Sorry For The Absolutely Disgusting And Ridiculous Amount Of Time I Have Had You Guys Waiting For The

ANYONE BUT HER 7

JANIS IMI-IKE X FEM READER

a little Regina x reader

Warnings - swearing, mentions of cheating, mentions of anxiety. Regina being Regina. Hurt. Angst

The POV switches between reader and Janis (I use — when I change the POV)

The last part🤧, happy reading lovelies 🫶🏼

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“Hey Tes, you should totally come sit with us, y/n has finally agreed to sit with me and the girls” Regina almost brags, a massive grin plaster across her pretty face.

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Ignoring all of my surroundings i stare down at my full plate of food, i feel everyone’s eyes on me and i don’t like it. I use the small plastic fork to push a piece of food around the plate, wishing the world would swallow me whole. I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up to see Regina with a reassuring expression. “you okay y/n/n?” She asks in a low voice obviously trying to avoid bringing any attention to the fact that she is being nice to someone. I flash her a small smile and nod praying she lets it go. Which thankfully she does. Well she was distracted i should say. I look in the direction of her glare. Janis and Damien are glaring right back at her. And as if on que in walks bea, she sits down at their table, trying her hardest to get Janis’ attention, a smirk plastered across her face. I look back at my plate. My head once again shoots up when i hear the clatter of a lunch tray hitting the floor, i sigh upon seeing that Karen had dropped her lunch, Regina looks at the girl as if she was internally face palming, Gretchen had yet to grace us with her bubbly presence, and Karen, she is stood in front of the table looking like a deer caught in the headlights of a car being drove by Regina. I quickly push my tray across the table and gesture for Karen to take it. She stands there for a few more seconds, confusion evident in her expression. “Have mine, I don’t want you waiting in that lunch line again” I chuckle before wiping my sweaty hands on my jeans and standing up. “Hey imma just go to the bathroom okay? I’ll be right back” I say looking at Regina who simply nods, still glaring at Janis.

I rush to the bathrooms, not even a second after I enter, in comes Tessa. “Okay I can’t take this anymore, Janis didn’t- BANG” she starts but is interrupted by a loud crashing noise from outside the bathrooms. We both stay still looking at each other, our fight or flight response having not kicked in yet. That was until we heard shouting, both of us run to the door, her beating me to it and opening it for us both to look and see what caused the sound. Next thing I see is a flash of blonde hair run past me, I look on the ground to see a navy blue backpack, with pins and a cross stitch circle on it, I roll my eyes and pick it up knowing exactly who’s it is. “Cmon that was Janis and Regina, I don’t like this, whatever that was. was not good news” Tessa says while grabbing my arm and running in the direction of where the blonde ran.

We end up outside under the bleachers, a few students circled around to watch the chaos too.

“Why the fuck do you keep messing with my life Regina? Just leave me alone for once in your sorry life” Janis nearly screams while she steps forward to be right up in the blondes face.

“I didn’t do anything loser” Regina laughs back in Janis’ face, which only angers the smaller girl more.

“Well I didn’t cheat or use y/n and you know it” she continues to shout at the blonde girl

“Well suck it up because she’s mine now, she hates you” Regina pauses to laugh once again, this is also when Janis had noticed your presence within the circle of teenagers who are observing their little argument. “And all it took to break her was some silly little lie but now I have her all to myself” Regina finished before turning to look what Janis was starring at, her face goes pale and she opens her mouth to speak but I move faster, my legs taking me away from the scene, dropping Janis’ backpack from my shoulder somewhere on the way.

I end up in a janitor’s closet, the bell had already rung so there was barely anyone in the halls, allowing me to swiftly slip into the room. My legs buckle, I brace myself for the cold surface of the floor but I am instead surrounded by the heat of someone’s presence, I didn’t even hear the door open again, through clouded vision I look up to see the green haired girl I’ve been so desperately trying to avoid the past few days. “Let me go” I choke out a sob, which only makes her grip on me grow stronger, she pulls me up a little so she has me in her full embrace, one of her arms around my waist, the other cradles the back of my neck. She tangles her fingers in my hair, the coldness of her rings inviting me in, she continues to hold me, slowly pulling us both onto the floor so we can sit more comfortably.

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This isn’t the girl I knew, the girl who was in a band, the girl who had everything together. Well that’s how she seemed to me. Now she’s in my arms sobbing. Tessa warned me not to break her heart, and even though I didn’t do anything, I feel like im in the wrong. So I do the only thing I can to save her from me hurting her again.

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“I’m sorry” she says while letting me go out of her hold. I look up, tear stained eyes, my eyeliner probably streaked down my face by now. She gets up, dusting her jeans off before turning towards the door, she doesn’t even hesitate before opening the door and leaving. I stay sat on the floor for what seems like forever. I pull my knees up to my chest and put my head down, closing my eyes.

The door slams open and I hear the squeaks of multiple peoples shoes before I am shook by the shoulders, I slowly look up hoping it is the green haired girl I have grown to rely on in these situations. But no. My eyes focus on the people’s faces. Tessa is kneeled in front of me, Aaron stood behind her and Damien stood in the doorway. Damien quickly shuts the door seeing the state im in and flicks on the small light. Aaron just stares at me and Tessa sighs. “Cmon we are ditching” she states knowing better than to ask questions right now.

We all get out of the janitors closet and walk towards Tessa’s pink jeep. Tessa and Aaron in the front, me and Damien in the back. I press myself right into the corner of the car, not wanting or needing anyone to touch or come near me. Damien keeps staring at me as if at any second I will disappear, Tessa makes quick work of driving while Aaron plays with the radio, he whispers something to Tessa, she whipsers something back and they argue in a hushed tone for a few minutes before Tessa agrees to whatever he was saying and turns to go a different way. I stare out of the window, not exactly taking notice of where we are going, just thinking about everything that has happened this school year and praying it ends soon.

After ten minutes of sitting in silence, the only sound being from the radio, the car stops, I look around to where we are, my heart skips a beat when I realise we are at the beach me, Aaron and Tessa grew up going to nearly every day. I look up to see Tessa looking back at me, Aaron and Damien get out of the car but she sits there staring at me. “What happened in the janitors closet?” Her ocean blue eyes staring into my own, perfect blonde hair shining as the rays of sun hit her through the windows of the car.

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If you had told me five years ago this is where we would be I would’ve laughed in anyone’s face and told them to fuck off. Yet here we are. Broken and Damaged.

If you had told me five days ago I would’ve been heart broken by Janis ‘Imi’ike I would’ve said “she would never, anyone but her would but she would never” yet here I am. Broken and Damaged.

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“Y/n, listen, Janis really likes you, she just feels like she’s to blame. Regina is a bitch for doing that to the both of you. And in result of that you and Janis lost each other. But trust me when I say. It will all work out.” Tessa says now stood in front of me, her hand held out for me to take, the car door open, I willingly take her hand and walk with her to the beach, Aaron and Damien following. We eventually all split off to do our own thing, Damien is on the phone to who I am assuming is Janis. Aaron and Tessa are in the sea making the most of the weather while I sit watching them, I know they both like each other. I’ve known for years, probably before they knew it themselves. Aaron has always stood up for Tessa and Tessa has always been there to pick Aaron back up when he falls. And if that’s how it will be for the rest of eternity, then im more than okay with them. Nothing can break them up. They are Aaron and Tessa.

I pull out my phone and see multiple missed calls and texts from a multitude of people at school. Regina. Bea. Gretchen, Karen, Cady and Janis being those people. I turn my phone on silent and grab my headphones from my bag and play music before turning my phone off and putting it back into my hoodie pocket.

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(Damien’s pov)

The whole car ride my phone rings off the hook, but I couldn’t care. Y/n is sat next to me looking like she had been hit by a bus. She looks a mess. Eyeliner somehow still in tact but she looks empty, her gaze set on the outside world. I notice she does that a lot these days. Just blankly stare at things, lost in her own head. Aaron and Tessa are trying to talk to her but she isn’t paying them any mind.

Once at the beach she just goes off away from everyone and sits down, throwing her backpack down before grabbing her phone and headphones out of her bag. That’s when I notice my phone is once again ringing. The ringtone being the one I set specifically for Janis. I pull my phone out of my pocket torn between my two best friends. Janis hurt y/n but there has to be a reason behind it. So I do what I have to and answer the phone.

“Daims I fucked up big time, please go check on y/n, I left her in the janitors closet and I don’t think she’s in the right headspace to be alone” she says with a hint of regret in her voice. I can tell that she is pacing around even through the phone.

“Okay no, Janis the girl is absolutely broken right now, you best explain and have a goddam good excuse for this. I know the whole Regina thing wasn’t you, but what the fuck?” I almost shout, only quieting down because y/n is sitting not even a few feet away from me.

“I’ve watched her since we where kids, I’ve seen her happiest moments from afar but never had the courage to go up to her, now that I have she’s been the saddest I’ve seen her. And I feel like it’s on me, I never wanted her like this. I wanted to make her happy” she starts

“Shut the fuck up and come to the beach, tell her yourself. But don’t blame me or anyone else if she doesn’t want to hear it” I say still angry at my best friend. I look over to y/n who is still spaced out, music blaring from her headphones.

“Fine im nearly there anyway, was going home but I’ll turn around. Cady is driving us”and with that the phone call ends.

Not even a few minutes later Cadys car pulls up next to Tessa’s. I watch as Janis gets out. I look over to see y/n layed on a beach towel from Tessa’s car that we brought out, her eyes closed and an angry Tessa storming over, Aaron following.

“What the fuck are you doing here?” Aaron surprisingly says before Tessa can, his face confused and angered. “I came to talk to her” Janis tries to walk past the taller boy. He steps in front of her before she can “wait Janis don’t we need to talk first” Tessa then buts in, grabbing Janis’ arm, taking her back to her car. They both come back a few minutes later and Tessa nods to Aaron to let the two girls talk it out.

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I sit up and open my eyes, the sun blinding me, making me wipe my face for what seems like the thousandth time in the past hour. I pull my phone out and change the song just as someone taps my shoulder. “Don’t touch me right now Tessa I swear to fuck I will dunk you in the sea” I say flinching away from the person who only moves to stand in front of me. There stands Janis, her face full of shame. She sits in front of me so I take my headphones off and stare blankly at her. She goes to speak but stops herself so I take that opportunity to talk for her “if your only here to ‘comfort’ me then leave again then save your time and fuck off” I put y headphones back on but she leans forward and takes them off of my head before I can react. “The fuck?” I say in shock. “Middle school” she says as if I should know what that means. I continue to just stare at her, pissed off. “I’ve had a crush on you since middle school. I used to watch you every class we had together. Then in high school when you started the band. I would listen to every song. I went to your first show. I forced Damien to go to that show that night. Your last show. When Bea cheated on you I was so pissed because ever since I’ve known you I’ve seen you to be this happy person. But then these past few months you’ve lost your smile. And I blame myself for that.” She blurts out in one breath.

It takes me a second to process what she said but once my brain catches up i sit there shocked. “I’ve hurt people in the past, I’ve had the hardest time falling in love with things, but falling in love with you has been one of the easiest things I’ve done, but seeing you like this” she gestures to me “has been the hardest thing I’ve done because I know I’ve played a part in the way you’ve lost your smile. I don’t expect you to forgive me but im here to ask you to give me a second chance to fix this and bring back your smile” she finishes with teary eyes. I look back at her already crying, all I can manage to do is nod and choke out another sob as she leans forward to hug me.

BIRDS OF A FEATHER

Aj Campos X reader

Warnings : angst, hospitals, near death experience, motorcycle accident, alcohol consumption.

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Reader has had feelings for her friend Aj for years but hasn’t had the guts to tell her. After being hospitalised and a near death experience Aj ends up telling reader her feelings and it all comes together all the time they’ve spent together and the memories

An angsty fluffy little one shot because im obsessed with billies song ‘birds of a feather’ and thought this would be cute. This took me an hour to write so sorry if it’s bad.

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“I want you to stayyy” Aj says dramatically her arm rested over my shoulder as she pouts, standing at her door, keys in hand and helmet in the other I look back at her with a smile, she slaps the back of my head with a sad look. “Hey we are literally going to see each other tomorrow at school don’t be so dramatic” I say with a sigh. She rolls her eyes and takes her arm off my shoulder to let me leave but not before she gives me a tight hug, suffocating even. “Aj I need to breathe, ur gonna kill me here” I say as dramatically as she did seconds ago just as she lets me go. “Fine leave me…forever” she puts her hand over her heart and pulls a sad face, earning a laugh from me. “Shut up stupid, right I’ll see you tomorrow 7am be up or im leaving without you” I say while walking out of the garden and to my bike. She closes the door and I start the engine, pulling the helmet over my head and pulling out of her street. I ride for around ten minutes before I get to some traffic lights, stopping I wait for them to turn green, once they do I make quick work of pulling out in a hurry to get home to my bed, I hear the screech of tires then I feel pain in the right side of my body before my whole body is flung off of my bike and makes contact with a wall. Then darkness. A lot of screaming then beeping then people talking about head scans and X-rays.

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(AJS POV…THE NEXT DAY)

I wake up at 6:30 to my alarm blasting in my ear, I jump out of bed with a little struggle and grab the clothes I left out the night before, throwing them on, I check my phone for a text from y/n but nothing. Weird but it’s happened before, she probably forgot to charge her phone or slept in. Hypocrite much. I carry on getting ready then wait for the clock to strike seven before heading outside, looking out for her motorbike. I wait for ten minutes before calling her, nothing. I wait another ten minutes before Gabi comes out of the house giving me a confused look. “Why are you still here? Wheres y/n?” She says throwing her backpack over her shoulder. I shrug and check my phone again “no clue, give me a ride?” I plead and Gabi nods. Once in Gabi’s car I check my phone another three times while she drives. “Jesus who died here?” Gabi says as we stop at some lights. I look up and see debris and a tow truck on the road, police and traffic wardens stood directing the traffic around the mess. I catch a glimpse of a bike on the side of the road and my heart breaks for whoever’s bike it is, my mind wandering off to y/n “god I keep telling them to just get a car but they insist on having that damn bike, and look there another motorbike in an accident” I say to Gabi, she hums in agreement before turning into the schools parking lot. Once parked we say goodbye to each other, our homerooms being in different classrooms “tell y/n I said their a douche for the no heads up this morning” I say before we go out separate ways as Gabi and y/n are in the same homeroom class.

Walking into homeroom I spot Tessa, one of mine and y/n’s closest friends since well forever. Me and y/n would never have met if Tessa didn’t introduce us.

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Flashback :

Young Tessa runs over to young Aj paint smeared across her face “hide me” a young Tessa shouts toward Aj. In runs another girl. A young y/n, paintbrush in hand and an angry Gabi following her, a spot of red paint on her forehead. “Who’s that” a young Aj says, a blush spread across her face as the young girl and her sister run around trying to paint the others face. “That’s my best friend y/n, wanna meet them?” Tessa asks earning an eager nod from Aj.

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“Hey aj, nice hoodie, feeling nostalgic?” The girl pokes fun at me as we both take our seats, I look down at the hoodie and realise what she meant by nostalgic.

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Flashback :

The whole gang sit in mine and y/ns hotel room the day before a track meet, alcohol in all of our systems, we play a few games and dance a little before we all end up sitting or lying down somewhere intoxicated out of our minds, y/n had just been through a huge breakup and we are all trying to help her without bringing it up. “I love the outfit but you’re gonna freeze y/n” I say with a laugh as the girl comes out of the bathroom in just her sports bra and some shorts. A blush spreading across my face. “If I turn blue don’t save me” she said while sitting next to me on the floor, taking another sip of her drink, pulling a disgusted expression. “We should really quit drinking while we are ahead we have the meet at 11am” she says “don’t be stupid” I return her gaze, grabbing the drink, she shivers and I take off my hoodie, leaving me in a long sleeved shirt, she takes it and rests her head on my shoulder.

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“Funny, speaking of, heard anything from y/n this morning?” I ask while I grab my phone to check again, the girl just shakes her head “you know her she probably didn’t sleep and forgot to charge her phone again” I nod in agreement.

The day goes on and nothing from y/n she hadn’t shown up to school, everyone assumes she just ditched and fell asleep for the day. I try calling her a few times on break but no answer still. It isn’t until track practice that there is any news about her whereabouts.

We all stand on the field waiting on coach when he comes out with a saddened look. “Hey everyone practice is cancelled take the day to rest. Aj, Gabi and Tessa, stay here, we need to talk.” He says allowing everyone to walk back to the changing rooms cheering and smiling. My heart drops already overthinking. “So y/ns mother has just called and she was in an accident” he starts but doesn’t get the time to finish as all three of us are sprinting to the locker rooms to grab our stuff.

We all hop into Gabis car and use google maps to direct us to the nearest hospital. I check my phone and see a missed call from y/n’s brother. I don’t call back just expecting him to tell us the same news we just heard from coach.

Once we get to the hospital Tessa runs to the reception and asks for a room number or anything information on her best friend. Me and Gabi stand a few feet behind praying we are allowed to go in and see y/n. After a few minutes of back and forth Tessa comes over and says “room 344”

We all race up to the room with help from nurses pointing us in the right direction. We end up in the ICU ward and find her room, we walk in and see a doctor checking her vitals or whatever doctors do. He turns to see the three of us stood there looking back at him, my eyes looking solely at y/n. “Hey guys are you y/n’s family, if you’re not you can’t be in here, she’s just came out of surgery and we are only allowing family members in right now.” He stares us down and puts the clipboard down, in a state of panic I turn to him and say “im her fiancé” without thinking, I hold my hand up and show him the ring on my finger. The promise ring y/n gave me as a joke one Valentine’s Day after my first ever girlfriend broke my heart. Even if it was a joke, that ring has never left my hand ever since. Surprisingly the doctor nods and lets us in without another question. “What happened?” I say before Tessa or Gabi can. “Motorbike accident, she has a cracked skull, broken collarbone. We took her to surgery to fix some things but she coded multiple times, we managed to bring her back and we are just keeping her here until we are certain she’s safe to go home.” He says pointing at her while my eyes fill with tears “she’s in an induced coma right now to help with the pain but when she wakes up she’s gonna need you all here to help her through this” I walk over to her and see the damage, broken nose, bust lip and black eye. Bruises litter her skin, the white hospital gown contrasting the purple and blueness of the bruises. I pull a chair over and sit down, grabbing ahold of her hand as the doctor leaves the room, saying something to gabi and Tessa as he leaves earning a nod and thankyou from them both. They both end up sitting on chairs too, Tessa making multiple phone calls while Gabi keeps asking if im okay.

It’s been hours that we’ve been sat here. She’s still asleep I’ve never seen her so peaceful it hurts. I remember all the times we’ve shared. This could be our last. Last night could’ve been our last movie night. “Fine leave me forever” being the last thing I ever said to her. My eyes fill with tears once again and Gabi comes over, placing a hand on my shoulder “you okay?” She asks quietly “I think I love her” I say while shaking my head, tears falling from my eyes. Tessa’s laugh can be heard from the other side of the room as she comes back in. “We know you love her, also doc mchot said she should wake up any time now, so stop throwing a pity party” Tessa says throwing Gabi a cup of jello. “Where did you even get these?” Gabi laughs. “The hot doctor snuck me a few in exchange for my number” she smirks “he’s switching jobs to be a firefighter, next week he starts training” the blonde smirks again. “If y/n was awake right now they would throw this jello cup at your head so hard” I say with a small smile. I feel y/n start to stir in her bed, Gabi and Tessa take this as their sign to leave the room “we will give you two some space” Gabi says, grabbing Tessa’s arm and dragging her along asking about the hot doctor/firefighter.

A groan escapes her mouth as her eyes open slowly, a hand shooting up to rub her eyes. Followed by a hiss of pain. “What the fuck happened?” She says with a laugh “I love you” I blurt out.

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(Y/ns pov)

My eyes open and my whole body aches. I bring up a hand to rub my eyes but a shooting pain follows as I hit the bridge of my nose, I bite my lip in agony and bring my hand back down, seeing aj with puffy red eyes, and the fact we are sat in a hospital I look at her again “what the fuck happened?” I ask before laughing a little. She looks me in the eyes and blurts out “I love you” I blink a few times to make sure I am indeed awake and not dead. Once im positive im not in heaven I realise im crying and aj looks at me concerned “I love you too And I don't know what I'm cryin' for, I don't think I could love you more” I blurt out immediately regretting it as I see Tessa and Gabi at the door smirking, we are never going to live this down. So I do the only thing I can think of. Dig myself a deeper hole. “I’ll love you to the day that I die”

WEB HEAD PART THREE

Sitting on my double bed me and Tess are gazing a the small vile of medication that could possibly save my life. Tess picks it up, ripping the needle out of its package and places the tip in the tiny glass bottle, absorbing the liquid into the needle “you ready?” She asks me, with a small nod i lifts up my shorts to expose my upper thigh, tattoos litter my legs, the needle goes in and the liquid is pushed into my bloodstream. With everything going on i never thought this would be happening. I’m finally on testosterone. I have grown at least four inches since i got my powers, my aunt who works at the hospital managed to get me in with a doctor who specialises in gender affirming care. And now i have just took my first shot of testosterone.

Anyway that was last month.

“Oi emo” Tess says as she waves her hand in front of my face snapping me out of my trance, I look up and we are at the rugby club. Presentation night, she nudges me and nods her head to a group of boys, tall muscular boys who obviously play rugby, I see her crush Finley by the bar with them, he’s a sweet boy, admires Tess’ father and is respectful. “go talk to him” I say jokingly knowing Tess would never even go close to him. She laughs and I stand up to walk over to the boys, she grabs my arm and pulls me back earning a few chuckles from the rugby girls, I turn back and smirk shrugging my shoulders “what I need a drink” I say laughing “no you don’t” she replies.

The night quickly ends as Tess and her millennium mindset kicks in even though she is LITERALLY GEN Z. We head home and go get rest for the next day. School has finally broke out and me and Tess have to search for university’s to go to, I run home from Tess’s place and quickly change into a black hoodie and black cargo joggers matched with a balaclava, I climb out of my window and onto the roof with my radio that I had modified to channel the police’s walkie talkies.

The radio cackles and creeks then a man’s voice comes through “ROBBERY ON THE WEST SIDE OF TOWN AT THE OLD AYLES CORNER SHOP” I smile before jumping off of the roof and using my webs to swing downtown, I quickly end up at the shop, I walk in slyly and see three tall men wearing purge masks, I sneak up behind them and grab a can of redbull cracking it open and leaning against the till, all three of the men and the cashier snap their necks to turn and look at me. “Cmon guys did you not hear the news they cancelled the anual purge this year” I chuckle at my own joke before throwing my wrist out and webbing one of the robbers hands to the wall behind him, the other two make quick work of getting to me, the one with the baseball bat lifts it up and goes for the swing before he swings it down onto my head I catch the bat in my hand, using the other one to web him in the face, temporarily blinding him, once he screams of pain I take the opportunity to kneel down and sweep his legs, knocking him to the ground, I then web his arms and legs down to the ground. Next the bigger guy grabs me by the hood of my hoodie and throws me into the aisle stocked with glasses of alcohol, my body flys to the ground and a bottle crashes onto my head, cold beer runs down my face, I wipe my eyes and look up at the man “wow you fellas sure know how to show a man a grand time” laughing again I stand up and nod to the cashier “hey ma’am how much do I owe you for that and the redbull?” I say with a smile, she chuckles and waves her hand “oh nothing dear, catch these guys and it’s on the house” she says with a thankful look, determined to get my redbull I make quick work of webbing the man’s eyes then arms before grabbing my drink and watching the police enter the car park, I walk out of the shop, quickly swinging away from the police as bullets fly past me. Apparent the police did not appreciate the help.

I look at the time on my phone seeing it’s only 11pm I decide to go to anyone but Tess’ house, I swing by Emily’s house and climb up the fire escape. I look through the window sighing, there she is sat on her bed watching a Tim burton film, me and Emily have been friends since childhood, we know each other like the back of our hands. I knock on the window and she jumps a little but knows it’s me, looking over she rushes to the window and opens it, grabbing me by the scuff of my hoodies collar she drags me to her bed and throws me down pointing at me then her phone with a stern look, I pull my balaclava off my face and give her a look which screams i need help. She whisper screams “your the Spider-Man dude?” She slaps my shoulder “what the fuck y/n/n” she goes to her set of drawers and grabs a jar. I look at her as she grabs some weed, a grinder and papers, throwing them at me she points at it “explain yourself lover boy or no drugs” I chuckle at the unserious tone in her demeanour, cracking open the grinder I put some of the magic plant in and start to twist it allowing the parts to be cut up into tiny pieces. “So I may or may not have been bit by a spider, and decided to go fight crime” I smirk as I then take out the green and place it on a rolling paper still explaining my situation. I start to roll the joint and twist the top completing it. Emily comes and sits next to me placing her head on my shoulder before looking up at my face slightly “your bleeding” she stares before lifting her head up and grabbing my face to look at her, she looks down at my lips before looking back up to my eyes, she lifts her finger up wiping the blood from my bottom lip and and kissing my cheek and grabbing the joint out of my hands “go change into my clothes you look like bat man” I laugh and go over to her closet grabbing a pair of grey joggers and a Radiohead shirt, I walk back in and throw her the lighter from her bedside table, she lights the end of the joint and blows on it allowing it to burn. We take a few hits each before playing puff and pass, the room is blurry and we both are in one of those moods where everything is funny.

“Wait wait stay here I have an idea” she shouts as she runs to her closet, she comes back in with a navy blue hoodie that has maroon sleeves she throws it to me making my spider sense go off and allowing me to catch it before it knocks the joint out of my hand, then she throws me a white paint pen. “Get to work wonder boy” she says as she gets on the bed and drags me down cuddling into the side of me. “Doing what?” I pass her the rest of the joint “make ur super human costume” I laugh and pop the top off of the pen, I decide to stick with the spider themes and draw a spider smack bang in the middle of the hoodie “baby?” She whines “mh” I say while I scribble in the details on the spider “does Tess know?” She asks, shaking my head I sigh “I don’t know how to tell..” I am cut off by a knock on the door, Emily groans and gets up opening her bedroom door, in walks Tess… shit.

Closing the door Tess points at me “it’s you isn’t it?” I smile confused “your the spider thing all over the news you idiot” she comes over to me slapping my head “why didn’t you tell me?” She demands “I didn’t know how” I shrug “y/n y/l/n I’m your best friend, she’s your lover or whatever you two are I haven’t really figured that one out yet but that doesn’t matter, you should’ve came to us not go out and try to be a vigilante” both Tess and Emily sit either side of me asking multiple questions about my powers. I answer everything in time then we all decide to turn on a movie, Tess’s father ends up calling her forcing her to come home leaving me and Emily alone once again.

ANYONE BUT HER 2

JANIS IMI-IKE X FEM READER

part one

Warnings - smoking, alcohol, drugs, swearing, cheating, mentions of anxiety.

The POV switches between reader and Janis (I use — when I change the POV)

there will be more parts to this, make sure to reblog and comment and I will get the next few parts up as soon as I can, happy reading lovelies 🫶🏼

6 days before the start of junior year

I wake up with a pounding in my head. Still in the same clothes from the previous night. Wait last night. Where is she? I get up to see Damien and Cady are gone too, she must be with them, I get myself together, feeling something on my wrist, it takes my eyes a second to focus on what it says ‘anyone but you’ the small beaded bracelet reads, Anyone but you is a song she made as a way to say fuck you to all the homophobic boys at school who hit on her. Chuckling, my eyes land on a small piece of paper on the sofa I just laid on.

I pick it up and read the small handwriting. It’s a number. Her number. God she’s confusing.

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She wasn’t upstairs with Damien or Cady, they told me that she wasn’t there when they woke up either.

And I didn’t see her for the rest of the week. That was until the first day of junior year. There she was stood with some random burnouts. The same people she’s hung out with since middle school when they were all ‘gifted students’ however she is still that gifted little girl she was all those years ago. I only saw glimpses of her that morning, most of the time she had her back to me.

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I felt so shitty for leaving that morning. Ever since I hid myself away from everyone, from Bea, from Jason but especially from Janis.

Since that night I met up with Bea, told her I saw what she done and broke things off, she didn’t take that well. The day after her, Jason and some random dude named Shane came up to me while I was on my daily run, they pulled up in Jason’s car, jumped out, beat the shit out of me and dumped all of the clothes and things I had gave to Bea.

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Walking into junior year I had to sport a black eye and grazed chin. Fucking fantastic if you ask me.

I quickly find new friends, well they found me. A few nights before the start of the new school year, they found me off my head at the skate park my board a few feet away from me. They quickly joined me in lighting up another joint and passing out, we awoke the next morning and introduced ourselves, ever since I’ve been apart of their group. On the plus side I don’t have to sit around and listen to Jason bitch and moan about Gretchen.

I soon found out avoiding Janis would be a difficult task when I got my schedule for the year. First period. Art. Amazing.

Walking to class I pass Bea and Jason against the lockers, tongues down each others throats. I bump into Aaron whom I have been avoiding in and outside of the house. “Hey sis, you good? You’ve been really distant since that night” he comes up to me, wrapping his arm over my shoulders. I shrug him off and start walking away “I’m fine” I state while continuing to walk to class.

Entering the classroom, I see that I am one of the first people there the teacher and Gretchen being the other two in the room, I roll my eyes and head to the back of the room, back right corner, closest to the windows and furthest away from the teachers desk. Just how I like it. The classroom starts to fill up with other people, everyone takes a seat until there is only one seat left. The one next to me. As if on que in walks Janis, she nods towards the teacher and looks around the room for a seat, her eyes landing on the seat next to me then onto me. Her eyes soften as she walks over to the desk beside me. It’s like we are in a shitty romcom, she’s in slow motion. Wearing a green and black cropped knitted sweater and black cargo pants, to top it off she rocks a black denim jacket and combat boots. Her dark brown eyes stare me down. Her bracelets rattle as she sits down, she’s still wearing the one I put in her wrist that night. Did she even notice? Does she even care?

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“Damien I’m going to be late cmon dude” I say as my best friend bombards me with questions on how I am going to confront the girl of my dreams. “Girl pardon my french but screw your art class. Have you seen what she’s wearing? black cropped vest, black Levi’s, a goddam leather jacket and converse” he says dramatically as if I should know what Y/N’s fashion sense means “she even cut her own bangs for Christ sake that screams heartbreak Janis” he grabs my shoulders and shakes me “yeah she just witnessed her girlfriend cheating on her not even a week ago, of course she’s heartbroken” I say shrugging, making Damien continue to walk as the bell rings. “Yes but it could also have something to do with the fact that you two have a Romeo and Juliet forbidden romance type of shit going on” he continues his rant as we end up at my classroom door. “I’ll think about it daim” I say before entering the class. The teacher smiles at me, to that I nod back toward her. And glance around the room searching for a seat, my eyes land on an empty chair in the back corner, curious I look up, lock eyes with her. This should be interesting. I walk up to my desk and sit down. I turn my head to look at her. She’s looking down but I can see that she has a black eye, a grazed chin and a deep cut on her cheek bone. What the fuck happened to her? I grab my sketchbook and rip a page out ‘u ok?’ I write down and place it on her desk, she stays zoned out for a few more minutes before looking at the paper. And writing something else on it before passing it back ‘sorry’ is all she wrote. I tried a few more times to grab her attention by passing notes but after that she seems to be more interested in drawing.

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Lunch rolls around and the plastics spot Cady pretty quickly, what I didn’t expect was for them to befriend her.

Me and Damien spent the rest of the lunch hour walking around campus. I spot y/n sat on the grass alone. Damien grabs my arm and guides us in her direction. “Y/n hey girl” he says as he sits down next to her, she looks up from her book and smiles a little. Her eyes are red and her body is swaying. She’s high and it’s so obvious “oh you sweet girl cmon we are going to go sober you up” he states while helping her to her feet, we venture to the schools bathrooms. Once we enter the bathrooms she stumbles to one of the stalls and pukes her guts out. I rush in to hold back her hair and rub her back, I kneel down next to her as Damien tells me he’s going to grab his car, he will text us when we can leave. “Oh y/n” I say as she starts crying. “Hey hey look at me” I turn her to face me, her tears streaming down her face her eyes now red and puffy. “I’m s-so sorry janis” she sobs out. I sit down and hold her in my arms “what for?” I question while moving some of her hair out of her eyes.

“im sorry I left, sorry I avoided you, sorry I relapsed. I’m just sorry” she cries more. Before I can ask more questions my phone starts ringing, it’s Damien “cmon, can you stand up for me?” I ask softly, she nods and stands up before stumbling. My hands fly to grab her waist to steady her, she tenses up a bit, I mentally thank any god that the bathroom we are at is closest to the car park. I wrap my arm around her shoulder and we walk out of the school, people around us start taking photos and whispering.

We eventually get to Damien’s car and I pick her up, placing her in the back seat. She is incredibly light. Which is odd but I let it slide. She buckles herself in while i run to the other side of the car and get in next to her “where to?” Damien says looking through the mirror at me. That’s a really good question, I don’t know where she lives and with the state she’s in I don’t think she does either, Damien’s parents won’t be happy with us ditching, however my parents are both on a business trip. “My place” I say as he starts to drive away from campus.

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She ended up staying at mine for a few hours. Well it was more like she ended up staying in my bathroom. Head over the toilet seat. After three hours she walks out like nothing happened, she’s avoiding eye contact with me, her head down. “im sorry for causing so much shit Janis” she mumbles sadly. “are you okay?” Is all I can come up with. Why would I ask her that, it’s obvious she’s not fine “uh yeah totally, I uh cleaned up after myself, but imma head out now. Sorry again” she says in a panicked state before walking out of the door, the next thing I hear is the click of the door, and she’s gone.

PART THREE

Heyyy lovers, I know this part was short but keep in mind this is just a filler chapter, next part we will be getting into the juicy stuff :) thankyou for reading. The next part should be up in a few days give or take

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Riding it out

Aj Campos x sick reader

Reader x Chantal (twins)

Warnings : migraines, nausea, anxiety, basic illness stuff, fluff, my terrible spelling

Summary : reader is sick and her girlfriend aj comes to comfort her, little does aj know reader hasn’t been looking after herself, even going as far as dragging herself into school.

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You hated being sick, the word hate would be a massive understatement for how much being sick made you feel. Your parents are out of town attending to the company they own. Leaving you and your twin sister Chantal to fend for yourself.

Another fit of coughs racks your body, your lungs burn with this being the fifth coughing fit already with it only being 8 am, you had another half an hour before school started and you where dreading it. Throwing on one of your girlfriends hoodies and a pair of grey sweatpants you cough again, grabbing some water and your sneakers. Before you knew it you were at school, slowly walking to your home room class.

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I put my head down on the desk, praying no one notices how bad I’ve gotten in the past 24 hours, the last thing I need is to be sent home and miss out on work, or even worse track. The teacher starts taking the attendance and I notice there is a few people off, probably experiencing the same symptoms I have right now. I am startled out of my thoughts when my phone vibrates in my pocket, lifting my head up I grab the phone to see who was texting me, seeing it’s the group chat,, I ignore it, not ready to face my friends at this moment in time. I know exactly how they will all react once they see the state im in.

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Fast and curious

(Thursday 8:50am)

*missed call from Stacey Clark*

Timotee🪽: girl why are you calling us right now, why aren’t you in school?

Dillpickle🥴: wait my wife is off today??

Staceye😇: YES im off because SOMEONE gave me the flu…any guesses @y/n/n ???

Dillpickle🥴: oh baby why didn’t you tell me, I’ll ditch and come over in an hour

Gabrii🌺: guys im in home room with y/n now, she doesn’t look too good, what do I do?

Paige🎨: wait why is she in if she’s ill? Also get well soon Stacey 💕

Talía(Chantal): shes ‘riding it out’ her words not mine

Ayjay (aj): wait y/N’s sick? Since when? And why is this the first im hearing of it?

Talía : shit, she told us to not tell you, sorry aj

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You are hit with a wave of nausea as you slowly bring your head up off of the desk to look at the teacher who is calling your name, you look over at him and you don’t hear any of the words coming out of his mouth. His normally angered face turns into a one of pity. He shrugs the question off and points to Gabi, signalling for what I assume is for her to take me out of the classroom for some air. Not even a second later a hand is on my lower back, guiding me to the door of the classroom. I look up to see Gabi on the phone to someone while we walk at an incredibly slow pace to a water fountain. She points to the floor and tells me to sit. I slide down the wall, my legs failing on me, making me fall faster. The loud ringing of the break bell hits my ears and the halls are flooded with students. The noise deathening. I close my eyes a little tighter and hold my hands over my ears before they are swiftly took away, I look at the culprit, it obviously being gabi but this time I look at her she has both of our bags in her arms as she holds out a hand for me to take. “Cmon ángel let’s go find ur girl” she says nodding her head towards the door. I take her hand and we start to walk towards our groups hangout spot on the field. I immediately look for AJ, seeing the girl in one of my hoodies and a pair of black jeans with her signature white converse. Her head shoots up as soon as the doors of the school shut behind me and Gabi. She gives me a look of sympathy as I walk to the group. Chantal is the first to greet me “hey sis, feeling any better?” She asks with a worried tone, I simply nod not to draw too much attention to myself “we got sent out of homeroom..so no she is not okay” Gabi says for me, making Aj give me a disapproving look. “Baby cmon im taking you home” the shorter girl says while taking my bag off of me, I groan while looking at her, tears forming in my eyes. “Just one more class and if I don’t feel any better we can go okay?” I plead hoping I’ll feel a little better in an hour or so. “No ángel, we are going now, our next class is gym and im not going to let you be sent to hospital because your too stubborn to admit your too sick” she scolds me, I look over at Gabi and Chantal as if they would help, they are trying to help but im being too stubborn to see they are only doing this in hopes that it’ll make me feel a little better. I hear the doors of the school open again and turn to see Dillon and Tim walking towards us. This is around the same time my body is graced with yet another coughing fit, followed by nausea. I run to the nearest trash can and throw up the contents of my stomach into the can. Someone is thankfully there and is already holding my hair back as I do this. A hand runs down my back, I look back and see a ‘told you so’ look from my girlfriend who now has her car keys in her hand. “dale vamos ángel” (‘let’s go angel’) a very concerned Dillon says as he brushes my hair out of my face while helping me stand up and get back to the group of my concerned friends.

Aj grabs my backpack off of the floor where Gabi placed it, then she walks over and grabs my hand, pulling me along with her to the carpark, the rest of the group saying their goodbyes to me in a mixture of “get well soon” and “we will come round later with soup” between the lot of them.

Once in her car Aj turns to me, giving me a stern look before holding out her hand “give me your vape” she states without a beat. I stare at her blankly before looking at my bag. She shrugs and reaches over, her hand swiftly disappearing into my hoodies pocket and pulling out my vape, she then waves it in front of my face “none of this while your sick” she mocks before putting the small pen into her own hoodie pocket.

We end up driving for around ten minutes before I realise we aren’t going in the direction of my house anymore “uh aj?” I say quietly,, voice breaking due to a lack of energy “don’t worry we are going to make a little pitstop then we are going home” she says with that goddam little smirk she always sports, her little dimples gracing her tanned face. We end up stopping at a gas station where she runs inside to pay the cashier for the gas but she ends up coming out with tons of snacks and a crate of Gatorade. I laugh a little as she dumps it all into my lap before she continues to drive back to my neighbourhood. Once at my house she helps me carry all the snacks into the house and getting us settled in my room. Once she has me in my bed and covered in a few blankets, she quickly runs around the room setting everything up, turning my LED lights on, closing my curtains and turning on my tv before jumping into the bed with me. I laugh at how much she knows about my room which in turn brings me to another coughing fit. She rubs my back and hands me a bottle of Gatorade she managed to open in the midst of my fit. I take it from her and take a few sips of the drink, i thank her which earns a shake of her head. “How about we watch a movie huh?”

WRITE PLEASE (this is peer pressure) WRITE WRITE WRITE

okay but question is :

RADIO SILENCE

wandaxreader (relationship) yelenaxreader + natxreader (siblings)

reader uses they/them pronouns

Warnings - angst angst and a sprinkle of angst

another silly little one shot no one asked for. For this one I took inspiration from that one episode of b99 where Rosa is on duty at an active shooting. Pre warning I did write this at 4am, my body was running on nicotine and coffee so please forgive me if this is bad <3

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Wanda’s pov - 9am - Avengers Tower

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I stare at the clock as it slowly but surely moves, both arms moving but never seeming to meet each other, I look back to the time it displays, a tired yawn escapes my body. The meeting has only been going on for 20 minutes. Thing is I wouldn’t have been this tired if Y/N wasn’t put on early morning patrol duty. It’s normally the younger avengers who get forced to patrol the streets of NewYork on the mornings as all they have to do is stop a few robbers or help some old grandmother across the busy streets and even if there happened to be an avengers level threat they had their radio to call for backup. It was supposed to be Peter on duty today. But the little pesky bug boy decided he would much rather see to his aunt and her boyfriends anniversary plans than do what he is being payed for. The rest of the young avengers are at school, on Y/N’s request of course.

“Hey Sabrina you listening?” Tony interrupts my train of thought, I look up and see him and a few other staring at me “yeah sorry” I say with a gentle smile as they carry on their meeting.

Where was I? Oh yes my partner. My stupid adorable partner. They being the trouper that they are told Peter that they would happily take his shift on patrol, in which meaning them waking up at 4:30am, also meaning they woke me up as they being the clumsy person they are tripped over their own suit in their tired state, making suck a racket. Anyway that lead me to where we are now. Tired. Groggy and in a meeting. Thanks y/n.

After another half an hour of listening to absolutely everything. Sorry nothing of what Tony just rambled on about, Fury came rushing in with Maria. They looked broken. “Rogers, radio stat” Fury demanded as he pointed at the star spangled man. Steve being the perfect solider he is, he turned on and placed his radio on the desk for everyone to hear.

the small box crackles and squeals before a voice comes on “BREAKING NEWS!. I’m NewYork a shooting has occurred, all we know as yet is that the shooter is active and still on the scene. The shooting started at around 8am and is taking place at the american museum of natural history. The shooter is said to be armed with space tech. Anyone near the museum must evacuate and stay as far away as possible.” the radio then crackles and goes silent again. “and where is this museum?” Clint asks “upper west side” Bruce says without missing a beat. Looking around the room to see what the game plan is I see Nat’s face go sickeningly pale. “upper west side?” She asks, her voice cracking a little. I look at my future sister in law and it hits me. Yelena and Y/N. They both took their duty on upper west side an hour ago due to some reports of a commotion in some boring museum.

Fiddling with one of the radios, Clint manages to get connected to a police hotline, we can now hear if there is any updates on what shield agents are in the building. “Okay now agents of the shield facility I need anyone who is still standing to read their badge numbers” an officer says with a hint of boredom in his voice. Nat comes over to sit closer to me, everyone’s attention now glued to the tiny radio on the table. This meeting not being so boring anymore. “Agent104” some man says “agent233” another woman says, the list goes on for a few minutes until we hear a Russian accent, me and Nat lean forward in our chairs praying for either yelena or y/n or even just one of the twins. To everyone’s relief it was yelenas voice coming through “agents 443 and 444” she said. A big sigh is released as the twins are alive. But for how long? “We will be asking for hourly updates agents. If anyone is to come into contact with the shooter, do not touch the gun” the officer on the other end says with a hint of urgency.

Nat stands up first “we need to go help them” she pleas. “Negative, we stay here as ordered” Fury says as he leaves the room. Shaking her head Nat goes to the doorway and gets agitated “no Nick, both of my siblings are in there. You don’t tell me to follow orders” she snaps a little “Actually Romanoff, we need to stay here in case of an emergency, the avengers tower is open to the public who are in need of medical assistance.” Fury counteracts with his statement, he does have a point, however my partner and their sister are in that building. “we are to stay in this room and hope for the best. Understood?” He says his final warning before leaving the room.

Four long suffocating hours go by, none of us had left the meeting room. The radio went off every hour, agents would call their badge number into their radio, every hour there would be less and less calling their number. Meaning more and more casualties had occurred. Yelena and y/n hadn’t missed one calling yet. The team where getting bored by now, me and Nat pacing the room, everyone had enough. “That’s it. Both of you go to Y/N’s room and find something to keep yourself busy with. Now and stay there” Thor said, loudly and firmly, not taking no for an answer, me and Nat left the meeting room, making a quick entrance to Y/N’s room, their pink guitar laid on the bed from the previous night where they had sang to me, looking around nat sighed, she started to move stuff and clean.

An hour later there was a knock on the door, it opened as it was motion censored, Yelena stood in the doorway, swear covering her small face, Nat ran over to greet her younger sister, she engulfed her in a bone crushing hug. But where was the identical face that matched Yelena’s? “Lena oh my god never leave me again please” Nat says before looking back up, breaking the hug and going to move yelena aside to get to her other sibling, upon doing this she realised the worst. Y/n wasnt stood there with their arms open ready to be squeezed to death by their older sister. “Lena..where are they?” Nat asked urgently, praying that her sibling was just at med bay for another stupid reason as they always where. Yelena shrugged, her head lowered, eyes watery. “I-i don’t know Tasha, they told me to run ahead and that they would distract the bad guys and be right with me but when I got here they weren’t there” yelena sobbed, her words barely translatable. Nat guides us all to the bed, there was not one dry eye in the room as we all sobbed mourning the perfectly stupid person we all loved. To keep our minds off of whatever or wherever y/n had been, Nat told us to help her replace Y/N’s guitar strings as they hadn’t gotten around to doing it themselves.

An hour later, I give up “this is fucking useless Nat none of us know how to do this, we are just fucking it up the more we try.” I snap “the love of my life is out there in that stupid fucking museum and I don’t even know if they are dead or alive, I can’t feel them, I love them so much” I sob

“Jesus I mean I love you too but the crying..dramatic as fuck cara mia” I hear a voice behind me say, the voice is raspy and low. I look at Nat and yelena, they look shocked, I spin around and run to tackle the person. My person. “Oh my god Y/N”

Hi! How are you doing? I hope everything is good!

While a were searching for yoko x reader i found your blog, it seems people forget about her! And I'm so thirsty for her, so if you want could you write something for yoko x fem reader?

Thanks and have a great day!

(Sorry is there are any mistakes english isn't my first language).

LIFE LINE

Reader is depressed due to her mother figure, Miss Weems being stabbed with the nightshade needle, Weems is in hospital but presumed dead by poor y/n, yoko being y/n’s girlfriend has been with y/n as much as possible during her time of mourning

Warning - angst with a dabble of more angst 😙

It had been a few weeks since the Crackstone attack on Nevermore Academy, Weems was supposedly dead and Miss Thornhill was definitely dead. Both of your parental figures gone in the space of an hour because some shitty dead dude decided he needed to kill all outcasts. Everyone knew Thornhill was behind the attack but you, no one had the heart to tell the you this, and so help anyone who got close to telling you. On the day of the attack you were in the library catching up on your studies awaiting on your girlfriend yoko, that was until a explosion occurred, knocking you out, you had then been unconscious throughout the whole thing. After the attack, all of your friends had been looking for you as you weren’t evacuated with the other students, this was when yoko remembered about yours and her study date, she amongst her friends had ran to the library praying for you to still be there, they found you passed out there in the library.

Now with it being the two week mark of the attack Yoko, Wednesday, Bianca and Enid had tried their best to keep you from falling deeper into the hole of depression the whole day dug you into. Bianca brought you water and sang to you until you fell asleep, Enid made sure your self care was being done even if she had to do it for you, Wednesday came and helped with the your studies, Ajax came and blessed you with his poor attempts at comedy while yoko came to check on you every few hours making sure you had ate, drank water and just to be there through this time.

Principle Weems had allowed you to join the school due to how you were an orphan and had the power of controlling nature, which Weems had never seen. You had excelled at carnivorous class which was no surprise due to your powers, because of this Thornhill took a liking to the you, something yoko never liked, yoko knew Thornhill was bad news but didn’t want to interrupt the friendship between Thornhill and yourself as it made you happy. Yet now after the attack yoko wished she had stopped the friendship sooner. Seeing how broken the once smiley girl was broke everyone’s heart.

A few days after the attack, Bianca had stolen some of the fencing equipment and took you out to the woods behind the school to try and get your anger out. This ended up with you throwing the helmet to the floor and sobbing into Bianca’s arms. Enid had taken you out with the werewolf’s on a full moon and let you scream until your lungs gave in and you couldn’t scream any more, after that for the rest of the night you where silent, to say the least you looked exhausted and everyone saw it.

Your friends took turns with it, if Wednesday and Enid went to the hospital to see Weems, Yoko and Bianca were with you trying to keep the high spirits, vice versa. Now it is the three week anniversary of the attack and your mental health was incredibly low.

A knock on your door had grabbed your attention, you didn’t bother moving from your place on the floor, the door slowly opened and your girlfriend came in slowly with a bottle of water and one of her hoodies in her arms. “Hey my love, why are you on the floor?” She chuckled lowly as she closed the door and turned on your LED lights, the colour being dark blue. She walked over to you and sat on the bed behind you, you tilted your head up acknowledging the older girl, she smiled in return for the acknowledgment. “come here arms up” Yoko commanded in a soft tone, you then lazily complied, scooting yourself closer to your girlfriend and putting your arms in the air, she took the baggy band tshirt you are wearing off and threw it into your washing basket, quickly replacing the shirt with her hoodie “now can you stand up for me?” Yoko said with a smile, again you complied, you stood up and sat next to your girlfriend, resting your head on her shoulder. “im sorry” you said in a whisper. Yoko shook her head, wrapping her arms around you and moving the two of you so now you are both laying down in your bed.

The day after that Bianca had come bursting into your dorm, you and yoko layed in each others arms, you where asleep and yoko was awake as ever, holding a finger up to her lip yoko commanded Bianca to be quiet. “Put her headphones on” Bianca told yoko, urgency in her voice. Quickly yoko placed your headphones over your ears and stood up, leaving you in your bed asleep, yoko grabbed Bianca’s arm and dragged the girl outside of your dorm. “What’s up B?” Yoko said, urgency reeking off the siren “It’s Weems” Bianca paused for a second “she’s been discharged from hospital” the siren says with a smile. “oh how do we tell y/n?” Yoko says with a sad smile “she’s your girlfriend yoko you figure it out” Bianca smirks as she walks away leaving yoko to deal with the ticking time bomb that is her girlfriend.

Yoko walks back in the room and you looked a bit better than yesterday, and you were stood in front of your mirror just staring at yourself. Maybe not too much better. “hey love your up” she says with a sad smile “do you think I would look good with a bob?” You say with scissors in your hands. She chuckles and walks over, taking the scissors out of your hands and onto the makeup desk. “My love come sit down I have to tell you something” Yoko says softly as she leads you to the bed. “oh god you’re breaking up with me?” You say in panic, her hands quickly come up to cup your face and she shakes her head “no, no it’s Weems she survived the poisoning, she’s out of the hospital if you need to see he-“ Yoko doesn’t even get to finish her sentence as you run out of the door and towards Weems’ office, all of your friends stand around in the office, Weems stood at her desk as you run in. “ohmygod” you say as you run into Weems’ arms with teary eyes.

tears over beers

you put too much effort into relationships and the girl you genuinely had feelings for broke your heart, even now after knowing about what she done, your friends still choose her over you.

because of this you relapsed.

and lost yourself again.

until one night three women find you in the woods about to take your life.

TRIGGER WARNING

self harm, suicide attempt, alcoholism, drug use, swearing, past relationship trauma, eating disorder, body dysphoria. (totally not writing just to vent..yes that’s exactly what I’m doing)

IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED PLEASE DONT READ THIS

(I see you little depressed bitches who are going to ignore this message, if this is you please reach out to me or anyone for that matter, I know what your going through, even if I don’t I will try and help)

tears run down your face, you bring your stained hoodies sleeve up to your crimson coloured cheeks, the once dry, blue hoodie, now damp and a deep blue colour. you wipe the salty tears off of your face.

blurred vision and a bottle of beer in your hand, the tears fall faster than ever, you can almost sense the panic attack that is coming for the 5th time in the past 4 hours.

the thing about you is that when you seriously genuinely like someone, you do anything in your power to keep them.

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you where 16 and freshly out of a emotionally abusive relationship, first year of college, your time to shine.

two of your closest friends from secondary school managed to stay in the same friend group as you, from that you built a whole new friendship group, different people from your friends classes joined.

about half way through your first year of college you developed feelings for a girl who recently discovered her own sexuality. Through her discovering herself she managed to split the group which was once a big group into two, the other half of the group studied a different course than your side and now the two groups barely talk.

upon telling your best friend about your newfound feelings, she tells you that the girl sees you in the same light as you see her.

a few weeks later the girl you liked and one of your closets friends texted you saying they both had feelings for you. Upon this a massive wave of guilt engulfed your mind. You had liked your close friend for years before when you where both in secondary school yet you still liked this new friend.

you had told them both that you where confused and couldn’t make your decision so soon. Your close friend Em told you to take your time and that if it was her you where willing to choose that she would wait forever for you, on the other hand, your other friend Kai told you that you had to choose and that it wasn’t fair.

you tried so hard to choose but you couldn’t.

once both of them and your best friend wanted to go see the same movie so you invited them all to see it together as it would’ve been easier. To make it even more awkward your younger brother decided to tag along.

during the movie Em held your hand because she recognised your anxiety about the cinema, along with the scary scene that was playing before you, for the next hour, the two of you held hands. Then the same on the bus ride, once Kai left, Em took the opportunity to hold your hand, then kissing it once you reached her stop.

Throughout the rest of the year Kai begged for your attention and love while Em worked for your love.

and guess who you picked

if you thought Em

you thought wrong.

stupidly you picked Kai because Em was at another college and the two of you barely saw each other, whereas even though she never put in effort Kai saw you everyday.

A few month of sharing hoodies and you putting in the most effort to make sure Kai is having a good time while she is going through things, you wanted to ask the question. ‘what are we?’

you ended up asking her through text what she wanted from the talking stage, after that she told you she needed space.

this was the first time she hurt you, broke you even.

you sat on a table alone as your friends went to talk to her, they left all their stuff with you, you sat and silently sobbed while they laughed with her.

Summer finally broke out and you had the girl unadded for the whole time, your friends hung out with her while you were either on holiday or alone in your room reading comic books of super heroes with the dream love story.

Around 2 weeks till college starts she added you again with the plea to start talking again, of course you being a fucking idiot, you said yes because your friends wanted the group to be together again with you being the ‘glue’ of the group.

Your now in second year of college

through the use of the internet you found your diagnosis for depression and the internet keeps saying your neurodivergent.

She would send you relationship posts through tiktok and snapchat, yet the moment you ask for the second time what she wanted from the relationship, she fucked you over again.

But this time worse, she left you on opened before spending a week ignoring you, the friend group fell apart a bit more and you just stayed away as much as you could in fear you’d show yourself crying in front of them.

She eventually messaged you and the two of you stopped talking.

now not even two weeks later, you heard through a good friend that she has already moved on with one of your ex’s who also fucked you over.

In the coming weeks your life fell apart, you can’t find a job, your failing everything you do and your presence at college is near to never

——

your now sat in the woods with a bottle of your pills in your lap, unknowingly of the famed avengers’ new mission in your area.

Three of the avengers are stood watching you from behind you, without your knowledge. Your new apple airpod maxes placed upon your dark curly hair, music blaring.

After a few minutes of them watching you they start to whisper about your state as you pull up your sleeves, cursing at yourself for not bandaging your arms properly, blood runs down your forearms from the deep raging red lines that cover the entirety of your arms.

Upon seeing this you feel a pair of strong arms wrapping around your shoulders, hugging you from behind, you throw your headphones off, putting them on the floor. “Shh I’m here” a raspy Russian voice says while you melt into their hold. Another two people join the hug, “it’s okay detkà we’ve got you” another voice says, this time her voice is hinted with an old Slavic accent, lastly another female says “I’ve got you little one” in an American accent.

part 2