Anazen333 - The Things I Think About

Have you ever written a chapter or scene and as you’re writing it you’re thinking “this is terrible.” But you keep writing it because you have to see it through to the end even though you’re already planning to trash it and are working on ideas to replace it with?

It's Official! I'm ASD!

And I couldn't be more happy! (which according to my family, is a strange reaction to have lol)

But all my life I've felt like an outsider looking in, and when I stumbled upon Autism, it gave me something I hadn't had before - a reason why I'm the way I am.

With each new fact I learned during my research, I grew more and more excited by how well I related to the ASD community. How their stories and tips made me feel more confident in myself to just be me, without having to constantly justify my 'strange' behavior.

And then I was finally able to get an official assessment done. I was so sure there would be no doubt that I was autistic.

But then the doctor went over her initial findings with me and it sounded like I was going to be misdiagnosed.

I was scared out of my mind.

Because I had been so sure of myself, for the first time in a long time. I had essentially laid my soul bare to someone and they were invalidating my feelings. And I wasn't sure what I was going to do if I was misdiagnosed.

Thankfully, that didn't turn out to be the case! (long story short, when sending the questionnaires out to other people, make sure you 1: give them to people you're sure know you. And 2: look over their responses, just to make sure they do know you well. Because it turns out, sometimes they don't).

I'm officially on the Autism Spectrum and thrilled to be zebra instead of a malfunctioning horse!

I have not cried happy tears of relief in soooooo long!

Perks of Working at a University

Schedules are dictated by the school year - long holidays and summer hours are shorter

Lots of free/cheap events - because they’re catering to students who have little to no money

Get to commute through and work at a pretty campus - mine is, anyway

When school is canceled, work is canceled - yay snow days!

The Major Con of Working at a University (for me)

Encountering a man that checks off so many of my “Oh, no, he’s hot” boxes - Asian medical student who plays the violin with beautiful long fingers that is wearing glasses and a suit-!!!

Only to realize he’s probably ten years younger than me.

Tagged by @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city (Thanks! I always have fun doing these :3 )

The rules: describe your personality with 4 characters (from books, movies or series)

1. Belle (Beauty and the Beast 1991)

2. Evie Carnahan (The Mummy)

3. Makoto Kino, AKA Sailor Jupiter (Sailor Moon)

4. Veralidaine 'Daine' Sarrasri (The Immortals book series)

“Two Ladybugs? I’m in heaven!” -Cat Noir

I just love the looks on everyone’s faces here: priceless!

Cat is just so totally happy/overwhelmed that he’s now got double his love, while Ladybug...

Not really sure if they’re looking at Cat Noir or each other, but I love how their expressions are so different from each other.

Marinette #2 (the one on the left - the non time traveler), is giving off a look of “oh my gosh, seriously? What incredibly inappropriate thing he is thinking of now?”

While Marinette #1 (the one of the right - the one that traveled in time), has a sort of bored “Ah, there he is with the jokes again. But at least he’s alive, so I guess I can let it go this time.” Because she’s the one that witnessed him sacrifice his life for her. She’s bound to be less annoyed with him as #2 (who has no knowledge of what he did - or what he’s capable of doing).

Or at least those are my thoughts ;3

Not really sure what they're doing here, but I'm probably better off not knowing 0_0;

There didn’t seem to be an all imcohmpassing comparison for Ahsoka’s face transitions, so I decided to make one myself :3

Ahsoka belongs to Disney

A comment made by one of my favorite artists here on Tumblr (and DA), that really made my day. I was beginning to think I was the only one that had a thing for masked men! xD

Did you intend for Cal to be smokin' hot or is it a happy coincidence?

Bit of both~

He’s an incubus. Being hot is literally his JOB. So his design is a lot of what I personally find appealing/attractive in a character, aka faceless masked figures, but I never expected him to be so popular with everyone else (I’m so glad though haha!)

After reading all the available books by Ali Hazelwood, I have come to the conclusion that she has types. (Yes, plural).

Women: must be short, small chested (and complain about their small chests. Not to mention complain about their bones sticking out. And how men ogle them).

Men: must be super tall, built like comic book heroes, and have huge…equipment.

Normally, I wouldn’t give a hoot about her personal preferences. But when one is spouting messages of diversity and inclusivity, and has had their first work be a major hit (that I myself loved, btw), then I’m just saying it would be nice to see said diversity when it comes to the body types of her main characters.

I’ve already ranted about romance heroines making me want to slap them because they have the gall to whine about their small breasts, especially modern day girls who shouldn’t complain since the fashion and beauty industries center around thin women so really, they have no right-

But my point is that if Ali Hazelwood can get away with inserting her personal preferences into ALL OF HER BOOKS (seriously, there doesn’t seem to be any differences between all of the characters - males and females - besides hair color, eye color, and skin color) then I think that gives me the right to do the same and no one should be allowed to judge me for it.

Thus, all my main characters will be:

Women: all will be 5’5, plus size, and thank the gods they were born with ample bosoms (and also how they have those womanly tummies we all have no matter what our sizes). And have butts and hips that sashay from side to side without even having to try. Because it drives their men wild.

Men: all will be no taller than 5’9, will NOT have 'full' lips, have the bodies of Japanese figure skaters (especially the flat butts), and have equipment so small their pants never look awkward (because really, men need to know there are women out there that don’t find the male wish fulfillment body type attractive. I certainly don’t).

Tag I’m it!

Tagged by @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city. Thanks for thinking of me! I love doing these :3

Rules: Tag people you want to get to know better and then answer these questions!

Favorite color: It really depends on the noun in question what my favorite color is, but generally it’s either rose red or peacock blue.

Last song: Save me by Bruno Martini, Avian Grays, TRIXL ft. Mayra

Last movie: Strange Magic

Last TV show: BBC The Musketeers

Sweet, spicy or savory: Sweet buttery flavors 

Bubbly water, tea or coffee: Milk tea

Tagging: anyone else who wants to do this just for fun!