Guilty Of This…srsly Need To Cop The Feck On

أعوذ بالله من أن أكون كَنُوداً، أعُد البلايا و أنسى النعَم

"I seek refuge in Allah from being ungrateful, counting the calamities and forgetting the blessings."

I’m always disappointed but not surprised when it comes to my dad.

I hate that I always give myself hope, it’s stupid

I’m stupid

safe space ...

Virginia Woolf, from a diary entry featured in "A Writer's Diary," originally pub. in January 1953

Being called out for every little thing you do is quite exhausting

Have you ever been so stressed you’re just not stressed anymore??

— unknown

It’s so upsetting to see how many people live the same heartbreaking reality. No child (no matter how old they are) should feel the burden of their parents negativity. No child should feel anger and pain because of their parents. It doesn’t have to be physical to effect you. I hope everyone finds healing and love no matter how hard it seems to be.

Man of the House

Some fathers are born miserable

I think

Or at least mine was

He had a rough childhood

He hardened his heart

Threw out his feelings- left unused

He stares at the world with dead eyes

Soon, he's gifted with children

You'd think kids would change him

But he remains a miserable man to this day

Dragging us through the muck of his pain

Allowing us to swallow his discomfort and agony

Instead of teaching us things

Like love and regulating feelings-the good, the bad, and the downright ugly

We learned how to be filled with rage and emptiness

How to yell until our voice bounces off the walls

Our faces red from our generational anger

We can't help but tether his suffering

To our bones

But as an "adult"

In her Wretched Twenties

Who sees him with fresh eyes

I will not be the keeper of my fathers' pain

I wonder what of feels like to be important to somebody

What it’s like to be appreciated and loved