I’ve Done Some Twitter Threads On This Topic, So Thought It Might Be Nice To Do A Tumblr Post Too.

songs that have helped me through hard times

so0o, i do have these (+ some others) all on a playlist (here)

remember this is just how i perceive the songs and they might not be how you feel about them

in case you don’t live forever - ben platt: this is a song that hits harder because sometimes you can’t get the words out to someone before they leave your life. it’s a song that has a lesson to it, one that everyone should learn

two of us - louis tomlinson: this song is a huge tear jerker, for personal reasons i’m not going to elaborate though. it’s a very raw song, and any one that has struggled with the loss of someone should hear it

invisible - 5 seconds of summer: i used to feel like i was just always there, but never *there*.  admittedly i found this song after i really needed it, but it makes me mourn the girl i used to be. this entire song pulls at my heartstrings and it will always have a special place in my heart for how accurate the lyrics are

broken home - 5 seconds of summer: as a child of divorced parents, this song also hits different. “hey mom hey dad, when did this end? when did you lose your happiness” always makes me tear up. its a song i needed when i was younger. 

bumper cars - alex and sierra: from multiple friendships/relationships i relate to this song. its wanting this person so bad but you know you cant have it because you two just don’t mix and it makes a bigger mess. this song is more of an idea of sadness for me, it doesn’t directly make me think of one thing

finally, the most important one

you cant rush your healing - trevor hall

i could probably go on for days about how much strength this song gave me, but alas, i’m limited to a paragraph. i found this song after a really big change in my life, it was actually recommended to me by my aerial teacher. lyrically, its one of the most comforting songs i’ve ever listened to. i go to it anytime i feel anxious, sad, or in need of something to help me. 

you cant rush your healing, you have to go through every emotion and let yourself actually feel it. that’s something i had to learn. honestly, if i hadn’t found this song/the people from my aerial studio i would probably still be in the same endless (so it feels like) loop of sadness and frustration. 

this is a song you have to find at the right time to be able to understand. the first time i listened to it it was late at night, i felt tired, and i let it play on a loop listening to the lyrics just crying because i felt like i found something that could really help me (and it did)

Rules thread:

(I got bored at work this morning and finally wrote a rule list up. I still have to re-write it in my diet journal when I get home.)

2 liters of water a day

Keep track of water intake

Don't count coffee calories (Starbucks excluded)

1200 calorie limit (absolute max)

No pop

No food past 5 pm

16 hour fast minimum (daily)

100 chews per bite

Water with all meals

Green tea daily

Cranberry juice daily

100 jumping jacks every hour after work

15 squats every bathroom break

150 sit ups before 6 pm

Yoga on Saturdays

Cheat day: Friday (metabolism boost and binge prevention)

-cheat day rules: no calorie counting. No food after 8 pm. Start fast after meal. Work out rules still apply. No pop.

*These are rules I've been using since the very beginning of my eating disorder journey (14 years ago). Some things have been changed due to things not working, and the calorie limit has been super over shot. These are for me only.

so apparently there was an earthquake

and it got the owl gamer boys shook

but then u have danteh

and THEN you have sleepy

insane girl behaviour from black sails repeatedly showing us characters forced to choose between their loved ones & their goals, and the horrible destruction wrought by them choosing the latter, only to turn around and give us a finale where a man choosing the woman he loves is the single most destructive act of the entire show

The Umbrella Academy Season 2 + soundtrack.

when in doubt, remember the 3 F'S:

- FRIENDS

- FUCK COPS

- FIGHT FOR WORMS WORLDWIDE

some really cool bands and musicians to checkout if you haven‘t already!! (˙ ͜ʟ˙) ₚₗₑₐₛₑ ₑₙⱼₒᵧ

!! Just a few really cool indie musicians and bands you should check out if that’s your kind of thing !! Or even if its not you’ll still probably like these !

- Girl In Red – very retro aesthetic, also great lesbian representation

- Chloe Moriondo – super soft girl, mostly covers but amazingly talented

- Abbey Glover – many MANY originals, angsty and beautiful songs

- Mxmtoon – Techno / retro sad girl vibes, very calming

- Mccafferty – rough and edgy, for all u eboys out there <3

- Conan Grey – similar to a retro troye sivan, also a youtuber !!

- Cavetown – soft boy, mostly sad music (youve probably heard him in  peoples remixes !!)

-Ollie Mn – sad boy with an amazing voice (also known for funny vines)

- Khai Dreams – chill vibes, very calming

- Catherine K Dong – beautiful voice, real people real places vibes

- Grandson – dark and edgy, political songs

- It looks sad – soft and dark at the same time

-Mitski – beautiful singer, marceline from adventure time covered her song ‘francis forever’

- The front bottoms – similar to mccafferty, edgy but not as rough

- Peachpit – very retro chill songs, very bass-ey songs

- Jack stauber – most known for his amazing claymation videos but his music is super interesting with a story and are very known on tiktok

- Sales – soft and sweet, sort of clear retro vibe

✨Things to look back on when thinking about binging ✨

You had goals, remember?

•the summer body youve always wanted

•being like the girls/guys you admire everyday

•becoming thinspo and inspiring other people

•being more respected and loved

•people stop staring at you in public

•less appetite due to a way smaller stomach therefore being able to eat yummy foods

•going clothes shopping without getting looks from literally everyone

•being able to enjoy intercourse with a partner

•being able to get semi famous on social media because you’re as pretty as a model now

•saving a lot of money from not spending it on massive amounts of food over time

•keeping the lights on without feeling ashamed (if ykyk)

•being happier because people love socialising if you’re thin and pretty

•being able to eat without guilt again

•all the cute new shirts you’ll fit in

•going down in clothing sizes massively

•not being the fat friend

•beathiful dresses and gowns will make you look like a true goddess

•jawline

•flat stomach

•its gonna be easier to workout due to being light

•speaking of light, imagine that special person being able to pick you up and carry you

•no more looking into the mirror thinking “not again..”

•not being labelled lazy when relazing

•looking good in any clothing item

Part 2 is following when it’s not 2AM and I’m semi alive ahah

"I'm worried that if I take a break, I'll end up quitting!"

So let me reassure you here - there is no such thing as quitting fitness. You can stop following a specific exercise routine or relax your food restrictions, but you can't quit your health. It doesn't work like that.

If you're worried that skipping your workout today will lead you down the path of never working out again, let's unpack some of that anxiety:

Do you dislike your exercise routine? Are you doing something that you find uncomfortable, boring, stressful or a chore? Then perhaps it's time to find a new endeavor! Moving your body should be fun! Consider trading in some of that running for dancing, solo weightlifting for team practice, or treadmill time for outdoor hiking. Find something that you can look forward to, so that working out is less about maintaining a schedule and more about doing one of your favorite things.

Do you feel naturally "lazy," like you get pulled into your phone or bed and then have a hard time getting up to move? Think about what you're getting from these quieter activities: Relaxation? Socialization? Escapism? Identifying why you tend to default to "wasting time" can help you figure out how to acquire the same satisfaction from exercise.

Do you have a specific goal that must be hit within a restricted timetable? And you're worried about backtracking and failing to get there in time? Examine your exercise schedule and trust the process. Any planned routine worth its salt will account for the fact that the average person will miss days here or there: the individual workout isn't what's important, and won't impact your overall habits and progress.

Do you feel anxious, upset or depressed when you miss a workout? Do you rely on exercise/dieting as a stress relief, and feel overwhelmed without it? Having only one coping skill can potentially set you up for failure in the future. Examine your daily routine and consider what other coping methods you could implement in order to make your feelings and health more manageable overall. It's worthwhile to always have a contingency plan in case your preferred stress relief is unavailable, and it can lighten your mental load so that you don't have to rely fully on one activity.

It's okay to step back from exercising. It's okay to take time off. When you're ready, you can always start up again.

Foodspiration - recipe ♡

Asian inspired zucchini noodles

Ingredients:

1 medium zhuccini (55kcal)

1 carrot (14kcal)

1 cucumber (30kcal)

3 tbsp teriyaki sauce (45kcal)

2 tsp white sesame + 1 tsp black sesame (51kcal)

Spicy paprika powder, salt, pepper, a little bit of very spicy sauce (I used habanero)

= 195kcal!

Preparing:

1. Make noodles from zucchini (just very long shreds using julienne peeler).

2. Grate/shred carrot & cucumber

3. Combine everything in a bowl. Enjoy!