Whole Life Convincing Yourself That You’re Emotionless, Cold And Unbothered Only To Realise Many Years

whole life convincing yourself that you’re emotionless, cold and unbothered only to realise many years later that you created that version of yourself because in reality you couldn’t bare the thought of being vulnerable in any way

and when you finally realise that it’s not something to be proud of you also realise that it’s too late to re-learn everything

you feel great shame because you finally see that you weren’t actually strong - all of it was a weakness. the thing you hated the most. you couldn’t embrace it

and worst of all - you realise that you’ve become exactly like the person who hurt you in the beginning

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trauma Realisation coping mechanism childhood trauma actually bpd psychology actually ptsd emotionally detached emotionally unavailable pretending living with borderline emotionally immature parents coping with trauma traumatized child adult children of emotionally immature parents

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