Colors. My Greatest Enemy.

My queer ass with limited sexual interest and a romantic attraction to all the genders was absolutely flabbergasted when I, at 15, discovered that no one else seems to understand how flattering hiking pants are.

Sometimes you open your new markers and must christen them with dinosaur doodles

Sometimes you’re watching M*A*S*H to have a good time, and other times the army doctors take your heart and start squeezing until you’ve stopped breathing and show you the basics of humanity and life in the most gut-wrenching ways.

I finally was able to watch “Jim Henson Idea Man”

I adored it omg. I’m such a huge fan of the muppets and the other creations of Jim Henson and look up to him so much as a creator. It’s amazing to know that there were/are other people out there who feel like their time is going by just too quickly to be able to create everything they want to. No matter how much time I get, the things I create with that time, no matter if they change the world or not, are worth it.

That said, here’s the sketchbook page I filled while watching the documentary!

I wrote down some of my favorite quotes, but I know my handwriting isn’t always legible.

“The fact that he did Sesame Street instead of a series of nightclubs”

“Gretl is back from the moon!”

“Train of thought editing.”

“I’ve learned to walk around in my own head. That may sound silly to you but it’s been very, very helpful to me.”

“He wasn’t scared of dying… he believed there was something else there.”

“He wasn’t a musician but he thought like one.”

All that aside, thoughts on the funky puppet guy who takes up the bottom half of the page? Hair or no hair?

Shoot they got me right on the nose this episode broke me

Which "Super Sad, I'll have scars for life" MASH episode are you?

Which "Super Sad, I'll have scars for life" MASH episode are you?

House binge with roommate + art block = house and Wilson doodles

I JUST FINISHED THE WINNERS AND THERE WILL BE MINOR SPOILERS

when I say just I mean like 15 minutes ago— There are still dry tears on my face.

The way Mr Backman spoils the book for us over and over is flawless at giving individuality to the story as a narrative, giving it its own voice, but it’s also a top notch literary device to cultivate plot twists. I was so preoccupied with him telling us—from the beginning—who was going to die that the things that Bang the dog, Mumble’s ending, and all the other little tragedies we watched happen took shocked me to my core

On the subject of the compassion and hopefulness— I can’t even begin to put into words how I feel about the “Time travel can’t be real” lines and the lines written on all the different tombstones in the story, or Alicia’s story

Cannot deal with how the story of Beartown knows itself inside and out and how it tells itself so nonchalantly, spoiling things left and right, and killing our notions of a happy ending before we even get the stupid idea to hope.

"She won't succeed." "It won't be enough." "He will be too late."

But what gets me is how the story also so obviously cares. Cares about the people, about the events that went down, and it knows that the outcome can't be changed but it wishes so damn hard it could be.

"Obviously we still hoped. Dear god, how we hoped." "The people in this town who loved him. There were so many of us."

It's not them, it's us. Almost like the town itself is telling it. Fredrik Backman I am in your walls.

Sorry Trapper fans- his art is going to be late because I’m working on this pretty much obsessively.

S4E8 The Kids made me really emotional okay???

For the sake of my mental and physical health, I may have to stop watching 9-1-1