What do you do when you don't feel like a person anymore? When all you feel like is an extension to everybody else's life? I like being needed most of the times, but I absolutely hate it in moments when I stop feeling like a fucking valid person anymore, when being needed absolutely fucks up with my personal progress, be it academic, psychological, physical or emotional. When people who need my help feel entitled to it and I feel too exhausted to even defend myself on that stand, when all I want to do is cry about it.
day 32/100 of productivity
things accomplished today:
• chem equations
• physics chapter reading+ theory
22.10.22
I will write; he wrote the prelude.
She wrote events,
they moulded together a piece of gold.
As they would say,"You're the light!"
But not for love, all to bite;
"You decide you shine or not, for sake of the name that guarded yours!"
I wailed in urgency to burn the shackles—"No name guards mine if they longed to shine not shower–the suspended love in the air."
I will write my epilouge.......
Ron Mueck, “In Bed” 2005. This hyperrealist sculptor creates massive pieces that are so real they’re difficult to disbelieve. I saw one in person a year ago at the Manchester museum of art and was amazed.
subject aesthetics: computer science + math
I love The Golden Girls.
got started on learning python, so far it’s been fun. the weather is changing every hour lmao. a bit behind on my french learning but i’ll keep up with it soon. and i got into a reading slump hhhh also hey it’s august!
"What if I told you I'mma mastermind?"
"It was all by design; cause I'mma mastermind"
WE’RE THE MILLERS (2013) dir. Rawson Marshall Thurber
I am literally one of the laziest people with making backgrounds - either manually or looking for a good image, so I looked online for some generators and thought I would share them here!
haikei - LINK
bgjar - LINK
coolbackgrounds - LINK
meshgradient - LINK
mesh-gradients - LINK
gradienta - LINK
svgbackgrounds - LINK
SVG patterns - LINK
pattern monster - LINK
Hope this helps someone! 💗
Overly Honest Methods in science.