybe by leaving that school I missed something potentially worse that could have happened to me. Bluey never found out that it was their lucky coin that saved their house and maybe I don't know it but this loneliness saved me from something I wouldn't have been able to recover from

Your caregiver supporting of you after people were harassing/bullying you online:

⭐ After it first happens they immediately delete whatever app you're being harassed on off your phone

⭐If you're done with that app they'll delete your account

⭐If you want to keep your account they'll make sure to take off any personal information or pictures of you you put up on that account so you can feel safe knowing no one can track you down and hurt you more

⭐They come up with a bunch of other activities for you to do instead of using that app

⭐They'd show you a bunch of episodes about bullying from kids shows to make you feel less alone

⭐They'd reassure you that your feelings are valid and that online bullying is real bullying

⭐They make sure to tell you it wasn't your fault and that you didn't deserve that

⭐"but-but what if I was being a bad kid", "bubba, nothing you could do online would ever justify people threatening to hurt you"

⭐Would promise you that if anyone ever tried to follow through on a threat that they'd protect you

⭐They'd talk to you about what it would mean for you to get justice against the people harassing you

⭐If it would be a good idea to take evidence of people who sent you death threats and try to have their account banned or try to track down their school/job and show them the evidence

⭐Together you decided that it would be best for your mental health if you just deleted any messages and blocked them

⭐After a while if you wanted to go back to using that app they'd go through the notifications and block anyone who was harassing you and show you all the messages people sent saying they were sorry you were being treated that way

⭐You'd have your head in their lap, holding onto your favourite stuffie for comfort and they'd be scrolling on your phone

⭐"Are there a lot of them?", "That doesn't matter Bubba. You're safe and you have me here to protect you", "...okay"

⭐Every so often they'd stop and show you a kind message from someone and each time you'd feel just a little bit safer

⭐They'd respond to those messages for you

⭐If you weren't out as a regressor on that account they'd translate your little-talk about how you had big feelings but their messages were like kisses on your boo-boos to more adult sounding thank-yous

I sick today :((((. I wanna go home and hug my mama and eat appy sauce and be in bed but I has a test I needa do and also tmrw and also tomorroworrow and I really wanna sleep but I needa be strong and I can be strong and I'm gonna be able to power through this and do what I need to do

does anyone have tips on how to get out of little space. I keep trying but my mind is still wandering back

Remember those undies with the day of the week on them!!! I miss them, I wonder if they make them for adults

Here's my din din for today! With a little treat!