Manifestation

They Change Us

From man To monsters

Frome monster To men

Such Mercurial Is Our Nature

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It was evening then. Just 7:30, but the night had already set. The dim streetlight cast a bluish hue over me. I was walking in the street, towards the pool side of the B block. I was wearing a hoodie,the hood covering my head. My gait and the hoodie signalled ignorance but I knew it was just a pretense. I knew it hid me from the gazes of other, it hid me from their faces, which told me what they were thinking, it hid me from thinking too much. Cold winter wind was blowing. I was wearing shorts and could feel it flowing around my bare shins. It flew through me. The coldness went through me like a ghoul. It sucked energy from me. Goosebumps signalling its departure. Leaving me momentarily empty. But I felt alive. The heat in me receded. The anger subsided. The cold wind felt fresh in my lungs. It chilled my nose. It felt tingly. The wind was addictive. I wanted more cold, more release. I wanted to feel it in my body. I wanted to drown in it. It gave me relief but took my life. While I write this my nose bleeds. I feel the red warm blood flowing out, dropping to the ground. Turning from deep red to ferric tangerine. The wind was parasitic.

Writing Playlist

These are my favourite songs to listen to while writing, along with the feelings they evoke in me and the situations they remind me of.  If you make your own playlist, please tag me! I wanna see. 

Hans Zimmer - Time (Inception): realizing your insignificance in our ever-expanding universe, watch time (whatever that might be) loop endlessly around you. Past, present, future, all connected through endless wormholes, floating amidst a thousand stars, those places where reality feels altered (abandoned buildings, the woods at night, rest stops on highways. 

Ludovico Einaudi - Experience: Hope, when flowers grow in the dark, making your peace with that which you cannot change, not giving up. 

Theory of Everything - Ending Scene Music (The Cinematic Orchestra - Arrival of the birds): being freed of boundaries,  the bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to tell your past self, wanting to learn everything there is to learn about the world we live in. 

Game of Thrones: Season 6 OST - Light of the Seven: Anger, revenge, avenging yourself and those you love, cunning.  

Zankyou no Terror OST - Von: Finding a sliver of hope when all else feels lost, healing. 

LORDE - Everybody Wants To Rule The World: Cunning, great ambition, rebelling, disregard for rules. 

The Rains of Castamere: Pride and honour, duty, war. 

Zack Hemsey - The Way (Instrumental): An eerie melody, the devastation of knowing the war is lost but continuing to fight, walking in the land of the Dead. The last night with your peers before heading into battle. 

Sleeping at Last - Saturn: Death of a loved one, mourning. 

Ask i Memnu music: Passion, secrets, forbidden desires, sex. 

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars: Nostalgia, pulling a dérive with the person you love, escaping and leaving the world behind with them, the feeling of time stopping when you’re with them. 

Death Parade -  Moonlit Night: Sadness, being in denial, then finally being set free, allowing yourself to feel. 

Andrew Belle - In my veins: Unrequited love, heartbreak.

Game of Thrones Season 6 OST - Winter Has Come: Longing for home, the coming of dawn after a night full of darkness, battle. 

The Most Saddest Melody: Feeling lost, like a wandering spirit that never quite reaches its destination. Reflecting on the mistakes of the past, wishing you could change what was written in the stars.

Naruto Soundtrack- Sadness and Sorrow: As the name suggests, this song represents the deepest sorrow imaginable. I also hear a hint of nostalgia, loss of innocence, mourning.

Taylor Swift feat.The Civil Wars Safe & Sound: A sense of safety and stability in the middle of chaos, walking barefoot in the woods, the echoes of ruins, a bonfire.  

ADELE - Love In The Dark | Kyle Hanagami Choreography (Leroy Sanchez Cover): Difficult relationship, feeling unwanted, when you finally accept it’s over and it’s time to let go. 

Sleeping Beauty OST - Aurora’s Return/Maleficent’s Evil Spell: (from 1:48 minutes until 3:40) Feeling someone breathe on your neck when no one else is there, being followed by someone you cannot see, waking up at three am for no apparent reason, sounds you cannot explain, shadows in your peripheral vision. 

Alex & Sierra - Little Do You Know: Falling in love and the hurting that comes with it, loving someone unconditionally and fearing what that might mean, overcoming obstacles in a relationship. 

Parachute - Kiss Me Slowly: First kiss, slow and tender, yet powerful and dizzying. Waking up in the arms of your loved one for the very first time. 

Christina Perri ft. Steve Kazee - A Thousand Years: A marriage proposal, spending the rest of your life with your soulmate, growing old with them. 

Chester See - God Damn You’re Beautiful: Pinning, someone’s beauty taking your breath away, your heart racing when you see them. 

And after, I couldn’t bear the ocean for thelongest time. Until today, when for the first time I wanted to touch the sand again. And after I got back home I realised that you would never be able to forget me; that like that sand you can never completely free yourself of me. You think you’ve washed me all away and then you find me in between your toes or in your ears, laughing and making you miss me. Reminding you of how good it felt to be covered in me and how nothing can even remotely compare.

Excerpt from a book I will never write #1376

poetry is not just words nor rhythm or rhyme poetry is not just a moment in time it is not ink upon a crinkled page poetry isn’t merely a kiss…a stolen glance

poetry is in all things every breath storm

…moment

you

The 6th Sense

The Case of ESP

Learning ESP

Secrets of the Psychics

Psychic Powers

Psychic Crime Solvers

The Extraordinary 

The Truth of Psychic Powers

Gordon Smith

Animal ESP

The Psychic Experience

Aliens

New Swirled Order

Case of the UFOs

UFO’S Out of the Blue

UFO & Alien Disclosure

I Believe in UFO’s

Evidence We Are Not Alone

Alien Abductions

The Keepers

Ancient Aliens

Russian Roswell

Abduction Diaries

UFO Down to Earth

Disney’s Alien Encounter

Fly Saucers & Science

Crop Circles: The Quest For Truth

Phoenix Lights

The UFO Enigma of Flying Spheres & Orbs

UFO Disclosure in Russia

UFO’s & Area 51

Taken

Unexplained Mysteries

The Blitz Witch

The Bermuda Triangle

In Search of the Man Who Would Not Die

Killer Legends

Hessdalen Lights

The Unreal World

Unexplained Supernatural

Bizarre Beliefs: Cults & The Occult

The Diva Mummy

The Book That Can’t Be Read

Beyond the Bermuda Triangle: The Devil’s Sea

The Lost Caves of Giza

Mystery of the Disembodied Feet

The Angel Effect

Mystery of the Murdered Saints

Mystery of the Romanovs

The Revelation of the Pyramids

Atlantis: The Evidence

Weird or What?

Life After Life

Crpytozooology 

Vampire Beast of Bladenboro

Yeti

Search for the Mothman

Chupacabra

Monsters, Madness & Mayhem

Monsters & Mysteries in Alaska

Animal X

Is It Real?

Who is Bigfoot?

The Legend of Sasquatch

Lake Demons

Sea Monsters

Werewolf in America

The Last Dragon

Loch Ness Monster

Ghosts & Other Entities

Best Ghost Cases Caught on Tape

North East Ghosts

The Existence of Ghosts

Ghost Contact

A House Divided: Ghostly Encounters

Haunted Washington D.C

Haunted Hawaii

Poltergeists: The Unexplained

Castle Ghosts of England

Peru’s City of Ghosts

Exorcists

Poltergeists

Haunted

Paranormal America

Sleep Paralysis & Ghost Visions

Most Haunted Places in the World

14 Degrees

Exorcists & Exorcisms

True Ghost Stories

Angels & Demons: Ghostly Encounters

Other Masterposts

Masterpost of World’s Scariest Places

Masterpost of True Terrifying Events

Masterpost of Creepy Stories

Masterpost of Gothic Novels

Masterpost of Creepy Websites

Masterpost of Creepy Online Games

Masterpost of Creepy Sleep-Over Games

Halloween Masterpost

Masterpost of Horror Movies With A Twist

Masterpost of Creepy T.V Shows

Good stuff.

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poetry is not just words nor rhythm or rhyme poetry is not just a moment in time it is not ink upon a crinkled page poetry isn’t merely a kiss…a stolen glance

poetry is in all things every breath storm

…moment

you